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[cheerfully] i've been in self-made hells worse than this

lucrezia guides emilia's bloody hands under a faucet / water source and begins washing them clean.

the water was too warm. it made the blood feel thicker somehow —  less  like  something  to  be  washed  away  and  more  like  something  that  had  sunk  too  deep  to  ever  really  leave.

emilia  didn’t  speak.  her  eyes  remained  fixed  on  their  hands  beneath  the  faucet,  the  red  swirling  down  the  drain  in  ghostly  ribbons.  lucrezia’s  touch  was  steady,  reverent  even,  like  a  priestess  performing  a  ritual  rather  than  a  someone  scrubbing  sin  from  skin.  ❝ you don’t have to do this, ❞ emilia  murmured  finally,  her  voice  low,  almost  hoarse.  not  from  pain.  from  restraint.  ❝  I'm not some frightened girl in ⁿᵉᵉᵈ ᵒᶠ ᵃᵇˢᵒˡᵘᵗᶦᵒⁿ. ❞ but  she  didn’t  pull  away.  because  for  all  the  blood  she’d  spilled,  there  was  something  strangely  disarming  about  lucrezia’s  hands  —  so  calm,  so  sure,  as  if  she’d  done  this  before.  maybe  she  had.  maybe  that’s  why  emilia  stayed  still.  why  she  let  her.  because  only  someone  with  her  own  share  of ʀᴜɪɴ could  understand  what  it  meant  to  do  terrible  things  …  and  still  want  to  be  touched  gently  after. her  gaze  finally  lifted,  meeting  lucrezia’s  with  a  quiet  defiance  —  and  something  else  flickering  behind  it.  not  regret.  never  regret.  just  …  weight. ❝ are you always this gentle with ᴍᴏɴsᴛᴇʀs? ❞

— Nietzsche

Holy places are dark places […] Holy wisdom is not clear and thin like water, but thick and dark like blood.

C. S. Lewis, from ‘Till We Have Faces: A Myth Retold’

I am She, endowed with secrets of the holy […]

— FOUAD MOHAMMAD FOUAD ⚜️ My Voice: A Decade of Poems from the Poetry Translation Centre (Ed. Sarah Maguire), transl. by Samuel Wilder, (2014)

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the spirit is not willing and the flesh it is not so into the idea either

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