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˚◞♡ ⃗ teasing him for having an attractive girlfriend

note: f! reader implied characters: baji. angry. mikey. ran.

keisuke baji

chifuyu was flickering his attention over from you to baji after witnessing the two share a kiss out in the hall before entering the classroom, “ how. “

baji raised an eyebrow at chifuyu, motioning him to continue speaking and the blonde laughed, “ i mean like how on earth did you get a girl like that? she’s out of your league. “

the two boys turned to face you as you were chatting with some classmates of yours, that radiant smile that definitely differentiated from baji’s. “ because i’m her type. “ your boyfriend boosted only to be shut down,

“ okay but why? “

“ just shut it, you little prick. “

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Merry Rizzmas…what was I thinking? Anyways, Happy holidays peoples!

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*Insert cool ass title here*

Random Kavehtham hc’s because I love and miss my husband. May have some small typos since I’m a little lathergic and slightly…off the rails and someone thought removing autocorrect was a brilliant idea

Kaveh pulls all nighters and sleeps all day

Alhaitham os aware and doesn’t say much on it. Probably uses it as an opportunity to have a “lazy day” with his bf

Won’t admit it openly, but Alhaitham looooooves to cuddle. Will just snuggle up all cutely ajjdndns (us when please, I miss you Alhaitham :()

Kaveh definitely says “I miss you” to Alhaitham, even if they are in the same room. Usually a sign that he’s feeling clingly

(this is all for now, I’m sleepy, its almakt 2am I fant tupe corrextly anymkre. Merry Rizzmas my friends!)

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Kpop AU Headcanon #3

I can just imagine that the group has their own tikok account where they promote their music as well as do some silly videos (A lot of kpop artists are on TikTok) Also Connie is in charge of the account, so you can imagine how that goes 😆 (he does promote tho, dw ^^ Levi keeps tabs on what he posts on their account)

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I know I don’t have a big platform, but I hope this reaches the right person at the right time :) (if anyone needs to rant about anything at all, my dm’s are always open, I’ll gladly stop whatever I’m doing and lend an ear :) )

Ok so this post is extremely long and I put it all together for my blogs Feeling sad page but as I don’t have a huge amount of followers I realize so many people are not seeing this information so I’m posting it here too!

alternatives without harming yourself:

holding/squeezing ice.

splashing your face with water.

getting a rubber band and snapping it against your skin (this could hurt, though it’s better than other ways that people usually choose to self-harm).

take a hot shower or bath.

eat something sour. it will take your mind of the urge. (lemon, sour lollies)

massage where you want to self-harm.

get a red pen or red paint and draw/paint over where you usually self-harm.

remind yourself as to why you shouldn’t do it. (scars, harms organs, leave memories etc…)

describe what you are feeling. (is the urge/pain in your chest, fists, legs, arms, head).

killing yourself will not help. it is not a solution.

you have your whole life ahead of you. you have so many more years that you can accomplish things in. for example;

having a family.

getting married.

to watch the sun rise.

to watch the sun set.

to save someone else’s life.

finish school.

get your dream job.

to laugh.

to smile.

to go camping.

travel to new places.

to wake up every morning to the person you love.

friends.

family.

to keep that promise you made.

to accomplish a goal.

to meet your idol.

to listen to new music.

theme parks.

video games.

chocolate.

to be able to look back and say “i made it”.

what you’re going through is temporary.

in case you need to hear this:

you are loved.

you are wanted.

you are needed.

you are beautiful.

you are handsome.

you are important.

you are not alone.

you are okay.

you are strong.

you are worth it.

you are smart.

you are not a failure.

you are useful.

you are going to be okay.

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I’m creating a kpop AU fanfic!!! YAGGSBBDBD LETS GO! I’m excited!! I hope you are too! *cue celebratory music* Anyways! Here‘s the title (with a semi-brief summary):

Red lights

summary: Red means stop, green means go, yellow means slow down. Those are rules that everyone knows. What happens when one breaks it? This is a story of a man named Jean K., a well known kpop artist, and {name} a huge kpop fan whose been a fan since the beginning. It seems like a normal concert at first until something happens backstage. That something could mean the end of Jean K.’s career as an Idol. What will happen? Will his career be turned into dust and ashes? Or will it flourish in secret?

