Esther Scroll; Dedicated In Honor Of Ezra Somekh; Kolkata, India; 19th–20th Century.

MARK Z. DANIELEWSKI

House of Leaves (2000);

photos by G. Ngayu, or @monstertalent

Yayoi Kusama, Six immersive infinity mirror rooms in the Hirshhorn Museum 

Inception (2010) directed by Christopher Nolan.

Patterns in waves

Redhook, Brooklyn, NYC, 2018

Victor Vasarely (1906–1997), Grille, 1958-1960.  Acrylic on board mounted to lacquered wood, 29  x 27  cm.  

Lead Shot Star XIV Watercolor, gouache, and graphite on paper, 8x11″ 2019

There’s this Carrie Fisher quote, “Take your broken heart. Turn it into art.” 

Embroidery is one of two things i find consistently therapeutic: the more difficult one. I can cook in most moods, but I can’t reach for needle and thread when I’m at my lowest. So this was sitting in my head for months before I cajoled Sis into sketching it out for me.

Every stitch in it feels like another step towards some luminous numinous state of victory over my depression and anxiety. Small steps, of course, with a great deal of backsliding and self-loathing in the mix, but steps nonetheless, traced out in pinks and reds and maroon. I’m still here, and I’m healing, and even on days when my world and vision are greyed out, I’m still here.