May I request a fake dating scenario with Childe? (sorry i know its cliche but its my favorite tropeđ) Perhaps he and f reader are on an undercover mission to gain intel at a function, like a dinner party or a festival of some sort, and Childe is way more interested in committing to the bit than the mission itself. Like, he intentionally took on an easy mission so that he could indulge in his time with the reader because he "takes his job seriously" or something like thatđ
Fatui operative reader*
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âYou said youâd take this seriously.â You chided him, pushing for the fifth time his hand away from your hip while you looked through the crowd for your target. It should have been a rather easy mission: get close enough to the ambassador that theyâll tell you about the incoming shipment. Once you got what you needed youâd inform the other operatives waiting near the docks, theyâd sneak in during the night and lift all the goods before anyone grew wise to the situation. However, after much pestering from a specific Harbinger, this simple task was turning into a headache inducing nightmare.
âI am, dear.â He ran his finger over your ear and out of your peripherals you caught sight of the calculating grin that pulled one side of his lips.
âYou donât have to pretend right now, no ones looking at us.â Pretending to rummage through your pouch, you noticed a esteemed looking figure walking through the door, someone as elegantly dressed as that must be your ambassador. âSheâs here.â You whispered, nudging your chin in her direction and slipping the money pouch back in your side bag. âLetâs get closer.â
âDonât get to hasty, letâs see what she does.â Childe moved behind you, his hand sliding over your back and making you hyper aware of each and every inch he occupied. His chest somehow so noticeable even though he never touched you with it, the proximity of him as he leaned against the wall and draped his arm over your shoulder before pulling you closer made your brain fuzzy and, for a moment, you lost sight of her. âCan you make out what sheâs saying?â He spoke in a lower tone, an attempt to keep his words only for you or ⊠was he trying to make you shiver.
Carefully, you focused your attention on her lips. Eyes squinting against the light as you tried to decipher what she was saying. The expression on her face shifted from one of familiarity to irritation, but it was so slight and quickly replaced by a smile her companion never caught it. âSheâs upset.â
âWhy?â
You opened your mouth to explain only to be cut off by his arm sliding off your shoulder so his hand could run down your back. The slow trail he made up and down your spine made you furious; you were trying to do your job, trying to get what you needed and to not be swayed, distracted by the pounding of your heart or the hot breaths you took while sharing the intel. âSh-sheâs asking why the shipments late.â Stopping his hand with your clenching fingers, you pushed his wrist back toward his chest and swore you heard a soft giggle at your side. Coughing, you continued. âIt looks like heâs telling her itâll be here soon.â
âAre the goods on the boat, look closely.â With a sigh, you strained your eyes to see, took in everything that you could in order to see her mouth form the shapes you needed to see.
âYes!â You shouted a little louder than you anticipated and, because of that, the ambassadors turned toward you. You felt completely see-through under her eyes, a stab of fear shot through your heart when she looked at you, directly at you. In one fell swoop, Childe lifted you in the air and spun you around so much you lost your balance and you werenât even using your own legs. âCh-!â
âYou said yes!! Youâve made me the happiest man in the world.â He let you slide down his chest but before you could fully grasp it all, he moved in and soon your lips were covered by his. The tight grip you had on his shoulders began to relax, your toes touched the ground but he continued to hold you; arms wrapped around your body, mouth commanding yours with lips so heavy you wondered how he exerted so much pressure onto them. When he released you, the air in your lungs came rushing in all at once while your mind did itâs best to refocus.
Things faded in slowly. Childeâs thank youâs to an applauding crowd, the drifting sound of your heart as it began to slow, the heat of your cheeks as you hid against his chest.
âSheâs gone, we should follow her just in case.â He whispered into your hair, hand resting against your back while yours shook against his chest.
âYou did that on purpose.â
âWhat makes you say that, comrade.â Lifting your eyes to see him, taking in every ounce of deviousness that radiated off his skin, you knew this partnership would be the death of you.
âYo-you shouldnât tease people like that.â
âAm I not allowed to tease my sweetheart? Whereâs the fun in that.â
âIâm not really your sweetheart, remember.â
âWho says?â Childe ran his fingers over your ear until they found the back of your neck and you swore his intentions were clear as he leaned in for another kiss. Why was he so good at this fake dating ruse, it wasnât fair. Your heart shouldnât be so affected by this and yet âŠ
âChilde âŠâ Your eyes fluttered closed and you prepared for a kiss that never came. âChilde?â
âExpecting something, comrade? Our friends getting away.â Everything slammed back together as if he had slowly pulled you apart moments ago; how was he able to do that so easily? Frustrated, you clenched your jaw and pushed past him but when he ran after you only to slip his hand into yours it took everything you had to hold back a confused and irritated scream building in your throat while he easily let fall laughter that made your heart weak.
sunday would find the softest bindings to chain you to him. leather broken in by sunday himself wearing them to take on the aches and pains before he shackled them to you. if he ever sees bruises and blood forming from your desperate attempts to yank them off, heâd cry and sob and beg you to stop. drugging you to compliance so he could bandage you up, pressing his lips to your wounds to whisper his apologies. it truly hurts him, to see you so sad, so scared. before he clipped your wings and bound you to him, another flightless bird, sunday would drink in your laughter and glee. he never meant to shatter your spirit, but there was no other way to keep you with him.
Grandpas with their babies
includes: xiao, zhongli, ayato, thoma, and itto.
warnings: gender neutral reader, fluff.
notes: please this is the favorite thing i've written so far.
xiao.
xiao prided himself on always being available when you needed help. so when you called him and presented him with a tightly shut jar, xiao was more than accepting to help you open it.Â
except that he couldnât.
xiao frowned when the lid didnât budge. he tried again, repositioning his hands on jar, but still the lid refused to moved. and then again. and again.
it was only when you let out a quiet wheeze did xiao stop. he looked up and saw you, your face flushed from trying to hold back your laughter, tears almost coming your eyes.Â
âwhat?â he asked, slightly defensive. âwhat are you laughing at?â
âyou,â you got out between laughs. prephaps not the best way to put it. at that, xiao raised flushed in embarassment, and you rushed to catch your breath and explain.Â
xiao couldnât believe heâd been had. especially by you. he threatened to never come to your aid again, especially not for such another âstupidâ request. when you pointed out that was an empty threat, xiao only stalked off, not saying another word.Â
poor xiao. all he wanted to do was help you. now all he could do was sulk in the corner like a scolded puppy, a perpetual frown on his face for the rest of the day.Â
you better apologize.Â
zhongli.
zhongli had faced many hardships and challenges in his few thousand years of life, but the small jar in front of him was proving to be one of the toughest yet.Â
he underestimated its potential when you handed it to him with what he thought was a simple request. zhongli might have even laughed if he got it on the first try after your futile attempts. but he had lost count of how many times he tried to failed to unscrew the lid, and he no longer felt like laughing now.Â
âitâs like,â he said as he tried yet again, âyou superglued it shut.â
âno, i didnât.â your answer, too quick. too defensive. too prepared.Â
zhongli paused mid attempt. he glanced up at you, and you saw the realization slowly dawn on him. âyou did superglue it shut.â
you shook your head and said again, âwhat? no, i wouldnât have, i swear it.âÂ
your smile was nervous and forced and completely guilty. it faltered as zhongli put the jar down, crossed his arms, and gave you a disapproving look. âwas this really the best prank you could come up with?â
âiâd like to see you do anything better.â
âis that a challenge?â zhongli asked. he didnât let you answer. âif so, then i gladly accept. just be warned, [you]. i wonât be holding back.â
his eyes twinkled with all things mischievous. although you might have won this round, you suspected that zhongli would have the last laugh after all.Â
ayato.
ayato, ever the intellectual, didnât at first try to unscrew the jar. instead, he immediately began to run it under warm water. then, very unceremoniously, ayato whacked the jar against the countertop. after a few hard strikes, he then attempted to unscrew the lid.Â
imagine his surprise when his methods of loosening the jar didnât work. he tried again to the same result.Â
you should have stopped him then. told him it was a prank, had your laugh, and rested on your laurels.Â
but no, you decided to wait and prolong the humorous display before you. you watched as ayato moved around the kitchen, grabbing anything and everything that could aid him in his quest to open your jar. a spoon to wedge open the lid. a paper towel to wrap around the base. a bottle opener to try and break the seal.Â
every single method that could have been found on a random blog was now being done in your kitchen. when, at last, ayato exhausted all his various items after failed attempt after failed attempt, you expected him to give up.Â
but his face somehow began more determined. you were about to admit to your prank when he cautioned, âstay back.â
you were about to ask why when the flash of ayatoâs vision and the quick movements of a hydro sword stopped you. it was over in an instant, and in its wake your jarâ
your eyes widened. it was cut cleanly in half.Â
âwell, that certainly did the trick,â ayato said, quite proud of himself.
you stuttered out a string of incomprehensible noises, unable to fully process what just happened.
âalthough, i might have gone a little too far.â it was only then did you realize that ayato had not only sliced the jar in half, but the entire countertop, too. cleanly down the middle. ayato shrugged. âoh, well.â
you really should have stopped him earlier.
thoma.
how could you do this to poor, sweet thoma? your boyfriend trusted you entirely and genuinely thought you just needed help opening a particularly stubborn jar.Â
now he only felt bad that he couldnât. and you didnât have the heart to admit it was a prank, not after he called ayato and ayaka for advice on how to help you. not after he watched several youtube videos on how to open it. not after he consulted google for the better part of an hour.Â
you knew that you had to eventually, but as of right now, you were in too deep. prephaps if you got him to stop trying and told him later, it would soften the blow.Â
âitâs okay,â you said to thoma as he tried yet again. âitâs really fine. i didnât really need it opened.â
but thoma would not listen. he steeled himself to try again andâ
nothing. the lid didnât budge. the jar remained perfectly shut.Â
and then your worst fears were realized to be true when thoma put his head down and started to sob. you opened you mouth as he practically shook from crying so violently. the frustration had finally got to him.
âno, thoma, please stop!â you said frantically, immediately pushing the cursed jar away from him.Â
âif i canât do this for you, what can i do?â
âdonât say that!â you insisted. and then, without thinking, âitâs just a prank! i glued it shutââ
âso you admit to it?â thoma looked up. no tears stained his cheeks. his voice was completely normal. a hint of a smile even laced his lips. âyou admit to pranking me?â
you blinked in surprise. you were played.
thoma trusted you entirely, and he knew you even better. the way you handed him that jar with an innocent little smile⊠he knew. he knew before you even opened your mouth.
thoma, one. you, zero.
itto.
the first time it wasnât a prank. when you needed help the previous night to open a subborn jar, you asked itto because you genuinely couldnât do it yourself.Â
âthat was nothing!â he boasted after opening the jar with ease. âi could do that blindfolded and upside down, [you]. are you sure you just didnât want to see how awesome i am?â
âi loosened it,â you protested.
âyeah, yeah,â he dismissed you. itto continued in a carefree tone, âlisten! itâs fine. i donât mind help you out. i can open any jar you give me, i promise.â
you raised an eyebrow at that last part. and now, standing before itto once again, a jar you superglued shut the night before in your hands, you decided to see if itto could really make good on his promise. either that, or recieve a rude awakening.Â
as judging by the amount of glue you used, it was going to be the latter.Â
âcan you please help me with this one?â you asked. your blinked your eyes up at him in a show of innocence. your smug smile was hidden underneath a small pout as you pretended the jar had gotten the best of you.Â
âanother one?â itto asked in mock exasperation. he grabbed the jar from you and said, âwatch and learn.â
itto twisted, andâ
it opened. the jar opened. itto had opened the jar as if you hadnât poured an entire bottle of superglue on the lid and rim.Â
your mouth dropped open. itto offered it back to you and asked, âwhy do you look so surprised?â
âiâŠâ your voice trailed off. telling itto would only further fuel his ego. and you really didnât want to deal with him talking about it the rest of the night. âiâm not surpised. thanks for⊠yeah. thanks.â
itto gaze you a puzzled look. then he shrugged and said, âwhatâd i tell you? i told you i could open any jar.â
you could only nod in agreement. itto had no idea just how correct that statement was.
geo dad adopts everyone challengeÂ
hi bee đ»đ»!!! can i request scaramouche and sibling!reader fluff no incest ofcourse ^^ (first time requesting sort of nervous đ§ââïž)
date: 3/4/22
pairings: platonic older brother!scaramouche x sibling!reader (they/them pronouns, gender neutral)
warnings: kind of kidnapping đ, mentions of blackmail, threats, bullying, its all fluffy and funny though trust me, no yandere scaramouche in the building!
a/n: HI RYUUKO!! Ok can we talk about how back then we speculated Ei to be his sister and he wanted to save her bla bla bla, WELL TURNS OUT shes basically his mom. BUT GUESS WHAT?? The Raiden shogun puppet MIGHT AS WELL BE HIS SISTER. WHICH ONLY SUPPORTS MY OLDER BROTHER SCARAMOUCHE THEORIES. idk. Idk. Im just all in for older brother!scaramouche that i live on the crumbs for him being soft for children and elders. ok im jsut rambling now lets get w the request đđ
Scaramouche would be. The BEST brother ever. I mean it.
He would be so protective over you oh my god
Got any bullies? Well not anymore! They know not to ever mess with Scaramouche's little sibling. I mean you cant blame them, the man is a menace!!
However, if they ever continue to harass you or anything, he's literally gonna threathen them with blackmail.
Your bully was tied up with rope, sitting on a chair in the dark, squirming as Scaramouche continues to threathen them with malice.
"So you're the reason why Y/n always comes home crying?" The bully cried in response, refusing to answer the question as they knew whatever they answered, Scaramouche wouldn't be happy.
"So you are? Well what if THIS were to get out?" Scaramouche threatened, swiftly pulling up a picture of the bully taken with the Kamera up to their face. The picture showed them dressed up in a pink tutu with heavy clown makeup on their face.
"Please, no!" The bully sobbed, Scaramouche tsked a response. "Tsk, tsk, tsk. So you promise to never even go near Y/n again, speak of Y/n, or even so as to look at Y/n again, and this picture will not get out in public."
The bully nodded, not wanting their reputation to be in shambles. Scaramouche sighed, untying the rope on their wrists to let them go. The bully scurried away from him, tripping on the way, all the while crying loudly as they ran, running past you as you walked towards the room they were previously in.
"Scara?" You asked, entering the door to the dark room. He looked at you as you continued, "What was that? Why were they here?" You quizzed, your face scrunched up in confusion.
"Oh, nothing. Just had to take care of unfinished business." He patted your head, walking out of the room while hiding the picture of your bully away from your sight.
Anything you want? Scaramouche would steal buy.
Makes sure to always stop by places that sell your favourite things, be it food, kimonos, hell even toys because Scaramouche is willing to do anything for you.
He seems like he doesn't care, but he really does.
He'll listen to you ramble on and on about your day with a poker face, but really, he is intrigued! He can remember everything you say about people you've met or even about petting a random cat you saw on the way home.
Adding on to the last point, he'll do anything for you because you are his only kin, your only mother had abandoned you both and now he just wants to protect you from anything that comes your way.
Overall he is just an amazing brother, he loves you and would hurt anyone that tries to ruin that.
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al haitham x reader x kaveh SYNOPSISÂ kaveh, al haitham and you are close friends and went to the same high school. but after your junior year, you left them and sumeru behind for liyueâs 2 year med school exchange program. now youâre back in sumeru for a class reunion and attending sumeru akademiya.
note : this week's update + end of this act! tysm for sticking around!! no update next week bc school's actually killing me and i need to catch up with my hosa event :') i've been procrastinating too much...
