I'm tired of reaching out.
Only to be met with the same closed doors.
I'm tired of crying to the same person.
I'm tired of groveling at the same people who hurt me.
Who drove me to this point.
I wouldn't feel this way if I never met them.
You hurt me.
You all hurt me.
I needed you,
and you hurt me.
You hurt me after everything we went through.
You didn't believe me when I cried.
You raised me when no one else would. And then shut me out when I begged to be let in.
You encouraged me to be creative while mocking my every step.
I'm tired of screaming into the void.
Only to have my voice lost admits the streams.
I'm tired.
SPECIESFLUID: A flag for alterhumans/therians/transspecies/etc. whose species changes. This change can be over a long period of time or simply changes at random points each day.
This flag is NOT to be used by proshippers/transids/radqueers. Make your own flag, stinky.
Variations under cut.
Many people create lists of synonyms for the word 'said,' but what about the word 'look'? Here are some synonyms that I enjoy using in my writing, along with their meanings for your reference. While all these words relate to 'look,' they each carry distinct meanings and nuances, so I thought it would be helpful to provide meanings for each one.
Gaze - To look steadily and intently, especially in admiration or thought.
Glance - A brief or hurried look.
Peek - A quick and typically secretive look.
Peer - To look with difficulty or concentration.
Scan - To look over quickly but thoroughly.
Observe - To watch carefully and attentively.
Inspect - To look at closely in order to assess condition or quality.
Stare - To look fixedly or vacantly at someone or something.
Glimpse - To see or perceive briefly or partially.
Eye - To look or stare at intently.
Peruse - To read or examine something with great care.
Scrutinize - To examine or inspect closely and thoroughly.
Behold - To see or observe a thing or person, especially a remarkable one.
Witness - To see something happen, typically a significant event.
Spot - To see, notice, or recognize someone or something.
Contemplate - To look thoughtfully for a long time at.
Sight - To suddenly or unexpectedly see something or someone.
Ogle - To stare at in a lecherous manner.
Leer - To look or gaze in an unpleasant, malicious way.
Gawk - To stare openly and stupidly.
Gape - To stare with one's mouth open wide, in amazement.
Squint - To look with eyes partially closed.
Regard - To consider or think of in a specified way.
Admire - To regard with pleasure, wonder, and approval.
Skim - To look through quickly to gain superficial knowledge.
Reconnoiter - To make a military observation of a region.
Flick - To look or move the eyes quickly.
Rake - To look through something rapidly and unsystematically.
Glare - To look angrily or fiercely.
Peep - To look quickly and secretly through an opening.
Focus - To concentrate one's visual effort on.
Discover - To find or realize something not clear before.
Spot-check - To examine something briefly or at random.
Devour - To look over with eager enthusiasm.
Examine - To inspect in detail to determine condition.
Feast one's eyes - To look at something with great enjoyment.
Catch sight of - To suddenly or unexpectedly see.
Clap eyes on - To suddenly see someone or something.
Set eyes on - To look at, especially for the first time.
Take a dekko - Colloquial for taking a look.
Leer at - To look or gaze in a suggestive manner.
Rubberneck - To stare at something in a foolish way.
Make out - To manage to see or read with difficulty.
Lay eyes on - To see or look at.
Pore over - To look at or read something intently.
Ogle at - To look at in a lecherous or predatory way.
Pry - To look or inquire into something in a determined manner.
Dart - To look quickly or furtively.
Drink in - To look at with great enjoyment or fascination.
Bask in - To look at or enjoy something for a period of time.
Sometimes I think about making a playlist that helps me connect more to my kintypes. This has lead me to fall down the rabbithole of "therian music," music made specifically with therianthropy in mind.
There aren't that many examples, but what there is is often very... On the nose. Injecting literal meanings into songs is nothing new, but I often find it hard to enjoy songs artistically when they're like that.
I've also found that a lot of the songs that talk about therianthropy are in the same genre. "Indie." Which is fine, it's a very accessible and trendy genre.
I know the demographic of people who strongly connect therianthropy to their identity aren't usually the type, but it'd be cool to hear songs in different genres. Therian Metal? Theriopunk? Jazz? New wave? I know there are therians out there who make music, but their music isn't always about being a therian. Imagine the artistic potential in writing a typical Green Day-esque pop punk song about being a therian. It's possible!
Now what's stopping me... I guess nothing. I'm a musician. I understand music. I can play a lot of instruments. DAWs are accessible nowadays. Eh. I guess it just comes down to my lack of time or motivation.
silly thing i thought of while fanfic writing
Crashing OUT rn guys
Easter falling on 4/20 again this year means all those old 420 praise it vines from 2014 are once again relevant
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