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Will destroying castle byers

ugh don't you guys hate when ur bff that your secretly in love with says it's not his fault you don't like girls during a big fight and you assume he is making a homophobic remark towards you (but you don't know he is deep in the closet dealing with insane amounts of internalized homophobia and is projecting his own fears onto you and doesn't actually know your gay), and his comment reminds you of the homophobic things your asshole father used to say to you, and you actually felt safe and understood with your bff, so him saying that hurts so fucking much and you feel so “STUPID” because you thought maybe he might have feelings for you too, after he has given you multiple signs over several years that he does, but now you think he could never have feelings for you after he makes that comment during your big fight and kind of damages your close bond, so you rip up a picture of you and him from halloween the previous year when you dressed as ghostbusters and said you would go "crazy together" while sobbing in the pouring rain and destroy the one place you felt safe in since you were a kid, with a baseball bat which is a symbol of your internalized homophobia because your homophobic father used to try to 'turn you straight' by trying to force you to like normal things like baseball, and this wooden structure your very nice older brother helped you build after your father left your family, and is the only place you felt like you could be yourself in where you hung your pride symbol (that may or may not be one of your drawings or a homemade flag because your family doesn't have a lot of money to buy things and you live in a small conservative town in the 80's so where would you buy a pride flag without being hate crimed and the internet doesn't exist yet so you can't just order one online), while you also wear socks with a subtle rainbow on them, and a striped t-shirt that also slightly resembles a rainbow.

I think this is one of the most heartbreaking scenes in all of stranger things, and probably ever written. It's one of my favs.

the details>>>>>>> I can't. I'm crying.

Fantasy Guide to Building A Culture

Culture is defined by a collection of morals, ethics, traditions, customs and behaviours shared by a group of people.

Hierarchy and Social Structures

Within every culture, there is a hierarchy. Hierarchies are an important part of any culture, usually do ingrained that one within the culture wouldn't even question it. Hierarchy can be established either by age, gender or wealth and could even determine roles within their society. Sometimes hierarchy can may be oppressive and rigid whilst other times, ranks can intermingle without trouble. You should consider how these different ranks interact with one another and whether there are any special gestures or acts of deference one must pay to those higher than them. For example, the Khasi people of Meghalaya (Northern India), are strictly matriarchal. Women run the households, inheritance runs through the female line, and the men of the culture typically defer to their mothers and wives. Here are a few questions to consider:

How is a leader determined within the culture as a whole and the family unit?

Is the culture matriarchal? Patriarchal? Or does gender even matter?

How would one recognise the different ranks?

How would one act around somebody higher ranking? How would somebody he expected to act around somebody lower ranking?

Can one move socially? If not, why? If so, how?

Traditions and Customs

Traditions are a staple in any culture. These can be gestures or living life a certain way or to the way a certain person should look. Traditions are a personal detail to culture, they are what make it important. Tradition can dictate how one should keep their home, run their family, take care of their appearance, act in public and even determine relationship. Tradition can also be a double edged sword. Traditions can also be restrictive and allow a culture to push away a former member if they do not adhere to them, eg Traditional expectations of chastity led to thousands of Irish women being imprisoned at the Magdelene Laundries. Customs could be anything from how one treats another, to how they greet someone.

How important is tradition?

What are some rituals your culture undertakes?

What are some traditional values in your world? Does it effect daily life?

Are there any traditions that determine one's status?

Values and Opinions

Values and Opinions are the bread and butter of any culture. This is the way your culture sees the world and how they approach different life hurdles. These may differ with other cultures and be considered odd to outsiders, what one culture may value another may not and what opinion another holds, one may not. There will be historical and traditional reasons to why these values and opinions are held. Cultures usually have a paragon to which they hold their members to, a list of characteristics that they expect one to if not adhere to then aspire to. The Yoruba people value honesty, hard work, courage and integrity. Here are some questions to consider?

How important are these ethics and core values? Could somebody be ostracised for not living up to them?

What are some morals that clash with other cultures?

What does your culture precieved to be right? Or wrong?

