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MASTERLIST ⸝⸝
⸝⸝ summer memories with f1 drivers
F1 DRIVERS
kissing their cheeks as being their crush
sleeping with you for the first time
their favorite type of hugs
quiet acts of love
their soft spots for you
drawings on my broken arm
when they get jealous
falling asleep on your laps
defending you on your appearance
how they react with you being really shy
their favorite spots to kiss you
things they love about you
taking care of you on your periods
taking care of you when you're sick
christmas activities
things they only do with you
their first kiss with you
LANDO NORRIS
my pretty boy
"can we have babies ?"
the race and the girl
#1
let me show you
girly girl : a lando's perfect morning
obsessed
little spoon
you stole it
lip balm
cute, pretty and perfect
lando as your boyfriend
hate you lovingly | part 1, part 2
kiss me, forgive me
my introvert girl | part 1, part 2
the only one
moonstruck
wonderwall
your precious attention
curly hair
OSCAR PIASTRI
#1
bleeding love
you're my best gift
CHARLES LECLERC
#5 ⸝⸝ #4 ⸝⸝ #3 ⸝⸝ #2 ⸝⸝ #1
promise
"i love you very much too, charles"
pov
always
DANIEL RICCIARDO
#1
soft touches
Summary: What if instead of seven, Reginald Hargreeves got eight of them? Eight young experiments, one more person to stop the end of the world.
Chapter 1: The Spring of 1989
Chapter 2: A Trip to The Past
Chapter 3: It’s Been So Long, Too Long…
Chapter 4: The Best Funeral Ever
Chapter 5: A Favour For Five
Chapter 6: The Wonders of Parenting
Chapter 7: The Chase(s)
Chapter 8: Academy Under Attack
Chapter 9: How to Torture the Die Hard
Chapter 10: The Briefcase Trip
Chapter 11: (Not) Miss Saigon
Chapter 12: Welcome Home, Vet
Chapter 13: Long Time No See
Chapter 14: The Day That Didn’t Happen
Chapter 15: The Day That Happened (Part 1)
Chapter 16: The Day That Happened (Part 2)
Chapter 17: Klaus’ Revelation
Chapter 18: Who Killed Harold Jenkins?
Chapter 19: Huge Trouble in a Small Package
Chapter 20: A Concert For the End of the World (Season 1 Finale)
Chapter 1: The Man at The Window
Chapter 2: Dad On Film
Chapter 3: It’s a Beautiful Life
Chapter 4: Good Morning, Prophet
Chapter 5: Saving Private Dave
Chapter 6: The Epic Drinking Spree
Chapter 7: The Family Reunion
Chapter 8: Twistin’ The Night Away
Chapter 9: All Hail The Prophetess
Chapter 10: The Tropical Storm
Chapter 11: Suddenly Ben
Chapter 12: Body Duty
Chapter 13: The Anti-Apocalypse Squad
Chapter 14: Dallas Most Wanted
Chapter 15: No Place Like Home
Chapter 1: The Flight of The Sparrows
Chapter 2: Welcome to the Hotel Obsidian
Chapter 3: Amish Hospitality
Chapter 4: East, West, Home’s Best
Chapter 5: You Give Love a Bad Name
Chapter 6: The Mind Raider
Chapter 7: Surface of Our Potential
Chapter 8: The Bird and The Anchor
Chapter 9: Double Wedding at the End of the World (I)
Chapter 10: Double Wedding at the End of the World (II)
Chapter 11: Hello Goodbye
Chapter 12: More Valuable Than The World and The End of All Things
Chapter 1: Your Dreams Came True, Now What?
Chapter 2: The Prodigal Daughter Returns
Chapter 3: Next Stop at The End of Time
The Eighth Child’ verse drabbles and one shots:
- To Walk in Her Shoes
- Getting Real With The Umbrella Academy
- Half Right
- Ainda É Cedo
- The Man in the Poster
- Bienenstich
- Soft Spots
- Something to Think About
- Went a Little Like This (OC Kiss Week)
- Work of Art
- You Say Goodbye, I Say Hello
- Sex Ed
- Sticks and Stones
- Be My Valentine
- Going Through Changes
- Say My Name
- Knock First
- Dancing Through Life
- Monthly Horror
- Fan Mail
- Half Virgin
- Finest Brazilian Literature
- Spicy Chocolate
- Happy New Year - Part I (2005)
- Happy New Year - Part II (2013)
- Happy New Year - Part III (2016)
- June Party
- Aftercare
- The Eiffel Tower Incident
- Klaus’ Type
- Far From The Eyes, Close To The Heart
- Leaving Marks
- Meet The Parents
**
MHA/BNHA Crossover AU: T(UA)
Part 1 - The Other Japan
Part 2 - Fight With a Smile
Part 3 - SOS Umbrella
- The Eighth Child Playlist -
prompt: the aftermath of Carmy's words seem to rattle him more than you.
pairing: Carmen 'Carmy' Berzatto x female!reader pairing: Carmy x Peach
fandom masterlist: FX's The Bear
collection masterlist: Clingy Baby
word count: 5.4k+
note: author still does not want any messages about glorifying toxic relationships. typically, but not always, when someone calls you clingy, it's weaponized and is abusive. this fic is not meant to portray that! it’s meant to show internal agony and the journey to forgiveness - Carmy apologizes 'cause he's actually sorry!
warnings: cursing, reader folds 'cause who wouldn't for the sweet puppy that is Carmy, hurt and comfort, small angst, small fluff, we talk about Mikey a bit, author uses writing as therapy, relationship angst...? barely edited.
part one: God's Plan
"It's six in the Goddamn morning!" You raged at your front door, stomping up to it, "Are you dumb in the fucking head!? Who the fuck in their right mind knocks like the Goddamn cops at six in the fucking morning!?"
