Now And Then – Lucie, Cordelia, Grace

one of my biggest worries about acowar is that, yeah, Sarah said that feysand is 1000% endgame, but there is notHING THAT SAYS ENDGAME MEANS ALIVE

Lorcan Salvaterre

Lorcan took Rowan’s whipping for him, and then asked the cadre not to tell him. Also, whereas most of the cadre is wanted physically by Maeve, she laughed in his face when he offered himself to her. In no way will I blame him for trying to protect someone he loves by calling on a toxic relationship, the only thing close to love he’s ever known, that has been manipulated and abused by Maeve for centuries. Especially when Aelin isn’t telling anyone her plans and expects her court to react in a certain way to what was thought to be an attack. 

All the characters did wrong in this situation and everyone needs to apologize to each other, but that everyone’s saying Lorcan needs to do all the apologizing isn’t right. Elide said some pretty awful things that needs to be counted for. I ADORE her character, and her saying that she hopes Lorcan spends the rest of his eternal life miserable and alone was like a knife to my heart. He could’ve gone about the situation better, of course, but he is not the only one to blame. 

I DUNNO ABOUT YOU, BUT THERE WILL BE NO HATE FOR LORCAN SALVATERRE FROM ME 

I've said it before and I'm going to say it again -

A LOT OF YA WRITERS NEED TO TAKE A PAGE FROM THE "KERRI MENISCALCO BOOK OF MALE CHARACTERS" AND LEARN HOW TO WRITE DARK, MYSTERIOUS AND YET NON-TOXIC MALE LEADS.

YOU CAN BE COLD WITHOUT BEING A COMPLETE JERK AND THERE CAN BE BANTER WITHOUT MAKING REMARKS ABOUT HOW YOU WANT TO RAIL THE FEMALE PROTAGONIST.

YOUR MALE LEAD CAN HAVE SEXUAL THOUGHTS ABOUT THE FEMALE LEAD WITHOUT SOUNDING LIKE A PREDATOR.

Hell, even mephistopheles was a shit ton better than a lot of male protagonists we have and he was the manipulative one.

“I do not love you as I love Cristina. I love you as I love you,” said Mark. He bent his head. “I wish that you could see my heart. Then you would understand.”

It seemed she could not think of Mark without thinking of Kieran, too. Could not see blue and gold eyes without seeing black and silver. 

 "Mark needs kindness,” Kieran said, after a long pause. “And so do I.”

“Hot faerie threesome,” said Emma cheerfully. “I can say I knew you when.”

These random waves of sadness when your doing just fine will be the end of me. How is my heart still dropping every time I remember

14

Is YA for YA?

Me being curious and doing a dumb survey here.

If you’re comfortable doing so and are in the ACOTAR/SJM fandom: Reblog this and tag your age.

I want to see what kind of age range a fandom around ‘New Adult’ sits in. The books are often put in the YA section, but there’s smut in them, and we all know the fandom LOVES chapter 55. This is kind of for relevant data for the ‘Is Sex in YA OKAY?’ debate. 

Spreadsheet with results (being updated whenever I can) can be viewed here for those who are interested. Feel free to use this data for whatever fandom Meta/discussion you like. 

May my identity be deeply woven as the rocks in the river so no current can sweep it away

Tahereh Mafi: *announces three new Shatter Me books* *will have juliette and warner POV*

Me: my skin is clear, my crops are thriving, i have 20/20 vision, my grades are up, the sun is shining, i feel so alive, world order has been restored

I came across some cards, describing personages. And I decided to draw them, with their favorite animals. To be continued...

Ok but as I’ve been rereading acomaf I’ve come to a conclusion

I know this might be a little late but

- Feyre didn’t smile or laugh. The first time she met with the inner circle, she simply asked questions and tried to judge the circle based on the short time.

- under the mountain, Feyre welcomed drinking so that she could forget herself

- Feyre often denied her feelings for Rhysand and wrote off her feelings as lust and said that maybe they could use each other for just sex, at least at first

- she was so skinny at some point, and was always sleeping

- Rhysand tried to make her mad, to flirt and get any emotion out of her in acomaf

Yet there were/are some people who were annoyed with Nesta in acofas? Honestly, did you not read how long it took for Feyre to smile at Rhysand? He took her in, saved her and offered her a life, and yet it still took her a long time to smile at him! I don’t even want to see someone say Feyre went through more.

- Nesta was pulled from her life, violently after her mother died and then her father’s knee was messed up

- Nesta was so depressed and so angry, she blamed it all on her father, cause he did nothing

- he watched as they began starving, and Nesta wanted to see how he’d let it go before he actually did something

- Feyre comes in and saves the day, hunting and giving them food, and Nesta begins to resent her a little because Nesta was convinced at some point their father would help

- Nesta clung onto her manners through out, because that’s what kept her tied to her old life and to her mother

- Nesta started actually liking someone, getting hope for herself and Feyre turned it down, refused, her little sister told her no, which probably hurt Nesta’s pride

- then, Feyre gets kidnapped, and her father and Elain assume she’s going off to some foreign aunt

- they get money, and yet again Feyre is the one to save them all, and Nesta decides to perhaps do some saving

- SHE WENT TO TRY TO GO SAVE FEYRE, NOT THEIR FATHER, NOT ELAIN, NESTA.

- then Feyre comes back, looking healthy, and not at all what Nesta assumed she’d look like but Feyre explains that she fell in love with the high lord, a. high. lord.

- Nesta tells her to go get him, despite knowing that Feyre very well may not come back ever

- Feyre spent three months under the mountain, three months! She didn’t even contact Elain or Nesta until like 6 months later! 6 months of worrying about Feyre and assuming the worst and mourning her but not being able to tell Elain

- yet also worrying for Elain because of what happened to Claire Beddor

- Feyre comes in with an entirely different high lord, and as high fae, a strong and beautiful high fae

- think about the power Feyre earned so quickly, and Nesta I believe wanted to be like that, strong when she couldn’t be and selfless when everyone else was selfish

- Nesta sees these gorgeous males, and one finally puts her in her spot about not being like Feyre, not going out into the terrifying woods to hunt to save their family, she’s insulted, not only because it’s true but because it means Feyre talked about them and she had no idea what Feyre might have said

- Because Nesta wants to protect Elain, she goes with their idea despite how reckless it is

- and then Nesta and Elain are taken, because Nesta allowed them to use their house and Nesta’s life is uprooted AGAIN

- then Feyre wants Nesta to bare herself in front of the very people Nesta used to resent (fae)

- and Nesta starts to find herself falling for Cassian, and when they’re both on the brink of death is only when they both admit it

- the war is over, Elain and Feyre are safe, but Nesta has to cope with losing her life, her father and the sisters she once knew

- Elain and Feyre both join this new family, but Nesta wants no part in it because it’s the family Feyre earned, the family Feyre stayed with when she abandoned Elain and Nesta, and they make her feel like an outsider

- so ya she found bad ways to cope and deal with her newfound immortality for a while but honestly that’s being realistic, so I applaud Sarah J Maas for this complicated character

Btw not only was this inspired by my rereading of the acotar series, but I’ve really grown as a writer and developing my characters and I understand the complexity that comes with it

… so ya that’s my two months late rant on that subject