Lowkey Mood Recently

this is actually me. 😪

Me looking at myself in the mirror at 3am after reading smut for 4 hours straight instead of sleeping:

Me to all my friends

I hate being jealous.

it's just me & him against the world

~ i want to be the girl with the most cake ~

~ i love him so much it just turns to hate ~

Scream, 1996

There needs to be more Randy Meeks stories honestly, like come on I need my obsession to be fed. Also he is like SERIOUSLY UNDER APPRECIATED, like I feel like we all moved past his attractiveness WAY TOO QUICKLY. So to all the amazing writers out there, PLEASE WRITE RANDY MEEKS STORIES OR HEAD CANONS OR SOMETHING, I AM BEGGING ON MY KNEES. Please and Thank you,

Sincerely, This very obsessed girl. :)

LOVE.

Just a lil blurb about Robins first time kissing you

Your feet kick against Robin’s under her blanket and she recoils at their icy touch. 

It makes you giggle, the sound muffled slightly by the pillow your cheek is smushed into, the same pillow Robin is resting on. 

Her cheeks are dusted pink, making her freckles all the more endearing along with her glassy blue eyes. Her hair is mused over the pillow, it had been carefully styled before the party at Steve’s but now it’s a collection of cowlicks and knotty strands. 

She kicks you back, hitting your calf in revenge. She curls her foot around the muscle, bringing your legs closer to hers. 

“Are you cold? She asks. You nod although really, after how much you drank, you can’t tell if your cold or not.  

Her legs wrap around yours and every meeting point feels electric. Her calf in between yours, her thighs pressing into yours. 

Her skin is soft as a peach, and the vanilla and cinnamon body lotion she uses only makes her more appealing. You can feel the slight prickle of her leg hair starting to grow back in and your mind wanders like it always does, to how the rest of her skin would feel. 

She draws back your attention by squeezing your hand. Your fingers had been entwined for half the night. Drunk best friends, that was all it was. 

Only your other best friends don’t make your pulse race. You don’t avert your gaze from Steve when he reaches up and exposes his stomach from fear of drooling. You don’t look at Nancy while talking and lose your entire train of thought. 

There’s certainly no one else you would want to be wound around in bed, noses almost brushing as you whisper secrets to each other. 

Robin’s thumb rubs your wrist, bumping against the friendship bracelet she made you when she was bored one shift. The threads are tattered and the colour is blanched because you refuse to take it off. 

She must feel how quickly your heart is racing, as her thumb presses into your pulse. How can she not notice what she does to you? Time spent with anyone but her feels wasted. You only come to every one of Steve’s get-togethers because Robin is also always there. 

Last week you spent an hour carefully painting each of her nails. You savoured rubbing in the hand cream you insisted she needed for the full spa day experience. Your fingers traced every ridge, vein and wrinkle, because you had to make sure it was all soaked in. 

You feel her breath against your chin as she blinks up at you, her responses are slow from the shots you had both done earlier. Some of her lashes are sticking together to make a triangle. You reach your pinky out and brush them apart, making her eyes flutter shut. 

“Tell me another secret?” You whisper. 

It’s your favourite game, swapping secrets. You feel yourself growing closer to Robin with every secret she spills. You know it’s silly, but you also hope that one day the secret-spilling from her lips will be that she likes you. 

Her freckled cheeks grow warmer, her nose turning a rosy colour. You know that means this secret is going to be good. She nuzzles further into the pillow and consequently closer to you. 

She whispers her secret to you, voice so low that if you hadn’t been staring at her lips, watching how they moved to form each word, you wouldn’t have been able to piece together what she said. 

“I’ve never been kissed”

It startles you so much that you go to sit up, but your tangled legs don’t co-operate so you end up falling back down. Your shared pillow puffs up and the rush of air makes Robin’s hair fly up and then float back down again. 

Your wide eyes stare into hers. For once you don’t get lost contemplating them because it’s just so unbelievable a secret to be true. “You can’t lie,” You insist, shaking your head and jostling hers from its resting place. 

She pulls herself up on her elbows, drawing her legs out from around yours and you immediately regret your words. “I’m not lying” She huffs. 

“What about-”

“No one. I’ve kissed no one,” Her fingers grip the comforter tight, she tries to move away from you but you pull her back down. Her back hits the mattress, causing the bed to bounce slightly, her arms falling back down to her sides. 

You crawl on top of her, holding yourself up on your forearms as you hover over her. The shots have made you bold it seems. You lean in, and for a second Robin thinks you might kiss her, just to make her a liar. 

Robins’s eyes close, but all she feels is your breath against her lips. 

“I don’t believe it” You whisper.

She cocks one eye open and then the other when she sees you’re not leaning in further, just waiting for some kind of explanation. One she doesn’t particularly feel like supplying you with. “Why? Because I’m 20 and it’s just too pathetic?”

You shake your head, shushing her with a finger to her lips. Your arm feels like it’s been zapped. Just the side of your finger touching her lips makes your body shiver, you can’t imagine how it would feel to touch her more intimately. You don’t think your body could physically cope.

“You’re just so beautiful Robbie, I mean look at you,” Your finger lifts from her lips, replaced by your thumb. Her breathing hitches and you decide to take it as a good sign rather than a bad one. 

“Your lips are made for kissing, they’re so pink,” Your thumb moves to push down against her bottom lip, “ and so soft”  Your thumb traces her top lip now, dragging back and forth, “and I don’t think I’ve ever seen a cupid’s bow so perfect” 

Robins’s face is scarlet now, you can see it even in the glow of an orange-hued lamp. 

She gulps, her hand coming up to fist at your flimsy pyjama top. She can feel the frantic beating of your heart through the shirt. It’s what encourages her next decision.. “If my lips are so perfect, why aren’t you kissing them?”

You don’t hesitate as you press your lips to hers. 

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I’m locked.

NOTHING tastes as good as skinny feels.

How life’s been feeling lately.

Intro !

✧˚ · . Hi guys ! So I just wanted to make a little introduction, since I’ve gotten a few more mutuals recently!

✧˚ · . I’m Abby! But you can call me Ab or Abigail, which ever you prefer.

✧˚ · . I’m an Aquarius sun, Pisces rising, Capricorn moon ! My birthday is February 13 ! I’m an intp!

✧˚ · . Some of my favorite artists are Greta Van Fleet, Ethel Cain, The Beatles, Pink Floyd, Led Zeppelin, Adrienne Lenker, Lana Del Rey, The Cure, The Smiths, Phoebe Bridgers, Jeff Buckley, and so so many more.

~ I love fashion, especially vintage fashion.

~ I play the bass guitar.

~ Some of my favorite movies are Lady Bird, Uptown Girls, The Holdovers, Fantastic Mr. Fox, What We Do in the Shadows, and Lisa Frankenstein.

~ Please comment some things about yourself or just anything ! <3

~ Also I am vey open to movie, show, and music recommendations !!