You whipped it open, the force causing a breeze of air to blow your bedridden hair back and highlight your exhaustion. "Hiya, sunshine," Richie beamed down at you, holding up a paper bag, offering, "donut?"
"Richie!? I know you're not fuckin' stupid, baby boy, so, what the fuck is wrong with you? It's six in the morning on my day off - do you want to give me a reason to punch you? You hate your nose that much?"
He tisked at you mockingly, "Someone's cranky this morning."
"What do you want?"
"You're not gonna invite me in for coffee? I brought us donuts! See? C'mon, Peach," He jostled the bag around with a shit-eating, closed-lip smile. "Dooonuts," he taunted.
You had to pause, count to ten in your head, then sigh through your nose. You offered kindly, "Richie? Would you like to come in for some coffee? Since you kindly brought donuts?"
He grinned, "Awwh, thanks, Peach, thats real nice of yah! Don't mind if I do!"
"Don't call me that," you snapped, leading him into your kitchen. The door shut and locked.
"Oh, someone's touchy."
"What do you fucking want?" You whined, pouring two mugs of hot coffee. "You come bangin' at my door, early ass in the mornin'. You better have a good-ass reason," you slid the mug over the counter he sat at. "Cream or sugar?"
He shook his head, fiddling with the mug for a moment before admitting as you dressed up your own coffee, "Uh, so... It's Carmy."
You paused, taking a slow sip from your mug, waiting for more that wouldn't come. So, you quietly asked, "What about Carmy?"
"He's falling apart."
"O...Kay?"
"Peach," he frowned, "you know that your relationship was the only thing that made sense to him - he's falling apart without you there."
"Okay," you nodded, taking another swallow of hot bean-water.
"That's it? Nothing else to say? Dude's losin' his fuckin' shit, Peach. Okay? Barely leaves the restaurant, h-he's all manic and shit, doesn't stop cookin', isn't gettin' a lotta sleep, and Syd said his clothes are all over the apartment - he's not keeping himself in order."
"So, he needs his mother?"
Richie glared with a clenched jaw, "Not fuckin' funny, Peach."
"I'm not laughing."
"He needs you."
"I'd argue otherwise, he's a grown fuckin' man who doesn't need to be taken care of. Look, if he was man enough to call me a desperate, clingy bitch, he's man enough to deal with the fallout of his words."
"Look, hey, hey, hey, I'm not sayin' he's not in the wrong," he waved his hands, eyes widening, "actually, the exact opposite. We all chewed his ass out when we found out what he fuckin' said, Peach. And look, I've never seen Fak that fuckin' angry."
You semi-pouted your bottom lip, "Really?"
"Fak was ready to strangle Carmy, I think," Richie sighed. "I yelled, Sugar yelled, Fak lost his shit, Syd even cornered him in the office and laid into him..."
"I thought she didn't like me," you whispered.
"She's getting to know you, but she likes you," he assured, "and it's obvious the affect you have on Carmy. We all respect that - "
"Oh, great, so everyone except the one person who needs to respect our relationship - respects it!"
Richie frowned at you, nodding in agreement before admitting, "He's a dumb fuckin' idiot, Peach, we all know that, but the dude is losing it without you."
"Sucks to suck."
"Peach," he groaned, slapping his hands to the counter with exasperation. "Don't you love him?"
"Of course I love him, but I also have this little thing called self-respect! He said some shit - shit he can't ever take back. The fuck I look like going back to him when he's the one in the wrong!? I don't hate myself that much, and despite what he says, I'm not that desperate for love."
"How is talking to the man you love - "
"Richie," you paused him, "your Cousin said a lot of hurtful shit. It's been weeks, okay? He's gonna snap outta it, realize what he's done, and right the wrongs he's committed. I don't need to speed that along in any way, shape, or form - he's a grown man. And I'm a grown woman, I don't have to fall to anyone's beck-and-call, he can figure his own shit out."
"I know - look, it's been fuckin' weeks of us dealin' with him losin' his fuckin' mind!" Richie snapped. "We tried to respect that you wanted distance and time, we really did, but he's losin' it, Peach, more than he's lost it before. Okay? I'm concerned about him, more than I was when the shit with Mikey went down..."
You sighed and leaned on your kitchen counter, wiping your fingers over your eyes to pinch the bridge of your nose after. "Okay, okay," you paused, sighing again, blinking as you looked at Richie, "so, what would you like me to do?"
He pouted dramatically, "Talk to him? Please?"
"To say... What?"
"I don't know, you guys can work that out together, but he's miserable, Peach. Just talk to him, just..." He sighed, shaking his head, "I know it's not fair to ask of you, but he's slippin' off the deep end. You're all he knows, all that makes sense to him, and with you gone..." His eyes turned red as he held back his tears, "I-I'm not sayin' he's gonna do anythin', Peach, but everythin' with Mikey's still so fresh... I just - I can't go through this again. Can't lose another Berzatto."
You frowned, understanding now why he appeared so frazzled.
"Carmy's not Mikey, Richie, okay?" You reminded him softly, reaching for his hand; leaving your extended to reach him, "And you're not gonna lose any more of us, you hear me?" You gave a squeeze, "I'll talk to him."
"Really?"
