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Hawks: the Good, the Bad, and the In-between on AO3

It was raining. His wings throbbed with every drop of water that fell from the sky and the fresh wounds on his back burned. The commission was not pleased with his performance. 

Keigo curled up next to a dumpster in an alley that looked too familiar, the smelly object almost protecting him from some of the rain. Curling his wings around myself Keigo wished, not for the first time, that he could have been normal. His scent, god his scent, that of a distressed omega, clouded the air around him.

Keigo detected the slow incline of the self-deprecating thoughts invading his mind: pest, not good enough, bad bird, stupid, useless, just a slut…

Bad

So bad

Bad bad bad bad bad BAD

Keigo wailed out for the whole world to hear as the words pounded in his head and rattled around in his skull. He's sorry, he's sorry, he's sorry, he's SORRY. When Keigo opened his eyes (when did Keigo close them?) he saw the vague outline of two people. He took a breath in, and smelled two alphas, two angry alphas.

Keigo whined, a high pitched disgusting sound that vibrated the air in the alley. The alphas in front of him backed up, and another person walked up. This person turned to the Alphas and made them disappear. 

Kegio couldn't focus, where did they go?

The person walked up to him, and he backed up farther into the corner of the alley (when did he get here?). The person, beta, Keigo categorized, smelled like sage and copper. She walked up into Keigo's line of vision, limited as it was. She had blond hair and yellow eyes. Her eyes were kind (and familiar, why were they familiar?). She smiled, fangs shining in the dim light of the nearest street lamp. "Hey birdie, I love your blood, but it'll get all washed away out here in the rain. Would you like to come inside?"

Keigo whined again, and the girl, (Toga? Was it Toga?) smiled. Keigo nodded, despite a voice (whose voice?) in his head telling him not to trust this girl. The girl grabbed his hand and urged him towards a door (where did this door come from? What was happening?). He entered, the girl just a step behind him. The room was empty, (it shouldn't be empty), and she tugged him towards a second door.

It opened to reveal a bathroom, and for the first time in what felt like days, Keigo saw his reflection. He took a step back in shock. He truly was an ugly omega. 

The voices in his head shouted it and he took in every detail. The large bags under his eyes, pale skin, protruding cheekbones and collar bone where it peeked through his too large coat. It used to fit him (did it?) and now it hung on his too skinny frame. His wings hung limp behind him, coveted on dirt, and grime, and in desperate need of grooming. Keigo whined again, (God, did he have to act so pathetically) and the girl, Toga? tugged him to the shower, where he stood stoic and she assisted him.

She helped him remove his jacket, and he was numb to the searing pain it inflicted on his shredded wings. He was obvious to the hiss that the girl released when she saw his back. He was mere skin and bones, ribs protruding and belly sunken, and his back was torn to shreds from his handlers favorite whip. He couldn't remember why he looked like this, or why he was punished. Was it his fault, (maybe it was). Then his pants were removed, his thigs similarly torn as his back, leaving him in his boxers and undershirt.

"Bridie, look at me." He looked at the girl, her calm scent helping him relax despite his appearance (he was nothing without his looks, just another desperate wannabe hero slut). "You need to get undressed, and take a shower, do you understand?" She was stressed, he could smell it. He nodded, he could take a shower for her, (how did he do that again?). She grinned, and said "Good birdie," and left the bathroom, shutting the door behind her.

Keigo wasn't good though. He knew that, why would he have been punished if he wasn't good? He stumbled back, crying out when his back met the shower was. He covered his mouth with his hand (where did his gloves go? They're going to see his talons!) to muffle the sound of his cries. The smell of distressed omega suffocated the small bathroom, and he slid down, keeping his cries at bay at the pain.

Keigo took a moment, then broke down into sobs. His wings curled around himself, shielding him from the world, broken as they were.

Useless 

Pathetic omega

Slut

Whore

Ugly

Stupid

Disgusting

Keigo let himself break, oblivious to the people right outside the door. 

The way Merlin talked Arthur out of marrying all the girls he was supposed to marry except for Gwen. And I believe that if Merlin had wanted to, he would have talked Arthur out of marrying Gwen as well. In season 4, where Mithian appeared, Merlin was so clearly jealous (I don’t buy the whole: "he wanted Arthur to marry Gwen, so he acted like that" thing). It seems to me that Merlin was deceiving his own feelings. Everyone was keep telling him how much he meant to Arthur, and he was like, “No, that can't be,” like he didn't want to open that door.

㋡🥀

Chishiya in season 1 had everything planned out to every possible detail.

Meanwhile, Chishiya in season 2:

Mf ain't even hiding it that he lost control of his life and can't be bothered to deal with it

I wished I lived somewhere with pretty birds....

Long-tailed tit/stjärtmes. Värmland, Sweden (February 15, 2016).

Adora: My head hurts.

Catra: That’s your brain trying to comprehend its own stupidity.

