oh to get wine drunk with your childhood best friend
have you ever been 15 and there's this guy who's obsessed with you and you don't know why but you figure, it's only because he thinks he can't have you and honestly he's a bit of an arsehole but mostly towards your best friend. and yes, your best friend doesn't always act right but you've known him since you were kids and you know he can be good and he is, he so often is, but hangs out with the wrong people, that's it. but then he goes and betrays your trust completely and you can never forgive him because you told him so many times that he needed to open his eyes but he never did. and actually the arsehole who's obsessed with you is the opposite. he listens, he changes. and you start to realise, he knows you. while you ignored him (for all the good reasons) he's been paying attention and knows what you like, what you're like, and what you think is right or wrong. and he wants to be good for you, the best version of himself, so you give him a chance and you start dating and all of a sudden you're involved in his friend group that is not really a polycule but is certainly extremely codependent? happened to my good friend lily evans
professor flitwick called james and sirius “like brothers” not bc they were like brothers but bc wizarding society is heteronormative and bc he knew of no other way to describe two boys so codependent and in tune with one other. in this essay i will
While I do think eventually Kabru would be okay with Mithrun and Milsiril dating, I think that at first he would have some regrets over encouraging Mithrun to discover new desires if one of these desires turns out to be a desire to fuck his mom (understandable)
that ship is toxic to YOU. to me it's a complex, multi-layered, essay-worthy dynamic that'd take numerous hours to dissect (during which i'll spend crying screaming tearing my hair out)
Me, doing my silly little crafts, trying not to fall into a hopeless abyss:
Fandom terms have to sound silly, like blorbo or squick, because fandom needs humbling. Not a lot. But just every so often you need a good grounding reminder that all of this is literally made up nonsense for fun.
If you take a fictional thing so seriously that silly words genuinely annoy you, you've gone too far and you need to dial it back.
I love all the hints at Jean not coping that well with being Acting Grand Master, because to nearly everyone it seems like she is but she just kinda isn't. Like, obviously there's her story quest where she just collapses from overworking herself but there are all these other examples that show that homegirl is not alright.
Like Jean this is not a normal way to consume coffee. This seems a lot more like dependence than "coffee just makes me feel a bit more awake" or just liking the drink.
And like wdym she's completing random reviews at 3am because she got sick (probably from overworking) and then not allowing herself to buy a book. Like that's just sad.
Like bro Mona took one look at Jean's constellation and was like "girl you've had too much on your plate for FAR too long". And then probably realised how depressing that sounded and was like "idk she's like really strong thoughhhh, it's not all baddd"
Like even Kaeya's concerned bro. At least she's got him looking out for her though.