"I will," you assured softly, seeing the single tear drop from his waterline when he bowed his head and sniffled harshly. "Hey, Richie...? Do you, maybe, wanna bring some flowers to Mikey today? Think you wanna visit?"
He shrugged, "Maybe..."
"Maybe it'll be nice," you assured calmly. "It rained a few days ago, so, the ground won't be too soggy anymore, but the grass will be lush and green - hydrated and shit."
"Right," he chuckled, nodding, "yeah, okay, maybe that'll be nice, yeah, you're right."
"Maybe Carmy could use a visit, too."
"He won't go."
You nodded, "I know, but sometimes it's nice to just have the offer."
Richie agreed, downing the last of his black coffee. "All right," he cleared his throat, "let's go - you wearin' that?"
"What?"
"You gonna wear that? To go talk to Carmy?"
"It's not even seven in the morning!"
"He's at the restaurant," Richie shrugged. "Dude doesn't leave. C'mon, he needs a nap or somethin'."
You groaned, knowing he wouldn't leave unless you left with him. So, you got ready quickly while he sat at your desktop computer; playing Facebook's FarmVille - the same you left your little cousins to play when they needed distracted. He was enraptured by the adorable virtual sheep, laughing to himself as he learned the ropes of the game; and when you were ready, you had time to fill a to-go tumbler of coffee while he signed off.
When you arrived at The Beef, it was still closed for the morning prep; and inside, chaos rained in a fury of angry voices. You listened to Carmy snap at Marcus about something petty, going as far as to slap a pastry out of his hand as they argued in one another's faces with ignited passion.
"Ooookay," you moved through the kitchen and got between the two men, hands on Carmy's chest, "that's enough, Chef, hey, hey, hey, c'mon, walk away - just walk away, Carmy, don't do this. Hey, hey, don't do this, c'mon, just step off - walk away with me, please. Please, Carmy, hey, hey, step off, walk away with me, please."
"Fuck you doin' here, Peach?" He asked with red, swollen eyes. He looked sullen; pale between the angry red blotches to his skin, bags under his tired eyes, looking worn out and thinner than you remembered.
"Yeah, hey, hey, we'll talk about that, c'mon, outside, outside, outside," you directed him, sighing at the sight of the splattered pastry you were forced to step over. "I'm so sorry, Marcus," you whispered, seeing him nod and wave you off as you and Carmy pushed outside into the alley.
The door shut behind you, making Carmy snarl, "What the fuck, Peach - "
"No, I think that's better asked to you," you snapped. "The hell's wrong with you? Yellin' at Marcus like that? You know how rude it is to slap shit outta anyone's hand?"
He paced in anger, wiping a hand down his face; circling his mouth with his fingers, eyes ringed with red, hair greasy and tossed in a mess. His pants looked baggy, his shirt wrinkled, stained, and dirty with sweat marks.
"What're you doin' here?" He asked in a pant, hands going to his slender hips, head shaking as his tear-filled eyes avoided yours.
"Carmy, we need to talk."
"No shit," he breathed, scoffing after and widening his pace.
"Hey, Carmy, hey, hey," you reached for him, taking both his wrists in your grasp so he had to face you. "I need you to pause for me, please, hey," you stepped in his way when he tried to move. "Carmy, you're no good to anyone when you're like this - least of all yourself. So, I need you to talk - "
"You left," he panicked, pulling back to start pacing again. "You left - you left me. We got in a fight and you left, you fucking left. You walked away and you left me."
"Carmy, we got in more than a fight," you sighed. "You lashed out at me, then turned avoidant, and I don't linger where I'm not wanted."
"How can you think that?" He demanded, still pacing. "That you're not wanted by me? That you're not welcome, what? In my life? At my side? With me? Baby - of course, you are!"
"You didn't exactly make me feel any different," you pointed out sharply. "Carmy, can you please fucking pause for me so we can talk this out - "
"I know I fucked up," he ranted to himself, huffing and puffing as his emotion strangled him. "I know I did, I kept - I couldn't - I fucked up. I know I did. I couldn't get my head outta my ass," he listed, pacing as he panted when panic took hold of his being, "and I hurt you, and it was like I had to keep hurting you because I couldn't be alone in what I felt and I couldn't exactly figure out what the fuck I was feeling - I just needed you to hurt, too."
"Carmy," you sighed patiently.
"And I couldn't stop, I just kept going, and when I realized how bad I made it, I couldn't fucking stop - I needed y-yo-you t-to know what I felt, but I couldn't find the words. I-I hate that I did that, I-I fucking hurt you and I made this so much worse than it ever had t-to be, and I fucking know, Peach, okay? I know you're not clingy, you were just loving me. Y-You were loving me, you were using your own love languages, and I felt y-you so fuckin' close to me, and freaked out - I just - I just don't know why. I just - I panicked, I couldn't stop whatever I felt, and I'm so sorry," he breathed, shaking his head, wiping his cheeks as the tears started. "I-I-I'm so sorry, Peach, I couldn't control myself and I-I hate that I hurt you, and I know I don't deserve your understanding, but I just - I couldn't stop - "
"Carmy," you stepped directly in his footpath; needing to seize hold of his swollen biceps to catch his movements as he all but barreled right into you, "I need you to breathe."
"Nah, I'm okay - "
"No, you're not," you spoke sternly, shaking your head. "Baby," you eased your tone to a softer tone, seeing a glimmer of hope spark in his baby blues, "I need you to take a breath and remain in the present with me, okay? Just stand here with me," you watched as he blinked a couple of times; reaching out to hold your waist tentatively. "And stay in the present, okay? Stay here with me."