What are some opinions that are considered to be taboo in your culture? Why?

Dress Code

For many cultures, the way somebody dresses can be important. History and ethics can effect how one is meant to be dressed such as an expectation of chastity, can impose strict modesty. While other cultures, put more importance on details, the different sorts of clothes worn and when or what colour one might wear. The Palestinian people (من النهر إلى البحر ، قد يكونون أحرارا) denoted different family ties, marriage status and wealth by the embroidery and detailing on their thoub.

Are there traditional clothes for your world? Are they something somebody wears on a daily basis or just on occasion?

Are there any rules around what people can wear?

What would be considered formal dress? Casual dress?

What would happen if somebody wore the wrong clothes to an event?

Language

Language can also be ingrained as part of a Culture. It can be a specific way one speaks or a an entirely different language. For example, in the Southern States of America, one can engage in a sort of double talk, saying something that sounds sweet whilst delivering something pointed. Bless their heart. I have a post on creating your own language here.

Arts, Music and Craft

Many cultures are known for different styles of dance, their artwork and crafts. Art is a great part of culture, a way for people to express themselves and their culture in art form. Dance can be an integral part of culture, such as céilí dance in Ireland or the Polka in the Czech Republic. Handicrafts could also be important in culture, such as knitting in Scottish culture and Hebron glass in Palestine. Music is also close to culture, from traditional kinds of singing such as the White Voice in Ukraine and the playing of certain instruments such as the mvet.

Food and Diet

The way a culture prepares or intakes or treats certain foods are important to a culture. In some cultures, there is a diet yo adhere to, certain foods are completely banned. With Jewish culture, pork is prohibited along with fish such as sturgeon, along with shellfish and certain fowl. Meat must also be prepared in a certain way and animal byproducts such as dairy, must never be created or even eaten around this meat. This is known as kosher. The way one consumes food is also important to culture. In some cultures, only certain people may eat together. Some cultures place important on how food is eaten. In Nigerian culture, the oldest guests are served first usually the men before the women. In Japanese culture, one must say 'itadakimasu' (I recieve) before eating. Culture may also include fasting, periods of time one doesn't intake food for a specific reason.

What are some traditional dishes in your world?

What would be a basic diet for the common man?

What's considered a delicacy?

Is there a societal difference in diet? What are the factors that effect diet between classes?

Is there any influence from other cuisines? If not, why not? If so, to what extent?

What would a typical breakfast contain?

What meals are served during the day?

What's considered a comfort food or drink?

Are there any restrictions on who can eat what or when?

Are there any banned foods?

What stance does your world take on alcohol? Is it legal? Can anybody consume it?

Are there any dining customs? Are traditions?

Is there a difference in formal meals or casual meals? If so, what's involved?

Are there any gestures or actions unacceptable at the dinner table?

How are guests treated at meals? If they are given deference, how so?

If I wanted to read something that read like tropey fanfiction then I would just.. read tropey fanfiction... for free. I'm not an affluent white women who can waste money on bad books if I buy a book I want it to be good or at least enjoyable.

rereading my own writing is just a constant fluctuation between "damn, girl, you wrote this? (affectionate)" and "damn, girl, you wrote this? (derogatory)"

SELF DISCIPLINE WHILE MANIFESTING

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Ive noticed that a lot of people on here do not have self discipline and that is why they fail. I also did not have self discipline and that is why i was frustrated all the time.

Here is the cycle that i went through:

I wanted something, so i declared that i had it. I felt like i had it. And i was finally in the sabbath. I knew it was mine no matter what. Then after a few days id go on tumblr and read every post and ask, then id read neville. I doubted myself. After successfully reaching the sabbath id start to doubt myself again. “Am i doing something wrong?” “Am i even in the sabbath” “do i truly know?”

but if i had simply persisted i would have gotten my desire. I realized this and changed my ways and soon enough i got what i wanted.

Here are some things that you may be doing that you should probably stop.