The story will unfold every Friday (depending on how popular this gets lol) Chapter one will be released either today or tomorrow and then, every Friday. As of now, idk how many chapters this will take 😅 I’ll make it as long as possible tho! Thanks for reading this “teaser” so to speak!

- Lucky 🐾

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Toyafuyu and their parallels:

I did say I wanted to make this post. And Toya and Mafuyu have similar issues at home with a similar way to deal with them, so let's start.

Problems at home:

Both of them have similar problems at home, mainly with their parents.

While we dont actually know what toyamom and mafudad are doing, for barely being even mentioned, Mafumom and Toyadad are extremely similar on their behavior towards their kids.

- Toya's dad wants Toya to practice and practice piano, making him practice the entire day, even as a child, with the consequences of that, Toya didn't have hobbies, barely had any friends before (besides the Tenmas) and barely even knew what he liked.

- Mafuyu's mom wants Mafuyu to study and study the whole day, trying to make her quit archery and music so she can focus on her studies. As a consequence of that, Mafuyu didn't have any hobbies, no real friends outside if niigo and doesn't know what she likes.

Toya's dad wants Toya to be a classical musician, Mafuyu's mom wants Mafuyu to be a doctor. Both of them push their children in places they don't want to go in and have said they dont.

Both of them already had their confrontation, as of jp right now, both of their parents still disagree with what they're doing, but the difference in the acting because of it comes later.

Their mental health:

Because of their parents being both suffocating, they have similar issues.

Toya's only real friends were the Tenmas, and that was because his dad knew them, possibly he knows other people from his dad, but only the Tenmas actually became friends with him.

Mafuyu didn't have any real friends before niigo.

That made one of their differences, also will explain later.

None of them had any hobbies before music.. you could possibly count Archery as a hobby point for Mafuyu, but at least at the start she didn't feel much about it and it was probably just a small escape, a tiny start of a rebellion.

They both felt stuck, but they describe it in different ways.

Toya felt stuck inside a bird cage, forced to sing like birds.

In which he finally managed to open.

Mafuyu felt like a Marionette, making what her mom/the person in the strings asks

One that she also managed to escape

Both of them only managed to escape with the help of music and real friends (vbs and niigo).

Main differences

On how they're treated by the parents theres only a few.

Toya was able to rebel earlier, by influence of Tsukasa, not only that but he has more.. freedom to rebel than Mafuyu ever had.

Mafuyu's first rebelling influences were niigo, mainly Ena and Mizuki on this part, and even then she barely could do it without her mom taking away everything she had.

The differences in how they're treated on here may be because of the rest of the family.

Toya is the youngest of 3 songs, both of the older ones are already at classical music, so his dad can afford to have one Black Sheep, his legacy is already being fulfilled, so even if he disagrees with the style, he doesn't need to outright stop it.

Mafuyu is an only child, there's no one else to follow mafumom's dreams and expectations but her, this puts her under a tighter leash than Toya has.

And without friends, she couldn't do that first step out of that house.

Their real family

The people who help them be themselves, who let them have a break from their house, their real family and home

Mafuena and Akitoya bonus:

Imagine an akitoya image here i already did 10 images

Nothing much, just both like how lively the shinonomes are with each other, because of how cold their house are.

There is a reason both Toya and Mafuyu are associated with snow.

Bonus 2: event

Imagine an event with them, they start talking about their family to each other and bonding with similar rules and expectations, maybe Mafuyu also meets Ken as an image of a better dad. Maybe someone else is with them, someone with good parents stopping and going: that is not normal.

Just so they can grow a little bit together, find reliance on each other from their issues.

Also the one with the Armin pfp is me ^^ I revealed myself not even a week later hehe 😅 anyways, the song I was listening to is 7th sense by NCT and the plot I thought of was like reader writing in a notebook the English translation of the song lyrics and Kaeya reads it (they’re in a relationship btw…or we’re in this case) and he gets like a flashback to when they were fighting and how his s/o met their demise. Yeah…a n g s t. I personally love angst hehe

-G

I think I found a new favorite song o-o. It fuels my need to already write angst T_T. I took the "were" to heart here and made it more angsty U-U.

A reincarnation to modern-day Au (kinda?)