â âż»  TENDING TO YOUR INJURIES
-Ë âĄ â xiao  alhaitham  ayato. genshin impact. repost.
â ïŸ. àŒ xiao
you imagined this would have gone differently. you imagined xiao would be frantic, furious-- not at you, but at those who dared bring you harm. you imagined he'd be scolding you endlessly for such acts of recklessness, but he does not. instead, he chooses silence, expression stoic, almost unreadable, and it makes the heart sink into uncertainties.
it is silent.
there is a heaviness that lingers in the air as he tends to your wounds, fresh cuts stinging and irritated by the balm he applies in the gentlest of ways. you imagined this would be so much more different, and you almost wish it was, because you can feel his hurt like it is your own, and you know that he believes your pain is his, always and forever.
the salve is cool against your skin ; it tingles, the back of your hand, but a warmth replaces the sensation as his fingers dance across the injuries. he doesn't look at you, but instead, chooses to displace his anxiety and frustration in the way he takes care of you.
you tilt your head the slightest bit, force your gazes to meet as you smile faintly. it is a guilty smile, he notices, and he does not return it, nor can he bring himself to look away.
"i am still here, xiao."
then, he speaks for the first time tonight.
"you should have called me. you know you cannot face dangers greater than yourself alone."
there is something in his words-- a grief, the thought of what could have been, a preemptive readiness for the loss of a loved one-- and your smile turns somber. he is right. you should have asked for help. you are lucky to have survived the night, and you both are well aware of that.
you grab his hand, squeeze it gently despite the pain. you can see that small flicker of surprise in his eyes as you pull him towards you, and in the way your lips meet his, there is the quiet seeking of forgiveness and a known gratitude.
"i'm sorry, xiao." you murmur against his lips. "i will be sure to speak your name when the time arises."
â ïŸ. àŒ alhaitham
"be honest. you're pissed."
alhaitham is quick to care for your wounds, but he is not quick to panic. not a surprise, really, and it's also not really a surprise as to how he's acting.
"i'm not angry". he states, a blunt brutality in his words. "i'm just disappointed."
you don't say anything initially, your expression deadpan as it meets his before you throw him a half-hearted glare. there's a slightly teasing tone in his response, though you know he means them. had you been a stranger, you would have thought he was dead serious.
"i'm sorry," you start, "i almost thought i was being grounded for a second."
alhaitham doesn't say anything at first, simply stares at you-- and it's a long while of just looking at each other until the first person breaks. he's almost certain you will be the first to lose in this battle of resilience-- you always are, albeit through his own means. so he scoots a little closer to you, leans forward until all you can see or think about is him. he cups your face with his hand, touch gentle, almost too warm, and how steady it is that he holds your gaze.
"you are." he murmurs, and you almost think you see a hint of a smile when you finally look away, begrudgingly leaning back the slightest bit in silent admit of defeat.
"shut up."
"i won't." he answers. "now come back to me. you have a scratch on your face, you know."
"oh. is that why you were getting so close?"
"yes," alhaitham chuckles, and you are unsure what makes your heart beat faster : the love in it, or the way he closes the distance between you once more, "but i also happen to like you, too."
â ïŸ. àŒ ayato
"beloved, you wound me so."
there's a faint curve that settles on ayato's lips, but there's worry in that smile, and you know that no amount of words can ease it. you let out a quiet laugh, your hands in his as he squeezes them gently in comfort to both you and him : to you, in means of letting you know that he is there for you, and to him, in means of reassurance that you are still here, still alive and breathing.
there's bandages all over your body-- no serious injuries, thankfully, but there are still so many, and how they adorn you terribly so.
"and i thought i was the only one who was wounded." you respond, a lighthearted tone in your words. you do not wish to see him sad, nor do you wish to add any additional stress to his already hectic routine. ayato has experienced much loss in his life -- and even now, he must be on guard for those who wish to harm him through means of hurting those he cares for. you squeeze his hand twice : a quiet apology, an i'm sorry, and he hears it loud and clear.
"in spirit, i'm hurt, too."
your laughter grows a little louder. he's always been so cheesy and theatrical when it came to romance. the worry in his smile dissipates, turns into something of genuine relief at your reaction. though you may be littered in wounds, it's clear that you are alright.
"well, we can't have that, can we?" you murmur, pressing a kiss to his forehead in yet another means of apology. "i'm sorry. i didn't mean to worry you." you whisper, and you press your forehead against his. "i'm alright, love. thank you for taking care of me."
"And what does that make me, my lord?" you asked, your voice barely above a whisper. Sukuna looked at you again, his smirk returning but softer this time, almost wistful. "It makes you the only one who matters. Out of everyone, every woman in these lands. You are the only one that matters above them. Behind me.â And behind that, behind Hiromi. You whisper in your head.
GENRE: alternate universe - heian era;
WARNING/S: nsfw, angst, one sided romance, conflicted feelings, hurt/no comfort, unhappy marriage, forced parenthood, hurt, physical touch, character death, mourning, loneliness, pain, conflicted relationship, emotional distress, grief, toxic relationship, depiction of suicide, depiction of suicidal ideation, depiction of one-sided relationship, depiction of grief, depiction of complicated relationship, depiction of parenthood, depiction of canon related violence, depiction of loneliness, mention of grief, mention of illness, mention of loneliness, heian! sukuna, long suffering concubine! reader;
WORD COUNT: 20k words
NOTE: when i was writing this, i thought it wouldn't be this long. but when i ended up writing more and more, i just couldn't stop. i ended up writing this as a sort of prequel to the other woman's latter parts. if people are aware of me from other websites or just here, you know i write a lot. this 20k usually was my usual writing. but i feel like people like a lot of short stories. i'll post about that some time else. i'm gonna be sorry for breaking more of your hearts like this. the reason this took so long as me drafting multiple times. and then my exams. so, it just...this will be a read. anyway, i love you guys!!! thank you for your birthday wishes. see you later <3
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YOU COULD FEEL THE YEARS IN YOUR BONES. You had been Ryomen Sukunaâs concubine for nearly ten years, a role that once filled you with dread and uncertainty. Over time, however, the nature of your relationship shifted. Unlike the others who served him out of fear or obligation, you had managed to carve out a space for yourself in his worldâone of strange but growing trust.
It wasn't love, at least not for you, but it was something. Ryomen Sukuna treated you differently from the others. He sought your company more often, and the violent edge in his voice seemed to soften when he addressed you.
What set you apart wasnât just your demeanor or willingness to adaptâit was your face, the way you looked almost identical to Ryomen Hiromi, the only woman your husband Sukuna had ever loved.
At first, you didnât know why he lingered in your presence or why his temper cooled when you were near. It was only after overhearing a conversation between two of his most trusted advisors that you realized the truth. You looked just like herâthe woman whose memory still haunted him. You had become a ghost of his past, a stand-in for the love he had lost long ago.
As the years passed, you began to understand Sukuna in ways no one else could. He never spoke of Ryomen Hiromi to you, but in quiet moments, you saw the flicker of something softer in his gaze.
Perhaps he found comfort in your presence because you reminded him of her. Or maybe, in some twisted way, he had come to care for youânot as the woman you were, but as the reflection of someone long gone.
Even so, you knew where you stood. You were the favored concubine, yes, but the specter of Ryomen Hiromi loomed between you, casting a shadow over every fleeting moment of tenderness. You were not her, and you never would be. But in this cruel, tangled relationship, you had become the closest thing Sukuna allowed himself to care for.
You had long since come to terms with your place in Sukuna's world, understanding that his affection for you wasnât truly yours. Still, it made life easier, gave you a strange sort of power in a place where others lived and died on his whims.
Once in a blue moon, sometimes, you both sat together for dinner. It was a rare occasion, that was for sure. Ryomen Sukuna often eats alone, served by his most loyal servant Uraume. But there were times when he would ask you to join him. It was often late at night, Sukuna didn't sleep well. You doubt he ever does.Â
As the sun set and the air turned cool that night, Uraume had come to your chambers and told you that Sukuna summoned you to his chambers to sup with him. You were surprised. But you immediately dressed with the help of your servants and as soon as the last of your satin ribbons were tied to your hair, you rushed out towards his chambers.
When you had arrived, the servants had been tense. It is usually like that when your lord Sukuna does not get what he wants. You apologized to them quietly, as quietly as possible for your lord husband not to hear. You would rather not have him do so. He does not like anyone, anything he owns lower themselves. You told them to leave, to go away. You would rather that it be you in that room alone with him. It would be easier. Â
It was one of those rare moments where he wasnât looking to dominate or torment. Instead, he seemed pensive, sitting by the window, staring out at the horizon. Trays of food were scattered with luxurious food and luxurious ceramic tiles of alcohol. It was not for your husband. He does not need such sustenance.
It was for you, even with your small appetite. You could feel a bile rip through your throat. You purse your lips, walking inside the room and slowly lowering yourself, to bow. His crimson eyes flickered to you as you entered, and the smallest of smirks tugged at his lips.Â
âYou're late, little one.â he said, his voice deep and teasing, though there was no real malice in it.
"I was making sure I looked presentable, my lord." you replied calmly, accustomed to his games. "I didn't think you'd appreciate rushing in disarray with your servant.â
He chuckled, low and dangerous, but you had learned to discern when that sound held genuine amusement. He urges you forward from your bowing position and you stand up, moving towards him and sitting on the silk pillow as gracefully as you could.
"You always did know how to play the part. Perhaps that's why I tolerate you more than the others."
You sat across from him, not too close, but not far enough to seem distant. "Or perhaps it's because I remind you of her."
At this, his expression shifted. His eyes darkened, and for a moment, you thought you had overstepped. But instead of lashing out, Sukuna leaned back in his chair, his gaze unwavering on you. You looked over the meal and started to plate for your husband, even if he does not eat it. And then yourself. You slowly moved your sleeve away, carefully as you took the alcoholic beverage and started pouring it upon silver cups, first for him and then on your own.Â
"You think you're clever, little one?" he said, his tone neutral, betraying nothing. "But tell me... do you believe thatâs all you are to me? A ghost of someone who no longer exists?"
It was a question you had pondered many nights alone in your chambers, alone and cold, unable to sleep whatsoever. You wanted to believe that over the years, you had carved out a space of your own in his cold heart, but the truth was undeniable. You were Ryomen Hiromiâs echo, the closest thing he would allow himself to love again. But how much of you, the real you, did he see?
"I donât pretend to know what goes on in your mind, my lord." you said carefully, holding his gaze. "But I know I am not her. And I know you donât care for me the way you cared for her."
Silence hung heavy between you. Sukuna's eyes, burning with something unreadable, bore into yours before he spoke again, softer than usual. He uncharacteristically lets his hand move towards the table and slowly takes one of the silver cups full of sake and raises it to his lips. He downs it slowly, letting the cool smooth taste echoes on his throat.
"You're right, little one." he admitted, surprising you. "You're not her. You never will be. Best remember it, hm?"
His words were sharp, meant to cut, but they didn't sting the way they once might have. You were used to those words. And so you do not speak. You let him say what he does and slowly let yourself consume the warm flavorful broth.
Sukuna looks towards you once more, watching you eat some meat. Silence echoes through the room. Instead, they hung in the air like a truth neither of you could avoid. And yet, as he turned his gaze back toward the setting sun, his voice grew quieter.
"But you're the only one who's come close."
It wasnât an admission of love or devotionâyou already know that your lord Sukuna wasnât capable of that, not anymore. You were used to it. And yet, even if it was something you were used to it â you were still pained by it. But it was the closest you would ever get to understanding his complicated feelings for you. It was all that was left in his pitch black heart that never belonged to Ryomen Hiromi. You swallowed the last of the meat.
"And what does that make me, my lord?" you asked, your voice barely above a whisper.
Sukuna looked at you again, his smirk returning but softer this time, almost wistful. "It makes you the only one who matters. Out of everyone, every woman in these lands. You are the only one that matters above them. Behind me.â
And behind that, behind Hiromi. You whisper in your head.
He rose from his seat, approaching you with the predatory grace that always reminded you of the monster he truly was. He cupped your chin, tilting your face up toward him, his thumb brushing lightly against your skin. You could feel your breath hitch hotly as his gaze burned your own. You purse your lips, trying to maintain control of yourself.
"But never forget, little one." Sukuna continued, his tone dropping. "You are here because I allow it. You may remind me of her, but you are still mine to control."
You held his gaze, unflinching. "I havenât forgotten, my lord."
For a moment, the two of you remained like that for a moment. It was as though you were both locked in a silent struggle of power, emotion, and unspoken understanding. Even after ten years, it was just that way. Finally, Sukuna released you, stepping back as though the moment had never happened.
"Good." he said, turning away once more. "Now leave me for the night, little one. Iâve had enough of this sentimental nonsense for one night."
You nodded at him. You drank the last cup of alcohol and let the bitterness burn you. Soon after, you rose without a word, bowing slightly before you made your way to the door. Just before you left, you paused, glancing back at him one last time.
"I wish you a good night, my lord."
He didnât respond, his attention already back on the horizon. But as you left, you couldn't help but wonder if somewhere, buried deep within him, there was more to his feelings than even he understood.
THE PEOPLE OF HIDA VIEWED YOUR HUSBAND LIKE A GOD. They always have, for as long as you could remember. The grand hall of Ryomen Sukunaâs temple buzzed with the presence of those who had come from all corners of Hida.
The heavy doors swung open to let in petitioners, men and women alike, who approached with heads bowed low, their faces masked with fear or desperation. Some came seeking mercy, others with requests for blessings or favors only Sukuna could grant.
They dared not meet his eyes as they offered up their pleas, knowing that their fates rested on the whims of the man seated high upon the throne.
And there you sat, just below him, on a fine mahogany chair that had been made specifically for you, a symbol of your status within the temple. The carved wood was smooth beneath your fingers, but no amount of comfort could erase the tension simmering beneath your skin.
Sukuna's gaze swept across the crowd with indifference, his presence towering over all as his blood-streaked eyes flickered lazily between the petitioners. You could feel the immense weight of his power bearing down on the room, as though his very presence could crush anyone at will.
But what irked you the most wasnât the groveling or the constant fear that filled this place. No, it was her.
Directly in front of you, standing tall in the center of the hall, was the statue of Ryomen Hiromi. The woman who had haunted you from the moment you became Sukuna's concubine. The resemblance between you and her was strikingâuncannily so.
The cold, lifelike stone eyes stared straight ahead, almost as if they were judging you, just as she had judged countless others. The figure of Hiromi was positioned so that it faced not just Sukuna, but you as well, creating an eerie sense of being under constant scrutiny. Her hands, carved with impeccable precision, reached out in a serene pose, like a goddess looking down on humanity.
It was not just this one statue, either. There were others scattered throughout the templeâstatues, paintings, carvingsâeach one depicting Hiromi in a different light. She was revered here, just as much as Sukuna himself.
The woman Sukuna loved most, the woman you could never truly become, was enshrined in every corner of his temple. Her image lingered like a ghost, haunting you, reminding you that no matter how close you sat to his throne, you would always be second to her.
Sukunaâs voice echoed in the chamber, deep and commanding, as he passed judgment on the next petitioner, his words casual as if human lives were merely tokens to him. You barely listened, too distracted by the sensation of Hiromiâs stone eyes watching you, bored at you with those haunting eyes..
You couldnât escape her. Not here. Not ever.
Your eyes drifted from the petitioner at Sukuna's feet back to the statue, a chill crawling down your spine. It was too perfect. The way it captured her beauty, her serene expression, the very essence of what made her Ryomen Hiromiâeverything that made her more than just a memory for Sukuna.