I’m rewatching Merlin and my friend has never seen it before so I’m making him watch too so he’ll actually know what I’m talking about next time I’m ranting about it.

His reaction to Merlin and Arthur meeting has me wheezing:

“There you have it, the true evil of magic himself: Verbally edging the repressed Prince into a gay panic.”

Arthur: Marry me.

Merlin: …is that a question? Or do I just show up to the wedding?

some words for worldbuilding (pt. 1)

Air

billow, breath, bubble, draft, effervescence, fumes, puff, vapor

Arena

aquarium, bazaar, coliseum, field, hall, mecca, stage

Building

abbey, architecture, armory, asylum, bakery, bar, booth, cathedral, club, construction, court, department store, dock, edifice, emergency room, factory, food court, fort/fortress, framework, garrison, greasy spoon, hacienda, hangout, headquarters, hotel, inn, institute/institution, jetty, laboratory, mansion, mental hospital, monastery, mosque, museum, nursing home, office, pavilion, penitentiary, plant, prison, rampart, repository, ruins, sanctuary, shrine, skyscraper, stockade, storeroom, structure, temple, theater/theatre, treasury, warehouse, wharf

City

capital, metropolis, town, village

Furniture

altar, banister, bench, booth, bunk, cabinet, chair, couch, crib, davenport, dresser, furnishings, futon, jetty, lectern, partition, perch, platform, pulpit, rail/railing, screen, secretary, stand, wardrobe

Geographic division

area, county, desert, dynasty, kingdom, outskirts, quarter, sector, suburb, territory, tract, zone

Habitat

abode, ecosystem, environmentalist, habitat/habitation, harbor, home, land, nest, paradise, premises, refuge, settlement, tent

Habitat, human: accommodations, apartment, barracks, cabin, castle, condominium, convent, domesticity, dungeon, element, encampment, estate, grange, hacienda, home, house, housing, hut, jail, lodging, madhouse, monastery, neighborhood, old country, palace, prison, reservation, resort, sanctuary, shanty, suite, vacancy, villa

Habitat, rural: barn, burrow, conservatory, desert, farm, forest, grange, jungle, sanctuary, wilderness/wilds, wood/woods

Land

abyss, avalanche, bank, bay, bed, bluff, campus, cape, cavern, cliff, compost, cove, crevice/crevasse, dirt, downgrade, dune, elevation, estuary, expanse, field, fossil, garden, glacier, gorge, green, ground, gulf, harbor, hillock, inlet, knoll, landscape, lawn, lot, marshy, menagerie, mine, moat, mound, mountainous, nature, outlook, park, patio, pit, plateau, plaza, porch, prairie, projection, property, quagmire, ravine, ridge, savanna, shelf, soil, stack, table, trench, tundra, valley, well, wood/woods, yard

Nation

country, home, land, nationality, soil, state

Personal item

adornment, amulet, beads, best-seller, briefcase, cache, cargo, charm, contraceptive, disguise, effects, equipment, favorite, gem, glasses, handbag, jewelry, knickknack, luggage, marionette, memorabilia, necklace, novelty, object d’art, odds-on-favorite, paraphernalia, pledge, possession, pride, puppet, purse, resources, ring, souvenir, stuff, supplies, sustenance, thing/things, trappings, trifle, valuable

Planet

cosmos, Earth, galaxy, moon, planet, sphere, world

Region

capital, commonwealth, quarter, region, settlement, suburb

Room

alcove, attic, bath, bedroom, boutique, cellar, den, enclosure, foyer, gin mill, hall, lavatory, loft, outhouse, parlor, restaurant, saloon, shop, stage, store, tenement, theater/theatre, vestibule

Shape

angular, beaten, billowy, checkered, concave, conical/conic, crescent, curly, deformed, elliptical, flat, gnarled, kinky, misshapen, obtuse, round, shapeless, spiral, straight

Vehicle

camper, conveyance, motorcade, transport

Vehicle, air: aircraft, armada, blimp, dirigible, helicopter, shuttle, UFO

Vehicle, land: ambulance, bicycle, car, cherry-picker, dolly, excavator, model, traffic, truck

Vehicle, water: armada, boat, craft, fleet, sailboat, yacht

Water

abyss, aqueduct, basin, beach, blackball, brook, cape, channel, condensation, creek, deep, estuary, fountain, gulf, heading, inlet, lake, oasis, pond, promontory, reservoir, sea, spray, strait, tide, wash, wave, whirlpool

NOTE

The above are concepts classified according to subject and usage. It not only helps writers and thinkers to organize their ideas but leads them from those very ideas to the words that can best express them.

It was, in part, created to turn an idea into a specific word. By linking together the main entries that share similar concepts, the index makes possible creative semantic connections between words in our language, stimulating thought and broadening vocabulary.

Source ⚜ Writing Basics & Refreshers ⚜ On Vocabulary

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