I Think I Like DDVAU A Little Bit

Mix desperation and pure insanity and you get:

Skskskskkss

So far, enjoying whitepine a lot. I love the general atmosphere and the comforting awkwardness of it all.

Ivy- I mean Ivory design cuz why not

GRUMBOT

Major Life Update

Rule of Grian #1

You must cherish the Grian every waking moment.

I often analyze the Life Series through a lens of personal agency because I think it's a broadly applicable theme and it's also a theme that matters to me personally, so it's always stuck with me, maybe more than a lot of the fandom, how little agency Grian had in Third Life.

Scar and Grian's deal was in of itself was wildly unhealthy for Grian, I think. Obviously Scar didn't go out of his way try to make things hard for Grian, in fact, a lot of the things Grian did for him because of their deal were things Grian decided himself were his responsibility. But unconditional servitude is a very limiting and possibly even dehumanizing thing to agree to, and it clearly got to Grian. He frequently spoke about being unhappy, about wanting to leave, about how much he hated having to do what Scar says. And while some of that was for show, I also think there was a lot of very real regret over being caged, over giving away so much personal agency in a moment of guilt and obligation.

The first real choice Grian made was to stay with Scar, despite whatever resentment he'd built earlier, despite how much part of him wanted to leave.

This was punished quickly when Scar betrayed him, and possibly in the worst way possible. He tossed out a piece of paper, said whoever catches it lives. Grian couldn't catch it before Bdubs did, Grian couldn't convince his one ally not to help stab him to death, Grian couldn't fight back when it was two against one. He was helpless, in many ways in that moment. Nothing he did meant anything, nothing he did could have stopped it, Grian's first act of personal agency after so long being caged was to choose to stay with Scar, and Scar stabbed him for it while Grian tried (and failed, because nothing he did would have stopped it) to convince him not to.

Scar tried to make up for it (well, depending on whether you view scar's "you may slay me" as genuine or strategy) in a way I think is pretty meaningful all things considered. Scar kneeled, and he gave Grian the power to do what he would, let Grian choose. Which is possibly the best thing Scar could have done, when I see Grian feeling robbed of personal agency as such a big Thing in his Third Life pov.

But it didn't matter in the end. The spectators wanted a fight, and for one reason or another, Grian felt bound to their wishes. Maybe he would have wanted to kill Scar, or maybe he would have wanted to go home together and keep living, or maybe he would have wanted a fight if he could have chosen it. But Grian couldn't, he didn't have a choice. Grian was forced to kill Scar, and then he threw himself off the cliff, because there was no other option, nothing else to do.

I just feel like Grian is robbed of agency at so many turns in Third Life in a way we don't think about all that much.

AAWWWWWW SNIFFER MENTIONED

Start checking your calendars! The official schedule for RTZ: A Rendog Zine has just landed!

On April 11th, we'll be releasing an application form for artists and writers. You can apply for one or both-- do keep in mind, though, that you can only participate as one of these roles!

The goal of this zine is to showcase through art and writing the different parts of Ren's Youtube journey, with the final release date being on his birthday, where we intend to gift him the zine as a show of appreciation for all he's done over the years!

So mark the date down, and get ready!

AAAAAHHHHHHHHH BAD BOYSSS

@mcyt-soulmate-sweepstakes Submission!

This piece is made of three panels. Each panel is in an interview format on how the Bad Boys view their team.

I wanted to show with this webweave that regardless of how they started and what they have been through in the end they're just a group of friends who really enjoy spending time with each other.

@grimaussieart did the final panel with two art pieces meant to represent photos of the group. They also did the bread, feathers and red background for Grian's piece :)

Feel free to point out all the references you see in the art!

@charlybvnny here's a bunny