I Can't Stand Being Alone But I'm Afraid Of Being Too Much. How Do I Communicate Aaaa

So I'm on a train rn and I'm really close to crying.

I've started having suicidal thoughts almost ten years ago. Even though I'm doing way better now, sometimes they're still there. One a few years ago I started thinking about the future. But never further than a couple of years?

The past few weeks I've been struggling again and maybe that's the reason why I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know where that thought came from but some part of me decided that I want to go on a end of September trip, in 2040.

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saying your names, richard siken

what i love about enter shikari is that, although the message is that our current political and economic systems are endangering the future, IF we do something, we are not doomed. like juggernauts: “i know that we’ve still got time but i do not think we’re invincible” and …meltdown: “it’s not too late”

Every time a historical figure is pissig me off I'm calling them by their first name.

I really hate Thomas and Immanuel is giving me a headache.

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One thing I noticed:

Simon from love, Simon doesn't have his older sister in the movie.

Charlie from heartstopper doesn't have his little brother in the series.

Alex from Red, White & Royal Blue doesn't have a sister in the movie.

So basically queer charactere have to loose a sibling when becoming TV characters? Is this how it works?

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The Doctors pronouns are officially "The Doctor"

Just watched good omens season 2, Neil Gaiman ripped my damn heart out…

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The Umbrella Academy Season 2 + soundtrack.

Where I want to be:

