It’s Fun To Stay At The Y

I need you guys to listen so bad, but I’m at least glad people on Twitter are starting to talk about this. The government of Canada is expanding Medically Assisted Death to cull the poor and disabled, and now suicidal and mentally ill (these are usually interchangeable of course here). It is EUGENICS and every single disabled rights organization is against it.

Disability payments are $1,200 a month. The average one bedroom apartment rent in the Greater Toronto Area (greatest pop. area by far here) is $2,000 a month. People with mental illnesses are on months long waitlists to get even a single publicly funded session. Weeks to get privately funded care which costs at least $200 a session. There is no housing here for disabled people. We are in one of the worst housing crises in the world right now.

Doctors are now offering MAiD unprompted to young suicidal people. This woman is 21, a health practitioner literally suggested she kill herself.

This is one of the worst Disability Rights Violations we’ve ever seen in Canada. The government is killing us because it is cheaper than funding healthcare, cheaper than giving people housing and food and basic human rights.

I feel this

I’m diagnosed as autistic, but I don’t really struggle a lot with social cues. I pick most of them up naturally it just takes a while. I have trouble figuring out when I’m supposed to speak so I usually just don’t. And I can’t usually tell when to stop a conversation. But I’m pretty good at all the other social stuff. Can I still be autistic? Is there a chance I was misdiagnosed?

"I pick up on social cues naturally but it just takes a while."

That's not picking up in social cues naturally. That's reading them and interpreting them after you learnt them via study and masking. Allistics don't need a while. It's instantaneous.

Trouble figuring out your turn to speak and stopping a conversation? Autism.

And pretty good at social stuff or you're no longer a child and have learnt the rules and regulations around social interaction?

This is classic imposter syndrome and I can tell you that if you are diagnosed as autistic, you're autistic. We're all different, yes, so my struggles will be different to yours. But reading social cues like an old 1950s radio manual is not the same as allistic understanding of social cues.

*warm hugs*

Homophones or near homophones I see misused a lot, and a few non-homophones people seem to get muddled anyway.

There are so, so many of these that as an individual post, it would be ridiculously long and I am just too lazy to write them all out at once, so I’m just gonna keep adding to this.

Peak is the top of a hill.

Peek is to look at something.

Pique is annoyance (a fit of pique) or what happens if something piques your interest.

There’s one thing I always think of when I hear “how could you let it get so bad?” and similar phrases. It’s in the comments of every video of matted hair or a dirty kitchen.

I think the appropriate response is “what would have to happen to you for you to let it get that bad?” And when you think about that question, and the horrifying answers that come with it, you almost certainly have more sympathy for the person you were being judgemental to.

When a new doctor asks for a brief description of my medical history

This week is a little crazy study-wise:

Forensic science - ✅ 1 chapter to read, 2-3 page paper on 1 hr video (✅ watched the video), ✅ midterm

Business communications - create 3 graphs from data sets found last week, read 1 chapter

Gender & society - ✅ read 1 chapter, two part final, posttest

Add to the fact that I’ve been driving my wife to her appts, plus getting an epidural in my neck this week. It’s a bit crazy. But I’m chugging along!

I’m so close to being done with my associates degree. I even registered for graduation two days ago!

I’m somewhere between 4 & 5, closer to 5, with a dash of ADHD wtf-ness. Almost all of my brain noise is audio, and I have to really focus to see a vague shape of anything.

i have neither a good imagination nor aphantasia, but a secret third thing

This is really helpful!

Autistic overload is like internet bandwidth.

If you're struggling to understand why you are good on some days and bad on others, one way to think of your brain is like internet access.

Some people have direct access, so any information incoming is fast, easy to process and unless they start being really silly and downloading 20 movies at once, not too much is going to interrupt their experience.

Autistic brains are more like public internet access. It's not that greatly connected in the first place, it can't handle large data packets, and if you're not careful you may get some unwanted information downloaded.

If you're accessing this when not much is happening, you may not get a bad experience. Not much is draining the limited bandwidth and processing times are faster.

The next day, however, you may get a completely different experience and even just connecting is impossible.

So, it's okay to sometimes switch off that access and just recover for a while.