You wondered, in your darkest moments, whether Sukuna had commissioned these statues himself, making sure they were as accurate as possible, preserving every detail of the woman he loved more than life itself.
The thought gnawed at you.
The crowd shifted again, and you could hear the low murmurs of the people waiting for their turn to kneel before Sukuna. A faint breeze from the templeâs high windows stirred the air, and the faint sound of bells chimed in the distance.
And still, the statue stood, unwavering, staring at you with those lifeless eyes. It was as if Ryomen Hiromi had never left, as if she lingered between this world and the next, a permanent fixture in Sukunaâs heart, never allowing you to forget that you were only here because of her.
âNext.â Sukunaâs voice boomed, pulling you from your thoughts.
Another petitioner shuffled forward, trembling as they knelt. Sukuna watched them with a bored expression, waiting for them to speak.
You didnât look at him. Instead, your gaze flickered back to the statueâalways back to her. She was everywhere. No matter where you turned in this temple, in this life with Sukuna, Ryomen Hiromi was there.
Her presence was eternal, and it was driving you mad.
It wasnât as if you truly hated Ryomen Hiromi. How could you hate someone you had never met, someone who existed only in the memories of others and in the cold, flawless statues that filled this temple? No, hatred wasnât the right word. But her presenceâher haunting, ever-present likenessâgnawed at you in ways that went deeper than resentment. It was painful.
Painful because every time you looked at her, it reminded you that you would never truly be seen for who you were. Sukunaâs gaze might fall on you often, but you knew the truth. He wasnât looking at youâhe was seeing her. You were a reflection, an echo of the only woman he had ever truly loved. And that knowledge burns inside you, slowly and constantly.
The way her statues were placed, almost reverent, made it clear just how important she was. To the people of this land, Ryomen Hiromi was no less a god than Sukuna himself. Her beauty, her grace, her presenceâimmortalized in stoneâbecame a legend, a tale passed down from generation to generation. And you? You were simply the woman who bore her face, destined to be a stand-in for a love long lost.
You couldnât escape it.
Even now, as you sat in that carefully crafted chair below Sukunaâs throne, the image of Hiromi loomed over you. Her delicate features seemed to accuse you, her eyes hollow but full of judgment. It was as if she were silently asking: Why are you here? Why are you in this temple, sitting at his feet, when you could never be me?
Your fingers tightened on the armrests, a subtle but instinctive reaction to the thoughts swirling in your mind. You knew it wasnât logical to be angry at a statueâat a dead woman whose only crime was being loved by Sukunaâbut the feeling still crept in. You had no reason to despise her, but the weight of constantly living in her shadow was suffocating.
Another plea for mercy echoed through the hall, but you barely registered it. Sukunaâs voice was deep, dismissive as he granted or denied requests with a wave of his hand. This was his world, and Hiromi was as much a part of it as you were. More, even. She had her place in his heart, in his temple, in the minds of the people who worshiped them both.
But where was your place? Were you always to be nothing more than a reflection, someone to remind him of what he had lost? And what pained you more was that even after nearly ten years by his side, you hadnât found an answer to that question. Sukuna had grown accustomed to you, perhaps even fond of you, but you knew that in the deepest recesses of his heart, it was Hiromiâs memory that still held sway.
It hurt in ways you couldnât explain.
You werenât her. And no matter how long you stayed by Sukunaâs side, no matter how much you tried to understand him, to navigate the storm of his power and wrath, you could never be her.
A quiet sigh escaped your lips as you lowered your gaze, away from the statue, away from the memory that plagued you. The hall was filled with voices, but none of them reached you. Sukunaâs voice, sharp and dismissive, barely registered in your ears.
The weight of Hiromiâs existence pressed down on you, heavier than the stone statues that surrounded you, more oppressive than the walls of the temple that bore her likeness in every corner. For a moment, you allowed yourself to wonderâa dangerous, fleeting thoughtâwhat would it have been like if she had never existed?
If Ryomen Hiromi had never crossed Sukunaâs path, never claimed the part of his heart that was now lost to time, would his gaze fall upon you differently? Would he see you, truly, and not the pale reflection of the woman he had loved so deeply? Could you have been someone significant to him in your own right, not simply because of your resemblance to her?
The thought lingered, bittersweet, filling you with a longing you barely allowed yourself to acknowledge. It was tempting, imagining a world where Hiromi had never been. Where you, instead of living in her shadow, might have been the first to carve a place in Sukunaâs heart, the one to leave an indelible mark on his soul.
But it was a foolish thought, and you knew it.
Hiromi had shaped him. Her loveâor perhaps the memory of herâhad molded him into the man he was now. She wasnât just a figure of the past. She was the cornerstone of this entire existence, the silent foundation upon which Sukuna had built his empire, his throne, his identity.
The cold stone likeness of her didnât just haunt this templeâit haunted Sukunaâs very being. It influenced his every thought, his every action, even the way he looked at you.
You werenât just living in her shadow. You were her shadow, a reflection of something he could never truly let go of. And no matter what you did, no matter how close you came to him, you would always be caught between the person you were and the ghost of Hiromi.
And the worst part? You couldnât hate her. Not really.
You wanted to. In those quiet, agonizing moments when you felt Sukunaâs eyes on you, knowing he was searching for traces of her in your face, you wanted to hate Hiromi with all your being. But how could you? She had been everything to him. Her love had meant something so profound that even in death, she lingered, casting her long shadow over the living. Her presence was woven into the very fabric of Sukunaâs existence.
But more than that, you owed her everything. Without Hiromi, without the love that had marked Sukuna so deeply, would he have ever taken notice of you at all? Would he have seen something in your face, something in your eyes that reminded him of the one woman he had ever loved?
Without Hiromi, you might not even be here. Her memory had brought you into his life, kept you by his side for nearly ten years. The recognition that you shared her likeness had made you his favorite, the one concubine who had stayed when so many others had come and gone. In some twisted way, Hiromi had paved the path that led you to this place, to this seat below his throne, to the strange, fragile bond you now shared with him.
But living in her shadowâit was a torment all its own.
Every statue, every carving, every whispered prayer to her image reminded you that no matter how close you came to Sukuna, you were not her. And you never would be. The affection he might show you was born not out of love for you, but out of a love that had long since died with Hiromi. You were the echo of something that had ended, a reflection of a life he had lost.
It was a strange, agonizing paradox. Without Hiromi, you would have nothing, no connection to Sukuna at all. But because of her, you would also never have everything. You could never be the woman he truly loved, no matter how long you stayed at his side.
And so, you sat there, beneath Sukunaâs throne, as the statue of Hiromi looked down on you with cold, indifferent eyes, her presence an inescapable reminder of the role you played in his life.
A role you hadnât chosen, but one you were bound to, for as long as Sukuna wished it.
You snap back to the present as Sukunaâs deep voice rumbles through the hall, breaking through your swirling thoughts. âWhat do you think?â he asks, his gaze shifting from the kneeling man before him to you. His expression is unreadable, cold and calculating, as always, though thereâs an edge of curiosity in his tone.
You blink, focusing on the man who trembles at Sukunaâs feet, eyes downcast, waiting for his judgment. The hall, filled with the murmurs of the petitioners, goes quiet in anticipation.
âWhat is his crime?â you ask, your voice calm, though you feel the weight of Sukunaâs gaze on you.
âHe stole, little one.â Sukuna replies, a hint of amusement creeping into his voice as if daring you to suggest otherwise. âFrom one of my temples.â
You sigh softly, leaning back in your chair, your eyes narrowing slightly as you assess the man. His clothes are tattered, his hands dirty and wornâclearly a sign of the hard times that have plagued the land recently. The famine had hit Hida hard this year. Crops had failed, and many of the people were barely surviving, struggling just to feed their families.
âThe famine has been hard on all, my lord.â you say quietly, though thereâs an edge of empathy in your words. You werenât excusing the man, but you understood the desperation that drove people to do things they wouldnât have otherwise done. Hunger was a cruel master, and youâd seen its effects firsthand in the villages.
âThat does not mean he is entitled to steal, little one.â Sukuna counters, his tone sharp, though he doesnât seem angryâmore like heâs making a point. âThere needs to be justice.â
You purse your lips, knowing Sukunaâs sense of justice could be harsh, final, and unyielding. He ruled with an iron fist, and mercy was not something he granted easily. But you also knew he valued your opinion, at least in his own little ways. After all, you were the one concubine whose voice he truly listened to.
âThen chain him to me, my lord.â you say, your words surprising even yourself. You sit up straighter, meeting Sukunaâs gaze with unwavering resolve. âLet this man serve me in the Vermillion hall. My private garden needs tending. Let him work under my watch so that he may learn a lesson. Let him toil in the hardship of life for his mistake, rather than meet more... final end.â
The man at Sukunaâs feet looks up, his eyes wide with shock, perhaps hope, though he dares not speak. It was almost rare for anyone to be heard speaking with such authority in this hall the way Ryomen Sukuna does.
It was rarer that your voice was heard with such a loud echo. The other woman speaks, they all must think. The rarest words from her lips. Mercy, the virtue of the woman she could never replace, echoing in the stone sight of her.
The hall remains silent, as if everyone is holding their breath, waiting for Sukunaâs response.
Sukunaâs eyes linger on you, studying you for a long moment. You can feel the weight of his power in his gaze, the way he considers your words, turning them over in his mind. He is not a man to grant mercy lightly, and you know the risk youâre taking by asking this of him.
But after nearly ten years by his side, youâve come to understand how to navigate his moods, his whims, and his sense of order. You knew when to have him indulge you, even when it was not an occurrence you repeated frequently.
Finally, a slow smile curves at the corners of his mouth. Itâs not a warm smileâit never isâbut itâs a sign that heâs pleased. âVery well, little one.â he says, his voice carrying the authority of his decision. âLet him serve you in the Vermillion hall. He will tend your garden, as you wish. But if he steps out of lineâif he falters, even onceâyou will bring him back to me. He shall meet his end in the hands of his lord. Do you understand?â
There is no mistaking the threat beneath his words. You nod, accepting his terms.
âThank you, my lord.â you say softly, turning your gaze to the man who has been spared, for now. He looks up at you with a mix of relief and fear, clearly aware of how close he came to a far more brutal fate.
Sukuna leans back on his throne, watching you both, as if amused by the small victory youâve won for the man. But you know better than to think Sukuna was softened. This was merely a moment of indulgence, granted to you because of the peculiar bond you shared.
As the guards move to take the man away, you return your attention to the grand statue of Ryomen Hiromi, standing in front of you, her stone eyes as cold and distant as ever.
In the shadow of the woman who had everything, you had won a small victory today. But the haunting presence of Hiromi lingered still, reminding you that no matter what you did, Sukunaâs heart would never truly belong to you. And no matter what â your kindness would never be as beloved by the people who revered the stone that was left.
YOU ENJOYED THE PRIVILEGE OF PRIVACY. Every day, you enjoyed the distant life you had lived here in the Vermillion hall. The Vermillion hall had been a gift from Sukuna, presented to you on your fifth year in his temple.
It wasnât grand in the way his own halls were, but it was yours. A quiet, secluded enclave within the sprawling temple grounds, removed from the constant presence of the other concubines and the weight of Hiromiâs looming statues.
In the years prior, you had only been given a selection of rooms within Sukunaâs own quarters, close enough for him to visit whenever he pleased. Though his visits were rare, those rooms had been a symbol of your availability to him, a reminder that you were under his thumb, always within reach.
But as time passed, and your bond with Sukuna evolved into something more complex than mere possession, he decided to give you something more. Vermillion hall became yours. It was a gesture that left the other concubines seething with jealousy.
They already despised how close you had become to Sukuna, how often he lingered by your side, and now they had another reason to resent you. You knew that their hatred ran deep, festered in the corridors of his temple, where whispers of favoritism and betrayal echoed in the dark.
To pacify them, and perhaps to create some distance between you and their hostility, Sukuna had given you the Vermillion Hall. It wasnât a grand act of love, nor was it some romantic gesture. It was practical. The gift served to ease tensions, to quell your growing discomfort, and to offer you a reprieve from the suffocating dynamics of the templeâs inner court.
In Vermillion Hall, you had your own household. Your own space, away from the eyes that burned with envy. Your own garden, tended by servants who answered only to you. There were pleasantries there, comforts that softened the harshness of your life with Sukuna. The hall was peaceful, serene, and for the first time in years, you had a sense of autonomy, a place to call your own.
You were aware of what the gift truly meant. It wasnât love, not even affection in the way one might hope. Sukuna had never cared in that way. His gestures, while grand, were always calculated.
Vermillion hall was an offering of peace, a way to keep you satisfied, pacified. It wasnât an act of affection but of convenience. With your own residence, you were removed from the tensions of the other concubines. You were out of the way, kept at a distance while still under his control.
And yet, you were grateful. Despite knowing the reasons behind it, you cherished the hall because it afforded you something you hadnât realized you craved so deeplyâfreedom.
You were far enough from the other concubines, from their petty schemes and cruel glares. Away from the prying, stone-cold eyes of Hiromiâs likeness, always watching you from every corner of the main temple. And, perhaps most importantly, you were away from Sukunaâs immediate reach.
Here, in your quiet refuge, you could breathe without constantly feeling the weight of his presence or his demands. The distance didnât erase your bond with himâSukuna could summon you whenever he wished, and you would always returnâbut it allowed you moments of solitude, moments to reflect and gather yourself.
In Vermillion Hall, you found a strange sort of peace. Away from the tempest of Sukunaâs world, you could finally be alone with your thoughts. And in that space, you realized how much you had craved this separationâhow, even in your closeness to Sukuna, you had always yearned to be free from the shadow of both him and Hiromi.
The garden at Vermillion hall was your sanctuary. It had been from the moment you first stepped foot into it, surrounded by delicate vermillion petals, fragrant herbs, and the soft hum of natureâs presence.
Sukuna had forbidden the servants from tending to it, decreeing that it was yours alone to care for, a space untouched by others. It was a strange sort of giftâone that granted you solitude but also burdened you with its upkeep.
In the beginning, you had relished the challenge, pouring your time and energy into every plant, every blossom. The act of tending the garden gave you purpose, something to pour your hands into when everything else in your life felt dictated by Sukunaâs whims. It was an escape, a place where you could breathe and let your thoughts wander.
But as the years passed, you found it harder to keep up with. The garden grew wild, sprawling beyond what you could manage alone. The weight of maintaining it, along with the complexities of your life in Vermillion hall, began to overwhelm you. What was once your refuge now became a reminder of your isolation, each untended leaf and overgrown vine whispering of the loneliness you felt within these walls.
That was when Sukuna granted your requestâbegrudgingly, perhapsâand allowed you a servant. The man who came to you, your new gardener, was named Hironobu. His name meant âgentle abundanceâ and it seemed to suit him perfectly.
He was a quiet, unassuming figure, with a calm presence that filled the garden like a steady breeze. He wasnât like the other servants, who always carried a quiet fear of Sukuna in their eyes. There was something different about Hironobu, a certain calm that put you at ease in a way you hadnât expected.
At first, you barely spoke to him, unsure of how to navigate the strangeness of having someone else in your once-private space. But as days turned to weeks, and weeks to months, you began to find comfort in his presence. He tended to the garden with care, never overstepping, always leaving space for you to do what you wished. But slowly, you began to rely on him more and more. His hands, though calloused, were gentle with the plants, and you found yourself watching him sometimes, noticing the way he seemed to move with the rhythm of the earth.
