Lately I'm Struggling Again, With So Many Things. But The Worst Is The Inability To Regulate Feelings.

sorry for the doctor who spam. i will do it again.

Have you considered watching Doctor Who?

that new intro has given me life.

saying your names, richard siken

Loving your friends is a form of falling in love too

So I'm on a train rn and I'm really close to crying.

I've started having suicidal thoughts almost ten years ago. Even though I'm doing way better now, sometimes they're still there. One a few years ago I started thinking about the future. But never further than a couple of years?

The past few weeks I've been struggling again and maybe that's the reason why I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know where that thought came from but some part of me decided that I want to go on a end of September trip, in 2040.

Hamilton: I like to think water is very powerful

Lafayette: yes, continue

Hamilton: want to lose weight? Drink water

Hamilton: want clear skin? Drink water

Hamilton: don’t like someone? Drown them

facts:

not all girls have periods

some men have periods

and that doesnt change their gender or worth

i really felt it when Oli said “why am i this way, stupid medicine not doing anything”

So last year I became kinda obsessed with Walter Benjamin. I tend to like things in extreme ways, so the desire to own everything he ever wrote was kind of expected. I now own 15 books written by or about Walter Benjamin.

I think I won't stop buying them…