never thought id have body dysphoria over my boobs lmao
as a child, one of my biggest insecurities was my boobs.
not because i wanted them gone,
my friends used to make fun of me because my lack of curves and ive always been a lover for biggest breasts so id always wish for them, wishing that throughout puberty that I’ll have like C or D cups.
but.. that never happened. my current breast size is around a like large b cup, small c cup (tried to figure it out at victoria’s secret and they said the same thing)
i used to be so disappointed in them until i started appreciating my body.
like my thighs and butt which are quite thick and where my body weight specifically only ever goes to lol
my face, my arms, my hands, my eyes,
even my skintone and my textured 4c hair
and with the help of my ex and ex friends,
over time,
i slowly started loving my breasts.
fast forward to now.
im no longer who i used to be.
i no longer am the person i was for 18 years.
and although whenever i look at myself, i feel happy with my body,
i just wish a few things were different.
i look at my face and wish it was longer, skinnier, more masculine.
i look at my eyes and wish they were smaller, more masculine.
i look at my hands and wish they were longer, slender, more masculine.
i look at my hair and wish it were longer, and healthy so i could keep it out to make me more masculine.
i look at my thighs when i wear pants that define them and wish they were hidden, that my thighs didnt inherently make me feminine.
and then, i look at my breasts.
the two pieces of flesh that i have longed to be bigger,
and i kind of find it ironic,
seeing how a trans med once told me that because i hadn’t experienced gender dysphoria (at the time), i probably wasnt trans.
i am trans.
i just dont experience the same dysphoria that others do or in the same way.
i feel euphoria whenever someone acknowledges who i truly am and i always feel weird whenever they dont (like when i was getting my hair dyed, my hairdresser had a daughter who called me “sister” and whenever she would, id feel weird. or whenever my hairdresser referred to me as my mothers daughter. they dont know that im out so i don’t blame them)
i am happy with the way my physical body looks, i just wish others still see me as who i truly am with them. a man who just happens to have a higher voice, curves, small breasts, and “birthing hips”.
i still plan on getting top surgery tho lol
hearing trans women talk about their love for their boobs always make me feel so happy for them and i wish i could give them mine lmao
bamanaba breamd…….
also said “friend” i made my previous post about actively says racist things about immigrants, especially hispanic immigrants, especially mexicans.
yesterday we were talking and i mentioned how when i asked my local pizza place how much two cheese slices cost, i was told $4 THEN when i went to pay, i was told it was $4 each
and she, almost immediately, said something along the lines of “its those [insert racial stereotype about immigrants] isnt it?” (i can’t remember what she said but it was something like that)
i said “uh i dont know if they have an american citizenship or not”
i fg what she said after that but i said in response
he was speaking spanish though
and she went “of course”
and i went in response “okay”
💀💀
bc wtf??? what do you want me to agree with you??
i realized she was ACTUALLY racist a few months back and was like “oh my fucking god i need to drop her”
the only thing is that im genuinely alone without her tho lmao i have no friends
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>> infp/tp, 5w6, ☼ virgo ↑ libra ☾ gemini, 🥮🐕 (狗)
>> pansexual, acespec, demiromantic
>> anxiety riddled and possibly depressed
>> pre-t! hopefully starting late feb or early march!
>> pre-vet student ! (college freshman)
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>> i fb if i think youre cool…
>> DNI LIST: general DNI. zionist/pro israel (ew). maga / trump supporters. terfs+radfems (hating men isn’t feminism!! xx). misogynists. pedos (or “MAPs”). homophobes. transmeds. transphobes (babes youre on a transmans blog rn… leave). nazis (cannot believe i have to say this). if i think of more ill add more lol
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i cannot believe i had to explain to a friend that the tiktok ban was a ploy to make our generation like tr*mp more. like i was genuinely disappointed in here for falling for the easiest propaganda ever
when she texted me to tell me it got banned, she was basically upset about her edits and stuff being lost. i had to explain to here that the ban wasnt going to stick because it was a ploy to make our generation like him better. she then was saying how he better save it and shit. she was probably joking but damn cannot believe i had to lay it out for her
genuine disappointment in her bro 😭
Can't believe they banned tiktok for a couple hours just so they could unban it and encourage everyone to put Trump's dick right up their assholes and moan about it
Trans men/Transmascs: "Transphobes hate us and they don't see us as real men, they see us as a threat to patriarchal masculinity and they reduce us to our AGAB. This impacts us in many ways that cause us to perpetually experience misogynistic and transphobic violence in ways that usually allow for plausible deniability because the perception of manhood is centered on cis manhood. Transition does not grant us relief or escape from this like some people claim it does as long as we live in a transphobic society."
Transandrophobes that the larger queer community doesn't criticize for some reason: "why are you misgendering yourself, why are you reducing yourself to your biology, focus on real issues"
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im studying to become a veterinarian and we need to stop normalizing animal neglect as the norm this shits actually disgusting 😭
KEEP YOUR CATS INSIDE!!!!!!
indoor cats live up to 20 years whilst outside cats typically only live till theyre 4-10!!!!!
STOP neglecting your cat.
and your “outdoor cat” ISNT your cat. thats just a cat that comes to your house once in a while. they live outside because you refuse to actually care for them. dont be surprised if the cat never returns and hope and pray someone took them in and they didnt die a horrible and painful death like being hit by a car, dying of hypothermia/heat stroke, being taken by other ACTUAL wild animals because fun fact! theres no such thing as a wild version of the domesticated house cat! because they ARE DOMESTICATED. they are NOT meant to be outside. they ruin the environment and its very likely theyre going to die a horrible and painful death!!!
and to people saying that they cry because they want to go out i hope to god you dont have children and i don’t even believe in god! because cats are mentally toddlers and i bet your ass wouldn’t let a toddler go play in the fucking street just because they’re crying because they want to. there ARE safe ways to bring your cats out such as…
walks! bring your cat out on walks on leashes! if you have the space, time, and money then build a catio!
STOP putting your cats life in danger because youre fucking lazy. do not get a pet if you cant properly provide or care for them. i have zero empathy for people like that. if you cannot afford the time and money for a cat then do NOT GET ONE. surrender them to a shelter!! find someone else to give them to!! dont put your animal in danger just because you refuse to admit that youre a bad pet owner.
stop normalizing the neglect and abuse of cats. take care of your fucking cat and bring them inside where they are warm and safe.
You're gonna let somebody with an outside cat talk to you that way....?
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