Conversations began to bloom between the two of you, small at firstâa comment about the soil, a shared observation about a plantâs growth. But over time, you began to talk about other things. Life. The temple. The world beyond its walls, which felt like a distant dream. Hironobu listened more than he spoke, his quiet presence a balm to your often lonely existence.
You found yourself drawn to him in ways you hadnât anticipated. Not in the same way you were tied to Sukuna, but in something softer, something more human. Hironobu didnât see you as a concubine or as someone living in the shadow of Hiromi. He saw you as you wereâa person. A soul, just like him.
There was no pretense with him. No judgment. Just quiet understanding.
In the afternoons, you would find him in the garden, kneeling by the plants, his fingers brushing against the earth as if he were communicating with it. You would sit nearby, watching him work, feeling a peace you hadnât known in years. It was a strange thing, this growing connection between the two of you.
You werenât sure when it had startedâperhaps from the very first time he smiled at you, or perhaps later, when you noticed that being with him felt different than with anyone else.
With Hironobu, the garden began to feel like a sanctuary again, not just from Sukuna or the other concubines, but from your own loneliness. The space that had once been yours alone became something shared, and in that sharing, something beautiful blossomedâa quiet companionship, a bond that grew in the shadow of the vermillion blossoms.
For the first time in a long while, you felt like you werenât completely alone. Hironobu was there, steady and calm, tending to the garden as if it were the most natural thing in the world. And with each passing day, you found yourself growing closer to him, drawn to the gentle abundance of his presence.
One late afternoon, as the sun began to dip beyond the horizon, casting long shadows across the garden, you found yourself kneeling beside Hironobu. He was carefully pruning one of the flowering shrubs, his focus entirely on the delicate task. You watched him for a moment in silence, taking in the way his hands moved with precision, the soft rustle of leaves under his touch.
âYouâve done wonders with this place, Hironobu.â you finally said, your voice breaking the quiet. âI barely recognize it anymore. It feels⊠alive again.â
Hironobu glanced up, offering a small smile. âIt was always alive, thanks to your good work, my lady. It just needed a little bit more care.â
You could feel warmth brush against your cheek as you nodded, brushing your fingers along the edge of a flower petal. âI couldnât have managed it on my own. Iâm grateful that youâre here.â
There was a moment of quiet between you, the air filled with the soft hum of the gardenâs life. Hironobu set down his tools and wiped his hands on a cloth, then looked at you with an expression that was both kind and thoughtful.
âYou speak as if youâre alone here, my lady.â he said quietly. âBut youâre not. Not anymore.â
His words settled between you, a truth that you hadnât fully realized until now. The loneliness that had once pressed down on you had lifted, little by little, ever since he arrived.
âI suppose⊠Iâve gotten used to being alone.â you admitted, your voice softer than before. âItâs been that way for so long. Even when I was with lord Sukuna, surrounded by people, it was always the same. The others⊠they hated me. And lady HiromiâŠâŠâ You hesitated, glancing at the distant temple where her statues stood in silent vigil. âSheâs everywhere.â
Hironobuâs gaze followed yours, but he said nothing for a moment. Instead, he sat back on his heels and watched you with a gentle patience that you had come to value. You could tell that he had some fondness for Hiromi.
Who wouldnât? His parents must have told her of the good deeds of Ryomen Hiromi. You were but a nobody and Hiromi, she was immortal to the people, to the land. You were an outsider to these people.
âDo you resent lady Hiromi, my lady?â he asked quietly, his tone free of judgment.
You shook your head, though the truth of it weighed heavily on you. âNo. I canât. How could I? Lord Sukuna loved her. And she is kind and generous, she was genuine, I am sure. But IâŠ..Iâm⊠Iâm only here because I remind him of her.â
Hironobuâs brow furrowed slightly, his eyes thoughtful. âAnd yet, he chose to keep you close. To give you this hall, this garden. Thatâs not something he does for everyone, my lady. You are important to our lord.â
âMaybe.â You sighed, the weight of your situation pressing down on you once more. âBut itâs not love. I doubt it was. Not like it was with lady Hiromi.â
There was a long pause as you both sat in the quiet of the garden, the only sound the soft breeze moving through the leaves.
âDo you wish it was, my lady?â Hironobu asked, his voice barely above a whisper.
You turned to look at him, surprised by the question. His eyes were steady, sincere. It wasnât the first time youâd wondered that yourself. Would it be easier if Sukuna truly loved you? If you werenât just a replacement for a woman who was no longer here?
But as you looked into Hironobuâs eyes, the answer felt more complicated than it ever had before.
âI donât know, Hironobu.â you admitted, your voice quiet. âMaybe at first, I did. But now⊠Iâm not sure it matters.â
Hironobuâs expression softened, and he nodded as if he understood. âLove doesnât always come in the way we expect it to, my lady.â
You met his gaze, feeling a strange warmth bloom in your chest. There was something about the way he said it, the way his words felt more like an invitation than a simple observation.
âI suppose not.â you murmured.
A comfortable silence fell between you again, and after a few moments, Hironobu stood and extended a hand to help you up. You took it, feeling the warmth of his palm against yours, and for a moment, you stood there together in the quiet of the garden.
âShall we finish up for today?â he asked, his voice gentle.
You nodded, but as you turned to leave, you couldnât help but glance back at him. âHironobu?â
He paused, looking at you curiously. âYes, my lady?â
âI donât think I could have done this without you.â you said, your voice soft but sincere. âNot just the garden. Everything.â
A small, genuine smile tugged at the corners of his lips. âYouâre not alone anymore, my lady. I hope you may remember that.â
You held his gaze for a moment longer before nodding, a quiet understanding passing between you. As you walked back toward the hall, you couldnât help but feel that something had shifted. Not just in the garden, but between you and Hironobu as well. The distance that once separated you felt smaller, and for the first time in a long while, you felt a glimmer of hope.
Perhaps, in the gentle abundance of his presence, you had found something you hadnât been looking for. Something that, unlike the garden, wouldnât fade with time.
YOU STARTED TO ENJOY GARDENING WITH SOMEONE. As the days passed in the garden, you and Hironobu grew closer. His laughter filled the spaces that had long been silent, echoing in the air like a sweet melody that danced among the blossoms.
Each shared moment became a thread weaving into the fabric of your existence, bringing warmth and light into your life. The garden, once a sanctuary of solitude and melancholy, transformed into a vibrant tapestry of color and life under his gentle care.
You found yourself eagerly anticipating his visits, counting down the hours until he would arrive, a basket in hand, ready to tend to the plants that flourished under his skilled touch.
The sunlight seemed to brighten when he stepped through the gates of the vermilion hall, illuminating not just the petals of the flowers but your heart as well. Each time he smiled, it felt as though the world around you bloomed anew, and you began to notice the small joys that had previously gone unnoticedâthe way the sun filtered through the leaves, the gentle rustle of the wind, and the songs of birds fluttering above.
Conversations flowed easily between you, often starting with the mundane aspects of gardeningâdiscussing the best ways to prune the roses or debating which herbs to plant next. But as you both shared stories and laughter, the dialogue deepened, revealing layers of your souls. Hironobu spoke of his childhood, his dreams of becoming a skilled gardener, and the joy he found in nurturing life. You opened up about your life in the temple, the challenges you faced as Sukunaâs concubine, and the bittersweet longing you felt for freedom.
âDo you remember the first time you showed me how to care for the orchids?â you asked one day, recalling the way he had patiently guided your hands, teaching you the delicate art of nurturing the fragile blooms.
Hironobu chuckled, a warm, rich sound that resonated in your chest. âYou were a quick learner. I think you were more excited about getting your hands dirty than the flowers themselves!â
You smiled at the memory, the image of dirt smudged across your palms and the way his eyes had sparkled with amusement. âMaybe I just liked spending time with you,â you replied, your heart racing at your own boldness.
His gaze softened, and you could see a flicker of something deeper in his eyesâsomething that hinted at unspoken feelings. âI like spending time with you too. You make this place feel alive. Itâs more than just the plants; itâs the way you see beauty in everything, even in the shadows.â
His words wrapped around you like a warm blanket, filling the hollow spaces within your heart that had long been empty. You found yourself blushing, the warmth of his gaze igniting a spark of hope in your chest. In those moments, the weight of your circumstances seemed to lift, if only for a while. You felt cherished, seen, andâdare you think itâtruly happy.
Yet, as the days turned into weeks, you were reminded of the solitude that lingered beneath this newfound joy. While Hironobu brought a lightness to your life, there was still an underlying ache, a reminder that this connection, as precious as it felt, existed in a world defined by shadows.
One afternoon, as you and Hironobu knelt side by side in the garden, tending to a patch of vibrant marigolds, he paused, his hands resting in the soil. âYou know,â he began thoughtfully, âitâs strange how life brings us together in unexpected ways. I never imagined I would find such joy in tending a garden, especially one that belongs to someone as remarkable as you.â
You glanced at him, your heart swelling at the sincerity in his voice. âItâs not just the garden. Youâve brought joy into my life, Hironobu. I canât remember the last time I felt this⊠alive.â
His eyes met yours, and in that moment, the world outside the garden faded away. The towering walls of the temple, the looming presence of Sukuna, and the whispers of the other concubinesâall of it seemed to vanish, leaving just the two of you, surrounded by the fragrant blooms and the warmth of the sun.
âI wish I could give you more than this, my lady.â Hironobu said softly, his expression earnest. âYou deserve to be happy, to feel free. This garden is a refuge, but I want you to feel that way outside of it too.â
Your heart fluttered at his words, the weight of longing and affection intertwining within you. âI⊠I donât know what the future holds for me, but right now, Iâm grateful for this moment with you, Hironobu.â
One evening, as the sun set in a blaze of oranges and purples, you were gathering a basket of freshly picked herbs when Hironobu approached, his expression unusually serious.
âMay I speak with you for a moment?â he asked, his tone almost hesitant.
You set the basket down and nodded, your heart fluttering with curiosity. âOf course. Whatâs on your mind?â
He took a deep breath, his hands clasped together in front of him. âI want to apologize for what Iâm about to say, my lady.â he started, his voice steady but laced with a hint of nervousness. âI know it may change things between us.â
Your brow furrowed in confusion. âHironobu, what do you mean?â
He shifted his weight, glancing away as if searching for the right words. âIâve grown fond of youâmore than I intended to. I can no longer pretend that itâs just admiration or friendship.â He paused, his gaze finally meeting yours, filled with an earnestness that made your heart race. âIâm in love with you, my lady.â
The world seemed to pause at his confession. The weight of his words hung in the air between you, and your breath caught in your throat. You opened your mouth to respond, but no words came.
âI know you are married to lord Sukuna, my lady.â he continued, his voice low and filled with regret. âAnd I never intended to overstep my bounds. But I had to tell you, because hiding it would only cause me more pain and I would not be fair to you, my lady.â
You took a step back, your mind racing. âHironobu, Iââ
âPlease, my lady.â he interrupted gently, raising a hand to stop you. âI donât expect anything from you. I just needed you to know how I feel. You deserve to know that youâve brought joy into my life, more than I could ever have imagined. And if you cannot return those feelings, I will understand. I just⊠I couldnât keep it to myself anymore.â
The sincerity in his eyes made your heart ache. You felt a mixture of emotionsâsurprise, fear, and an undeniable warmth that surged through you at his words.
âI never wanted to put you in this position, Hironobu.â you admitted, your voice trembling slightly. âIâve enjoyed our time together so much, but I⊠Iâm married to lord Sukuna. You know how he is.â
âOf course, my lady.â he replied, his voice barely above a whisper. âBut that doesnât change how I feel. I just thought⊠perhaps there was a chance you might feel the same way.â
You swallowed hard, the reality of your situation crashing down on you like a wave. Sukuna was a force of nature, and while your relationship with him was complex, it was rooted in years of shared historyâof loyalty and duty.
But here was Hironobu, his honesty and vulnerability laid bare before you. He was a breath of fresh air in your life, and the connection you shared felt like a balm to the wounds of your past.
âIââ you began, searching for the right words. âYou make me feel seen, Hironobu. Happy. But this isnât simple. I canât justââ
âI donât want you to feel pressured, my lady.â he said, stepping closer, concern etched on his features. âI expect nothing. I only wanted to be honest about my feelings. And take care of you, my lady. You deserve that much.â
You took a deep breath, the weight of your emotions almost overwhelming. âI appreciate your honesty. It means a lot to me, truly. But I canât deny that this is all very complicated. I never intended for this to happen.â
âI understand, my lady.â he replied, his eyes filled with a mixture of hope and sadness. âWhatever happens, I want you to know that Iâll be here for you. I care about you, and I want to help you in any way I can. I will be your servant, for as long as I live.â
In that moment, something shifted between you. The air felt charged with unspoken possibilities, and though the path ahead was uncertain, the connection you had with Hironobu felt undeniable. You might not have the answers now, but there was a warmth in the garden that promised a new beginning.
âI see.â you said softly, your heart pounding.Â
âMy lady, I adore you. I always will.â Hironobu said, giving you a small, reassuring smile. âIâll always be here, tending to the gardenâand to you.â
As he turned to leave, you watched him go, your heart racing with a mixture of fear and excitement. You couldnât help but wonder what this new chapter might hold, not just for you, but for both of you. In the gardenâs gentle embrace, you felt a sense of hope begin to bloom, fragile yet persistent.
YOU THINK YOUâVE NEVER BEEN THE PERSON TO PRAY. But in the past ten years, you found yourself finding relief in prayer. It reminds you of your motherâs piety, of your fatherâs mumbling whispers to the gods, your brothers and sisters sitting beside you.
You havenât seen them in ten years. But you wish they were well. And even if you donât see them anymore, this gives you relief.
You knelt in the inner sanctum of the temple, bowing your head in prayer before the statue of Bishamon. Your lips moved silently, asking for a clear mind, but no matter how hard you prayed, you could not banish the thought from your headâHironobu, your loyal gardener, had confessed his love to you.
It had taken you by surprise. You were Sukuna's concubine. You could not be with Hironobu. And yet, he made you happy in a way you hadnât known was possible, and your heart was torn. To tell Sukuna was out of the question. If he knew, he could kill Hironobu without hesitation. You shivered at the thought.
The flickering light from the templeâs lanterns cast shadows on the walls, their soft glow doing little to soothe the turmoil raging inside you. How could something so pureâa love untainted by power and possessionâbe so wrong? How could you feel joy when the very thought of it put Hironobuâs life in peril?
Your mind returned to that moment, the way his eyes had softened when he spoke his feelings, the tenderness in his voice. He had always been gentle, always there with a quiet presence, nurturing the garden you so often found peace in. And now, he wants to nurture you. But you were Sukunaâs, bound to him by fear and something you could never quite define as love. Duty, perhaps. A twisted form of devotion. But love? That was not something you could claim to feel for the man who held you in his iron grip.
A soft breeze swept through the temple, brushing against your skin like a whisper, and you closed your eyes, imagining for a moment what life might be like if things were different. If you could run. If you could be free. But such thoughts were dangerous, reckless even, and you knew you would never act on them.
Just then, you heard footsteps behind you, a familiar presence that made your breath catch. Sukuna.
"I didnât know you prayed," his voice cut through the silence like a blade, deep and commanding, bringing you back to the harsh reality of your situation.
Your heart raced as you slowly rose from your knees, turning to face him. He stood in the dim light, towering over you as always, his gaze sharp and penetrating.
"I did not take you for a pious woman," Sukuna continued, his eyes narrowing slightly, scrutinizing you.