"I'm so sorry, Peach," he whispered, stepping closer so he could feel your breasts against his chest; caging you with his arms. "I'm so fuckin' sorry, I didn't - I didn't know what the fuck I was even trying to fight with you about. You're not clingy - you're not any of the things I said, I didn't mean it - any of it."
"Calling me desperate?"
"I didn't mean any of it."
"A bitch?"
"Please," he whispered, bringing you in closer so he could rest his forehead on yours. "Don't repeat it, I know what I said, and I'm so fucking sorry for all of it. I know I don't deserve your forgiveness, but I'm goin' crazy without yah, Peach. I need my best girl, and I don't deserve you, but I fuckin' need you." He sniffled, pulling back to caress your cheek, whispering, "I need you, Peach, you're the only thing that I know - the only thing I can understand, that makes sense to me. I think I just felt stressed and overwhelmed, I wasn't sure what to do - I couldn't find the words, I'm so sorry."
You nodded slowly, "I think we can work through this."
"I don't deserve you."
"Maybe not, but you have me anyway," you whispered, bringing his forehead to your own again. "But you can't do this again, taking anger out on me when I haven't done anything."
"Never again," he sighed, now nestling into your neck for comfort; arms tightening so you were the closest you could be with your head bent to keep his head caressed with yours.
"I don't think we can say 'never', but we can make an effort to leave work stress at work, right?" You whispered softly, letting one around coil around him to keep him close; the other caressing his jaw. "You don't get to treat me like that," you reminded him, "because I'm on your side, Carmy, I'm not the enemy."
"I know," he squeezed you tight.
"And the people doing their jobs are not the enemy," you smirked.
"I know," he chuckled lightly. "I owe Marcus an apology..."
"I'm sure you owe it to the others, too," you mused, holding his cheek as you turned your head to kiss his forehead. "Promise me we're done with that reactive bullshit. It doesn't make navigating a relationship easier on us."
"We're done, we're so fuckin' done with that shit," he whispered, deflating into your embrace as you held him close. "I'm so sorry, baby. I really am."
"I know," you comforted softly. "I forgive you."
"I don't deserve it."
"Hey, hey, this self-deprecating stunt has to end, too. We've gotta go forward with at least some confidence if we're gonna figure this out together."
He nodded, pulling back but keeping hold of your waist. "I am confident about this... About you - about us."
"Hmm?" You gently pushed a few stray curls from his forehead.
"Move in with me - officially."
Your face contorted in mild disappointment, "Oh, Carmen - "
"No, no," he rushed, sighing as his hand flattened on your jaw and cheek again, "just listen to me. I've wanted to ask you for a long time, okay? I've wanted this for - like - fucking years. Hear me? I just," he sighed, "I wasn't sure how to ask. I want this for us, I want us to be together, okay? Officially. I-I want us living together, Peach, okay? I want to come home and just - I want you there. I want all of you," he frowned, tears swelling again, "and all your shoes in the foyer, hair in the shower drain, perfume on the counter, and every-single-way you know how to love me. I was wrong to say you were clingy - and everything else I said. Baby, the last couple weeks, I've felt so fucking empty, so lonely and - just - cold. I've been cold without you. I need you, Peach, I need you with me, and I need you to be exactly you - no holding back. Because you're exactly who I need to love me, I'm so sorry I fucked that up before."
"Carmy."
He frowned, "I'm sorry."
"I know," you smirked, "and I forgive you. But you know it's gonna take more than a few pretty words and some tears, right?"
He nodded, "Anything to make this work again."
You sighed in patience, "Go say your apologies to the others, we've got t'make a stop before going back to yours - and you're going to take a fucking nap."
"I'm fine - "
"Look me in my eye and try to tell me in the past 72 hours, you've had decent, restful sleep."
He frowned, opening his mouth a few times but then sighing. "You know I can't," he whispered.
"Exactly why we're going back to yours."
Carmy paused, brows furrowing as if a thread pulled them together. He asked softly, "Is that a no to us... Living together? Is that why you're calling it 'my' place?"
You offered him a look of patience and leaned in to peck his lips for a few prolonged seconds, promising, "There's your apartment, there's my apartment, and then there's gonna be our apartment. Somewhere that's just ours, 100% us." His mouth stretched in a grin, so you swiftly cut him off, "But you have to ask me again when you've got restful sleep under your belt. I want you clear headed when you make this kinda decision."
"Yes, ma'am," he agreed. "Where're we goin' before?"
You swallowed nervously, telling him softly, "You absolutely do not have to go with us, but I think Richie could use a visit out to Mikey's grave. I said I'd take him with some flowers, but you do not have to get out to go with us - not if you're not ready."
He blinked a few times, rolling his lips between his teeth as his eyes dropped from yours. You were about to coo his name and assure him again, when he nodded at you and tried to half-smile. "Okay," he breathed.
"Okay?"
"Mhm. I'll, uh... M-Maybe I can, just, hang back in the car."
"Sure, baby, whatever you're comfortable with," you whispered, leaning in to peck his forehead. "You good?"
"I will be."
"Mhm," you hummed, caressing his cheek again before pushing your hand into his curls. "Now, let's get a move on - I want you to march in there, say you're sorry to your Chefs, and then we'll leave."
"Yes, ma'am," Carmy whispered, leaning in to kiss you - but you pulled back.
"Aht," you halted him with a teasing finger to his lips, "after we've got everything worked out, then you can kiss me."
"You got t'kiss me," he mumbled against your finger; making you hum as you fought off a stretching smile, and lower your hand.
