System Culture Is The Clown Alter. :o)

catch me running to write and post several fics on ao3 knowing damn well so many of us are about to sit down and go so deep down our little niche fanfic rabbit holes without tiktok to waste time on

I got a pumpkin muffin, incidentally that's what the bitches call me because I'm such a fucking sweetie.

this year was just nto the year for love for us i dont think.

we started off by getting broken up with by our longterm (four year) partner

then ghosted by our other partner

then was pulled along by a friend who almost seemed to like us

and now weve been broken up with by our year long partner

im kind of just unfeeling about it now, like ive gone through so much outside the realm of love recently and this breakup is just sort of an addition to the growing pile of things i have to eventually deal with. it does help a bit that we have so many friends that we just didnt really talk to much anymore because we didnt see the need to. we saw our future in black and white. wed get through college, get married, move in together, and grow old. i didnt see the need to have any friends included in that outside of my partner’s friends. but now im kind of realizing that that was just the black and white thinking of my autism, i still am human, i still need friends, and now that im losing several because its very likely they wont talk to me anymore now that our fiancé broke it off, i need them more than ever. and so i messaged a few of my older ones, ones that i havent talked to in months, ones that before my fiancé i thought of as my closest most reliable friends and it really cheered me up. hearing them call me bestie and go crazy as i told them whats happened, about me graduating, about me getting a job, about me going to college, and about me getting my diagnosises. and it really made me realize that if someone isnt willing to put in effort to help a relationship grow properly then i shouldnt be expected to either. i guess my fiancé was right about that part, i did put a lot of effort into our relationship and they didnt. i wish they had so we couldve avoided this mess but truly im almost glad now because i would have missed out on realizing that so many people care about me and really would hate it if i just disappeared off the earth. like all these people would miss me so dearly and thats helping me really think through so many of my issues right not. a lot of my stress related to thinking i wasnt good enough or that i wasnt trying to be what they wanted me to be is just sort of gone because these people are my people and they know me for me. these people ive started talking to again have known me for almost as long as the system was known. and im glad to see that i dont have to hide certain parts of myself or pretend to be someone else around them. -sully

{disclaimer: if my ex sees this, this isnt meant as something negative towards you, you tried your hardest and well always love you for that, im sorry it came to this and we really would love to at elast still be friends. this post is just us having the realization that we arent alone and were allowed to have friends outside of you and your friends}

yo ok syscourse moment

you can be transfem in a female body and transmasc in a male body

fuck anybody that says different

Hito, just chilling, working our barista shift in his wig on Halloween: 🕺

Our Manager, dressed as Aizawa: What are you doing, problem child?

Hito: 🧍🏃🥲

guess who's celebrating october by writing a batfamily angst fic everyday

this guy 😎

ok ok so this might sound a bit gross so like if you arent prepared please keep scrolling

to my fellow gastroparesis havers, how do you manage the taste in your mouth? like the disgusting taste of rancid food thats sitting in your stomach? because thats all ive been tasting for days (and its definitely my fault cause i ate a whole bunch of ice cream and junk food) but i cant get it to go away at all and the last time this happened to this extent i ended up throwing it all up

so please give me tips if you have them

Friendly reminder with Moon Knight coming out tomorrow;

PEOPLE WITH D.I.D. ACTUALLY EXIST AND HAVE FEELINGS

While the cast have come forward to say they tried their best to portray this disorder, they still probably won’t get it completely. And that’s ok, because at least it’ll be better representation than anything else we’ve had (hopefully).

What won’t be ok is if any of you singlets out there start treating it like its not something that seriously affects a lot of people or if you start infantilizing one of the alters of the main character. There are so many of us systems out here who really want to enjoy this show but if a bunch of you non-systems decide to take this disorder and not do any proper research on it before talking about it you could be ruining so many of our experiences with this show. So please, just remember this show is portraying an actual disorder many people have and regardless of if you think you’re spreading good information or not always double check your facts with someone who actually has the disorder.

guys we’re. actually starting to ship steven and marc (in the show)

oops

this is all the introjects fault

The future should not be plural.

The future should accommodate for those with dissociative disorders.

The future should have further more thorough research in dissociative disorders.

The future should be more accepting of dissociative disorders.

BUT

The future should not be plural.

That means children are getting repeatedly traumatised at an impressionable age.

That means children don't have healthy coping mechanisms.

That means children AREN'T SAFE.

The future should not be plural, but it should be respectful and accepting to those who are.