YJ S3 MAJOR SPOILER

I was rearranging my room the other day and I broke down because most Widows never got to do that. Natasha maybe because of Ohio and Yelena maybe if she helped or got everyone to help but the other Widows?

They have no idea what it feels like to be 13 and the their biggest worry is how to rearrange their room to their liking. That breaks me. At 13 it was one of the most important things to me, to get a feel for my own space and make it nice with all the resources available with my own two hands.

I can't even- I'm going to go cry now.

I'm reading AGOT and Renly is such a twink icon, I love him.

He's so cunty, laughing at Joffrey's sword's name, commenting that Arya is the size of a wet rat and having to be escorted out. No wonder Cersei hates him, he seems so deliciously annoying.

WDYM RHAENYS HAD A LITTLE KITTEN WHOM SHE NAMED BALERION AND PRETENDED WAS THE BLACK DREAD?? WDYM THE LANNISTERS PROBABLY SHOWED HER THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A DRAGON AND A KITTEN? My heart aches so much I feel a piece of me crumbling every time I think of that.

real.

john does something controversial that gets the new avengers bad press (naturally) and the very next day bob steps out in public wearing a “i stand by my canceled wife” t-shirt.

Petition for us to change it from LottieShauna to Shautie. Butcherqueen is on top but come on the potential for Shautie is insane.

they're so effective that fanny takes notes from her

i can’t with the puppy eyes

Van time baby

Ah the things I have to say about Van. After marinating in ep 3 for a while I have thoughts.

Van is... just a chill guy. Like literally all she wants is to ride the waves as they come and chill. Even when the hallucination starts she's like 'Oh what the fuck' then casually walks up and opens the door. The only thought in that head is, 'Man I'm tired. I hope this ends soon.'

Her hopes mean nothing because this woman has years of trauma yet to come before she gets her little video store to chill out in and after, the universe fucks with her more and there she is getting a cancer diagnosis. Van has literally never been able to catch a damn break in her life and that shows in ep3.

Her reaction to being in remission is so lackluster compared to Tai, partly because she was ready. She was ready to do the whole I want to live my life cancer patient thing and then go on her own terms. She signed that DNR for a reason. She let herself grow closer to Tai again for a reason. Van was done, she was ready to go peacefully and be done with everything going on.

Van is haunted by the things she did out there as shown by her guilt literally manifesting in her hallucination and taking her down with the fire, in s2 she's the only one to acknowledge the damage they caused to Lottie as well.

The words on the chalkboard, the ones about death being the kindest way to loose someone applies to the self as well. All the adult yellowjackets are loosing their goddamn minds over the wilderness. Travis literally died in a very complex horrific accident trying to commune with it.

It's very clear that Van is self-aware and self-critical enough to realize this. Van for all her goofiness has been one of the most grounded yellowjackets, consistently (I'll yap about this another day), it makes total sense to me that this woman is fine with passing away. All the ones who did pass in yellowjackets have been up till now very much spared from the harsh, inevitable future and crippling trauma.

Those who have gone, while their memories were tainted to an extent and changed (excluding Laura Lee) did go with clean consciences. They didn't live long enough to become anti-heroes. At this point that clean swift death is much better than living everyday wondering when the wilderness will come for them.

gift for all the lovely people who seem to like my polytrix musings. A polytrix playlist I made! I shall be making playlists for each one of the girls when I have some spare time so that's coming as well (ps the artist who made the art that I've used as the cover art is punymarshmallow on Twitter)

Misty in her toxic boyfie era is so hot ngl. I feel bad for Walter but also women in male dominated fields? Yeah I'm here for that.

Question for Lottie stans. What qualifications do we think she has? I'm not from the US but I am assuming that she cannot just go 'I will now heal and/or help everyone' without the government putting a stop to it, correct me if I'm wrong. Lottie is offering holistic therapeutic treatments to people with mental disorders of all sorts so she should be in some way or form qualified to be a therapist, psychiatrist or psychologist right?

I don't think she can run rampant trying to help people without qualifications, no matter how wealthy she is. I'm trying to write a fic and I'm so torn, what qualifications might this woman have?