"Fair point - just one then - "
He cut you off by, indeed, pressing a single kiss to your lips, but not pulling back. His hand raised to hold the back of your head, your lips spreading in a grin against his; finding rhythm to move together before pausing to press in prolonged passion.
When he pulled back, you both paused to smile, and when you tried to peck his lips again, he pulled back, teasing, "Aht, just the one."
"Oh, fuck you," you laughed lightly, letting him take your hand before leading you back into the kitchen. The other Chefs lingered, sparing you and Carmy a few nervous glances, making you whisper in his ear as you squeezed his hand, "Go ahead, baby, get it done."
He nodded and called the kitchen to attention, clearing his throat, and beginning to make his apologies. He singled out Marcus, then Sydney, Richie, and Sugar; the kitchen staff all accepting his words and insisting he could take the day off - even the next few days if he wanted! You had to usher him to grab his things a few times, nudging him in reminder and verbally pushing him back into action. That boy's ADHD would truly be the death of him.
"So?" Richie smirked at you as Marcus handed you a packaged box of pastries.
"We're talking it out."
He chuckled, "Good. Get him outta here, Peach, dude needs to breathe."
"I got it," you swatted him away as Carmy exited the office. "But we've got somewhere to be first, right?"
He paused, then nodded and asked in a mutter, "He said okay?"
"He's got time to decide what he wants to do, but he knows we're going. C'mon, get your coat."
Richie met you at the front of the restaurant and with a parting wink to Sugar, you took Carmy's hand, tangled your fingers together, and left to venture to your parked car. Carmy got in the front, Richie in the back, and after a stop at a corner bodega to grab three bouquets of flowers, you drove to the cemetery. Carmy was silent, no music played, and Richie's leg bounced in anxious tension; making small conversation with you about your job in an effort to distract himself.
When you arrived, you pulled up on the access road that you knew was closest to Mikey's grave. Richie spared a glare between you and Carmy before muttering that he needed a cigarette and got out of the car to leave you alone. "Baby?" You whispered, reaching for his hand. "Hey, look, if you don't want to go with us, it's okay. We won't be long... But maybe you want to sign this," you showed him the small, blank name card left in the flowers.
"Why?" He whispered.
You shrugged, "So he knows they're from you."
"Peach," he sighed, meeting your eyes.
"Baby, I know it's silly, I know it's easier to ignore it all. But I'd like to believe it's just a nice gesture for our own closure - it's a signed gift from us, to them... And maybe it's nice to pretend that wherever they are, they know what we've left for them."
Carmy nodded slowly, "I-I don't think... I don't think I can go..."
"It's okay, baby," you whispered.
"But," he sniffled, opening his hand to you, "I'll sign it, if you'll leave it for me?"
"Of course," you rushed, opening your purse to producing a pen for him. The clank card rest on the center console of your car, pausing, swallowing nervously, then scribbling his name as he cleared his throat. He offered you the pen, waited until it was put away, then offered the flowers. "Hang tight, we won't be too long," you whispered, leaning in to rest your forehead. "You okay?"
He nodded, pecking your forehead before letting you get out of the car. You handed Richie his own flowers with a signed card, holding your own and Carmy's; linking arms with Rich to venture up the small grass hill and moved about halfway down the cemetery plot line. When you came to his stone, you understood this was what Rich needed more than you, so, you knelt and laid the two bouquets down before starting to quickly groom the area around his tombstone.
You told him, "I'm sorry it's not much, but I'll be back later for a picnic and a chat. I brought you flowers from me a-and from Carmy. He's in the car, but he's here, Mikey... Give him time," you whispered, brushing dirt from the stone before standing. "Take your time," you told Richie softly, seeing the tears gather in his eyes.
"Thanks, Peach," he whispered, offering you a tight hug. When you pulled back and started to walk away, Richie lowered himself to kneel and lay his own flowers down; hearing him tell Mikey, "Don't gotta worry 'bout us, Mike-Man, Peach is the glue that keeps us together. Shit, she even got Carmy out here..."
You made it back to the car and got in, smiling at Carmy - but dropping it the instant you saw tears in his eyes. "Talk to me," you whispered, reaching for a wet wipe in your glovebox to clean your hands after plucking the grass and brushing off dirt from the grave.
"Why can't I get out?"
You only stared at him for a long moment, unsure what to say.
"I'm here... I'm finally here... Why can't I get out?"
"You're not ready," you nodded, tossing the wipe aside to a plastic bag. "It's okay, Carmy, it's okay to not be ready yet. We can come back when you are," you reached for his hand.
"I think this added to my frustration," he admitted. "I couldn't... I didn't go to the funeral, haven't been here since he was... You know."
"Laid to rest."
"Yeah," he sighed. "Fuck's wrong with me?"
"You're grieving," you relented, nuzzling closer so your head rested on his shoulder. "It's not linear, Carmy, baby, just let yourself feel. When you try to repress your emotions, you lash out inappropriately."
"I know," he whispered, "'M sorry."
"It's not your fault," you promised, the two of you quietly bowing your heads together. You remained as such until Richie got back in the car, and from there, it was quiet as everyone stewed in their own emotion. You dropped Rich back at work before promising to call him later and driving away; heading for Carmy's apartment in the soothing silence, his hand locked in yours.
When you arrived at his apartment, you froze upon seeing the interior's state. "Oh, Carmy, no," you whispered, frowning deeply.
"Looks worse than it is," he deflected. You only hummed and let him lead you to the bedroom; watching him strip and prepare for bed before joining you on the mattress. He crashed almost immediately, sighing in relief as he pecked over your shoulder and collarbone, muttering, "'M so glad you're back. 'M so sorry, Peach."
