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AARON TAYLOR-JOHNSON as Pietro Maximoff / Quicksilver in Avengers: Age of Ultron (2015), dir. Joss Whedon
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âœïœĄâ being in a relationship with a formula 1 driver like lando was hard, but not impossible. right? a story based on THE GREATEST by billie eilish. â lando norris x fem!reader
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â Iâm trying my best to keep you satisfied â
Loving a formula 1 driver, let alone being in a relationship with one, wasnât easy. But that didnât stop you. In fact, you were sure nothing was ever going to be able to get in between the love that Lando and you shared, the kisses and the late night cuddles, the fun family dinners and the celebrations of his milestones. Everything was so perfect.
Yes, sometimes itâs hard to meet his standards, sometimes having you leave your own family to go attend races with him, or the blatant flirting he would still be partaking in at after-race parties, it was definitely a flaw of your relationship, but maybe you shouldâve just worn something prettier or done your makeup in a different way, in the end itâs your fault if his attention wasnât keen on you, right?
But no matter what, you were ready to do it for him. Heâs your main priority, just as he should be. Thatâs what makes a relationship a functioning one, doesnât it?
â Let you get your rest while I stayed up all night â
Of course you werenât always his main priority, but who were you to judge him? Heâs a professional racing driver, itâs not only a job but a complete career, and he wouldnât trade it for anything in this world. Having a world championship under his belt, that was more important than you. You just have to live like that, someone had to put in the work for the relationship. And because it definitely wasnât Lando, it was you. But you didnât mind, youâd do it all over again for him. Because you truly loved him, and to you, there was nothing in this world stronger than love.
So when you both finally get home after a long race weekend, you donât mind doing the cooking and cleaning and laundry for him. You also donât mind him going to sleep while youâre up packing up luggage for him and you to depart for the next GP. You wouldâve appreciated some skin contact after such a busy and nerve wrecking weekend, but if he needed rest, then he should have it. You could rest another time, maybe during the flight or while he was spending time with his friends. You werenât sure why, but Lando always insisted on not having you with him, always making up excuses why you couldnât come even if in reality, you were at âhomeâ trying to get used to the new place youâd have to stay at for the next week. Maybe you wouldâve preferred being with him, or having him with you, or being in your home country with your loved ones he was yet to meet, but thatâs okay. He had his fun with his friends and their girlfriends, thatâs what mattered.
Maybe he didnât want you there because, while he dated a girl heâs known since forever, a girl who knew him before his win and his fame and his career, all the others were dating models and successful women. Maybe you embarrassed him a little bit, so you were understanding when he told you to stay at home. His fans didnât exactly love you either, so actually, it was really thoughtful of him not to have you by his side when he went out, because then his fan base and the news wouldnât be able to pick at every little flaw you had, which you had surprisingly lots of, as the media told you.
The clock read 5am when you finally finished packing up the luggage and went to bed yourself. Well, not the bed but rather the couch, because Lando had just previously told you not to wake him if he was already asleep, and who were you to rip him out of his peaceful slumber when he had so much pressure on him the last three days? It was a little cold, but thatâs okay. It was just kinda difficult to fall asleep on the small, hard, uncomfortable couch.
The clock read 8am when you woke up to prepare breakfast for him and you.
â And you donât wanna know how alone Iâve been â
You knew better than to complain. Of course you felt a little bit alone in the huge apartments while he was away, spending time at the track or in the gym with his friends. How could you not? You were in a country youâve never been in before, a country with no familiar faces or friends or people you could talk to besides the McLaren team and well, your boyfriend. But in the end, Lando showed you the world. And you had to be grateful for that. Even if he basically just pushed you around the world and then picked you up again when it was time to travel farther. And god, how you missed your family. And how deeply you wanted them to meet your one and only love, Lando. It was sickening, the need to be at home again.
One time after a long day of qualifying, you told Lando about your homesickness and that you felt a bit alone on this journey.
He got mad and told you if you wanted, you could just leave. Heâs not keeping you here. 20 minutes after, you were stood in the kitchen making dinner for the two of you. Your response to âAre you actually fucking crying right now?â was a quiet âI was just cutting onions.â
His reply to âI thought we were eating together, I made dinnerâ was âIâm going out to eat with Charles and his girlfriend.â
You felt your heart break in that second, but he was just mad and not thinking straight. Outbursts are okay sometimes.
â Let you come and go, whatever state Iâm in â
You spent the whole evening and night crying, putting his food in the fridge in case he was hungry later. The tears didnât stop until he came back through the door, obviously a bit tipsy. He quickly wrapped his arms around you and told you how sorry he was, telling you that next time, he would take you with him to dinner. You knew it wasnât true, and he knew as well.