1. Over consuming info the moment you get doubts

2. “Restarting” every single day

3. Feeling like you are doing something wrong

4. Complaining after a couple days of not seeing it

Here is what you should do.

The MOMENT you get a doubt or you get impatient you shut yourself up and remind yourself you have it. Manifesting is literally just reminding yourself that you have what you want. Do not give up. Fucking delete tumblr if you feel like you have to. If you have self control then you dont have to. Write down your doubts to get them out of your head OR simply just dont acknowledge them. DISCIPLINE YOURSELF GOD DAMMIT. STOP OVER CONSUMING WHEN YOU GET DOUBTS. STOP REREADING THE SAME POST OVER AND IVER. PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER. YOU KNOW THE ANSWERS!!! YOU FUCKING KNOW THE ANSWERS DONT LIE TO ME. be doers of the world not hearers. STOP RUNNING TO BLOGS EVERYTIME U GET A DOUBT YOU LITERALLY KNOW THE ANSWER TO EVERY QUESTION.

I want you to get a notebook RIGHT NOW. Well call it ur answer book. Every-time u feel the need to run to a blog and ask smth WRITE THAT QUESTION DOWN AND ANSWER IT YOURSELF. YOU KNOW THE ANSWERS BRUH.

’𝐻𝑜𝑚𝑒 𝑠𝑤𝑒𝑒𝑡 ℎ𝑜𝑚𝑒’𝑃𝑜𝑠𝑖𝑡𝑖𝑣𝑒 ℎ𝑜𝑚𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑓𝑒 𝑎𝑓𝑓𝑖𝑟𝑚𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠

ఌ my home life is surrounded with positivity and loving support

ఌ my home life is always so peaceful and serene

ఌ positivity and happiness flows throughout my house 24/7

ఌ all my family members are kind and caring

ఌ my family accepts and loves me for who i am

ఌ i am happy that i have a close and loving relationship with all members of my family

ఌ its weird my family is always in a good mood 24/7

ఌ my family always shows appreciation and love towards my presence in their lifws