"I know you are, and I forgive you," you told him softly, carding a manicured hand through his hair. "Just get some rest, baby."
He was asleep nearly instantly. He deflated on top of you, deeply resting enough to not notice you slip out from under him. You cleaned his entire apartment; doing laundry, cleaning, scrubbing, replacing necessities he deemed himself too lazy to pay attention to. You did dishes, cleaned out his fridge, and as you mopped up the floors, the sun set and Carmy emerged from the bedroom.
"Baby?" He mumbled in earnest confusion, sighing in relief when he saw you.
"What? Afraid I disappeared on you?" You teased with a small grin.
"For sure," he mumbled, wiping sleep from his eyes; making your amusement dim when you realized the nerve it struck. "The hell you doin'?"
"You didn't seriously think I could rest knowing this monster of a clean-up job lingered out here, did you?"
"I don't want you t'clean after me."
"Well, too late," you smirked. "You good now?"
"I feel better, yeah."
"Good."
"And I made up my mind."
"Hmm? About what?"
"I'm gonna take some time off work," he nodded, "and focus on us. Get us in a new crib, it'll be nice."
"Think you can handle that?"
He nodded, "I'll have to, you're the most important thing in my life, I can't lose you. So, if I gotta take time off, that's the least of my worries. I'm only here for us, for you."
You smiled at him, setting the mop aside to wrap him in your arms. "I like the sound of that, us making a home together - being able to decorate a new home. But don't let me overdo it, okay? I get all excited and kinda bulldoze my way through projects. I don't want you t'find real reason t'resent me."
"Nah, that ain't possible," he promised quietly.
True to his word, Carmy took three solid weeks off; agreeing to a fourth week as a contact-only consultant. You and he slept in most days, looking at apartments, and not once did he even mention work. He was diligent in his attention, focused on you and you alone; putting in overtime to rebuild that what was broke by focusing on shared interests again. You found a place you loved ready for what was basically immediate move-in, taking time to pack your respected places and prepare for the official start of your cohabitating relationship.
You didn't forget what he said, being reserved in your displays of love. Yet Carmy was different; he was totally clingy the moment you returned to his life. He feared letting you go meant you'd disappear again, feared you'd run away again. He held your hand at every possible opportunity, got you a fresh bouquet of weekly flowers, ran all his errands with you; never went to bed without you, cooked all meals with you in the kitchen - perched up on a counter. Most showers you took together, and almost every night was spent cuddling on the couch or in bed with either a book being shared between you or a new show playing on the mounted flatscreen TV.
Carmy clung because he thought if he showed you acts of his love, it'd allow comfort towards your loving behavior to flourish again - and he was right. It took a little bit of time, but Carmy clung tighter and tighter; ensuring you started to reciprocate before ever easing up in the intensity of his affectionate displays. He didn't want to overwhelm you, but knew you needed the reassurance.
You were cautious, you were apprehensive; tiptoeing around Carmy even when living together before warming back up to him. You didn't need to repeat the words he hurled at you all those weeks ago, not wanting to dredge up repressed feelings, but never letting him forget what he said. Your actions spoke enough, skittish around his affection; something Carmy took note of and despised himself for. He made up for it, of course he did, it was Carmy and he hated tension and conflict in his closest circles of life. Yet it wasn't so easy for you two to move forward, they weren't just words to you.
They were direct insults to you as a person; to you and how you loved others. Carmy had seen your deepest fear and used it as a defense against you - wanting you to hurt the way he was, too. He understood this wasn't acceptable, knowing the next time he resorted to such despicable actions, you'd simply walk away; never dealing with disrespect, so, he needed to be acutely aware of his words.
You would never allow yourself to be someone else's doormat, but part of being an adult is understanding that people were allowed to make mistakes - it's part of being fucking human. How terrible you'd feel if someone held your own mistakes against you, because the truth was, you weren't perfect either.
Part of being in a(n adult) relationship is understanding when someone apologized, it was best to accept and move on because nothing was ever solved by dragging turmoil out. This didn't mean forget what happened, forget whatever emotion was evoked - but to do your part to repair what was broken; no matter who was at fault, it always took Two to Tango.
And in this song and dance, you were ready to sweep around the dance floor if only with Carmy. Because that's what a relationship was; a conscious effort by both partners to work as one, to dance in-sync; owning the art together, as equal partners.
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Hi, I'm Amy and this is the chapter list for the first part of my 'The Bear & The Fox' Series!
Hope you stick around and remember that comments are always appreciated even on older chapters!
Bonus link to my Carmy one shots:
Cigarette smoke & Spices
Paint strained kisses
Part I: The Bear & The Fox (Carmy Berzatto x Fem!Reader)
Chapter 1: Bear meets fox.
Chapter 2: Like a fox caught in the headlights.
Chapter 3: Pin a fox skin to the wall, call it decoration.
Chapter 4: Bring a fox to a bear fight.
Chapter 5: The Fantastic Mrs. Fox pt. 1
Chapter 6: The Fantastic Mrs. Fox pt. 2
Chapter 7: Into the bear's den
Chapter 8: Bear Cubs
Chapter 9: You catch more bears with honey
Chapter 10: Bared teeth and knuckles red
Chapter 11: Collateral Damage
Chapter 12: A Carmy shade of blue
Chapter 13: Epilogue
F: Fluff | S: smut | A: angst
Harry is a singledad and a nurse. Y/n is a postgraduate student, who fits perfectly the spot for Estela's babysitter.
