Lucidluminary - Lou

wearing sky-colored shoes to hide from the devil. earth colored hat to hide from god

tbh the first step in unlearning shame for yourself is learning how to extend dignity to other people at all times. you need to hold the same standards for everyone. you're not going to be able to convince yourself that you deserve that accommodation if you don't believe everybody is deserving of it

“what’s your aesthetic” it’s super niche actually it’s called clothes i like. hope this helps

it is so embarrassing to be losing my mind over a tv show and all of the stills look like this

and it WILL be the most thrilling piece of television you have ever watched

cannot relate to people who don't feel trapped in their own brain we are simply too different. "your brain is you" ummm no it's not? my brain is a warden enforcing my punishment for a crime i never committed and it keeps slamming its baton against the bars of my enclosure to rattle me

thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

sOlAcE

"Curiosity Killed My Beia" A comic I did for The Spinoff's Comic of the Month

i love this thing i wish i was hopelessly defending it w a bolt action or sent to die in it or just selling moss out of it