“When All The Wild Summer Was In Her Gaze”

“In spite of everything, I still believe people are really good at heart.”

— Anne Frank, The Diary of a Young Girl

“Still, being able to feel pain was good, he thought. It’s when you can’t even feel pain anymore that you’re in real trouble.”

— Haruki Murakami, Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage

“Your naked body should only belong to those who fall in love with your naked soul.”

— Charlie Chaplin in a letter to his daughter, Geraldine

“Just in case you ever foolishly forget; I’m never not thinking of you.”

— Virginia Woolf, Selected Diaries

for my unrequited crush (disguise)

she wakes at dawn when the sky is painted gold, and pink, to dress in drowsiness.

she doesn’t remember when it started, when her cheeks became so pink, when her heart grew unsteady whenever she tried to think, but now instead of colouring them flush, she drains the colours from that blush to keep and hide away lest someone see it and say her thoughts, spill them aloud— no. that couldn’t be allowed.

so now she wakes two hours earlier, when the sky is painted blue, to carve her cheeks and chap her lips and give off less than she might give so no one would see it and then ask how her glow had grown so fast why her heart beat unsteady over something that she wasn’t yet ready to know.

but instead of stifling it, as she wished, the glow grew and she began to know the hurt that followed, the cramps and aches and loving pains that carved out her heart and gleaned her happiness a constant rain.

until when she tried to cover it someone noticed the flush that couldn’t be missed, under her disguise, the hope that grew in her eyes, the stabs of knives in her heart, every  single  time.

she stifled that pain. till it went away, but to this day something faint stays the pink glow that was stolen from the sun the love in which she is the only one.

Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness and drama. With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.

Don Miguel Ruiz

I want to be sixteen again

You know you are doing well when you lose the interest of looking back.

Unknown

“But I must admit I miss you terribly. The world is too quiet without you nearby.”

— Lemony Snicket; The Beatrice Letters

“Happiness is not the absence of problems, it’s the ability to deal with them.”

— Steve Maraboli, Life, the Truth, and Being Free