Warnings: Only Kaeya remembers the past U-U. Angst, language, minor violence (medium???), angst, it got long, uh... Kaeya is written to how I imagine he is under the flirty persona. so, talk of putting oneself down... depression? suicidal thoughts? idk put that there just in case-

Kaeya x Reader Angst

“Open your eyes”

Kaeya was used to seeing you around, his chest afloat but heavy at once. It was you, yet it was not. With such differences between you then and now. Each stroke of your pen caught the attention of his eyes. His eyes, which had been scanning his textbooks while you were supposed to be working yourself, now focused on the letters of your pen. His head tilted slightly as he watched. The earphones laying within your ears must be playing a song you enjoyed, perhaps on repeat? He hadn’t seen you look… so like you once had before. His eyes caught the words, slowly reading them, suddenly struck with an ache in his chest.

His eyes faded into the distance as he fought to stay present with you, here in this library… but ever since he’d been small, he knew you, or at least the you he’d known at some point.

His eyes glanced around, complete loss of control, stuck within the memory. His vision was always so different here than what he’d grown up with… with only a single eye to see, the other covered, it was to be expected. He hated being able to feel the light warmth of the sun. He hated every bit of this world. He felt… cold, bitter cold like he was in an eternal freezer, trapped in ice. He’d seen moments of sweet comfort that left him with a bitter tang in his mouth… never seen answers to why he felt… cold. He knew that in both lives he’d been taken in by the same family, only here he did not get along with his elder brother… but here there was a version of you who saw him as more than a simple friend.

His lips moved without his permission, calling out your name with a sweet tone he’d never have the confidence to speak to you with. “Y/n, where are you off to so early? Yet another commission? Has Master Jean asked you to go take things on your own again? Don’t you get lonely traveling on these long commissions? Come on, stay a little long Y/n, you only just got back… can’t this wait? We were going to drink silly today.” He hummed walking close to your side, wrapping his arms about your waist, filling you with his abnormally cold temperature. He watched you shiver with a small chuckle.

“Kaeya, I’m actually doing a small favor for your- er for Master Diluc. It’s not much, he’s busy aiding the traveler today, so I promised I'd take care of some meddling Fatui. He’ll join me himself when he finishes helping the Honorary Knight. It’s not a harbinger, so it’s something I can handle on my own.” You turned in his embrace, lifting yourself to land a peck to his lips. That cold feeling warmed with the contact, his cheeks heating as he chuckled against his will. His mind screaming, a different yell than his usual memories that surfaced… Those tended to tell him he was safe, that this was not real, and not to get lost in this past life. The voice inside his head was screaming for him to wake up, that he shouldn’t remember… that if he did, he may never recover.

“Oh? Look at you, not long ago the traveler and I were teaching you to wield your weapon the right way, teaching you to use that God’s eye… yet, here you are all mature now. It’s so… pleasing, but I wish you had never grown into your skills… as selfish as that is.” Kaeya pressed his lips to your forehead, running his fingers through your hair.

“I never said you couldn’t come along, silly captain.” Your laugh… ah how much his heart fluttered with that sound. Why couldn't you, the present self, make such noises? Why did you never laugh like that with him? Had he not tried to court you right this life? Had he been wrong to use the same tactics he used in that past life? What changed, was it not remembering yourself, or were you simply their lookalike? No… There were times where you did what they had done, acted so similar he had to stop and question if it were another scene meant to torment him.

“Then I shall accompany you, my dear.” He let go of your waist, motioning with a bow for you to lead them away.

A mistake… to not talk you from this commission… he was realizing that.

Wake up…

Before it happens… again… right there… wake up… forget… forget… don’t remember… I don't want to see it… no… please let me snap back to the world… notice… notice the distant look… suck me home… please… forget… Kaeya…. Forget… don’t look…

It was the first time he saw the power he had in that life. Ice flinging from his sword or even his hands from mere flicks of his fingers… and you were no dead-weight yourself. Strong elemental energy coming in bursts as you fight. Even with the unexpected ambush of the Fatui agents, more than initially expected. Anger in their eyes as they swore curses, Kaeya struck with skilled mercy, aiming not to kill despite having complete ability several times to do so. Enemies fell, knocked out, dropping to their knees and surrendering. The chest at the end seemed a pleasant reward if the two of you ever managed to clear the enemies around.

“What the fuck… they’re everywhere.”