At least you felt his touch again, his arms around you and his rough fingers caressing your cheek. That was worth the tears and the unappreciated cooking.
â Man am I the greatest? My congratulations â
Miami GP â24. Landoâs first win in his Formula 1 career. You were the proudest girlfriend in the world and you couldnât wait to celebrate his win with him tomorrow, knowing heâd be busy partying with the others today. Youâre in Miami, after all. And he has just won. Of course he had to celebrate that with his boys, surrounded by beautiful women and loads of alcohol. He would never cheat on you, but you were sure he wouldnât mind being in the presence of some women who were gifted with a prettier face and body than you were. Thatâs okay, at least he doesnât use you for your looks.
As he stood there on the highest step of the podium, smiling like a little kid who had just fulfilled his dreams, smiling like he once had smiled at you, it made you so incredibly happy and emotional and you couldnât wait to finally see him and give him a big celebration kiss.
Once he was back in the paddock he told you to wait until the cameras were gone. You didnât get a hug either. Not until you were back in the apartment.
At last. you got your hug and a kiss. As a goodbye before he left with Max.
â All my love and patience, all my admiration â
The day after, you woke up at 7, waiting for him to wake up while you were already up in the kitchen, baking a small cake with a âoneâ on it, all decorated in orange.
Even if you were left unsatisfied yesterday, that didnât stop you from still feeling eternally proud of him, and proud to be able to call yourself his girlfriend. He was so dedicated to the things he loved, it was a pleasure to watch him go through life with his determination. Racing was his passion, thereâs no shame in sometimes forgetting your girlfriend for it.
He finally entered the kitchen at 12, smiling at the small cake placed upon the dining table. âSurprise!â You said, and he immediately went to hug and kiss you, smiling just as brightly as he did on that podium. Moments like these were a reminder that he did in fact love you, and once again, that itâs all worth it.
â All the times I waited for you to want me naked â
You often wondered how the others managed to keep up their relationships.
Just recently you were having lunch with the other WAGs at a restaurant near the circuit. Originally, you didnât want to come, still feeling insecure about what the media has to say about you, the ugly duckling around the most beautiful women in F1 history. However, they insisted. At the table the girls began talking about the party after Landoâs win, and how proud you mustâve been to see him on that podium. You loved talking about it, until you were asked why you didnât come with him to the party. A lame excuse of âI was just tired and not feeling wellâ made the others look at you weirdly. How could she be so selfish and miss her boyfriendâs afterparty for that? Alex, Charlesâ girlfriend smiled at you with a knowing look, but you pretended not to notice, feeling embarrassed.
The next topic at the table was rather intimate, and you wanted to puke right then and there. Were you really the only one who hasnât been touched in so long, because there just wasnât enough time between all the travelling and racing and exhaustion? Or were you just not good enough? Was it really your looks? Should you change?
You missed it dearly, the intimate times with Lando. The ones where he finally took care of you instead of the other way around, the ones where you could feel the connection between you two with all your senses. Was it your fault that these times stopped? Lando was so perfect, it just couldnât be his fault.
Maybe you just had to wait until he wanted you again.
â Made it all look painless, man, am I the greatest? â
You didnât show your feelings often, not your real ones. The times he had catched you crying for him on you knees were pathetic little situations he shouldnât have seen you in. When asked, you denied. âDo you feel lonely in this relationship?â â âNo.â âDoes he make you cry often?â â âNo.â âDo you think your relationship is slowly breaking apart?â â âNo.â
Talking about it with the women around the paddocks or when youâd facetime your friends from home, you never once said anything bad about Lando. Never once complained about how he treated you or how he ignored your feelings and your endeavors. Not even your closest friends knew what was really going on, or maybe, you just didnât know that yourself. In your mind, this was just a phase where his career just made it impossible for him to focus on you. Someday this would change. Sooner or later, it would change.
For everyone else, you had the greatest, perfect, flawless relationship. And you didnât mind keeping that imagine up. For his sake.
â Doing whatâs right without a reward â
And so it kept going. You making efforts, him abandoning you. No matter what you did for him, no matter how much heart and love you put in for him, it was left unappreciated. But thatâs okay, still. You were in a relationship, your only task was to love him, and you did. Because thatâs the right thing to do in a relationship, and for him, youâd do anything. No matter if he appreciated it or not at the moment, you knew that, eventually, he would.