"Piety is a comfort, my lord," you replied quietly, your voice steady despite the storm in your chest. "It eases the soul to have someone that listens."
Sukunaâs eyes flicked toward the statue of Bishamon for a moment before returning to you. "Hm," he muttered, unimpressed, though his gaze lingered on you longer than usual. "Then do you pray to me?"
You blinked, taken aback by the question. "What do you mean, my lord?"
Sukuna stepped closer, his presence overwhelming, his eyes dark and intense. "Am I not a god?" he asked, his tone low and dangerous. "Your god?"
For a moment, your breath faltered, but then you gathered yourself. You had to be careful. You had to choose your words wisely. A soft, almost bitter smile tugged at your lips. "My lord," you whispered, meeting his gaze with a quiet defiance, "do I not worship you already? Does my entire existence, my suffering, my love for youâ" your voice grew quieter, but sharper, "âis it not enough worship for you as my god?"
Sukunaâs expression darkened, his jaw tightening, but he said nothing. His gaze remained locked on yours, and for the first time in your life, you saw something close to uncertainty flicker in his eyes.
But you did not feel victorious. You felt hollow. Because no matter what you said, no matter how sharp your words were, you were still bound to him. Still trapped.
And Hironobu? He would never be yours.
The silence between you and Sukuna stretched on, thick with tension. His gaze remained locked on you, unyielding, as though searching for something deeper within youâsome trace of weakness, some sign of betrayal. But you stood tall, your heart pounding in your chest. You couldnât let him see your turmoil, couldnât let him suspect that anyone had stirred your heart, least of all someone as lowly as a gardener.
Sukunaâs lips curled into a smirk, though there was no amusement in his eyes. âCareful with your tongue, woman,â he said softly, but the threat in his voice was unmistakable. âThere are limits to even my patience.â
You bowed your head slightly, a gesture of submission. âOf course, my lord. Forgive me if my words displeased you.â
He watched you for a moment longer, his gaze piercing through your very soul, before turning away, his crimson robes trailing behind him as he walked toward the templeâs entrance. For a moment, you allowed yourself to breathe, thinking he was leaving, that the conversation had come to an end.
But then he stopped.
âYou seem⊠distant, little one.â Sukuna remarked, his voice casual but laced with suspicion. He didnât turn to face you, but you could feel his eyes on you, even without seeing them. âSomething troubles you.â
Your heart froze. Did he know? Could he sense the conflict within you?
âNo, my lord.â you replied quickly, too quickly, the lie on your lips before you could think. âI am merely tired.â
âTired? This does not seem to be you, little one.â he repeated, his tone dripping with disbelief. Slowly, he turned to face you, and the way his eyes bore into yours made your pulse quicken. âI donât believe you.â
Your throat tightened as you scrambled for something, anything, to say. âIââ
Before you could finish, Sukuna took a step closer, closing the distance between you in an instant. His hand shot out, grabbing your chin with a roughness that made you wince, forcing you to meet his gaze.
âI am not someone who tolerates deceit, little one.â he growled, his face mere inches from yours. âIf something weighs on your mind, you will tell me. Now.â
The air around you felt suffocating, your mind racing with thoughts of Hironobu. You couldnât tell him. You couldnât. The truth would mean deathâfor Hironobu, perhaps for you as well. But Sukunaâs grip tightened, his impatience growing, and you knew you had to give him something.
âI am troubled, my lord. you admitted, your voice shaking slightly. âBut it is not something that concerns you, my lord.â
He raised an eyebrow, clearly intrigued but still suspicious. âEverything about you concerns me. You belong to me.â
You swallowed hard, forcing yourself to hold his gaze. âIt is only⊠the weight of my life, my place here. Nothing more.â
Sukunaâs eyes narrowed, his grip on your chin loosening slightly. âYour place is exactly where I put you, little one.â he said coldly, his fingers trailing down your neck in a way that made your skin crawl. âDo not forget that.â
âI havenât, my lord. You must not have to worry.â you whispered, your voice barely audible.Â
For a moment, he seemed to study you, searching your face for signs of rebellion, of disobedience. But then, slowly, he released you, taking a step back. You wonder if it was relief or it was disappointment you truly feel â knowing that he does not ask, that he lets you go. You purse your lips in a tight line. But you know that he does not wish to notice it.Â
âGood.â he muttered, turning away once more. âDo not forget who holds your life in their hands.â
With that, he strode toward the exit, his presence leaving the room like a dark cloud finally lifting. You stood there, frozen, the echoes of his words reverberating through your mind. He didnât know. Not yet.
But how long could you keep this secret? How long before Sukunaâs suspicions became too great, before he began digging for the truth? You had already slipped too close to the edge today, and it terrified you to think of how much closer you might come tomorrow.
And Hironobu⊠how could you ever look at him again, knowing the danger your feelings for him brought? Knowing that Sukunaâs wrath could fall upon him at any moment?
A tear slipped down your cheek, but you quickly wiped it away. There was no room for weakness. Not here. Not in Sukunaâs world. But in the quiet recesses of your heart, where Sukuna could not reach, the thought of Hironobu lingeredâlike a fleeting ray of light in a dark, unyielding storm.
YOU HAD EXCUSED YOURSELF FROM DINNER EARLY. And you could not take too much food when you were in Sukunaâs chambers. That had concerned Sukuna, even if he did not want to show it. You were a human being after all. And if anything was wrong with you, it concerns Sukuna. You were his. You were a part of him.
And if a part of him was unwell, he must ensure its settled. Ryomen Sukuna had not meant to stay long when he visited Vermillion hall, your residence. He had come for something trivial, something that now seemed insignificant as his eyes fell upon you.
He stood in the shadows, watching from a distance, concealed by the thick trees lining the garden. You didnât notice him; your attention was entirely on that servant, that Hironobu. He could feel the air punched out of his chest.
The way you smiled at him, laughed softly at something he saidâit was a smile Sukuna had never seen on your face before. Genuine, unguarded, free. Happy. In the truest sense.Â
That wretched low life Hironobu knelt beside you, tending to the flowers, his hands moving carefully as he spoke to you. There was no fear in his eyes, no hesitation. No, Sukuna could understand it. It was the tenderness he had when he looked at Hiromi. He looked at you as if you were the only thing that mattered in the world.It was love. It was adoration. It was devotion. Sukunaâs chest tightened painfully, and his fists clenched at his sides.
What was this feeling? A tug, something sharp and bitter gnawing at him, growing stronger the longer he watched you with Hironobu. He wasnât used to thisâthis strange, almost foreign sensation. He knew anger, jealousy, possession. But this⊠this felt different. More unsettling
He wonders now, if heâs ever seen that smile on your face when you look at him. If youâve ever truly been happy in the grace of his existence. But somehow, within the depths of what remains in his heart, there was pain. There was jealousy. There was anguish. There was grief. And he didnât know why. He didnât know why he felt like this. His heart had long died. Died with his beloved Hiromi and yetâŠ.
His face contorted into a scowl, his jaw tightening. He turned sharply on his heel, his robes whipping through the air as he left without a word. The sight of you with Hironobu left an acid taste in his mouth, and though he hated to admit it, it bothered him in a way he could not explain.
That next morning, he summoned you to break his fast with himâeven rarer than supping with him.
When you arrived, the room was dimly lit from the shading silk, the atmosphere thick with something you couldnât quite place. Ryomen Sukuna sat at the head of the long table, his scarlet eyes dark, his expression unreadable.
You felt a cold knot in your stomach as you approached him, the air between you tense and charged. You were not hungry. You could not feel any pleasure knowing that he was staring at you that way.
âMy lord, I greet you with fervent devotion.â you said softly, bowing slightly before taking your place at the table. He didnât respond immediately, simply watching you with that same piercing gaze that always made you feel exposed.
The silence stretched on, oppressive and heavy, before he finally spoke. âI visited Vermillion Hall last night.â
Your heart skipped a beat. The way he said it, the deliberate pauseâit sent a wave of dread washing over you. âI⊠I was unaware of your visit, my lord.â you replied carefully, trying to keep your voice steady. âYou must forgive me if I had not noticed.â
His eyes narrowed slightly, a cruel smile playing on his lips. âClearly.â
You shifted in your seat, sensing the trap closing in around you. There was a tension in Sukuna that you had rarely seen, something simmering beneath the surface. You remained in your position, feeling a bile stuck on the edge of your throat.
You could feel the sweat fervent on your palm as you gripped your kimono tenderly, hoping he would not notice the tension and fear in you.
âI saw you, little one.â he continued, his tone low and almost too calm. âWith that lowly thief of a servant...what was his name....ah yes, Hironobu.â
Your blood ran cold at his words.
You knew what your husband was like.
You had made a mistake, you knew that well.
âI saw how happy you were with him, little one.â Sukuna said, his voice tightening ever so slightly, though his expression remained controlled. âSmiling, laughing, as if there were no worries in the world. Itâs a wonder Iâve never seen you look that way with me.â
His words stung, even though you knew better than to show it. You lowered your gaze, knowing you were walking a very fine line. You knew him too well. He considered you a part of him, the god he is.
And everything, it has to be about him. Your existence was taught to worship him. Loving him was the law, even if he would not give it back. And you could not have the same, you know that.Â
âIâhe was simply tending to the garden, my lord. We merely⊠spoke as we often do. It was a mere passing laugh and enjoyment.â
âIs that all?â Sukuna asked, his voice taking on a dangerous edge. âBecause from where I stood, it seemed more than that, little one.â
You swallowed hard, your hands trembling slightly as you clenched them under the table. You couldnât lie, not to him. But the truthâhow could you explain the way you felt with Hironobu without damaging yourself?
âMy lord, I beg for your understanding.â you began, carefully choosing your words. âHironobu is kind and loyal to me, to you. He tends to the garden and offers his company when I walk, to ensure that he could care for you in caring for me. Nothing more, my lord.â
Sukunaâs eyes flickered with something dark and unreadable. âKindness?â he sneered, leaning back in his chair. âIs that what makes you smile like that? Is that what makes you laugh so freely? How easy are you, little one? Do you offer such a thing to everyone, is it necessary, little one?â
âMy lordââ
You opened your mouth to respond, but his voice cut through the air again, sharper this time. âDo you think I am blind? That I cannot see whatâs happening under my own roof?â
Your heart pounded in your chest as you looked up at him, meeting his furious gaze. He wasnât just angry. No, there was something deeper, something more dangerous. Hurt. Betrayal. You wonder why he feels this way. He had it clear even ten years ago that his heart had died. And that he was a god.
Because how could that be? Ryomen Sukuna was not someone to feel such things, to be vulnerable to them. And yet, as he stared at you, the fury in his scarlet eyes was laced with something raw.
âAnswer me, little one.â he demanded, his voice low and threatening. âIs he more to you than just a gardener?â
The truth was clawing at your throat, begging to be let out, but you knew what it would mean. Hironobu would die. Sukuna would never allow it, would never tolerate even the hint of disobedience or disloyalty from you. And yet⊠Could you lie to him again?
âMy lord,he is nothing but a servant tied to me to grace your glory.â you whispered, your voice trembling. âYou knowâŠyou know I would never betray you, my lord.â
He watched you for a moment. It was then where Sukuna stood abruptly, his chair scraping against the floor as he rose to his full, imposing height. He stalked toward you, his scarlet eyes blazing, and you felt a cold sweat break across your skin.
âIf I find out otherwise, little one.â he growled, his hand grabbing your chin, tilting your face up to his. âHironobuâs kindness wonât be enough to save him. And youââ his voice dropped to a menacing whisper. ââyou will know exactly what it means to displease me. You know me the best out of those fools in the concubine hall, do you not? You must know what I am willing to do.â
His grip on your chin tightened for a moment before he let you go, leaving you breathless, terrified, and more trapped than ever. You tried to calm yourself, you know you cannot show more. You cannot appear weak, not like this.
Sukunaâs wrath hung over you like a storm, and as he turned and walked away, you were left with the suffocating knowledge that your secret was on the verge of unraveling.
As Sukuna stormed out of the room, the sliding door nearly breaking along the path he left behind him, you remained frozen in your seat. The air was thick with his lingering presence, the scent of incense mixing with the oppressive tension that still hung over you. Your hands, resting in your lap, trembled uncontrollably. You felt the weight of Sukunaâs warning, his threat echoing in your mind.
Hironobu.
The thought of him twisted your heart painfully. You had always known the danger that came with even the slightest hint of affection for another man, but Sukuna had never been this close to the truth before. His suspicion was like a sword dangling over both your heads, ready to strike at any moment.
You rose from the table slowly, your legs unsteady beneath you. The silence of the grand dining hall was suffocating, every step you took feeling heavier than the last. You could barely think, barely breathe. All you could do was replay Sukunaâs words in your mind. The anger, the possessivenessâand something else. The hurt.
Could it be that Sukuna, the mighty king of curses, had actually been wounded by what he saw? You had always believed that you were just another possession to him, another piece in his vast collection of power and control. But tonight, there had been something deeper in his voice, something almost vulnerable.
And that terrified you even more.
When you reached the privacy of your chambers, you collapsed onto the bed, your body trembling from the weight of the evening. Your heart raced as you tried to steady your breath, but it was no use. Every time you close your eyes, you see Hironobuâs face, his warm, gentle smileâand Sukunaâs cold, furious gaze.
What were you going to do? You couldnât abandon Hironobu. The thought of him being killed because of you, because of a love you couldnât deny, was unbearable. And yet, if Sukuna found out, there would be no mercy. Not for either of you.
A soft knock at your door pulled you from your thoughts, and you quickly sat up, brushing away the stray tears that had escaped. âYou may enter.â you called, trying to keep your voice steady.
The door creaked open, and to your surprise, it was Hironobu who stepped inside. His expression was calm, as it always was, but there was a softness in his eyes that made your chest tighten. Tension passes through you as much as fear does. You cover yourself with the blankets, as though to shield you from the vulnerability you feel for him.
âYou shouldnât be here, Hironobu.â you whispered, panic rising in your throat. âIt is not allowed. This is notâŠ..Itâs too dangerous.â
âI know, my lady.â Hironobu replied quietly, closing the door behind him. He crossed the room in a few quick strides and knelt beside you, his hand reaching out to gently take yours. âBut I had to see you. I heard that lord Sukuna summoned you and everyone was whispering about him. He was mad, and I was worried that he could harm you, my lady.â
You looked into his eyes, the warmth and sincerity in them a stark contrast to the cold, terrifying presence of Sukuna. For a brief moment, being with Hironobu felt like a balm to the storm raging in your heart. But the danger was too real, too imminent.
âMy lord will not hurt me. You must know this.â You wonder if you were saying the right words. Ryomen Sukuna has hurt you. He always has, even if he does not lay a hand on you. âYou must trust that.â
âMy lady, stillââ
âHironobu.â you began, your voice breaking slightly. âLord Sukuna saw us in the garden the other day.â
Hironobuâs face paled, but he didnât let go of your hand. âWhat did my lord say?â
You shook your head, feeling tears prick at your eyes again. âHeâs warned me. He said he saw how happy I was with you, how I smiled while we gardened today. He asked if you were more than just a gardener and servant to me.â
Hironobuâs hand tightened around yours. âAnd what did you tell him, my lady?â
âI told him I would never betray him. That we are only enjoying the garden together.â you whispered, the weight of your words heavy on your tongue. âBut I donât know how much longer I can keep him at bay to keep you safe. Heâs watching us, Hironobu. I do not want him to hurt you, over your kindness and friendship and I fear for youââ
âI wonât let him hurt you, my lady.â Hironobu interrupted, his voice firm but gentle. âIâll leave if I have to. I wonât risk your life.â
âNo, no.â you said quickly, gripping his hand tighter. âYou canât leave. That would only make him more suspicious. You are bound to me as a servant. My lord will be suspicious.â
Tears finally spilled over, and you tried to wipe them away, but Hironobu cupped your face in his hands, his thumbs brushing your cheeks softly. âWeâll figure this out, my lady. Do not be afraid.â he said softly, his voice a soothing balm to your frayed nerves. âWe have to be careful, even in our friendship, but I wonât let him take you away from me.â
The intensity of his words made your heart ache, and for a moment, you allowed yourself to lean into his touch, to forget the danger, if only for a fleeting second. Being with Hironobu felt like a sanctuary, a place where you could be free from Sukunaâs suffocating grip.