“Look at you, cursing like a true knight under frustrating conditions. You’re truly amazing, my angel!” Kaeya called out as he drove ice in a circle around himself, catching Fatui, who backed up to avoid being slashed in half by the sharp form of his capabilities.

Behind you… move… damn it… movie Kaeya… stop it… pay attention… sense it… why couldn’t you see it… why… why… Why them? Couldn’t it have been you? Traitor, monster… worthless scum… just pay more attention to the fallen enemies… not all… no…

The sound of their voice, the moments slowing as they did that day… despite his pleas at the memory to stop progressing or to change the events, he couldn’t do anything. Stuck watching the mistakes of the moment catch up to him again. Their body jumped in front of his back… “KAEYA!” The holler of their name as their blade moved to block, missing… they missed… leaving that small opening… their blade slipped… they couldn’t block it…

No… stop it… stop showing this… forget… forget… open your eyes, quietly just open your eyes, look out and open your eyes… open your eyes…. Open your damn eyes… don’t look…

No matter what he chanted internally, he couldn't change the memory…

Wake me up…

He didn’t wake… he stayed trapped as he dropped to catch your slumping form. The ice he’d been so careful not to use lethally showed no restraint… impaled over and over… that agent who dared hurt you fell gurgling on crimson as his eye glared dark shades of black. Darker black than an angered harbinger… a darker aura than a god who’d been angered… nothing could compare to the feelings he had forgotten…

How long ago had it been since he felt this much pain?

He lived in it.

He lived with the regrets of watching his adoptive father die, his birth father, abandoning him to infiltrate Mondstadt… he hadn’t felt this much… furry since that night… when his life had changed from a peaceful childhood in a palace… to a wandering boy who had no home. The remaining Fatui attempted to flee, seeming to sense his current state… of the masses, only a handful made it out… alive… none without injury. “Y/n… please don’t close your eyes… don’t try moving though, don’t talk… I'll do something… let me just… Can I freeze it? Ah no, that could make it worse… the church… but if I move you… fuck!”

“Kaeya… am I?” he shook his head, grabbing your hand as you stared at him with… terror… you were terrified… truly terrified.

“No! You’re just a little hurt… nothing that can't be fixed at the cathedral. Just let me...” He paused, feeling the hand in his go suddenly limp before you rolled on your side, lungs gasping as blood… as blood seeped from your lips…

“Kaeya…”

“N-no… listen, don’t waste energy… I can get you help…”

“Kaeya… it’s bad…”

“… please don’t go…”

He was never vulnerable… not the way he was now… not to the point he was ready to plead and beg... to shove pride up his ass.

“If we ever meet… in a new life… let's fall in love again.” You coughed between your words before reaching his covered eye. He let you remove it, staring at you with both eyes.

He’d never seen the world this way… not in his memories… he saw in the reflection of ice why he covered that eye. “Y/n…” he started before your lips shook. Breath coming off in a puff of white smoke… one… last… time… Kaeya took a few moments to comprehend what just happened. Your hand hitting the floor in slow motion… It was quick, but so drawn out to him. His hands moved to your shoulders…

Tap…

Tap…

Tap…

Shift..

Shift..

Shift..

Shove,

Shove,

Shove,

Shake-

Shake-

Shake-

“Y/n?”

“y/n?”

“Y/n?”

“This isn’t funny?”

“Open your eyes, look out, open your eyes…”

“Please?”

“Stop joking…”

The slightest movement from the unconscious members he’d let live resulted in their demise… his emotions controlling him as he leaned over and belted… his voice rattling the freezing caves… any moisture freezing as he shook your body with more force than he’d ever use to wake you from a nightmare.

Can I wake up now? Please… I don't want to keep remembering this… he thought to himself as he observed the mess he created… even his tears fell like ice crystals…

He didn’t register the sound of fire breaking ice, melting it, only to see it freeze again. He didn’t care if the person saw the splatters of blood from Fatui… didn’t care if they called him a monster…

He failed… worthless… he couldn’t keep anything that he loved… everything slipped by his fingers.

His home

His only relative

His adoptive father… who was more a father than his birth father.

On the same day, his brother… because he wanted Diluc to kill him… he had felt guilty for feeling relieved Crepus died, not knowing his secret…

And now... He’s lost the only person who promised to stick by him till they saw peace… and to become a married couple and raise kids after peace set in.

