Wow This Is So Beautiful 🥹

I'm the DJ at work today!

Vent Post

I'm very obsessed with my body. Unfortunately, not in the self-love way but the self-hate way.

Ewan McGregor, my favorite actor, is also my biggest trigger when it comes to micro analyzing my body. This sucks turds. Like, I'm afraid the solution is to just stop looking at Ewan, stop watching his movies, just act like he doesn't exist.

I'd rather be trampled to death by a herd of horses.

He makes me happy and I love being part of his fan base! Why in the world would I give that up?

But I don't want to constantly compare my body to someone else's either. I don't know what to do, honestly. I feel like I'm at a pivotal moment where I'm still clear-minded enough to recognize that I'm going down an unhealthy road. Which means that I can still change course before I'm consumed with dysregulated thinking. I just don't know what that looks like.

Second attempt at the bracelet

Adding more pink was definitely an improvement!

I was inspired by the awesome bracelets MCR fans have shared on here and wanted to make one myself. So here's my Party Poison bracelet. It's the first one I've made and honestly I'm not happy with it. I was really excited to use this kit cuz it all these different colors but it took me FOREVER to figure out what colors (if any) to use for the letters. I also like things to be symmetrical. To follow a pattern. So I felt really unsatisfied that I couldn't do that with the letters. At the very least, I wanted it to look like something Poison would wear but the end result is just garbage. I think I'll take it apart and just do black and white letters but I feel strongly that there NEEDS to be color! Ugh! Anyway, fingers crossed I improve 🤞

I have a new goal in life and it's to buy and wear this exact outfit

mark

inspiration

Today was GREAT day. I feel amazing and so happy. It really feels like things are looking up. ❤️

Padawan braids should be far more decorated I don't care

I want them to have beads and bows and jewels and rings and bells and-

I want them to scream culture, to scream tradition, to scream history!!!

Fun. That's what the fuck Down with Love had going on. Fun! We need movies that will be unashamedly fun and quirky and just plain silly again. Not sarcastic. Not making fun of itself (or the audience) because it knows it's "cringe" and is embarrassed about it. Just let movies be full-blown wacky and ridiculous! It doesn't need to justify why it's that way. Embrace the weird! Be fun!

we need to bring back to cinema whatever the FUCK down with love had going on

Alex Law (shallow grave) 12. What's a headcanon you have for this character?

Okay this is gonna be long-winded lol

So Alex tends to be talked about in the context of the movie during his present timeline but I don't see people talk about Alex post events.

I think Alex would become a shell of the man he was. He wouldn't still be loud, extroverted, and confident. That would all be left behind on the bloody kitchen floor. I think he would become paranoid, highly anxious, and ultimately reclusive. The people he loved and trusted most tried to /murder/ him. I don't see him bouncing back from that with his same bravado from the beginning of the movie.

What I really like about this headcanon is that he would realize he needs therapy. He needs to talk to /someone/. So, he joins a discussion group! And in a cruel twist of irony, he DOES end up meeting his new best friend/partner for his life there! 😁

Jesus Christ, OP you're killing it with these edits! This one hits hard and gave me a new song to check out!

.Trainspotting (1996).

[Song: Weird Fishes/Arpeggi - Radiohead]

Ramblings

I'm not feeling so well. I'm so dependent on my phone. I'm acutely aware of every second I spend on it and feel guilty for not doing something, ANYTHING else. What really bothers me is that I think that I see my phone as a lifeline. It's the last and only connection I have to people, to the world, at this point. I could force myself to go and do something else. But why? Why would I suffer being alone? And for how long? I could die right now and I don't think anyone in my physical life would miss me. Not for a long time anyway. Online, I exist. I think I'm starting to understand Sword Art Online now lol. I can like posts and leave comments and share things and have an actual effect on here. For better it worse. At least I know I'm alive because maybe I can get a reaction. I don't exist outside of here. I'm nobody. It feels so good to feel like I'm talking to people. Even if I just leave a one word comment I've "talked" to someone today. I'm alive and I matter. What I say and do matters. And sometimes people are even interested in me back! What I say means something when in my physical life I don't have a voice. I just want to matter. To be loved. To know what it feels like to exist all the time.