-at home

-with you

-home

-in your arms

-at home

-you

-you're home

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lgbt music about

sapphic spotify playlist / mlm spotify playlist

best friends

bestie by sizzy rocket

boyfriend by tegan and sara

hmu by spacegirl gemmy

iilwmbf by salen

jenny by studio killers

kari equals hottie by the dollyrots

no kings by the total bettys

sleepover by hayley kiyoko

two little girls by ani difranco

breakups - wlw 

0108 by nakala

always this way by laura marling

bad at love by halsey

come on in my kitchen by larkin poe

conversations by lauren sanderson 

cruise freestyle by nakala

curious by hayley kiyoko

deleted you by be steadwell

good girl by domo wilson

in my blood by ji nilson

let me go by be steadwell

like me by chely wright

me & her by heavens to betsy 

new girl by be steadwell

now i’m all messed up by tegan & sara

she’s not you by grace petrie

strangers by halsey

talia by king princess 

breakups - mlm

better off just friends by pansy division

closure by ieuan

fighting for by brendan maclean

glenview by pansy division

it doesnt matter to him by john grant 

ramona by ieuan

stephen by brayton bowman

straight boy by shamir 

the day u left me by ieuan

too much to ask by pansy division

bisexuality

b.i.g by caitlyn scarlett

bad at love by halsey

bi by alicia champion

bi by alizee 

bi by living colour

bisexual by grlwood 

blinders by phem

boys by maris

boys/girls by torrey mercer

do not disturb by halestorm

gettin’ bi by crazy ex gf cast

girls/girls/boys by panic! at the disco

i do both jay and jane by postman

i wanna bf with a car by kate nash

in or out by ani difranco

not myself tonight by christina aguilera 

pretty boys and pretty girls-book of love

swings both ways by robbie williams 

cheating - wlw 

all the girls love alice by emeli sande

boyfriend by marika hackman

girlfriend by kitty

greatness by jen foster

i kissed a girl by jill sobule

cheating - mlm

all american boy by steve grand

billy brown by mika

deadahh by lil ph*g

girlfriend by mnek

i kissed a boy by jupither

im still your f*g by broken social scene 

life lovers by pansy division

to be alone with you by sufjan stevens 

christmas 

12 gays of christmas-bubba love sponge

a dirty gay christmas-jonny mcgovern

homo christmas by pansy division

i saw daddy kissing santa-rupaul

itsa very queer christmas-erin mckeown

river by sam smith

rudy the big booty reindeer-big freedia

santa baby by rupaul

santa is a gay man-big freedia

crushes & love - wlw 

all day and all of the night - kate nash

and then she kissed me by st. vincent

aquafina by cj run

beautiful girl by sophie b. hawkins

boys aside by sofya wang

bwu by tegan and sara 

california friends by the regrettes

cardigan sweater by jasmine kennedy

caroline by girlyman

cherry by rina sawayama

come what may by daisy o’connor

daisy by zedd

girl by the internet

hometown by maddie ross 

honey by kehlani

i love you, sadie by wyvern lingo

if it isnt her by ani difranco

know your name by mary lambert

mad about the girl by valerie june

marian by julian weldon

marry me by tender forever

proud by ji nilson

radiant warmth by miki ratsula

rebel girl by bikini kill

red by miki ratsula

runway by kodie shane 

she by jen foster

she says by ani difranco

she keeps me warm by mary lambert

sing to her by kodie shane

sunshine by grace petrie

watercolor roses by ness nite

wild by molly burch

with a girl like you by thao & the get down stay down

crushes & love - mlm

all american boy by steve grand 

american boyfriend by kevin abstract

and i love him by benjamin gibbard

caramel by john grant 

denny by pansy division

garden boy by boy blue 

handsome man by matt alber

hold each other by a great big world

i met a man by romanovsky and phillips

just some guy by anthony rapp

love came along by pansy division

mannequin by leon markcus

michael by franz ferdinand 

my guy by kele okereke 

too beautiful by pansy division

two men in love by the irrepresibles

what a beautiful day by brett every 

gay & lesbian culture 

bears by tom goss

blue collar sex kitten-lauren ruth ward

boys wear pink by todrick hall

butch in the streets by tribe 8

closet femme by kate reid

drag king bar by bitch and animal

dyke bars never last by sapphic lasers

elderly lesbians by sara renberg

everyone is gay by a great big world

femme bitch top by tribe 8

gay bash by melange lavonne

gay parenting by melange lavonne

gay sex by be steadwell

girls like girls by hayley kiyoko

i can be a lesbian by judy small

i don’t do boys by elektra

i’ll never want a bf by bec sandridge

influenced by queers by judy small

lesbian chic by judy small

lgbt by lowell

lgbt by rupaul

like boys by hyphen hyphen

qda by god is my co-pilot

queer by frankie simone

queer for you by the degenerettes

the chapstick lesbian song by cassendre xavier 

the ellen page by partner

only dyke at the open mic-kate reid

the only gay person by sara renberg

the queer song by two nice girls

twinkie twinkie little star-pansy division

twinks by matt fishel

vaccines made me gay by grlwood

war paint by frankie simone 

homophobia & coming out 

american boyfriend by kevin abstract

apple pie by todrick hall

becoming myself by domo wilson

behind closed doors by matt fishel

boys in the street by greg holden

checking out your babe by tribe 8

compulsive liar by ezra furman

dumb by todrick hall

feminist housewives-bitch and animal

forbidden by todrick hall

g.d.m.m.l. grls by tyler glenn

gay thoughts by the growlers 

gay sex by be steadwell

heaven sent by parker millsap

hold your hand by nicolette forte

homo song by mara levi

lezbophobia by tribe 8

love is love by naz & ella

love is love by starley

married in london by janis ian

miserable america by kevin abstract

not worth hiding by alex the astronaut

pride by grace petrie

radio friendly pop song by matt fishel

she keeps me warm by mary lambert

since when are you gay? by childbirth 

some of my best friends-pansy division

thats so gay by pansy division

the village by wrabel

this is me by jen foster

whats expected of you-lipstick homicide

who wears the pants?? by soko

you can’t pray the gay away-laura bell bundy

pining - wlw

1950 by king princess

better anyway by lauren sanderson

boyfriend by marika hackman

boyfriend by tegan and sara

carrie (i want a girl) by moaning lisa

done deal by grace petrie

explosion by zolita

flirting with her by sir babygirl

girls by girl in red

girlfriend by kitty

girlfriend by ria mae

i need a woman to love by kesha

i wanna bf with a car by kate nash

i want her by blind fury

i wanna be your girlfriend by girl in red 

jenny by studio killers

jessie’s girl by mary lambert

pretty girls by sequin sally

sister by kate nash

sleepover by hayley kiyoko

pining - mlm

boys that dance by ieuan

girl crush by harry styles

good guys by mika 

good wife by mika 

guy.exe by superfruit

him by geo louis

homie lova friend by anye elite 

i love you by woodkid

i really wanted you by pansy division

i wanna boi by pwr bttm

i wanted him by lontalius

im the friend by pansy division

my heart aches for you by pansy division

need a man blues by bronski beat

preppy boy by john grant 

the art teacher by rufus wainwright

the man i love by chester lockhart

sex - wlw

bestie by sizzy rocket

bitches by tove lo

boinked the bride by ember swift 

box by siya

dive by tiffany gouche

dreamboat by mirah

flowers for anna by ames

girls by beatrice eli

hefner by tana mongeau

holy by king princess

i didnt just kiss her by jen foster

kissing pink by kodie shane

lick it by god-des & she

pussy mine by bella thorne 

pynk by janelle monae 

sweet girl by nicole dollanganger

tangerine by cj run

true love cafe by nicole dollanganger 

sex - mlm

20 years of cock by pansy division

beercan boy by pansy division

bloom by troye sivan

chanel by frank ocean

daddy by sakima

dick of death by pansy division

groovy underwear by pansy division

he’s got his mothers hips-john grant 

he’s trippi by sakima

i lost my innocence by ezra furman

iced out dick by lil ph*g

its just a job by pansy division

james bondage by pansy division

new pleasures by pansy division

rachbottomoff by pansy division

seventeen by troye sivan

snug slacks by john grant 

t.h.u.g (trade) by todrick hall

tease by tyra b 

the cocksucker club by pansy division

tinted windows by pansy division

wet by anye elite

transitioning & dysphoria

a guy named joe by joe stevens

boy in a dress by namoli brennet

daughter by ryan cassata

daughterson by joe stevens

dysphoria by saint wellesley

f*gette by athens boys choir

ftm at the dmv by schmekel

genderless by jonesin and the hurt

genderqueer love song by schmekel 

girl or boy by dani shay

my lgbt story by itsbambii

new men with old man names-schmekel

second puberty by jake edwards

sex:male;gender:whatever-human kitten

tell me a story by skylar kergil

the village by wrabel

trans is love by marissa kay

trans punx by size of sadness

transgender dysphoria blues-against me 

true trans soul rebel by against me 

they/them/theirs by worriers

you cant tell me by jake edwards

youth

carla williams kissed me-jamie anderson

compulsive liar by ezra furman

diplomats son by vampire weekend

first time he kissed a boy by kadie elder

grace by jamie anderson

i lost my innocence by ezra furman

kiss the boy by keiynan lonsdale

loners by maddie ross

mr, peterson by perfume genius

pat me on the ass by pansy division

room by palehound

seventeen by troye sivan

seventeen by kevin abstract

son of a preacher man by tom goss

the art teacher by rufus wainwright