But as much as you wanted to stay in this moment, you knew it couldnât last. Ryomen Sukunaâs shadow loomed over everything, and no matter how careful you were, it was only a matter of time before he would find out the truth. One way or another, even if you had rejected Hironobu, Sukuna will end up being angry. And he would kill him. He would kill him and that would break you.
âIâm afraid, Hironobu.â you whispered, your voice barely audible. âI donât know how much longer I can keep this up. Not having a life of my own.â
He leaned forward, resting his forehead against yours. âYouâre stronger than you think, my lady.â he murmured. âWeâll find a way, even if it means we have to run.â
You shook your head slightly. âHe would find us. You know he would.â
Hironobu didnât argue. He knew the truth as well as you did. Ryomen Sukunaâs reach was vast, his power unmatched. There was no escaping him, not really.
But for now, in the quiet of your chambers, with Hironobu beside you, you allowed yourself to cling to the hope that somehow, some way, you could protect the fragile love you had found. Even if the world around you was crumbling.
The door creaked again, but before you could react, a cold voice sliced through the air.
âI told you, little one.â Sukunaâs voice was low, deadly, as he stepped out of the shadows, his eyes burning with fury, âthere are limits to my patience.â
Your heart stopped.
You felt frozen in place.
He had seen everything.
The room felt as though it had been plunged into icy darkness the moment Sukuna stepped forward. His presence filled the air, suffocating, his crimson gaze searing into both you and Hironobu. The warmth you had felt moments before vanished, replaced by a cold, gnawing dread that clawed at your throat.
You stood up quickly, your heart hammering in your chest. "My lordâ"
Sukunaâs eyes flicked to you, and the fury in them made your blood run cold. His face was a mask of controlled rage, but there was a darkness beneath the surface, threatening to spill over.
âI warned you, little one.â he growled, his voice low and dangerous, each word like a blade slicing through the air. His attention shifted to Hironobu, who had risen to his feet but made no move to defend himself. There was a strange calm in Hironobuâs expression, but you could see the tension in his body, the readiness for whatever was to come.
âMy lord, please.â you begged, stepping forward, your voice trembling. âPlease donât hurt him. He had done nothing wrong.â
Sukunaâs eyes snapped back to you, narrowing. âDo you think your pleas mean anything to me now?â His voice dripped with contempt. âYouâve lied to me. You betrayed me. And for what? A mere gardener?â
Tears welled up in your eyes, but you forced yourself to stay calm, to keep speaking even though your heart was breaking with fear. âHe didnâtâhe didnât do anything wrong, my lord. This is my fault.â
Sukunaâs lips twisted into a sneer. âYour fault? Oh, I know itâs your fault. You allowed this to happen. You let him think he could take what is mine.â
Your breath hitched. The possessiveness in the god Ryomen Sukuna echoed in his voice was suffocating, and you knew he was on the edge of doing something irreversible. Desperation clawed at you as you stepped closer, falling to your knees before him.
âPlease, my lord. Please. This is notâŠ.â you whispered, bowing your head, your hands trembling as you reached out, barely daring to touch the hem of his robe. âI beg youâdonât hurt him. He⊠he only cares for me. Itâs not his fault.â
Sukuna stared down at you, his expression unreadable. For a moment, there was silenceâan unbearable, suffocating silence that made your chest tighten with fear. You couldnât bring yourself to look up at him, terrified of what you might see in his eyes.
âI should kill him where he stands,little one.â Sukuna said softly, though his voice was filled with venom. âI should make you watch as I tear him apart, so you understand the price of defiance.â
You gasped, your heart shattering at the thought. âNo! Please, my lord, no!â
But before you could continue, Sukuna moved faster than you could react, his hand shooting out and grabbing Hironobu by the throat. The sound of Hironobuâs breath choking in his lungs was like a knife to your heart.
âMy lord, please. Please, pleaseâSukuna!â you screamed, rushing to your feet, your hands trembling as you reached for him. âPlease, no! Iâll do anythingâanything! Just donât kill him!â
Sukunaâs grip tightened, his gaze never leaving Hironobuâs face. âAnything?â he repeated, his voice cold and mocking. âWhat makes you think you have anything left to offer me, after this?â
Tears streamed down your face as you fell to your knees once more, your voice breaking. âIâll take whatever you impose upon me, my lordâIâll never speak to him again! Or any one else I swear to you, my lord! Just⊠please, donât take his life. Itâs my fault. I should have known better. Iâll do anything you ask, my lord. Just spare his life. He had done nothing wrong.â
Sukunaâs grip on Hironobuâs throat loosened slightly, but his eyes remained locked on you, watching your every movement, every tear that fell from your eyes. His lips curled into a cruel smile, but there was no warmth, no mercy in it. He was enjoying this, owning you.
âIs that what you think will save him?â Sukuna asked, his tone soft, dangerous. âYour submission? Your devotion? Little one, I own you. I do not give your submission. You give it willingly. You know that.â
You nodded frantically, your voice a desperate whisper. âYes⊠yes, my lord. But I swear to you. I swear, my lord. Iâll submit to you in every way. I wonât resist, I wonât fight. I would continue to be devoted to you, only you. Just spare him, please.â
Ryomen Sukunaâs gaze flickered between you and Hironobu, his hand still wrapped around the gardenerâs throat. The tension in the room was unbearable, and you could barely breathe as you waited for his decision. You feel like you were going to collapse, as you stopped breathing waiting for him to say anything.
For what felt like an eternity, Sukuna said nothing. The silence was deafening, the weight of his power crushing you under its force. You knew that he could kill Hironobu in an instant, with a single flick of his hand. And yet⊠there was something holding him back.
Finally, Sukunaâs fingers released their hold on Hironobu, and he stepped back, letting the man fall to his knees, gasping for breath. But the danger hadnât passed. Sukunaâs gaze was still fixed on you, dark and dangerous.
âGet out of my sight.â Sukuna snarled at Hironobu. âIf I see you near her again, Iâll tear you apart without hesitation. And there will be no more mercy.â
Hironobu, though clearly shaken, managed to stand, casting a glance at you, his eyes filled with both relief and sorrow. You gave him a small, trembling nod, urging him to leave while he still could. Without a word, he turned and disappeared through the door.
The moment he was gone, Ryomen Sukunaâs attention snapped back to you, and the full weight of his fury descended upon you.
âDonât think for a moment that this is over, little one.â he said, his voice low and menacing. âYou think Iâll just forget this? That Iâll let you off with a warning?â
You looked up at him, your body trembling. âI know⊠I know you wonât, my lord.â you whispered. âIâll accept whatever punishment you see fit. Just⊠pleaseâŠâ
âPlease?â he mocked, leaning down so that his face was level with yours. âYou think you can still make requests of me after what I saw today?â
You swallowed hard, your throat dry. âI beg your mercy.â
Sukunaâs lips twisted into a cruel smile, and he reached out, tilting your chin up so that you were forced to meet his gaze. âMercy, huh.â he repeated, his voice soft, but laced with malice. âYou think you deserve mercy after betraying me?â
You shook your head slightly, tears still streaming down your face. âNo⊠I donât. But Hironobuâhe didnât deserve to die for my mistake.â
For a moment, Sukuna simply stared at you, his eyes burning with a mixture of rage and something darker, something possessive. Then, he released you, standing up straight once more.
âYou will never see him again. Never again. And not anyone.â he ordered coldly. âYou will stay at my side when asked where you belong. Know your place. And if you ever defy me again, I wonât hesitate to kill himâand you.â
You nodded, your heart breaking as you whispered, âYes, my lord.â
YOU HADNâT TALKED IN A WHILE. Somehow you think you had forgotten what your voice sounds like. Silence has embraced you, as much as the darkness of the once vibrant Vermillion hall.
After that fateful night, everything changed. You isolated yourself in your chambers, the once-vibrant world of your garden now forbidden territory. Hironobu had vanished, leaving only a painful absence that lingered like a wound that refused to heal.Â
And there were whispers from the other halls of the temple that Ryomen Sukuna had killed him. You had expected it more or less. But it did not make it any easier. You wept in the silence of your halls.
And you had refused to eat, refused to change your clothes or wash yourself. Days blurred into one another, and the weight of your choices crushed you beneath their unbearable load.
Sukuna did not come to you. He did not summon you to his side. For a time, it felt as though you had become invisible to him, a ghost haunting the halls of the palace. At first, the silence seemed like a blessing; a reprieve from his suffocating presence, from his cruel words and piercing gaze. But as the days wore on, it began to gnaw at you. The solitude was maddening.
The garden that had once been your sanctuary became an unbearable reminder of what you had lost. You couldnât bear to see the flowers Hironobu had so lovingly tended, the very space where you had felt fleeting moments of happiness. The very thought of stepping outside filled you with dread. You had no desire to face the world, not like this, not without him.
You were trappedâtrapped between the suffocating control of Sukuna and the hollow, aching void left by Hironobuâs absence. Every breath you took felt heavier than the last, until even breathing felt like a burden you could no longer bear.
For a time, you thought it would be better to die.
The thought came slowly at first, creeping in like a shadow at the edge of your mind. But the more you dwelled in your isolation, the more it seemed like a mercyâa release from the endless torment of your existence. You had lost everything that mattered. The love you had found with Hironobu was gone, stolen from you by Sukunaâs wrath. And Ryomen Sukuna⊠he had broken you. His control, his possessiveness, his cruelty had shattered whatever was left of your spirit.
One night, the darkness in your mind swallowed you whole, and you couldnât fight it any longer.
You had waited until the moon was high, the Vermillion Hall silent. You like to think that Sukuna had ordered everyone to leave you to your loneliness. But it was too late at night. No one came to your chambers anymore. No one would stop you. With shaking hands, you found a length of silk, soft and delicate, and tied it to the ceiling beam.Â
The precious gold and vermillion silk had been a gift from Ryomen Sukuna long ago. It was the very name of the hall he had gifted you. One of the hardest silks to find and make. It was a symbol of his wealth, his power. And he gifted it to you, a small echo of ownership to you. How ironic, you thought, that it would be the instrument of your final escape.
Tears blurred your vision as you fashioned the knot, your breath coming in ragged gasps. You stood on the edge, your heart pounding in your chest, and for a moment, you hesitated. But the pain in your heart, the unbearable ache of everything you had lost, pushed you forward.
In the cold stillness of that moment, you stepped off the edge.
You woke in a haze, your body weak and aching, the dim light of dawn filtering through the curtains. You werenât dead. Somehow, impossibly, you were still here. Confusion clouded your mind as you tried to move, but your limbs feel heavy, your throat raw.
And then you saw him.
You werenât sure the first time.
But you let yourself look again.
Ryomen Sukuna was sitting beside your bed, his presence unmistakable even in the pale morning light. His expression was unreadable, his dark crimson eyes fixed on you with a strange intensity. For a long moment, neither of you spoke. You couldnât speak well anyway. Your throat hurts.
You had never seen him like this beforeâsilent, unmoving, almost still as a statue. His gaze roamed over you, lingering on the dark bruises around your neck, the evidence of your desperate attempt to escape.
âWhy?â he asked, his voice low and dangerous, but there was something else there tooâsomething you couldnât quite place.
You turned your head away from him, shame and sorrow overwhelming you. You force yourself to speak, even if it hurts. âBecause⊠I canât live like this anymore, my lord.â you whispered, your voice hoarse. âIâve lost everything.â
Sukunaâs eyes narrowed, a flicker of something passing over his face. âEverything? Do you think I would allow you to take your life without my permission?â
A pained bitter laugh escaped your lips, though it hurt to do so. âI canât even die on my own terms?â
Sukuna leaned forward, his hand gripping the edge of the bed with barely controlled rage. âYou think death would be an escape from me?â he hissed. âYou belong to me, even in death, little one. Running away, it will not save you from me.â
Tears burned at the corners of your eyes, but you couldnât hold them back any longer. âI belong to no one!â you cried, the words tumbling out in a flood of pain. âNot anymore. Not after what youâve taken from me.â
For a moment, Sukuna was silent, his expression dark and unreadable. Then, unexpectedly, his voice softened, though it remained cold. âYouâre a fool.â
You turned to face him, your eyes red and swollen. âWhy? Because I dared to want something else? Because I dared to love someone else? Even as a friend? My lord, I suffered for your sake. Being devoted to you like it is a law. It wasâŠit was just a friend. A friend. And I cannot even have them. What am I to you, my lord? More thanâŠmore than someone who suffers worshiping you.â
He stared at you, his gaze penetrating, but he didnât answer immediately. His fingers brushed against the bruised skin of your neck, and you flinched, but he didnât pull away. There was a strange, almost possessive tenderness in his touch.
âYou think this makes you free?â Sukuna murmured, his voice low. âYouâre more mine now than you ever were before, little one.â
You shuddered, his words striking deep. âWhy?â you whispered, barely able to hold back the sob in your throat. âWhy do you care?â
Sukunaâs eyes burned with an intensity that made you tremble. âBecause youâre mine, little one.â he said, his voice a dangerous whisper. âAnd I do not let go of what is mine so easily.â
There was no warmth in his words, no comfort. But for the first time, you saw something raw in his eyesâsomething that looked dangerously close to vulnerability. You swallowed hard, your throat aching from both the bruises and the tears.Â
âThen why did you come?â
Sukunaâs expression shifted ever so slightly, and for a brief moment, you saw a flicker of something in his eyesâsomething like regret, though he would never admit it. You know that too well. Ten years of marriage to this cruel soul, this cursed man turned god â you would never hear those words of comfort. Not even if you asked.
âBecause I wonât let you die, little one.â he said, his voice steady but quieter than you had ever heard it. âNot like this.â
You stared at him, your heart aching with too many conflicting emotions to name. In that moment, you realized something. You were trapped, not just by Sukunaâs power, but by the strange, twisted bond that tied you to him. He would never let you go. Not in life, not in death.
And that thought was more terrifying than anything else.
YOU COULDNâT HELP BUT STARE AT HIM. You werenât fully recovered from your injuries just yet, but the healers had let you return to your daily life. You had just finished attending to your lord Sukuna in the audience hall. You stopped as he appeared before you, as you changed into more leisure clothing.Â
And you were unsure what he was saying to you. But the weight of Sukuna's words hung heavy in the air, his gaze as piercing as ever as he stood before you, his expression unreadable. He was not giving you anything, but orders. And youâre curious. As much as you were surprised.Â
âYou will take care of the child, little one.â he said, his tone brooking no argument.
Your breath caught in your throat. âA child? I know nothing about children, my lord.â
Sukunaâs crimson eyes narrowed slightly, a flicker of amusement in the corner of his lips. âYou will learn.â
For a moment, you stared at him, searching his face for any sign of the usual cruelty, but there was something different this time. This wasnât a command born purely from spite or possessiveness. It felt heavier, more deliberate, as if he had considered this for a long time. You felt the familiar helplessness rise within you, the sense that you were powerless to refuse him.
