Reblog To Add +10 Haunting Power To Your Ghost When You Die

Everyone told me testosterone would make me angrier. My family has a habit of attributing any anger I feel these days to the testosterone. I didn't feel any angrier, but my mother would still tell me that no, I am angrier now, and testosterone did make me angrier and *she* could tell.

A week or two ago, I got my proof to the contrary. I'd been having a difficult day, woke up late, and had to rush out the door, ran into minor inconvenience after minor inconvenience, and then the straw broke the camel's back.

I wrote out the kind of angry vindictive seething text message I used to write constantly. I didn't send it, of course, I copied it out and pasted it in the folder of my notes where I put all my rage venting.

And then I thought.

Huh, it's been a little while since I did that. And I checked the time and dates on my previous notes. The last one was a few days before I started testosterone.

And scrolling back, I noticed that they were *constant* at least one a week for *years* I used to get so angry that I would get the serious urge to say cruel hurtful things to or about people I cared about on a near-daily basis. I didn't realize how big of a problem it was until all of a sudden I hadn't gotten that angry in Eleven Months. Nearly a YEAR.

And then I realized in my rush to get out the door in the morning, I hadn't taken my T shot. My testosterone was the lowest it's been since August.

All of a sudden, I had demonstrable proof that testosterone really did make me less angry. That all that "you may not think you're any angrier but you are" was bullshit.

I feel like I should be angrier about this than I am. I know how angry I used to get. About everything. I just felt it again for the first time in a while. For once, it would feel justified to be that angry. But I'm not. I'm not mad. I'm just... disappointed, I guess.

notes and breakdown of a design for a royal advisor shang qinghua

Seriously considering doing redraws of legendary duck vs ironclad butthole but as svsss

nobody has any idea on how many times I have used nonetheless in anything and that fact both fascinates and intrigues me

Nonetheless thank you for your opinions

i hate the word nonetheless

like

what are you even doing

youre just three words stacked in a trench coat

you can live just fine as 'none the less'

grow up smh

Twins Shen Jiu and Shen Yuan except that Shen Yuan “accidentally” eats a plant that causes his body to age 20 years over night so now Shen Jiu has Shen Yuan pretending to be his and Yue Qi’ dad as they run away from the slavers and start a new life in a quaint little town 3 hours away from Cang Qiong mountain sect.

A short explanation of my layer by layer drawing of Central/Eastern Ukrainian folk attire, for anyone who might be interested.

In a reverse AU, original flavor Shang Qinghua wrote a critically acclaimed novel “pathetic immortal divine way” with protagonist Shen Yuan who tripped and fell into power and a massive harem as a satirical examination of agency in women in xianxia by putting the same guileless naivety in a ML.

Loser troll/antifan Luo Bingge has dedicated his sad, unfulfilled existence to complaining it wasn’t nearly horny enough and the author focused too much on world building.

Disciple Shen Yuan tries to show Shen Qingqiu the "infinite chocolate bar hack" and it's somehow the angriest Shen Qingqiu has ever been at him. Of all the inane bullshit this child comes up with, this is inexplicably the straw to make him the most rapidly, most incandescently furious.

Shen Yuan has to stay with Yue Qingyuan on Qiong Ding Peak for like a week until Shen Qingqiu calms down.

To suffer is to progress

I know that this is normal but why have we normalized pain? Why has evolution made pain in such a useless way? If we will not remember the pain in our youth, why must we suffer through it?

I wish to stay by your side forever to comfort you, but I must run away because your screams of agony are simply too much for me to bear.

I fashioned a ring of stars, but when I placed it upon you, it was a crown. Now, you have grown up, and it is once more a ring again.

For now, you are smaller than the rest of your kind, but you will grow to be happy and healthy and safe. I will guarantee it.

These lines will not reach you, nor will you ever find out about them, but here I stand, saying them anyway. One day I may look upon this, and laugh at my silly, foolish self for even thinking to say these words, but for now, I gaze at these letters with fondness.

AU where instead of transmigrating into Shen Jiu's body, Shen Yuan himself (w/ the same body and soul and modern clothing) was transported into a peak meeting. Everyone is confused at this Shen Jiu-look-alike in strange clothing, using strange words, and an absurdly short hair cut.

Even better (or worse if you're asking Shen Yuan), Shen Yuan is dressed in his hospital garbs, is just a few hours out of his latest surgery, and still is feeling the effects of the anesthesia.

Cang Qiong has many back to back heart attacks as a result of all of the above.