Tender (F)
Harry calls Y/n to help him with Estela and she ends up staying at the Styles house for the night.
Estela gets hurt at the playground
Estela learns that some rules aren't up to negotiation
Estela facetiming Y/n and Harry when she's at her mom's
Y/n and Harry enjoying some time alone (a bit smutish)
Christmas morning
Estela wants to cuddle with y/n but she's not home
Estela has a bad day and misses her dad
Estela sneaks out of her crib
Estela sneaking in Harry and Y/n's bed
Grocery shopping
Estela misses Y/n: #1 and #2
Y/n spoiling Estela: #1 and #2
Day at the autumn fair: #1 and #2
Afternoon at a park together #1 and #2
Instagram concept
A/n: we will only be doing concepts at the moment because I'm having a hard time writing.
The way they met, Estela's first night with Y/n, Y/n bringing Estela to the hospital because she gets sick and how they fell in love will be written as blurbs in the future
Pairing: Yoongi x (f.) Reader
Genre/Tags: exes-to-lovers-to-exes-to-lovers; actress!OC x basketball coach!Yoongi; summer romance; “long” distance relationship; parallel timelines; angst, fluff, smut
Series Warnings: foul/explicit language; alcohol consumption & passing out, family drama, sport injury; dreams & moving away; implied depression; basketball and acting talk; 2014 and 2022 Yoongi; shy and nonchalant cocky whipped Yoongi; explicit sexual content (specific warnings stated per chapter) (18+)
Word count: 99.4k
Status: Complete
Series summary: Being an actor has always been your dream. Pursuing it meant many things - leaving the town where you grew up, distancing yourself from your family that had fallen apart, and saying goodbye to the man who made you feel what home was like. When you decide to finally return after being away for so long, you meet Min Yoongi again, and you’re reminded of the summer romance from 8 years ago with the college basketball superstar whose broken dream pushed you away. As you find yourself spending time with him, you’re left to wonder if love changes, if it gives second chances, or if it’s just another illusion that will hurt the both of you the second time around.
Maybe one day, in 10 years perhaps, or in another lifetime… Maybe then, we’ll finally choose us.
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A/N: Long-haired Yoongi in a basketball setting has not left my mind so here he is! This one’s a little emotional since I’m currently in an LDR to *pursue* my dreams so I hope you like it! 🫣🥹 No schedule of the posting this time (school/work is a little intense) so please just stay tuned. 😊
Part 01: Present day
1.5: Rewind
Part 02: Present day
2.5 Rewind
Part 03: Present day
3.5 Rewind
Part 04: Present day
4.5 Rewind
Post-credits
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summary: after some convincing from your girls and a conversation with harry, you decide to make your much anticipated return to the paddock. naturally, drama follows.
vicious speaks: this chapter is all about race weekend, baby!
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fan1 MOTHER
fan2 I USED TO PRAY FOR THIS
fan3 the way you look at harry 🥹💕
fan4 PLEASE TELL ME THIS MEANS YOUR COMING TO THE RACE
yourbff gonna be so much fun 💕
annetwist can’t wait to see you two ❤️
⤷ yourusername same here 🫶🏼
fan5 let grab a snack in case something happens
oscarpiastri gonna be epic 🤪
⤷ yourusername the emoji is sending me
⤷ oscarpiastri it felt right
fan6 all the races in the world and you had to choose the one most important to lando. obsessed much?
ynharrysthird i'm never wrong
fan7 stay away from lando attention seeker
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lando let’s get it 🏎️
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fan1 HOME RACE, BABY 🇬🇧
fan2 cheering you on from home!!
fan3 LETS GOOOO
fan4 don’t let that bitch being at the race distract you!! you got this 💋 ♥︎ by author
fan5 uhhh we all saw that like right?
⤷ fan6 yup
⤷ fan7 he’s pathetic
fan8 jealousy is a disease
fan9 yn has handled everything with such class. sad you can’t say the same.
fan10 rooting for you! to lose.
fan11 let my man be petty if he feels like it! ♥︎ by author
fan12 you’re such a weirdo
fan13 omg you guys need to calm down, they didn’t even say yns name and you’re out here assuming
⤷ fan14 they didn’t have be to mention her by name, she’s the only one who recently hinted at attending the race
fan15 bro still isn’t over his break up that happened more than a year ago 😂
fan16 free my girl yn! she didn’t do anything wrong, her ex is just obsessed with her
fan17 stay stay stay the fuck away from yn and harry
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harrystyles team dinner 🍽️
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fan lmao harry said “we’re good over here!”
yourusername 🖤🤍🖤🤍
⤷ harrystyles ♥️
fan2 if “i took your girl and your friends” was an instagram post
yourbff the best time with the best people ♥︎ by author
fan3 the way she looks at you…GOD 🥹🫶🏼
maxverstappen1 team dinners are now mandatory for every race week
⤷ charles_leclerc yourusername harrystyles the catch is that you have to attend every single one
⤷ harrystyles i’m down
⤷ yourusername what the hell sure 👍 quitting our jobs to just follow you guys around sounds good to me
⤷ oscarpiastri it’s all going according to plan 😏
⤷ yourusername pls
lewishamilton best way to enter a race week 🍷♥︎ by author
fan4 “team dinner” yet lando is nowhere to be found 🙄
⤷ fan5 are you being serious? he cheated on yn, shaded her and harry on twitter, and liked a comment today that was calling her a bitch. why the fuck would he be invited?
