“To Consider Failure Would Mean That There’s Another Path For Me, Well There’s No Other Path But

for my unrequited crush (disguise)

she wakes at dawn when the sky is painted gold, and pink, to dress in drowsiness.

she doesn’t remember when it started, when her cheeks became so pink, when her heart grew unsteady whenever she tried to think, but now instead of colouring them flush, she drains the colours from that blush to keep and hide away lest someone see it and say her thoughts, spill them aloud— no. that couldn’t be allowed.

so now she wakes two hours earlier, when the sky is painted blue, to carve her cheeks and chap her lips and give off less than she might give so no one would see it and then ask how her glow had grown so fast why her heart beat unsteady over something that she wasn’t yet ready to know.

but instead of stifling it, as she wished, the glow grew and she began to know the hurt that followed, the cramps and aches and loving pains that carved out her heart and gleaned her happiness a constant rain.

until when she tried to cover it someone noticed the flush that couldn’t be missed, under her disguise, the hope that grew in her eyes, the stabs of knives in her heart, every  single  time.

she stifled that pain. till it went away, but to this day something faint stays the pink glow that was stolen from the sun the love in which she is the only one.

“Sensitive people should be treasured. They love deeply and think deeply about life. They are loyal, honest and true. The simple things often mean the most to them. They don’t need to change or harden. Their purity makes them who they are.”

— Unknown

In my opinion, the best thing you can do is to find a person who loves you for exactly what you are. Good mood, bad mood, ugly, pretty, handsome, what have you … That’s the kind of person that’s worth sticking with.

Juno

When the shell of the ego has been cracked and there begins to be a consciousness of the subliminal and physiological otherness underlying personality, it sometimes happens that we catch a glimpse, fleeting but apocalyptic, of that other Otherness, which is the Ground of all being.

Aldous Huxley

replace "very":

very happy: ecstatic, joyful, excited

very scared: terrified, fearful

very angry: livid, vengeful

very hungry: starved, skeletal

very sad: sorrowful, dejected, unhappy

very distrusting: doubtful, dubious, cynical

very shy: timid, bashful, reserved

very fun: enjoyable, amusing, refreshing

very big: gigantic, huge, enormous

very small: tiny, minuscule, compact

very alive: lively, vigorous, energetic

very sharp: pointed, spired, tipped

very much: many, abundant, greatly

very yummy: delicious, tasteful

very good: excellent, fine, virtuous

very bad: evil, terrible, poor

very sudden: abrupt, unexpected

very soon: near, shortly

very fast: quick, swift, brisk

very slow: leisurely, sedate

very cold: frigid, freezing

very hot: heated, balmy, spicy

very thin: slim, scrawny, skinny

very thick: stocky, hefty, large

Keep in mind not all words apply to all situations (you wouldn't use "spicy" to describe hot weather).

edit: colour me wrong...every person who has interacted with this post would describe the weather as spicy.

“It’s weird to feel someone’s attention on you that way, like you’re the only thing in the world they’re listening to. Most of the time people are distracted, or just thinking about what they’re going to say next.”

— Lilith Saintcrow, Jealousy

Sophocles' Electra (tr. Peter Meineck & Paul Woodruff)

I have my best ideas high

I just can't remember them...

“But every time I try to move on, you’re right there.”

— Blair Waldorf, Gossip Girl