â And we donât have to fight when itâs not worth fighting for â
At least you hoped that he would change someday, so far he obviously hadnât, and it was slowly getting to you in a more serious manner. In a way that might worry you and the people around you, in a way you wouldnât forget. That one time you prepared dinner for the both of you and he went out with Charles and Alex instead, it was all forgotten in a matter of seconds when he apologized. But now every single interaction he had with other women haunted you, asleep or awake. No apology would help you actually think he would change his current treatment towards you, and as it seemed, he didnât care either.
There was no point in fighting anymore, no point in telling him how you feel whenever he walks out the door, leaving you alone with nothing but your awful thoughts. For fuckâs sake, you left all you had behind to be there for him, and how does he show his gratefulness? He doesnât, because he isnât fucking grateful, and he couldnât care less about you and your dumb feelings. He doesnât care that you want nothing more than to finally be able to introduce him to your family, he doesnât care that you gave up your own career for his, and he doesnât care that while heâs treating you the way he is, all the people who knew the both of you and basically the whole internet was only picking you apart. Never him.
Oh you were such a shitty girlfriend refusing to kiss him in front of the cameras after his first win, but wasnât he the one who pushed you away? And how could you miss the party that night, the party dedicated to your oh soo perfect boyfriend? Do you not care about him enough? Were you not proud? So many girls would trade their life for a day in your shoes, and you just didnât appreciate that? What a disappointment you are to the WAGs, and what a disappointment you must be to Lando.
âLando please, listen to me,â â âNo, Iâm done with your insufferable complaining all the time. I meant it the first time I said it and I mean it now, if you wanna leave, leave.â
â And you donât wanna know what I wouldâve done, anything at all, worse than anyone â
You wouldâve walked through fire for him to love you again. For everything to go back like it once was. When he would brag about you to his friends and even in interview, when he took you to hang out with his friends and to parties, always keeping an arm around your shoulders so other guys wouldnât even dare to look at you, when he was so eager to fulfill not only his, but also your dreams, wether that be a simple one, like him meeting your parents in your childhood home, or the greater ones, like becoming not only a good, but a great graphic designer. When he would watch you draw and perfect yet the smallest details with nothing but the growing admiration for you visible in his eyes. When he would kiss you good night and good morning, when he would ask about your day and passionately tell you about his. Back to when he had loved you. But now it was too late. All the things you had done for him, all the things you would probably still do, in the end, were for nothing more than a broken heart.
The sleepless nights. The nerve wrecking days. The painful parting from your family and friends. The abandonment of the life with him you had so desperately wished for.
It was all for nothing.
â I loved you, and I still do. Just wanted passion from you, just wanted what I gave you â
Last day before the summer break, the last race. And probably, the last day of him and you.
You were done with his shit, the sad look on your face visible to everyone in the room as you sat and watched the race from the McLaren hospitality, his parents seated next to you. Something felt very off, your usual happy and optimistic demeanor completely washed off, replaced by a dark, almost expressionless look. They sensed that something might have happened between Lando and you, but nobody dared to ask, too busy watching the intense race.
The outcome was disappointing, Lando finishing behind Max, the one heâd have to beat to win the championship. The team and the people inside the paddock and the hospitality clapped for him and Oscar anyway, with Oscar finishing second and Lando fifth. You cheered and smiled, but it didnât reach your eyes. You knew what was to come once youâd be back in the hotel. You were scared, sure it would be the most painful thing youâd ever have to do, putting all the things youâd done for him, all the things heâd done to you, in its shadow.
The celebration went well, again, no hug or kiss for you. You were sure his mother had even scolded him for it, but that wasnât important anymore. You didnât really care anyway, the media would run their mouths about you anyway, and Lando surely doesnât give a shit either way. You desperately needed an answer, you wanted him to explain it to you. What had suddenly happen, what did you do wrong, for him to suddenly act like this? And if he fell out of love, then why couldnât he just tell you?
Meanwhile Lando was busy celebrating Oscarâs podium, taking pictures for the McLaren instagram account and whatnot, then doing the post race interviews.
He loved you, he really did. But he just didnât see you as someone he wanted to spend this life with. He couldnât imagine living his private life without you by his side, he wanted you to come with him to visit his family at home, to come with him when he would meet up with Max and the others during summer break or really, he wanted to just do nothing with you, nothing but share small kisses and cuddling on his couch at home, eating some homemade food and drinking a glass of wine together. At the same time, he thought that you didnât fit in. Not in this life.