âI⊠I will do as you ask, my lord.â you whispered, defeated. The words felt hollow, but they were the only ones you could manage. Sukuna merely nodded, his expression hard, before turning and leaving the room.
Days passed, and the dread settled deep in your bones as you waited for the child to arrive. You didnât know what to expect, but Sukunaâs commands were absolute. There was no running from this.
And then, one morning, the child was brought to your chambers.
You stood at the door, frozen, as the small figure stepped forward. Your breath hitched in your chest as you looked down at the little girl before you. Her features were delicate, her long hair falling softly over her shoulders. She couldnât have been more than five or six years old, but there was something far older in her gaze.
The child looked up at you, her eyes startlingly familiarâcrimson, like Sukunaâs. They stared into you with a haunting intensity that made your heart skip a beat. But it wasnât just Sukunaâs eyes that made you pause. No, there was something else, something that chilled you to your core.
The girlâs face, though youthful and innocent, bore the unmistakable likeness of someone you thought youâd never see again.
Ryomen Hiromi.
Your heart clenched painfully, and the room seemed to spin for a moment. It was impossible, and yet⊠the girl standing before you had Hiromiâs faceâher soft features, her kind eyes, but mixed with the piercing gaze of Sukuna. Youâve seen enough of her statues all around the temple palace that youâre too certain.Â
You swallowed hard, struggling to comprehend what you were seeing. Your chest felt tight as memories of Hiromi flooded your mind, of the woman you had once known, the one who had been so important to Sukuna.
Ryomen Sukuna entered the room behind the child, his presence like a storm cloud looming over you both. He regarded you with cold detachment, though there was something in his gaze that suggested this was not a simple matter for him either.
âThis childâŠ..â Sukuna began, his voice calm but commanding. âis Hiromiâs daughter. The child she lost long ago.â
You stared at him, shock rippling through you. âHiromiâs⊠child?â
Sukuna nodded. âI found her soul.â he explained, his voice low and steady. âIt was not easy, but with the help of a⊠trusted friend, I was able to bring her back. Her body grew anew, and now, she is here. Alive. For me to keep, as her father.â
Your mind raced, struggling to grasp what he was saying. Sukuna had brought the child back from the deadâhad found her soul and, through some dark means, restored her. And now, this little girl, this child with Sukunaâs eyes and Hiromiâs face, stood before you.Â
And to be her father? Not only that, but to force you to be a mother. To raise her, knowing how much the ghost of her mother haunts you already. You do not know what to do. You could feel your lips still reflect a gaping hole, wide open in shock.
âWhy me?â you whispered, your voice barely audible. âWhy have you given her to me? Her motherâs kin still lives, my lord. Would they not want to knowââ
Sukunaâs gaze darkened, his eyes narrowing slightly. âIt does not matter what they want. You will raise her, little one.â he said simply. âYou will care for her as if she were your own.â
You took a step back, overwhelmed by the weight of his demand. âBut I donât know how to care for a child, my lord Iââ
âYou will learn. You are not halfâwitted, arenât you?â Sukuna interrupted, his voice sharp. âThere is no other choice. I have willed it. And you shall follow it.â
Your lips parted, but no words came out. You wanted to argue, to refuse, but you knew it was futile. There was no escaping Sukunaâs will. He had given you this child, and there was no turning back now.
The girl stood quietly between the two of you, her small hands clasped in front of her, watching the exchange with an unnerving calmness for someone her age. Her eyesâher fatherâs eyesâbore into you, as if she already knew more than you did, as if she carried the weight of her past life with her. Her motherâs face haunted you already. Why? Why must you be haunted like this?
âThis was Hiromiâs child. And I cherish her.â Sukuna said again, more softly this time, as if the words held a deeper significance for him. âNow, she is mine. Mine own daughter. You will raise her for me.â
You could only nod, the enormity of it all crashing down on you like a tidal wave. Sukunaâs presence was suffocating, but the childâs gaze was what unsettled you the most. It was as if Hiromiâs spirit lingered within her, a ghostly reminder of the life Sukuna had shared with her, of a woman who had meant more to him than perhaps you ever could.
And now, you were tasked with caring for the last piece of Hiromi that remained in this worldâa child born from tragedy, resurrected by Sukunaâs dark power.
âWhat is her name?â
He stops for a moment.
âChiharu.â He says in response. âRyomen Chiharu.â
âVery well, my lord. I will⊠do as you ask, my lord. I shall care for your child.â you whispered, your voice trembling as you looked down at the little girl. She met your gaze with those unnerving eyes, and you felt a strange chill creep up your spine.
Sukuna lingered for a moment longer, his gaze flicking between you and the child before turning to leave. As he walked away, his parting words echoed in your mind.
âDo not fail me in this.â
Days turned into weeks as you adjusted to the new rhythm of life with Chiharu, the little girl now under your care. At first, it felt surreal to be responsible for someone so precious yet so fragile, a living reminder of a past life you could barely comprehend. But as time passed, the weight of your circumstances began to feel lighter, replaced by a sense of purpose you hadnât expected to find.
Young Chiharu was a curious child, with a spirit that seemed undaunted by the complexities of her existence. She often wandered the halls of the palace, her footsteps soft against the cold stone floors, exploring every corner with wide-eyed wonder. It was in those moments that you found yourself drawn to her, your heart softening as she chartered away, her laughter ringing like music in the otherwise somber atmosphere of the palace.
Every evening, you would sit together in the garden in the Vermillion hallâthe one place you had once avoided. Underneath the lush foliage, you would share stories, and slowly, you learned more about her.
Chiharu would speak of her dreams, her favorite flowers, and the little things that made her smile. She spoke of animals she wished to have, tales she had heard of distant lands, and the kindness she hoped to find in a world that had been cruel to her before.
As you listened to her, you found yourself revealing bits of your own life, your own fears and desires. With each passing day, the bond between you grew stronger, entwining like the vines in the garden. You shared laughter and quiet moments, and you began to feel a warmth blossom in your heartâa sense of family you had thought lost to you forever.
It was during one of these serene afternoons that Chiharu turned to you, her bright scarlet eyes glinting in the sunlight. âMama.â she said softly, her small hand reaching for yours.Â
The word felt foreign, yet sweet on her lips. Her mother was someone that she will never get to know again. You knew were not her mother, you knew that too well. But you felt a swell of warmth in your chest at the sound, as if she had bridged a gap that had long remained unfilled. You were not born to be a mother, you knew you would never be one. And yet, in her eyes â you were. You were born to be her mother.
âYes, my sweet little flower?â you replied, your heart fluttering at the connection that had formed between you.
âWhy did lord Sukuna name me Chiharu?â she asked, her gaze steady and curious.
You paused, contemplating how to answer her question. âChiharu means a thousand springs, little flower.â you explained gently. âItâs a beautiful name, one that speaks of new beginnings, renewal, and growth.â
The little girl tilted her head, a thoughtful expression crossing her face. âBut why did he choose that name for me?â
Your heart ached at the thought of Sukunaâs motivations. âI believe he saw something special in you. Perhaps he wanted to honor your connection to your past, to lady Hiromi. You are her child, Chiharu. And in a way, you are also a part of your lord father.â
âBut you are my mother.â You hear little Chiharu whisper.Â
You did not know what to say.Â
You try to recover from her words.
You smile, for her sake, you think.
But you smiled for your sake too.
âWe are both your mother.â You whispered back to her, putting her stray hair against the back of her ear. âBut I am the one here at this moment, little flower.â
You watch her eyes brighten at the thought. âTruly?â
âTruly.â You smiled wider at her.
âWhat about my father?â
âHm, what about my lord, little flower?â
Chiharuâs brow furrowed. âDo you think he loves me?â
The question caught you off guard. âI know he cares for you. Thatâs what I believe. In his own way, he has love.â But none for me.
Her small face lit up with a smile, though it was tinged with innocence and uncertainty. âI want to make him proud.â
A lump formed in your throat at her words. âYou already make me proud, sweet flower. And that is what matters most.â
The connection between you and the young girl continued to deepen, woven through shared moments and quiet revelations. You discovered that Chiharu had a talent for painting, her little hands creating vibrant images that brought life to the entirety of the Vermillion hall. And you could not help but find joy in such revelations.
You encouraged her to explore her creativity, and soon, the once-dim walls of your home were adorned with her colorful drawings, depicting flowers, animals, and fantastical creatures. Even if the servants were concerned, you waved such words away. The Vermillion hall looked brighter with the scarlet flowers she drew everywhere.
Ryomen Sukuna would occasionally visit, his presence like a thunderstorm that cast shadows over your peaceful existence. When he did, Chiharu would run to him, her bright scarlet eyes sparkling with delight.
Despite the tension that accompanied his visits, you could see that he had a soft spot for herâa fleeting warmth that illuminated his otherwise cold demeanor. He adored this young girl, more than you know. He had given her such warmth more than anyone you had ever seen.Â
One evening, as dusk settled over the Vermillion hall, Ryomen Chiharu presented one of her paintings to Sukuna, her little hands trembling with excitement. âLook, lord Sukuna!â she exclaimed, holding up a vibrant depiction of a cherry blossom tree, the one standing in the middle of your neverâending gardens. âItâs for you!â
Sukuna studied the painting, his expression inscrutable, but you could see the flicker of something in his eyes. Perhaps pride, perhaps surprise. âYouâve done well, little blossom.â he said, his tone low and steady. âYou had captured the ladyâs cherry blossom with exquisite likeness.â
The child beamed at his praise, her cheeks flushed with joy. âDo you like it?â
âIt is⊠acceptable, little blossom.â he replied, and though the words were blunt, there was a hint of approval lingering in his gaze. âI am certain that you will make more.â
You had wished that this was your life.
That you live forever in this moment.
But you knew better than to wish for that.
As the night deepened and the shadows in the grand hall stretched longer, Sukuna rose from his seat, his presence overwhelming as always. You called for Chiharu, who hesitated, her tiny face scrunching up in a pout. She clung to you, reluctant to leave, her voice soft, "I donât want to go. My lord doesnât come often anymore⊠I want to tell him about my day."
You knelt down, brushing your fingers through her hair and smiling gently. "Heâll come tomorrow, just like he promised, little flower." you reassured her, though a small part of you doubted the certainty in your words. She needed that hope, even if it felt fragile.
With one last glance toward Sukuna, Chiharu allowed herself to be led away by the servants, her footsteps fading down the hall. Silence settled between you and Sukuna, thick and awkward at first. He didnât look at you immediately, instead gazing out into the night through the open windows, as if lost in thought.
âYou take good care of her, little one.â Sukuna finally said, his tone gruff but softer than you expected. It was strange hearing thanks from himâit sounded unnatural coming from the King of Curses, yet there was sincerity in the rough edges of his words. "For that⊠I thank you."
You blinked, the weight of his gratitude sinking in. It felt strange, almost surreal. Sukuna, of all people, expressing appreciation. You inclined your head, accepting it quietly. "Itâs nothing, my lord. She deserves the best care."
The silence that followed wasnât uncomfortable this time, though. Instead, it felt like a mutual acknowledgment of the one thing you sharedâa fondness for Chiharu.
Youâll never love me. you thought, the truth of it sitting heavy in your heart. But you didnât need to say it aloud. You already knew. Still, the small moments like these, where his walls slipped just enough for you to catch a glimpse of something more, were what you held onto. You treasured whatever you could get, however fleeting.
Sukunaâs gaze finally met yours. It was sharp, piercing as always, but there was something softer lingering beneath his usual coldness. "Iâll come tomorrow. Like I promised."
And for tonight, that was enough.
After he departed, you drank a little.Â
It was better to mourn what could not be early.
When Chiharu returned, well bathed and dressed for the night, the two of you sat together beneath the cherry blossom tree in the garden. She had to dry her hair before she could get some rest. Her small hands clutching the other painting she had made tightly.Â
âDo you think he really liked it?â she asked, her voice soft.
You smiled gently at her, cupping her face in your hands. âI believe he did. He may not show it, but he cares for you in his own way. You are a light in his life, little flower.â
Her eyes sparkled with hope, and for a moment, you felt a sense of unity in your small family, a connection that defied the darkness surrounding you.
As the petals fell around you like confetti, you realized that despite the chaos of your circumstances, you had created a sanctuary for both yourself and Chiharuâone filled with laughter, art, and the promise of new beginnings.
And in those moments, as the sun dipped below the horizon, you dared to believe that maybe, just maybe, you could carve out a piece of happiness amidst the shadows.
IT WAS JUST ANOTHER NIGHT. But it was still something that caused you grievance. As night fell and the palace was shrouded in silence, you found yourself restless, wandering the dimly lit halls, your thoughts heavy with the weight of your circumstances.
Chiharu slept peacefully in her little room, the faint glow of moonlight spilling through the window, casting soft shadows on her innocent face. You paused to watch her, a smile tugging at your lips, but it was quickly overshadowed by the familiar ache in your chest.
The truth was inescapable: no matter how much joy Ryomen Chiharu brought into your life, the shadow of Hiromi loomed over you like a specter. You couldnât shake the feeling that everything she represented was a constant reminder of your own insignificance in Sukuna's world.
Hiromi had been the one to hold Sukuna's love, the one whose memory seemed to linger in every corner of the palace. She was the woman who had given him a childâa child who was now the light of his life, while you remained in the dark, clinging to scraps of his attention. It was a bitter thought that twisted in your mind, gnawing at your heart.
As you lay in bed, staring up at the intricately woven patterns on the ceiling, you couldnât help but compare yourself to Hiromi. She had everything: his love, his devotion, a child who would carry a piece of her with her always. And what did you have? Nothing but the remnants of Sukunaâs affection, which felt more like an obligation than anything else.
You turned onto your side, burying your face in the pillow, trying to drown out the thoughts that haunted you. But the more you tried, the louder they became. You could still hear the echoes of his voice from earlier, the way he had looked at Chiharu with an intensity that made your heart clench.
He was a monster, but he was her fatherâsomeone who had chosen to resurrect her from the depths of despair. He had given her a life filled with warmth, while you were left with the remnants of a hollow existence.
âHiromi has everything in my lord Sukuna.â you whispered into the darkness, your voice trembling. âA dead woman, and I have nothing.â Tears slipped from your eyes, soaking the fabric of the pillow. âShe gave him a child, love, and he keeps it. And nothing of me.â
You couldnât understand why it hurt so much. You had wanted to be close to Sukuna, to carve out a space in his heart that felt like home, but every time you looked at Chiharu, you were reminded of your failure. You were the one who existed in the shadows, the one who couldnât compete with the memory of a woman long gone.
You closed your eyes, squeezing out the tears that felt like a dam breaking within you. Each drop felt like a piece of your heart spilling out onto the floor, a tangible reminder of your torment. You were grateful for Chiharu, but the bittersweet reality of your situation consumed you.
After what felt like hours of battling your own thoughts, you finally rose from your bed and made your way to the garden. The night air was cool against your skin, and you could hear the rustle of leaves in the gentle breeze. As you stepped into the moonlight, you were enveloped in a quiet stillness, yet it did little to ease your turmoil.
You found yourself standing beneath the cherry blossom tree, its delicate petals fluttering like whispers in the wind. It was a beautiful sight, but it only deepened the ache in your chest. You remembered how Chiharuâs eyes had sparkled with excitement when she painted that tree, how her laughter had filled the air like music.
