You Can Now Read It Here! You Caught Me On A Very Motivated Day  Ngl

I forgot to add it but here it is :)

heyy can i get some clingy shuichi hcs or just fluff in general anything shuichi i will consume

Of course!! I love our clingy detective!

TW Saeyoung walking in on you c//ting

~Post type: Short story~

Author’s Note: Please be safe, this story includes mentions of Self Harm, blood and possible depression.

Please do not read if any of those topics are upsetting or triggering <3

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You promised yourself you wouldn't do this anymore

You promised. But yet, you couldn't stop yourself. One moment you were brushing your teeth and getting ready for bed and the next you were reaching into the all too familiar tin in the back of the bathroom cabinet. You stopped yourself for a second; what would you say if anyone saw you right now? They'd probably ask you why. 

Why? You didn't know. It was just.. Something you did sometimes. You just needed the slicing pain to know you could still feel pain. Almost as if you needed to remember there wasn't just happiness in life. But no, that wasn't it. It was because you felt deep down that you didn't deserve the happiness. You took out one of the thin razor blades and placed it against your thigh, just high enough to be unnoticeable unless you were naked. You took a deep breath, closed your eyes and sliced. You hissed and went in again, slightly higher this time. Two was enough, you told yourself. You rinsed the blade and placed it back in the tin, tucking it away back in the cabinet. Just as you were grabbing a cloth to clean up the thin lines, now with beads of blood popping up and trailing down, you heard a knock at the door. "Honey, you've been in there for a while," You heard Saeyoung say through the bathroom door. "Are you getting dressed all nice just to sleep? Or did you have something else in mind?" He was teasing. "Oh, um no I-I'm okay. I'm just... Cleaning up." You stammered, trying to stop the bleeding, but the beads kept returning. "...I'm going to come in, is that okay?" He said, a serious tone in his voice. "Um, just-" You tried to say, holding the cloth under cold water, trying to wash off the blood and use the cold to stop the bleeding. You looked over at the door, noticing you forgot to lock it. Just as you were about to reach for the knob, the door slowly swung open. Guiltily, you pulled up your pajama bottoms and held the cloth behind your back. "Hi." You said, cheeks flushed and hands behind your back. You were sure you looked guilty, but you still tried to act normal. "Honey, what happened? Are you okay?" He said, cupping a warm hand against your cheek. "Um I..." You started. He kissed your forehead, and seemed to spot the cloth behind your back. "MC," He said, gently reaching for the cloth. He rarely ever called you by your name, only reserved for serious conversations. You didn't fight him, and handed it over. "What happened?" He was calm, but you could tell in his eyes that he was worried. "I... I'm sorry." Was all you could muster. You started tearing up. "I'm so sorry, Sae." "Hey. Come here." He wrapped you in a hug. You laid your head on his chest and could hear his heart drumming away in his chest while his shirt was getting more and more wet with your tears. He tossed the cloth in the sink and held you, both tightly and gently. "I'm sorry. I wasn't going to do it, but it was habit, and- And I just wasn't strong enough not to. I'm so sorry." You sobbed, grabbing the back of his shirt. He could figure it out from your ramblings what had happened. "It's okay honey, you're okay." He stroked your hair, and slightly rocked side to side, holding you close. "Do you need to be cleaned up?" "I don't know, that's what I was doing when you came in but..." You said, sniffling and trying to calm down. "Okay, hold on for a second," He bent down, and lifted you up, placing you gently on the small counter behind you. He placed a soft kiss on your lips, and tucked your hair behind your ear. "While I clean you up can we talk for a bit?" He talked quietly. "Yeah." You said, taking a deep breath. "Okay, where is it?" You wiggled your bottoms down, so he could see the- still bleeding- cuts. You turned away, ashamed at the wounds. "So," He started, grabbing the cloth and wringing it out so it was only damp. "What happened, My Love?" "I just felt a random urge and I figured I'd done it before without getting caught... I told myself just this once and then never again." You said, turning your head to look at him. He gently wiped the cuts and the blood around them. "Tell me if I'm hurting you, okay?" He said, rinsing the cloth and wiping your legs again. "Okay...” He nodded, urging you to continue.

