I Want To Be Alone

I didn’t think you’d fall in love with me.

In the Mood for Love 花樣年華 (2000) dir. Wong Kar Wai

some pages from my current journal, maybe one of my fav so far (n.89/2022)

Neon Genesis Evangelion (1997)

ph Nasos Karabelas

BALLAD OF FALLEN ANGELS

COWBOY BEBOP (1998) dir. Shinichirō Watanabe

i had this reoccuring dream of my younger self and my mom hidden in a room where every wall is hidden in red curtains they go to the top the ground is black with random orange and yellow dots like a design you would see on the seat of a bus. there is a door i always forget when i wake up. i don't know whats behind it and i doubt i will ever find out. recently i had this dream again. the thing is i don't know if i actually had this dream before it just felt so familiar like i have seen it before but i haven't it needs to be in another dream. in this dream i had recently i was in the living room panicking i could see trough the slit in the door that the people are coming to get me. randomly i see a hole in the ceiling like skylight i can see the room from the way down but the rectangular hole is too small for me to fit through. i can actually not even really see the room but i know that it is the one with the red curtains. i have this bitter feeling. maybe i've dreamed this as a kid before but now it is hidden behind a foggy wall luring me in to forget everything. there is something hiding behind those red curtains. i will come back to this if i ever see the red curtains again

{2022} 07 Whose house is this? from Memories Of Dying

To love life even when you have no stomach for it as they say!