Was this worth it? The pain? Were the moments of freedom worth this? Yes… he thought… they were. To see that smile and hear your voice… It was worth it to feel loved.

“Kaeya?” He knew that voice… ah so Diluc did come… too bad he’s… late. Just like Kaeya was when their… when Diluc’s father died… he forgot sometimes… that Diluc no longer thought of him as a brother… he never said our father… always my father this and that…

“You were right… you always are Diluc...” He didn’t mean to sound so defeated… and broken. Oh… Diluc knows about the eye… he’s never seen it… best he keeps it closed… unless… would Diluc perhaps be disgusted enough to… kill him?

“Kaeya… what-” he seemed to almost gag. Kaeya heard it. Must be the obnoxiously gory scene… the ice was… melting… ah so he was calming down? No, Diluc’s pyro… it’s the stronger element against cryo… pyro melts cryo…

“I really am everything you think. I am Diluc… a worthless traitor… scum.” He wasn’t making sense… at least now that he was thinking from a viewpoint that didn’t feel what this past self felt… he seemed overly dramatic… “I couldn't… it was my fault… I should have seen it… sensed it. I’m a captain… a knight of Favonius. We really are worthless… I can’t live up to you… you’ve always been… better than me… I wonder… had she gone with you… she’d probably be alive.” What had he been on to think this way?

“Kaeya? Move… let me see.'' He didn’t budge, but he didn’t fight or try to cling to the dead body as Diluc melted the ice before him. His eyes stared for so long before looking at Kaeya… “what happened… Kaeya”

“You don’t care… So why should I elaborate… they're dead… I lost it and… killed them in return… you wanted to do the same when… your father died.” Diluc stood as tall as he could at that small note. Kaeya never called him like that… even when Diluc shouted that Crepus was not their father, only his… Kaeya rolled his eyes and stubbornly called him their father.

He felt guilty? This was… his commission, but there were no more than three when he’d been asked to handle this situation… Where did the others come from?

Diluc had to… it must have been his older brother instincts kicking in, but he picked the younger lad into his arms and, despite the burning cold against the heat of his body, he placed Keys in the light. His eyes… they had a sparkle, didn’t they? Why were they… dull… duller than a masterless vision? Why was Kaeya simply letting things happen?

Why am I still living this out? Why am I not awake yet? Kaeya hissed within his mind, hating the pain that welded into his brain, traveling down to his chest. Diluc’s hands removed the blood-stained fur and garments, before wrapping Kaeya in a jacket… oh this is… Diluc’s coat? Kaeya’s eyes moved for a moment to stare at the fabric that wrapped him. He watched Diluc turn back to the icy cave.

It was his first reaction since Diluc had moved him from their body… his hand reached out, grabbing pathetically at the older male's pants leg. He felt so small… like a child grasping an adult… perhaps because in his mind… Diluc would always be his big brother. “Please… don’t… go.” Diluc had never seen Kaeya like this… not since they were little… long before the knights…Diluc kneeled…

He set their foreheads together, letting his feeling about that night fade… he’d implemented that thought into his head… the one that made Kaeya think he had no worth… and they… his lover… had helped him find himself… find that he did, in fact, have worth outside being a tool for others. “It’s okay… I’m going to clean up, but I won't… I'm not going to leave you again.”

Kaeya let him leave… it felt like ages before Diluc pulled out the body, carrying them in his hands… Kaeya leaped from his spot to their body, tapping them again… “Kaeya they're...”

“Not yet… not… they just need to open their eyes Diluc… why can’t I have this one thing?” Maybe he should stop talking? He said things when he got emotional… like that night… so compelled to spill everything because of the guilt… he was so vulnerable to his emotions… he was a smooth talker because he had to be… If he started to talk about himself, he would lose himself within the words… his emotions led him to do stupid things… and those things never go well…

If he was able to reason he would have stopped there without venting to the man he shouldn't be able to trust… considering that fight they had and the numerous verbal quarrels they had each day. “I never get the things I want… home… gone… abandoned… But I don't mind… I was taken in only to lose that family to… Because I’m nothing but a weapon… a stupid tool… a useless one though. Guess the gods really do forsake me… don’t you think Di-” His eyes shot wide when he was… hugged? Diluc… holding him? Pressing his head to his chest? Was he high, drunk? Was he dead and dreaming?