You met when he wasnât yet the person he is now. When he was still passionate about so many other things other than just racing. Of course this had always been a part of him, but so were you. And now its just racing that occupied his mind, no single corner in his head left for his girlfriend. He knew it hurt you, but at the same time, part of what the media had to say about you was true. The first season he had spent with you by his side, the internet was already raging about how you werenât the typical WAG, and how they thought seeing you next to someone like a Kelly Piquet, you did seem a little weird. Lando didnât want to be confronted with these opinions anymore, so instead of standing up for you, he decided to âhideâ you. To not put you in the center of attention after a race to hug and kiss you, to just let you stand there and wait until you were inside where no one could see you. He also avoided reading anything the internet had to say about you, so the fact that his plan had only made you gain more and more hate, went unnoticed. Just like your complaints when he didnât want to be seen with you after races at parties or even in a restaurant for dinner with Charles and Alexandra. Of course they had invited the both of you, and not only him. Lando came up with an excuse so he the paparazzi wouldnât see you. The rumor that Lando and you have broken up after he was seen at dinner alone didnât seem to bother him either, but it did you. He thought you liked it this way, as he thought, without any hate comments about your looks or the way youâd dress compared to the others. He thought you appreciated not having to dress up for parties or the countless hangouts with his friends. He thought you cried that night after he was out for dinner because you cooked for him and he just went out, not that you cried because you felt not good enough for him to want you to come with him.
He really was stupid enough to think you were happy with all of this.
And while he was happy to be able to finally spend his summer break with you and only you, it all came crashing down when you were back in your shared apartment. Tears were forming in his eyes while yours were already streaming down your face as you yelled at him, telling him every yet so small detail that left your heart crushed and broken while he was busy âhiding youâ, or as he explained it to you, âprotecting you.â this wasnât protection, this was blatant ignorance. And finally in this relationship, you did something for yourself. You left.
Maybe it was miscommunication, or him refusing to communicate at all. But that didnât matter now, âcause now, it was over. No more kisses, no more cuddles and no more meeting friends or families. But most importantly, no more crying, no more sleepless nights, no more unappreciated support, no more hiding.
â I waited and waited â
Finally at home, your family had expected to see you with Lando by your side, and they were so very excited to finally be able to meet the guy their lovely daughter was head over heels for, using every chance she had to gush over him and how unbelievably proud she was of him. So when you stood there with puffy eyes and all your luggage placed next to you, they knew the tears you cried werenât happy tears from finally behind home again. They were tears from saying goodbye to the life you were ready to spend with your boyfriend, who was now on the other side of the world.
You knew it was stupid, but you couldnât help waiting for him to reach out to you again. A call or a message, hell, you hoped he was as miserable without you as you were without him so that maybe Max or even Oscar had to contact you again. Despite all the times he had hurt you, you missed him so dearly.
But after months and months of waiting, you decided that there was no use in waiting. Itâs over, and its for the better, it has to be.
It was gonna be hard seeing him again, once the summer break is over. Even if the love between Lando and you ended, your love for Formula 1 didnât, and you werenât about to give that up just for the sake of not having to see him. Youâd be in the stands or in front of the TV, heâd be in his car or in front of the camera. No point in worrying. But still, the first few races, you watched curled up next to your best friend and your parents from home. It was so nice to finally be able to see everyone again, everyone you had to miss all these months you were away. Your dad and you used to always watch races together, and you were more than grateful to finally be able to do exactly that again.
â Man am I the greatest? God, I hate it, all my love and patience â Unappreciated. You said your heart was jaded, you couldnât even break it, I shouldnât have to say it ⊠â
His instagram and twitter definitely make it seem like your broken heart doesnât match his perfectly fine one. He seemed happier than ever, having fun with his friends at parties and driving around different towns with different girls. Seeing him was draining, but how were you supposed to never hear about him again when the entire internet was screaming his name? You wanted your life to finally feel easier now, but it seemed to only get harder.
You felt you lost your soulmate, while he only lost his greatest burden.
It wasnât until you watched the first race after the summer break with your dad that it all came flooding back to you. Lando crossed the finish line first, and as the camera switched to show him get out of his car and rip off his helmet to kiss his new girlfriend that looked weirdly similar to you, surrounded by loud cheers, clapping and ecstatic, smiling faces, you realize that maybe, he really didnât love you. And that he didnât *want* to kiss you after his races, because it seems that if he had wanted to, he wouldâve.
At the same time, even while standing on the highest step of that podium, Lando couldnât help but think about you, how stupid he was to treat you like a piece of shit when all you wanted was to be there for him after races like this one and most importantly, why the hell no girl heâs been with after your breakup felt even remotely close to you. You were the greatest thing heâd ever had, no trophy, no price would ever compare, and he managed to take it all for granted.
If he had just put in a little more effort, really, you couldâve been the greatest .
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