But even as you admired its beauty, you couldnât escape the lingering shadow of Hiromi. âWhy do you haunt me?â you murmured, your voice breaking as you gazed up at the stars. âWhy canât I escape your memory?â
You sank to your knees beneath the tree, your fingers brushing against the cool earth. âI donât want to compete with you.â you whispered, your heart aching with the weight of your confession. âI just want to be enough⊠for him, for Chiharu.â
The wind picked up, rustling the leaves above you, and in that moment, it felt as though the world held its breath. You could almost hear Hiromiâs laughter, see her warm smileâa gentle reminder of the life she had once lived.
A tear rolled down your cheek, and you let it fall, feeling the weight of your grief and jealousy wash over you. You had tried so hard to be strong, to forge a bond with Chiharu, but the reality of your situation loomed like a dark cloud, threatening to engulf you.
As you knelt there, surrounded by the whispers of the night, you could feel Sukunaâs presence looming in the back of your mind. He was a force of nature, a tempest that left destruction in its wake, and you were caught in the storm.
âWill I ever matter to you?â you asked softly, the question lingering in the cool night air. The silence answered you, an empty echo of your unfulfilled desires.
The moonlight bathed the garden in a soft glow, but no matter how beautiful it was, the ache in your heart remained. You rose to your feet, wiping the tears from your face, knowing that you had to keep moving forwardâfor Chiharuâs sake, if not your own.
Tomorrow would bring new challenges, and you would face them with the strength you found in your love for the little girl who had unexpectedly entered your life. But tonight, in the shadow of a woman you could never compete with, you allowed yourself to grieveâgrieve for what could never be, for the love that felt so far out of reach.
As you made your way back to your chambers, the weight of Hiromiâs legacy still pressed on your heart, but you clung to the hope that perhaps, one day, you could carve your own place in this worldâone that belonged to you, and to Chiharu.
YOU WERE EXHAUSTED FROM THE WORK ALL DAY. But as the lord summoned you, you were inclined to attend to him. That is just how it was. It has been two years now, since Hironobu, since Chiharu had come to live with you.
And a lot had since changed with the way you and Sukuna existed together. Perhaps, it is what it is. This is all that is left. You think you would like to be content with that.
The evening was cloaked in a haze of amber light as you and Sukuna sat across from each other in the dimly lit chambers, the air thick with tension. A selection of fine spirits lay on the table between you, remnants of a night that had spiraled into a blur of laughter and inebriation. But the laughter had faded, leaving behind a bitter residue that clung to your heart.
You raise your glass, your hand slightly unsteady as you downed another shot, the liquid fire coursing down your throat. It was supposed to be a moment of camaraderie, an attempt to bridge the growing chasm between you. Instead, it felt like a catalyst, igniting the frustrations that had been building within you.
Sukuna watched you with a bemused expression, but there was a glint in his eyesâsomething predatory, something that made your heart race. Fueled by the alcohol and the raw emotion coursing through you, you slammed your glass down on the table, the sound echoing in the silence.
"You took everything I have!" you slur drunkenly, your voice breaking as the words tumbled out. "I gave you everything I had, and I am miserable because of it!"
Sukunaâs brows furrowed, and for a moment, the playful smirk slipped from his face, replaced by a flicker of confusion. But you pressed on, the anger and despair and somehow bitter laughter mingling in a toxic blend that fueled your fury.
"You made me miserable with you! The one shot of joy I have in my lifeâsomeone who could care for meâand you take him away from me? What have I done to you to make me suffer like this, my lord?"
The room seemed to spin, the walls closing in around you as the weight of your words settled heavily in the air. The tears that had been threatening to spill finally broke free, cascading down your cheeks as you fought against the sorrow that threatened to engulf you.
"I regret you, sometimes! Everything of you, I regret!" you cried, the confession tearing from your lips like a wounded animal. A laugh escapes you. âAh, I am driven mad. I thoughtâŠ.I thought to be content but somehow, I kept thinking and thinking. The questions of what if I had chosen some other path.â
Sukunaâs expression hardened, his eyes narrowing as he took in your words. You could see the tumult of emotions playing across his faceâanger, frustration, maybe even hurt. But he didnât speak, and the silence hung heavy between you.
âYou think this is easy for me?â he finally said, his voice low and dangerous. âYou think I wanted to hurt you?â
You shook your head, your heart pounding in your chest. âYou have no idea what itâs like! To live in the shadow of someone who came before me! To feel like Iâm constantly competing with a ghost!â
The bitterness of your words filled the room, and you could see the flicker of something deep within him. A flicker of regret? Anger? It was hard to tell. What could there be left between two people who donât talk? What could be left between two people who donât understand each other well, and yet pretend they do?
âYou think I donât suffer too?â he challenged, his voice rising little by little. âYou think I donât care about you?â
You paused, the anger momentarily dissipating as you searched his face for any hint of sincerity. But all you saw was the monsterâthe god, the force of nature that had swept into your life and turned everything upside down.
âThen why do you make me feel like this?â you whispered, the vulnerability in your voice cutting through the tension. âWhy canât you just let me be happy? With Hironobu⊠with Chiharu⊠with anyone?â
A shadow crossed Sukunaâs face, and for a moment, it felt like you had struck a chord. But he quickly masked it, his expression turning cold once more. âHironobu is nothing to me. He is weak, a distraction.â
âThat âdistractionâ makes me happy!â you yelled, frustration spilling over once more. âHe cares for me in a way you never could! He makes me feel like I matter!â
Sukunaâs gaze hardened, but beneath that facade, you could see the conflict churning. You took a step forward, your heart racing. âI donât want to be your pawn anymore. I donât want to be a part of your world if it means losing everything I love!â
The air crackled with tension as the two of you faced each other, the weight of your words hanging between you. And then the dam broke. You collapsed into tears, the alcohol amplifying your emotions as you fell to your knees, sobs wracking your body. The tears spilled unchecked, your heart breaking under the weight of it all.
âI hate this!â you cried out, your voice muffled by the floor. âI hate feeling like this! I hate you!â
Sukuna stood frozen, a statue of power and control as he watched your breakdown unfold. But as your cries filled the room, something shifted within him.
He took a step closer, his presence looming over you like a storm cloud, and yet, despite the turmoil, you felt a flicker of something moreâsomething like concern.
âGet up, little one.â he commanded softly, his voice low and steady. âYouâre stronger than this.â
But you shook your head, your heartache spilling over. âI donât want to be strong anymore. I just want to be free.â
There was a moment of silence as you both stood at the edge of a precipice, and for the first time, you could see the weight of your shared pain reflected in his eyes.
âIâm sorry.â he said finally, the words heavy with unspoken understanding. âYou know it well, little one. I will never set you free.â
You didnât know if he was apologizing for Hiromi, for Hironobu, or for the pain you both carried, but it was a start. You slowly rose to your feet, wiping your tears, though the hurt still lingered in your chest. You think that it doesnât matter anymore. It never does.
Sukuna stood before you, an imposing figure, but in that moment, you could see the man behind the monster. The flicker of vulnerability lingered in the depths of his gaze, an acknowledgment of the bond that tethered you both to a past neither of you could escape.
âI may never be what you want me to be, little one.â he murmured. âBut I wonât take away your happiness again.â
You looked into his eyes, searching for sincerity, and for the first time, you felt the hope of a fragile truce forming between you. It was a small step, but it was a step nonetheless, one that could lead you both out of the darkness and into the lightâif only you could find the strength to keep moving forward.
The air was thick with unspoken emotions as you and Sukuna stood facing each other, the weight of your words still hanging heavily in the silence. His gaze bore into yours, a mix of intensity and something softer that made your heart race. You felt as if you were standing on a precipice, caught between the fear of falling and the desire to soar.
âI want to believe you, my lord.â you said quietly, the tremor in your voice betraying the storm of emotions still raging within. âBut you have to understand⊠every time you pull me closer, it feels like youâre pushing me away. I canât live like thisâconstantly afraid of losing everything.â
Sukunaâs expression shifted, a flicker of regret passing over his features. âI never meant to hurt you, little one.â he replied, his voice low. âBut my world is not kind, and I canâtâŠ..I canât be what you want me to be. I cannot be kind to you.â
âBut thatâs just it!â you exclaimed, frustration bubbling up once more. âYouâre so powerful, yet you let this darkness consume you! You wield it like a weapon, and Iâm the one left in the crossfire! Why am I always suffering for your sake?â
He took a step closer, the space between you diminishing as he searched your face for understanding. âI am a monster, little one.â he said, his voice raw. âI have done terrible thingsâthings that haunt me. But I never wanted to drag you into that darkness. You deserve to be happy. ButâŠ.it is not meant to be. And we areâŠwe are stuck together, whether you like it or not, in this cage.â
âThen why does it feel like youâre the one who keeps me from it?â you challenged, your heart racing. âIâm so tired of living in your shadow, of feeling like a mere afterthought in your life. Every time I see you with Chiharu, it reminds me that I am just a placeholderâa ghost of a memory that doesnât matter.â
His jaw tightened, and for a moment, you feared you had pushed too far. But then he reached out, his hand brushing against your arm, the warmth of his touch igniting something deep within you.
âI donât want to lose you, little one.â he said, his voice a husky whisper. âYouâve brought something into my life I never knew I needed. But it terrifies me. And I justâŠ.I will not let you go.â
You felt your breath hitch, a rush of emotions swirling within you. âThen show me, my lord.â you pleaded, your heart pounding in your chest. âShow me that I matter to you. Donât make me feel like Iâm just a convenience. I want to be more than that.â
His gaze softened, and for a fleeting moment, the god before you was just a manâa man struggling with his own demons, much like you. âI donât know how anymore, little one.â he admitted, vulnerability lacing his words. âBut I will try.â
The sincerity in his eyes pierced through the haze of your hurt and resentment. You had spent so long fighting against the current, desperately trying to find your footing in a world that seemed intent on pulling you under. But standing here, facing Sukuna, you realized that maybeâjust maybeâthere was a chance for something more, something real.
âIâm scared too, my lord.â you confessed, your voice trembling as the weight of your emotions threatened to crush you. âScared that youâll change your mind, scared that Iâll lose everything again. Or maybe you would kill me. But I canât keep hiding from you. I cannot keep finding ways to escape you.â
The sincerity in your admission hung in the air between you, a fragile thread woven from the strands of your broken heart. Sukunaâs expression darkened as he processed your words, his usually confident demeanor faltering just slightly. He nodded slowly, his brow furrowed in contemplation.Â
âI know that too well, little one.â He brushes your hair away from your face. âI know it all.â
His voice was steady, almost soothing, but the underlying tension crackled like static in the air. You took a deep breath, a sense of resolve building within you. âI want to believe you, my lord.â you said softly, each word laced with the weight of your doubt. âBut you know that you are not speaking true⊠you lie as easily as you breathe.And I drown loving you like its law and hating you for how you taught me to love you.â
The admission feel like a heavy stone between you, and you could see the flicker of something in his eyesâperhaps regret, perhaps anger. But you didnât back down. You needed him to hear the truth, the raw, unvarnished reality of your existence.
âItâs as if youâre a tempest.â you continued, your voice rising with the heat of your frustration. âOne moment youâre this powerful force, sweeping me off my feet, promising me the world, and the next, Iâm left to drown in the chaos you create. You wield your power like a weapon, and Iâm the one caught in the crossfire.â
His jaw clenched, and you could see the internal struggle etched on his face. âI never meant to hurt you, little one.â he said, but the words felt hollow, echoing through the chasm of pain that separated you.
âAnd yet youâre the architect of my suffering.â you challenged, your heart pounding in your chest. âYou brought me into your world. And all Iâve knownâŠis misery. You say you want me by your side, but you torture me. You kill me, everyday.â
The vulnerability in your voice cut through the tension like a blade, and you saw his expression shift. There was something thereâsomething that hinted at the turmoil he carried beneath his godlike exterior.Â
âYouâre not just a concubine to me.â he said, his tone softer, but the intensity of his gaze never wavered. âYou mean more than you know.â
âMore than what?â you spat, your anger flaring up once more. âMore than a passing fancy? A moment of respite from your endless hunger for power? I am not a toy for you to play with, my lord. Iâm not just a distraction from your demons, your misery. You want me to believe that I matter. Youâre using me to fill the void left by Hiromi.â
The name hung in the air, heavy with the ghosts of the past, and you could see the shift in Sukunaâs expressionâa flicker of pain, a crack in his facade. âYou donât understandâŠâ he started, but you cut him off, needing to vent the storm of hurt and betrayal swirling within you.
âUnderstand what?â you cried, your voice breaking. âThat Iâm just a shadow in the light of a dead woman? That every moment I spend with you is tainted by her memory? You keep her close, a constant reminder of what I can never be. She gave you a child, loveâeverything I yearn for from you these past few years but canât have. I feel like Iâm drowning in your past while you expect me to be grateful for whatever scraps of affection you throw my way.â
For a heartbeat, the silence swallowed you both, the air thick with tension and unshed tears. Sukunaâs eyes bore into yours, a tempest of emotions raging beneath the surfaceâfrustration, desire, regret. âI donât want to lose you, little one.â he said, the words almost a whisper.
âAnd yet you keep pushing me away, my lord.â you shot back, your heart aching with the truth. âYou think you can keep me at armâs length, and Iâll just accept it? You canât keep pulling me in with one hand while pushing me away with the other. I need to know that I am more than just a fleeting moment for you!â
âIâm trying!â he shouted, his voice rising, but the urgency in it didnât mask the vulnerability. âYou donât understand the things Iâve done, the things Iâm capable of! Iâve been alive for a long time, and you are the first to accept what I am. I am trying to keep you, little one. I need you.â
His raw honesty pierced through the fog of your emotions, and you felt your heart crack a little more. âLet me go, my lord.â you whispered, the weight of your own words settling heavily on your chest. âLet me be free of this burden youâve placed on me. I want to be happy, but I canât find that happiness in the shadow of your misery upon me.â
âI canât.â he replied, desperation lacing his voice. âI wonât. Youâre a part of me now, whether you want to be or not.â
You shook your head, tears spilling down your cheeks as the reality of your situation sank in. âBut Iâm not sure I want to be part of this⊠this nightmare anymore.â you said, your voice breaking. âIâm tired, my lord. Tired of fighting for a love that feels more like a battlefield than a sanctuary.â
With every word, your resolve crumbled a little more, and you felt the exhaustion wash over you like a tide. The weight of your feelings, the burden of past traumas, and the constant strain of navigating the unpredictable depths of your relationship with Sukuna were too much to bear. You wanted to be strong, to stand your ground and fight for something better, but fatigue was clawing at the edges of your consciousness.
You could see the struggle reflected in his eyesâan intense mixture of determination and sorrow. But even in the heat of your argument, you sensed that his heart was also heavy with burdens he carried alone. You took a shaky breath, desperate for release from this tumultuous cycle of emotions.
As the exhaustion settled deeper into your bones, you felt your eyelids growing heavy, the fight within you slowly extinguishing. âI justââ you started, but the words faded as you succumbed to the comforting darkness that beckoned you.
âJust rest.â Sukuna murmured, his voice a soothing balm against the chaos of your thoughts. âYou need to let go for a moment. Iâll be here when you wake.â
His voice wrapped around you like a cocoon, and despite the turmoil of your heart, you found solace in his presence. With one last shuddering breath, you finally surrendered to the pull of sleep, the weight of your burdens slipping away as your consciousness faded into the comforting embrace of oblivion.
In the morning, you know that nothing will change.
In the morning, you will still be miserable with him.
In the morning, youâll love him like he is the law.
In the morning, youâll worship him as religion taught.
In the morning, youâll never be able to be free from him.