“Shhh, just… it’s okay to cry Kaeya… It’s alright to cry… I...” Diluc seemed to pause in his words… Was he about to see he wasn’t being himself? Was he about to shove him away again? That’s what Diluc would do? Diluc hates him, right? “Your big brother is here… and your big brother isn’t going to leave you to suffer alone anymore… don’t go saying things like you're about to… about to drive that sword through your body…” he sobbed, not that echo of a scream that he’d felt watching you die… but a genuine cry that hadn’t left his lips in years. He finally gripped tightly onto Diluc’s shirt, knowing his tears would stain the white collared shirt… his brother wore.

He didn’t register anything else… nor did he remember

His eyes opened quietly. “Kaeya?” he snapped to look at you, voice caught in his throat. “You scared me there! You were zoning out worse than usual… I know you tend to have spells where your mind is elsewhere, but you… were crying silently and kept moving like you wanted to wake from whatever it was… I shook you, but you didn’t snap back like you usually do...” He smiled as if nothing had played in his head.

“My bad… I apologize for worrying you.” He picked his book up, staring at it… he couldn’t focus anymore… maybe he’d talk to somebody… mostly Diluc, who seemed to also remember that past life… less than he did but he could understand Kaeya… at least to some point.

“Kaeya… I… oh gods help me… this is so not a good time, but I know I won't get the courage to ask you again, but… would you… maybe wanna go to… some sort of restaurant… just us?”

“Like a date?” he smiled, leaning over the table to stare into your eyes. Watching you blush and chuckle… oh how his heart did a little dance at that sound… a sound he’d only heard in those memories till now.

“Yeah… like… a date.”

“Then, I’ll pick you up at about seven tomorrow.” He rubbed your head before setting his book down and grabbing his bag.

“Kaeya… one last thing… it doesn't make sense… and if it’s weird I’m sorry if I uh… just don’t pay it mind if you don’t get it okay?” He raised a brow, two eyes, the same shade, color, and shape staring at you. “If we ever meet in a new life… let's fall in love again.”

A tear slipped unwillingly from his eye… pausing to make sure he heard you correctly. “I… keep my promises, my angle.”

“I’m sorry that I don’t remember any of our happy moments from then, but… I really did fall in love with you Kaeya… this you… not the man who called out to me as I watched myself die on loop for years at night with nothing but those words.” Kaeya smiled, kissing your forehead…

“We’ll make new memories.”

“Yeah… and we’ll be happy.”

“Yes… happy.”

And he was… he was happy knowing you loved him, would laugh and smile like you always did.

I ate a finger.

-Rui Kamishiro (no, I will not give context) ^^

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Chapter 1: From home

|| Welcome to Chapter 1! I made a collage to make things more interesting! I hope you like it! Also feel free to reblog as you’d like! It will be greatly appreciated 😌! Now, without a further ado, lets let continue the story! ||

[Monday, hotel room, noon, 5 hours till performance. Jean’s pov]

The day of performances is always the most nerve-wracking day. Yes, preforming is fun, but the fear of messing up in front of thousands can make one really nervous. I glance from my phone and watch Armin frantically going over the song list for the umpteenth time. “Hey, Armin. No need to stress yourself out okay? You’re shaking so much that you might cause an earthquake” I remark, trying to lighten his mood. Armin looked like he might faint at any moment, I can’t help but feel bad for him.

“I’m not stressed…” he lies and I quirk an eyebrow. “Uh huh. Sure, sure.” I pause before I inhale and ask “ Would you like to go over a few songs before we preform?” I ask. “Aniyo” he murmurs absent-mindedly, staring at the song list….again. “Alright, I’ll ask the others if they’d like to join. I’ll be right back. Geogi seo” I say before I leave.

I ask the others if they’d like to join and they nod in unison. “Alright, we’ll go over the encore and the hardest ones. How does that sound?” I ask. Everyone looked at each other for a brief moment before agreeing to my idea. After about half an hour of singing with the track, Armin seemed less nervous. “We should get ready. Also, try not to look sweaty before we even start” Levi states before we nod and get ready to preform.