“Anyways, I figured I needed to." You closed your eyes, not able to meet his. "You needed to? Why did you need to, baby?" "I needed to remind myself that there's more than just happiness in life." You felt ashamed to admit it, feeling your eyes filling again. "Can you look at me for a second?" He said, placing the cloth over both wounds and pressing it firmly. You opened your eyes, and tried to blink away your tears. "You're right. There are things other than happiness and love in life." He smiled, bitter-sweetly. "But that doesn't mean you have to feel all of it. I told you before and I'll say it again, I don't ever want to let you be in pain. Especially not because of me. When we first met, you told me that you wouldn't be in danger because of me. Do you remember that?" You nodded. "So, I don't want you to feel like the love that I give you needs to be evened out with pain, okay?" He kissed your cheek and wiped your tears. "Okay." He picked the cloth up off of your leg and grabbed bandages from the cabinet. You spotted the tin at the same time he did. You looked away in shame. You heard the rattling of the tin and the small bandage box. You looked back at him, his hands holding only the bandage box. He carefully unwrapped a few and gently placed hem on your leg. You noticed his tongue poking out of the corner of his mouth, as he always does when he's focusing. After he placed the bandages, he lightly fluttered  kisses around your wounds. When he placed the box back in the cabinet you noticed the tin was gone, but you didn't see where he'd moved it to. He helped you pull your bottoms back up and wriggle off the counter. "Are you feeling better?" He said, lifting you in his arms. You wrapped your arms around his neck and your legs around his waist. Nuzzling your head in the crook of his neck, you nodded. "Good." He carried you back to your shared room and placed you carefully on the bed. "I'll be right back, okay?" He said, kissing your forehead and stepping away from the bed. You almost asked him what he was going to do or begged him to stay next to you. But you were too tired to press, and you figured you knew what he was doing anyway from the way his pocket rattled. You could just wait for him with your eyes shut. After a few minutes, you stirred back awake to feel the bed dip. "Sorry to wake you up." He said softly. You just turned to face him and nuzzled in closer. "S'Okay." You hummed. "I love..Sae.." You said, drifting back to sleep. "I love you too, Honey."

I so wish I could just cuddle up next to Saeyoung and ruffle my fingers through his hair.

Doesn't matter if we're talking, or if its a silent agreement that right here and right now is where we've always belonged. That the stars brought us right where we're meant to be.

I just want to hold him close and remind us both that no matter what, we will always be there for each other.

Even when the night is dark and daytime seems like it's so distant that it might never come. Or when the rain floods the yard and makes us feel isolated from the world. We're always there. Always together. 💖

(Sorry for the rant lolol I just felt very inspired)

Ohhhhh. This is so beautiful.

I love that you wanna be with him even when times are tough. Cause they won’t always be perfect, right? Even when he’s so longer fighting to stay alive, sometimes one of you is going to feel like the world is ending. It isn’t, but it FEELS that way. Some days, that’s just how it is.

But you’ll hold onto each other and you’ll play with his pretty hair and he’ll squeeze your hand so tight. You are the center of everything, and when he looks into your eyes he remember the reason the world turns.

You said you belong, and you’re so right: even if it’s cold out, or even if you’re afraid, you’ll feel warm and safe in his arms.

Tell me what you wish you were doing right now! ❤️

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So cute!

My face is always red but I didnt like the all-over option because it was a little too bright haha

Also feat a maid outfit because why not?

@gureishi @multiplefandomsblog @peachyphyr (let me know if you want to be untagged)

Picrew tag game.

Here's the link , have fun.

Tagging : @chisana-risu-sama @kurucreator @ruzi-rebzy @core-vortex @justmegzmegz @asmrfarts

If you attack Cheritz or are being a pos to them because of the once again delay of The Ssum, I will come to your house and beat you over the head with a steel chair.