fan6 the caption might as well be “fuck lando norris” 😭😭
lilymhe so glad you guys are here to experience this with us 🥰 ♥︎ by author
francolopinto nice hanging out with you again, man 🤘🏼
⤷ harrystyles you too, mate! we gotta have a guys trip soon ✈️
⤷ francolopinto yourusername your boyfriend is so cool
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⤷ oscarpiastri ^
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⤷ danielricciardo ^
⤷ yourbff ^
⤷ carlossainz55 ^
⤷ yourusername 😭😭
⤷ fan7 oh harry you are so loved 🫂
fan8 i just know this post is killing that man
⤷ fan9 omg stop making everything about lando
⤷ fan10 *lando* makes everything about lando. we just react accordingly.
ynharrysthird me seeing the 1st slide: 🥰 me seeing the last slide: 😵💫 ♥︎ by yourusername
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ferrari ❤️
fan THE DAY HAS COME 🔥❤️🔥❤️🔥
alexandrasaintmleux the paddock isn’t readyyyy ♥︎ by author
fan2 can’t wait to see what you’re wearing!!
gemmastyles have fun!! ♥︎ by author
f1wags welcome back, paddock princess 💖 it’s been boring without you
yourbff so! excited!
⤷ yourusername SAME
fan3 still can’t believe you’re back 🥹
itsaria have so much fun!! and remember, if that muppet comes anywhere near you, RUN. or let harry lose on him 🤷🏼♀️ just ft me first so i can watch it happen
⤷ yourusername lmaooo ur ridiculous 😭😭
harrystyles can’t wait to experience this with you ❤️
⤷ yourusername same here 🫶🏼
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alexandrasaintmleux oop! 🤭
⤷ yourusername 🤭
fan oh so you’ve definitely seen the interview
itsaria CLEARED ♥︎ by author
fan3 not you bringing out the taylor lyrics 😭 it’s so over for him
gemmastyles just say the word and i’ll make him regret ever being born
⤷ yourusername omg 😭💕
oscarpiastri subtle shade isn’t enough, you need to let me kill him
⤷ yourusername dkfjfhks love u 🫶🏼
⤷ oscarpiastri love you too 🧡
ynharrysthird end his ass!
francisca.cgomes had to talk pierre out of confronting lando after that interview even though i didn’t want to
⤷ yourusername omg lmao i love you guys 💓💓💓
⤷ francisca.cgomes you know we love you 💞
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yourusername camera crumbs: race weekend edition ♥️
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harrystyles third slide 😍
⤷ yourusername 💋
⤷ oscarpiastri they’re being gross again 🫠
⤷ yourusername oh calm down, this is so tame
⤷ oscarpiastri trust me i know, i’ve caught a glimpse at your texts before
⤷ fan HELLO? 😭😭
ynharrysthird such an iconic weekend 🔥 ♥︎ by author
annetwist looks like fun!!
⤷ yourusername omg you and gemmastyles should come with me to a race!!
⤷ gemmastyles just say when!
⤷ fan2 a trio i didn’t know i needed to see at a race until right now
mclaren betrayal 💔
⤷ yourusername IT’S NOT WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE
⤷ ferrari isn’t it, though? she’s our girl now
⤷ mclaren blocked.
⤷ fan3 not ferrari being messy 😭
oscarpiastri can’t believe i didn’t make the post
⤷ yourusername didn’t fit my aesthetic, sorry
⤷ oscarpiastri woooow
lilymhe so much funnnn ♥︎ by author
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harrystyles camera crumbs: vacation edition ☀️
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yourusername 💛
⤷ harrystyles 💛
fan daisy in the 2nd and 4th slide 🥹🥹
annetwist my darlings ❤️ missing you already ♥︎ by author and yourusername
fan2 this post is sooo daylight coded 🥰
ynharrysthird the matching captions <3 <3 <3
alexandrasaintmleux wifey looks so good in the last slide 😍
⤷ harrystyles she’s literally my girlfriend?
⤷ yourusername don’t listen to him, ur the only one for me 😚
⤷ harrystyles charles_leclerc they’re doing it again
⤷ charles_leclerc just accept defeat. i have.
⤷ fan3 crying real tears
gemmastyles already miss yn and daisy so much ❤️🩹
⤷ harrystyles what about me?
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Hey love, do you know any fics of Tom x reader where she is insecure and jealous with Zendaya? Anything works, your amazing at this💗🥺
insecure!reader
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imagine being insecure about tom and zendaya’s friendship by @celebrities-imagines
insecure by @ashisbaeee
jealous by @spiderboytotherescue
oneshots
the cool brother by @cosmicholland
versace on the floor by @livingmybestfictionallife
summary: you’re insecure over tom’s reaction to zendaya in the “versace on the floor” music video.
insecure by @tomhollandglasses
missing you by @tomhsparker
summary: tom is away at sdcc while promoting spider-man: homecoming. things start to go downhill as a facetime call ensues and jealousy arises.
jealous by @avengers-sweethearts
predictable by @dr0wning-in-hell
summary: tom is seen more with zendaya than his own girlfriend, and a photo of them locking lips in public just brings y/n’s life crashing down on her.
i will always choose you by @favefandomimagines
jealous, much? by @killer-barnes
summary: the reader is jealous of tom and zendaya’s relationship. however, tom is there to reassure them.
doesn’t compare by @stylesharrys (new)
summary: you’re not supposed to hear it, but you do, and it just confirms everything you ever wondered and you’re stuck with what to do next.
I remain to be a mystery! I write, I read, I stan!\https://missleahlin.tumblr.com/post/613344204591087616/masterlist
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