ఌ i love my parents respect my personal space

ఌ it makes me smile how my family supports every one of my choices and decisions

ఌ everyone around me is so supportive

ఌ i love how i live with my family in such peace and harmony

ఌ i am living my ideal family life

ఌ i have an amazing and fulfilling family life

ఌ living with my family is so peaceful

ఌ i feel safe and secure around my family

ఌ i feel protected and comfortable within my household

ఌ i only attract positive circumstances and situations

ఌ i am free from physical, mental, and verbal abuse

ఌ i am immune to ever getting in an argument with my family ever again

ఌ all my family members are free from smoking, drug, and alcohol addictions

ఌ my family is free from all worries and stress

ఌ my family are all happy and healthy

ఌ all my family members are free from all mental and physical illnesses

ఌ i always get along well with my family

ఌ i have always been close with family

ఌ i have healthy relationship with both of my parents

ఌ my family let’s me date and be friends with anyone i desire

ఌ all past family conflicts have been resolved

ఌ my family always does what’s best for me

Resources For Describing Emotion

Emotions

Without Making Your Character Feel Too Self Aware

Showing Emotion Without Telling About It

Emotions Associated With Body Language

Telling Readers What The Character Doesn’t Want To Show

Hiding Emotions

Expressing Cardinal Emotions: Masculine vs. Feminine

Writing Extreme Emotion Without Melodrama

Specific Emotions

Conveying Shock

Conveying Embarrassment

Conveying Disappointment

Conveying Love/Attraction

Conveying Annoyance

Conveying Relief

Conveying Uncertainty

Conveying Impatience

Conveying Shame

Conveying Resentment

Conveying Panic

Conveying Guilt

Conveying Desperation

Conveying Sarcasm & Verbal Disrespect

Conveying Confusion

Conveying Stubbornness

Conveying Frustration

Conveying Indifference

Conveying Indignation

Conveying Confidence & Pride

Conveying Smugness

Conveying Enthusiasm

Conveying Curiosity

Conveying Hopefulness

Conveying Unease

Conveying Reluctance

Conveying Worry

Conveying Humility & Meekness

Conveying Happiness & Joy

Conveying Amusement

Conveying Disgust

Conveying Resignation

Conveying Jealousy

Conveying Anticipation

Conveying Contentment

Conveying Defeat

Conveying Excitement

Conveying Fear

Conveying Hatred

Conveying Hurt

Conveying Being Overwhelmed

Conveying Sadness & Grief

Conveying Satisfaction

Conveying Somberness

Conveying Sympathy & Empathy

Conveying Wariness

Conveying Defensiveness

Conveying Desire

Conveying Doubt

Conveying Energy

Conveying Exhaustion

Conveying Hunger

Conveying Loneliness

Conveying Physical Pain

Emotional Wounds

A Role Model Who Disappoints

A Sibling’s Betrayal

A Speech Impediment

Becoming a Caregiver at an Early Age

Being Bullied

Being Fired or Laid Off

Being Held Captive

Being Mugged

Being Publicly Humiliated

Being Raised by Neglectful Parents

Being Raised by Overprotective Parents

Being So Beautiful It’s All People See

Being the Victim of a Vicious Rumor

Being Stalked

Being Trapped in a Collapsed Building

Being Unfairly Blamed For The Death of Another

Childhood Sexual Abuse (by a family member or known person)

Discovering One’s Parent is a Monster

Discovering One’s Sibling was Abused

Experiencing a Miscarriage or Stillbirth

Failing At School

Failing To Do The Right Thing

Financial Ruin Due To A Spouse’s Irresponsibility

Finding Out One’s Child Was Abused

Finding Out One Was Adopted

Getting Lost In a Natural Environment

Growing Up In A Cult

Growing Up in a Dangerous Neighborhood

Growing Up In Foster Care

Growing Up In The Public Eye

Growing Up In The Shadow of a Successful Sibling

Growing Up with a Sibling Who Has a Chronic Disability or Illness

Having Parents Who Favored One Child Over Another

Having To Kill Another Person To Survive

Infertility

Infidelity (emotional or physical)

Losing a Limb

Losing a Loved One To A Random Act of Violence

Making a Very Public Mistake

Overly Critical or Strict Parents

Physical Disfigurement

Rejection By One’s Peers

Telling The Truth But Not Being Believed

The Death of a Child On One’s Watch

Victimization via Identity Theft

Watching A Loved One Die

Wrongful Imprisonment

Spending Time In Jail

Suffering From a Learning Disability

Motivation

Achieving Spiritual Enlightenment

Avoiding Certain Death

Avoiding Financial Ruin

Beating a Diagnosis or Condition

Being Acknowledged and Appreciated by Family

Being a Leader of Others

Being the Best At Something

Caring for an Aging Parent

Carrying on a Legacy

Catching The Bad Guy or Girl

Coming To Grips With Mental Illness

Discovering One’s True Self

Escaping a Dangerous Life one Doesn’t Want

Escaping a Killer

Escaping a Widespread Disaster

Escaping Confinement

Escaping Homelessness

Escaping Invaders

Finding Friendship or Companionship

Finding a Lifelong Partner

Having a Child

Helping a Loved One See They Are Hurting Themselves and Others

Obtaining Shelter From The Elements

Overcoming Abuse and Learning To Trust

Overcoming Addiction

Protecting One’s Home or Property

Pursuing Justice For Oneself or Others

Realizing a Dream

Reconciling with an Estranged Family Member

Rescuing a Loved One From a Captor

Restoring A Name or Reputation

Righting a Deep Wrong

Seeking Out One’s Biological Roots

Stopping an Event From Happening

Trying Again When One Has Previously Failed

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m*leven vs byler parallels

Caring, letters, truth and superheroes:

Mike tells Will he exchanges letters with El cause she’s his gf. Later mike throws El’s letter (about becoming a “superhero”) in the trash. Then Mike explains to Will, that he had a fight with El (and he probably can’t mend his romantic relationship with her). 

during that prior fight: Mike says he “ cares” for El. And El responds that he “CARES” but doesn’t love her- and can’t even say it out loud to her or in his letters . Instead his letters say “from mike” . Even the flowers he got her had a card that says “from mike”. Mike then tries changing the subject (of him not loving her) by saying El is important to him and  a “superhero”. El then says “not anymore” to mike’s offiscation.  El later sends Mike the letter about re-becoming a “superhero” (she signs the letter “from el”- probably symbolically showing their relationship is probably over). Which is why mike then throws the superhero letter into the trash.

