I'm A Horrible Person

I'm a Horrible Person

Ok so I was on Tumblr this morning, as per usual, and I found a post that makes me fell legitimately bad about myself. It was Ray talking about Tumblr, during a live stream, or something like that I'm pretty sure. What made me feel guilty was the fact that I do ship him with someone else in the office and, I just felt like a piece of shit. Iguess that's why I wanted to type this all out. I really just feel so, so bad about it. I wouldn't have been in their faces about it but none the less it really makes me feel awful that I would do it. They are both living and breathing human beings and I'm reducing them down to some idealized version of that. I wish I could say that I was just going to stop doing it at this point but, part of me doesn't think I can stop thinking the way I have been for the past few weeks. The other part doesn't want to. I enjoy the group as a whole but Ray and the other person's interactions make my day. So all I can do is apologize and do my best to keep what I think to myself. This is the only mention of it there will be on any social media site from this point on. And now the fun part. I'm really, really sorry Ray. Like from the bottom of my heart sorry. I really look up to all of you (Look up to might not fit Gavin but hey) and, I feel like I failed you guys as a fan somewhere along the line. I'm not expecting you to even seen this let alone be all like "It's cool man". This is just so I can maybe feel a little better about myself for all of this. So I guess the only thing left to do is thank everyone at Rooster Teeth for being amazing people.