Mardrfish - *fish Brains*

Oh, yep!

Favorite color: dark blue

Currently reading: "Plum Calendar of Love" by Tamenaga Shunsui

Last Song: Take On Me by a-ha

Last Movie: "Kiki's Delivery Service" (I need to watch Gilby's cartoons to keep my mind and soul in order)

Last series: Demon Slayer

Sweet, savory, salty: sweet

Craving: vegetable salad with squirt and sesame oil

Tea/coffee: tea with sandalwood and aloe oil. (I work in a tea shop, so I have a taste for it)

Currently working on: diary with notes and inserts.

Tagging: @ohagi-bites @peachdues @simplytemonade @beddybites @beesgav @mrsshabana @vakamas-slave @autisticzenitsu @sluttysanemi

Nine people i want to get to know better

Thank you @shortace for the tag

Favourite colour: green

Currently reading: The Bones Beneath My Skin by TJ Klune and Rivals by Jilly Cooper

Last Song: Wait For It from Hamilton

Last Movie: I Saw The TV Glow (again)

Last series: on a Phineas and Ferb rewatch

Sweet, savory, salty: sweet. But not too sweet.

Craving: choc chip cookies (luckily I have some downstairs)

Tea/coffee: coffee. As black as my soul

Currently working on: much good omens fanfiction. So much.

Tagging: @funky-disco-demon @starks-kid @sweet-omens-good-hugs @turtlenec-crowley @snognes @reese-the-usc-girl @reggie-moony @rjcee-art @snek-of-eden

@xxlady-lunaxx @ohagi-bites

*sweats nervously and flaps fins*

I can't help but think about the connection between the elements in the Breathing styles.

I just often observe and participate in how strong and solid the connection between water and air is, how they intertwine with each other, it's an undeniable power and beauty.

I'm tormented by thoughts about… What if neither Sanemi nor Giyu had suffered so much from their past, if everything had turned out differently?

Their pain and loss exposed the dangerous and wild sides of their elements. Wind can be a monstrous destructive force, just as Water can be indifferent to any life. Sanemi is prickly and furious like a damn hurricane. Giyu is like a dark rain, washing away your soul and any feelings.

But…

Their connection could have been different.

Not just joint sparring, during which Shinazugawa would try in every way to hurt, wound and injure the Hashira of Water, no, it could have been warm smiles. Tenderness and affection from both sides. Like a gentle breeze, giving comfort after the heat and pushing you forward from behind. A gentle touch of life-giving moisture that washes away any worries from you.

I cry, imagining Sanemi smiling that same sincere childish smile, laughing softly, while Giyu looks at him with his dark blue eyes, in which life has not faded, which sparkle like sunbeams on the surface of water…

SORRY, I'M TOO STUCK IN THISSSS

The Beast that Bothers

I'm going crazy, please listen to the song Volchya Luna by Melnitsa and tell me it's not Sanemi

It's a Russian song, but I can provide you with a translation without any problems!

Sometimes I am overcome with an almost animal horror from what is happening. Not only in my life but also around me. But the experience that I had to go through sometimes undermines me too much. For a long time, for several years, I have been haunted by the feeling that I function by some kind of damn miracle. My therapist once expressed the idea that I may have real physical problems that are reflected in my psyche, which simply cannot cope and works in emergency mode, but I cannot allow myself to understand more thoroughly whether this is true. Sometimes I am simply afraid to live, but I am also afraid to die. Sometimes I am so afraid, not understanding why I still continue to survive while my rods are cracking. Perhaps I am just afraid that death will not be a release. I try to think more about things that make me happy, to contemplate more beauty around me, but sometimes fear still takes hold of me, reminding me of the horror of the past from which I escaped. I don't know why I'm writing this here, maybe so that on better days I can read these words again and smile, but this time from relief. Don't pay too much attention to it, I just need an outlet sometimes, apparently, so I don't lose my head completely. And in the end, this is my blog with my stuff, so let this stay here until I return to better days.

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I thought for a while and decided to count the facts of my life…

I was baptized as a child, so in theory I am Orthodox. But I literally swallowed my cross. My mother was in Krishnaism for most of my childhood, so she pulled me in too. But, despite everything, I developed my own vision of the world.

And… it mixes Shintoism, shamanism, cosmicism and the theory of reincarnation…

WELL, APPARENTLY THERE WILL NEVER BE ORDER IN MY FISH BRAIN

Oh, FUCK, I'M NOT SLEEPING, AM I?-

GORGEOUSSSSSS LIL CREATURE OF BEAUTY