Mike wonders why he couldn’t say he loved El to her face (before she left). Will says to Mike it’s hard to “say how you really feel” about  people you “CARE” about because they may not like  the “TRUTH”. On one hand it could reflect Will’s fear. But it also reflects Mike’s fear of admitting to El he doesn’t romantically love her-because It’s something she wouldn’t like.

After mike threw out el’s letter , Mike states the “TRUTH” is he misses Will and was worrying too much about El.

Brenner later tells EL “superheroes’ are stuff of fairytales and the “TRUTH” is not that simple, and she cannot hide from the “truth” any longer (even if it freightens her). Aka - (symboliically) the “truth” El doesn’t want to face is that Mike doesn’t “love” her romantically and her trying to become a “superhero” again won’t change that “truth”. which was earlier  illustrated by Mike throwing out her “superhero” letter . In s3 -4: we see mike/EL dating eachother but both are called out for lying to one another (their whole romance is the antithesis of “truth”-but instead lies.)

lumax and byler

Will asks if mike is angry at him, cause he stopped “talking” to him. Then Will mentions how mike and El share letters (and mike barely talks to him). But Lucas says he’d rather “talk” to Max and doesn’t want a letter (paralleling how Mike threw El’s letter away so he could “talk” to Will). Mike literally throws the letter in the trash like a basketball (to parallel lucas further).

 Both pairings had a falling out between seasons. lucas says to max “it’s like you’re not even here anymore”. And Mike says “I don’t know maybe I feel I lost you”. Max/Will take the blame for the fallingout. But Lucas/mike correct them and take responsibility.

After this Lucas says  he didn’t loose Max ,but he just wasn’t using his eyes to see what was infront of him. dustin: the world is full of the most obvious things that no one by anychance ever observes. Lucas to max : “But i SEE YOU NOW” .  cough oh look at byler staring at eachother.

Not to mention Will getting the courage to eventually show the painting to mike… is almost a loose parallel to the letters. So for byler the painting may spur a “talk” about the “truth” of their feelings. A piece of paper can only mean so much. But if the painting said “love Will” that would be a nice touch too.

It seems like mike and Will are almost contrasting. Mike can’t say he loves El even in letters. And Will seems like he’s about to confess any minute to mike (and his painting may symbolize his romantic love for mike).

Also another very obvious byler hint:

They fight in an arcade (cough a place they used to hangout together). Will says “what about us?” Which initially alarms Mike. Then when Will brings up how they haven’t been talking ,but mike sends el letters . Mike uses the excuse that she’s his girlfriend. And again Will says “and us?” . And mike quickly states they’re “friends”. Will is this close to calling out their relationship. I swear. And Mike protested too much. XD

Also don’t get me started on how robin mentions a movie (dr zhigiago) and says its about “doomed love” - and then we see the m*leven fight. The film has a subplot about 2 siblings having the same love interest. Heck Yuri even yells about his brother taking his wife. Like ok. Suspish. And no I don’t think the “doomed love ” is the queer ship -like it usually is.

why? well robin mentions vickie and not being able to confess. Then right after robin shows the “doomed love” video to Steve. But Steve said earlier to robin. She doesn’t have to worry about confessing to Vickie cause she’s clearly queer like robin. So does Will have nothing to worry about cause mike’s also lgbt?hmm

My opinion:

Mike is still processing his complex feelings but … my oblivious son will eventually get there eventually. Honestly wouldn’t surprise me if Will confessing to mike is what makes mike finally realize his feelings for Will.

also “cool” parallel.