Pony Being Like "darry Treats Me Like A Little Kid Even Though I Am Grown🙄" Brother Soda Has To Sleep

Me trying to figure out what’s causing this new symptom

(I forgot but should have added burnout and migraines)

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The Pepe Silvia meme of a Caucasian man holding a cigarette while looking like he’s lost his mind, pointing to a large conspiracy board.

Written in red in random places and terrible handwriting is autism, bipolar, adhd, hypermobility, anxiety, depression, PCOS, ptsd.

In brighter red is meds then mystery illness with six exclamation marks after it.

buck finally settling into eddie’s house by literally arranging his furniture in the same fucking places eddie’s was is absolutely crazy actually. especially when he was like. it doesn’t feel like My Place. it feels like eddie’s Old Place. and yet. AND YET. it was the familiarity. the setting it up the same way eddie had it set up. that settled him. that made it feel more like home. something something it was never about making it His Place. it was never about erasing eddie and making his own space separate from eddie. it was about making his own space WITHIN eddie’s space. "this is eddie’s house, i'm not really a guest" manifested.

It trully is terrible...

Like what do you mean my body needs to take a nap to recover from cleaning itself?

When did i sign up for this?

rely on someone to meet basic needs and perform basic self-care tasks is okay and morally neutral, but can we talk about how hard it is? how vulnerable it makes you, how dependent it makes you, how tiring it is, how anxiety-producing it is, how it affects your dignity and self-esteem?

how much guilt it brings to constantly ask people to do something for you, especially something basic and presumably "simple." how little privacy you have left when you need someone to assist you with bathing, feeding (putting food from plate to mouth), dressing, moving, brushing your hair and teeth, and other tasks socially considered private and/or very basic.

even if your caretaker(s) are always nice and respectful and patient and do everything like you wish, it may still feel humiliating. and lots of caretakers are not like this, not even close.

and it's hard for you, and it's hard for caretakers, yes, even paid ones, but often our caretakers are not professional and paid workers. often, it's our loved ones. and it creates unique dynamics that are too taboo to discuss because society sees disabled lives, dependent lives as gross, and toxic positivity requires never to show complicated parts of our experiences even in disability rights activism.

depending on someone for surviving and/or daily living is normal, but it's a complicated experience with plenty of nuances, difficulties, problems, and heavy emotions.

Disagree? Respectfully, you can argue with a wall🫶

it shouldn't be a controversial take but:

disabled people are allowed to hate being disabled

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TOP 3 TRAITORS:

3. Brutus 2. Judas 1. Printers when you are in a hurry

Here are three things we see as common sense:

Our abuser has NPD and yet we do NOT believe in narc-abuse/ cluster-b abuse

We did not form due to RAMCOA/ SA and yet we do show our support to them in any way we can and want to educate people

We support all minoritys "even tho" we arent part of them and that includes: looking into their problems and how society/ the system treats them, listening to them, supporting them, defending them in allday situations "even tho they arent in the room"

We are talking about: woman, POCs, indiginous people, physically disabled people, higher support need autistics, woman and girls, every person with a mental illness, survivors of RAMCOA, survivor of the troubled teen industry, woman in other countrys, people who get hate for their religion, "illegal" immigrants and more.

Please do your research and notice the problem, if we forget or ignore then we are part of the problem, especially in those times.