Even if you're frustrated, be respectful.

watching videos of people explaining why somebody who watched a video and had a bad opinion of it is wrong and why you should watch their video on why that video is good instead. watching movies make fun of movies and books make fun of books and everyone is wrong all the time and you should buy my product, fuck my fleshlight, eat my food and hate everything else.

if you don't, you're wrong and you need to get off the internet, snowflake. grow the fuck up, liberal. you communist dickhead, you nazi scum. you chronically-online bastard, you don't understand anything if you don't agree with me.

oh, you don't like the way something is? get over it or kill yourself. who cares about inflation? on Shein, it's only two dollars. who cares about child labor or sweatshops? it's not like buying the clothes from this store does anything. who cares about what I do? I'm a minuscule part of the universe. the ocean cares. the landfill cares. the atmosphere cares. the people selling useless shit to you care.

so why don't you care? you're desensitized because you watched porn when you were five, because you saw a guy's head get blown off in a third world country online when you were eight. because you've got your unicorn sour lollipop watermelon blue raspberry nicotine and you're not even planning on living that long anyway so what difference does it make, do you make.

what does it fucking matter anymore? why do we try? who cares? who fucking cares?

...

why do you care about that, it's not like you'll make a difference anyway? why do you try to help people when there's bad people out there? why do you clean your room if it's just going to get dirty again? why do you try if you're going to fail?

...

"It takes great courage to see the world in all its tainted glory, and still to love it" - Oscar Wilde.

we must try. we must care. we must listen and grow and heal. we must be better. be the goodness you want to see around you, inspire what you desire. forgive yourself, move on and fix yourself. change is possible, in fact, it's the only thing that is. we can do better.

we are the power, we are the world, we are the change. we are good.

Thank you! <3

1. Seeing my mutuals talking about things theyre happy about, or them posting about their day etc.

2. Daydreaming and coming up with story ideas

3. Reading and rereading my favorite books/tumblr imagines

4. Writing!

5. Talking to my friends even after a while of physically seeing each other

Feel free to skip!

@gureishi @thelemoncoffee @writing-prompt-s @s-serendipit-y @katavicbun @peachyphyr @/love-patient-0s-writing-world (since you already did it lol) and anyone else to fill in the last few slots :)

when you get this, please respond with five things that make you happy! then, send to your last ten people in your notifs (anonymously or not). you never know who might benefit from spreading positivity ♡

hmm, lets see

1. listening to my little brother talk about his hyperfixation (geography and world history, weirdly enough? so i always come to him when i have questions about the history/location of other countries)

2. seeing my moots on my dash, reading your tags about my art (love you guys)

3. petting my dog on his soft little head

4. the smell of rain on warm concrete in the summer

5. i live in a rural area, so a lot of blackberries grow where i am. they taste pretty good, but ive eaten a couple bugs

ok, last ten people in notifs; have fun

@murderspugerter @politigirls @dontlosethisever @ace-with-luv @thelovelysystem @raptormew @stasiagent @loststolenorstrayed @r-slash-jreghot @fogggy @the-goblin-in-the-maple-tree @lettucefather @queer-anarchisttttt @some-annoyed-bunny

Some might say it's foreshadowing, I say it's the fact that he needs validation and needs to feel seen so he drops so many 'hints' about his life.

Saeyoung:

I’m so mysterious nobody knows anything about me

Also saeyoung:

literally has a username titled “Hacker God”

It is a known fact by the entirety of the RFA that he hacks shit for a living when he could easily pretend he has a regular (((legal))) IT job but noooo

Claims everything to do w his job is a secret but will constantly drop hints about how dangerous it is and will even go into story tangents about his various adventures whenever he feels like it

Talks about a hacker group that constantly chases him, making it very clear that he does ILLEGAL SHIT

Hell even invites them to the party

Openly only uses cash

Speaking of cash, makes a shitton of it somehow

Again, he openly admits he’s a hacker!!! Hackers don’t do that!!! They say they’re a techie for some random firm, or something else entirely!!!! They’re not this open!!! If saeyoung were really so secretive, only V would know mfs a hacker and everyone else would think he works at some start up or something

Makes it very clear hes not in a normal work environment? Pls it screams “illegal secret agency” omg

Admitted to running away from home and having a brother the moment someone asked him

Will tell you his thinly veiled allegorical dreams about his origin story whenever he feels like it (mother cat and brother cat dream, the pirate ship and planet one, etc.)

“Why didn’t you feed us, mother cat? Oh well, if it weren’t for that, I wouldn’t have gone on so many adventures” pls

After playing all the routes leading up to his, the only surprise in his backstory would probably be the prime minister thing and his name tbh

Get rainbow stickers too

Reblog if you're not homophobic

Every url that reblog’s will be written in a book and shown to my homophobic dad.