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I wish I could’ve met Bam before you did. 

time to have evil sex with my villain wife

i need to talk about this because this is very important to me:

yes, khun is down bad for bam and we KNOW that, but we need to start appreciating the fact that bam is down bad for him too and he’s just as embarrassing about it, like, this is not one sided, guys. the only difference is that bam always has a lot of shit going on, while khun always only deals with bam related problems.

but examples of bam being down bad:

• always singles khun out in a group, he’s the first person he sees and unless someone else interacts with him, he continues to only focus on khun, to the point that endorsi herself talks about this more than once, because she’s jealous that bam isn’t paying attention to her.

• while bam doesn’t like seeing any of his friends hurt, he usually doesn’t stop them from joining fights if they insist on it, he’ll just do his best to protect them. but here’s the thing: if he can help it, he doesn’t even let khun join a fight in a physical way and when khun looks like he’s going to leave his post in his lighthouse, bam explicitly tells him not to do that because it’s too dangerous, because to him khun belongs in the safety of his lighthouses, strategizing and protecting their friends.

• at the end of the day, the person bam is going to open to will always be khun. this is explicitly made aware when he bids both endorsi and yuri good night (two people who are his close friends and he’s known for years, and could’ve open up to at anytime) because they said they were going to rest, but when khun tried to do the same, he stopped him and asked if he could speak to him about the master key. very important!!! bam also wants to be the person khun opens up to, but every time he manages to ask him something personal, they get interrupted (looking at you, endorsi).

• bam actually stated it himself that khun ‘is his most precious friend’ when talking about why he was protecting ran, in terms of him being khun’s brother. enough said about it, khun is already on a whole other level to anybody else, and how insane it is that he’s willing to lay down his life for ran because he knows it would upset khun if anything happened to him?

• RACHEL HERSELF POINTED OUT THAT KHUN IS BAM’S PRIORITY!!! when she asked bam why he was giving her a fair chance in terms of getting the thorn fragment, literally her first assumption was because she had saved khun’s life.

• i also feel that is important to point out that while bam may not want khun in the direct line of danger, there is no one he trusts more than khun, because he knows that at the end of the day he can take care of himself, he just wishes he wasn’t put into a position where he had to. like in the sweetfish situation, he had a choice of where to go and he chose to go to hoaquin because he knew khun was with the sweetfish and he trusted khun to have a plan, even though he was worried.

• lastly, i need to mention this because i have never seen nobody talk about that: bam tries to hold on to the image of himself from the test floor in his interactions with khun a lot. after his time as jue viole grace, every time we see him interacting with other characters we see him serious and determined but rarely smiling, even with his old friends, but with khun i noticed a lot of instances that he does the closed eyed smile to reassure that everything was fine and while a part of me wants to believe that the only reason this happens is because khun just brings out this side of him, i also believe that is because (at least in a subconscious level) he believes that is the version of himself khun grew to care for (since we know bam segregates his personality, since his sworn enemy is the version of himself that is jue viole grace) and if he’s not that version anymore, will khun still care for him? (welp, this just got really angsty).

to end all of this: basically, i feel like we talk a lot about khun and his obsession with bam (affectionate) but we don’t talk enough about bam’s with him because his moments are always more subtle and usually get lost in everything else that’s happening on bam’s life.

and i noticed that we, in the khunbam fandom, tend to be able to read khun better (he truly is easier to read) than bam, but now this post makes me want to do a character study on bam.

jahad is a very good example of a chad and a virgin at the same time

Baam *sporting red horns and black wings while sucking a billion souls into a black hole*: I’m not a demon

Everyone else: sure

Rachel:

BITCH WHAT THE FUCK

V IM COMING FOR YOU IM COMING FOR YOU V

I can't be the only person who finds this line to be extremely suspect right?

"Like yeah, the kid has literally no knowledge of anything and no real personal stake in this fight, but clearly he's responsible for carrying out my millennia-old vengeance."

-Tidbits that make me not want to trust Arlene.

S.I.U.'s gonna do a spin-off series of Tower of God and I'm like. Dying for too many things to be the focus of that side-series. I wanna see more of Zahard and his stupid fashion sense and his bitch fight (that I am convinced he's in) with Fate. I wanna see more about Rachel and Bam's past. (I am. Rereading and there's stuff I FORGOT because they were small details and ToG is 15ish years old AND YOU KNOW WHAT I DON'T THINK BAM SPENT ALL HIS TIME PRE-TOWER IN THE CAVE.) I want to see Arlene's ENTIRE FACE. I wanna see Arlene and Zahard interaction. I need to see how their relationship was and how it fucking spiraled so hard into tragedy and disaster that Arlene turns so hard on the group with V that they just build an army and start attacking their friends and their friends' descendants without blinking an eye from the sound of things. I need Arlene-V-Zahard interactions (and see if anyone in the fandom is gonna go 'teehee they've got two hands' andwrites something that gets me hooked). I wanna see how the people in the Red Garbage Dump managed to survive and built themselves up until they break out to take over the Tower. I wanna see the moment Zahard smashed himself into literal shards of who he was to make a version that fit whatever mold Fate graced the King of the Tower with (granted this isn't a confirmed fact but it feels highly possible to me right now). I wanna watch Arlene losing her fucking mind after her baby was murdered and see her drifting around the tower with a magically-preserved corpse and then after V goes through with suicide, hauling around reminders of him and getting worse and worse and worse. Maybe I want to see Zahard kill Arlene's baby and how that actually went down because Arlene's journal is not liable to reliable for facts that aren't shaded to make Zahard sound like an absolutely monstrous worst-of-the-worst and make out Arlene and V as 100% victims - I MEAN THEY WENT TO WAR WITH THEIR FORMER COMPANIONS AND PEOPLE CONDUCTING WAR DON'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT THOSE GETTING CAUGHT IN THE CROSSFIRE AND THEY'D HAVE KILLED A LOT OF THEIR EX-FRIENDS' DESCENDANTS IN THE MIDDLE OF IT ALL TOO. I want to see Team Sweet & Sour stuff they've been missing for 99.99999999% of S3. Did Karaka spend any time training Wangnan and Miseng? FUCKING PLEASE. I need to see if Miseng's turned into a tiny terror of the battlefield.

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