[Monday, {name}’s car, venue of the concert, 20 minutes till performance. {name}’s pov]

This venue is super crowded. Damn. Finding parking is such a nightmare, especially at concerts like this. I didn’t think 9inety-9ine would be the same, fairly empty parking lots...man, was I wrong. After a minute, I find a parking spot and exit my car. As I enter the venue, I see a table with a giveaway where the winner gets to join them on their tour. Hmmm should I do it? I pause for a minute before saying Why not and decided to give it a shot! I fill out my information. The winner is announced by e-mail tomorrow at noon. I wonder what happens if I win?

[Monday, Venue, 10 seconds till performance. {Name}’s pov. ]

I find my seat and look around and see a good majority of the venue (myself included) holding a lightstick. I notice the lights fade to black and the stage lights up. I hear the beginning of a song as well as the screams of fangirls and guys alike. I see them on stage and smile widely. Seeing them preform is amazing! If I do win, it would be nice, I think. I continued to watch the performance, lights flashing and changing from one song to the next.

Watching concerts like these is fun! If I do meet them, I would definitely tell them that I appreciate their music and dances.

[Venue. Jean’s pov]

Preforming is loads of fun, getting to dance, sing, and making others happy is the best feeling. Ever since our trainee days, our number one goal was to create music, dances, and share it with people all over the world. Our lifelong dream has come true!

I look at the audience, waving their lightsticks and singing along, and screaming with excitement. Looking back at how much we’ve grown, it makes me smile inside. We worked so hard, and to finally preform and feel proud is the best feeling. I can’t help but think about that one day at the studio. 3 years ago on that Wednesday is a day I’ll never forget

[Flashback: Dance studio, Wednesday, 3 years ago. Jean’s pov]

“I wonder how long it will be until we finally become idols” Connie asks out loud as we take a break from our session of dancing, . “It probably won’t take too long! We’ll be on that stage soon, naneun yagsoghanda” Armin says with a reassuring smile. Connie responds with a nod and a smile “Thanks ‘Min. Maybe your prediction will be right” “Considering how hard we’ve worked, it shouldn’t be too long” Levi states before drinking some water. “I agree” I say, with a smile. “If we do become idols, it would be nice” Eren spoke with a small smile.

[End of flashback. Present day, last song before end of concert. Jean’s pov]

Our concert is finally coming to an end, the energy still sky high. We say a few words of thanks to the audience before starting our last song: From home. For the song, Armin sang in Japanese and Korean , and the rest of us just sang in Korean . Levi was the one who first came up with the idea of the song. A song that we hold dear to our heart. After the song ended, we said our thanks and bowed before heading offstage, the roaring of our fans fading as we walked to our respective green rooms.

[Tuesday, the day after the concert, noon. {name}’s pov]

There is something people call post-concert blues. The feeling you get after a concert ends. Sometimes it lasts for days, BUT weeks, or even months. It’s hard to describe. It’s a sense of something being missing, perhaps it’s loneliness. I soon hear a ding and I turn on my phone. A notification from my email.

I look at the email. My heart skips a beat. No way this could be real.

Dear {name},

Congratulations! You are one of the lucky winners who won the lottery! You get to stay with 9inety-9ine for the rest of their tour! How exiting! All your rooms and transportation are booked for you! All you need to bring is money for food, and that’s about it! The date you get to join them is tomorrow at precisely 2:00 pm! Hope to see you then!

Sincerely,

[company name]

I can’t believe it. Going on tour with them will be so fun! I can’t wait! I smile and start preparing for tomorrow. I overhear a passing of a plane outside my open, window the noise burning out the chirping of the birds. A plane. Maybe we get to travel on a plane too? I would imagine we would. How fun that would be…

||Translations (these are rough translations that I got online lol, they may not be 100% accurat):

Aniyo - Yes (informal)

Geogi seo - stay right there

naneun yagsoghanda - I promise

Note: I hope y’all had a blast reading this! Sorry it took forever for this to come out! 😅 I might post again today or on Friday as scheduled! Keep your eyes peeled!

Until then, take care out there ^^

- Lucky🐾||

***Note 2.0: I would also like to say that there is going to be symbolism in this story {including this one and the previous one} so if y’all detectives can guess right by the end, then I’ll be proud ^^ consider this a challenge hehe

**Taglist: @1-800-asuka

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I would love to join! :)

-Lucky

if i do a collab will anyone wanna join :0