Im Remaking It

hi besties! i've created a discord server recently, and i would appreciate if you would join by clicking on this!

we will be doing a lot of stuff there, so i can't explain everything

if you encounter any problems with the servers, just tell me!

i felt like i really had to make a post about this so here:

i am 100% conscious i went inactive since the start of this month.

i had a lot of work for school, like tons of homework and lots of tests, i had some big exams tuesday and last friday, and i had to prepare myself for the holidays.

since i'm going to be on holiday 23 dec ---> 3 jan, i may post a few things and write some stuff and maybe continue working on my fanfic.

(also i know that nobody really cared or notice i was gone but here i am, making a post about it lmao)

i hope you respect the decisions i've made in the past month and i'm gonna come back soon with things :)

also thank you for the almost 2k notes you left on this post! i really appreciate it and i promise that i'm gonna start the thing i promised right after my birthday!

The gang at a restaurant

remus: HAS to sit next to james otherwise he will fucking combust; doesn't order any food but steals from everyone. literally every single fucking person; always orders sprite as a drink because he has no clue what all other drinks are all about

james: sits next to remus otherwise he (remus) will disintegrate; orders food but 3 quarters of it gets stolen so he ends up sharing lily's food

lily: ALWAYS has to sit between marlene and mary (marlene on her right mary on her left); shares her food with james (rip james); is only able to drink juices at restaurants otherwise she'll explode

marlene: sits on lily's right so she doesn't have any other neighbours; orders the fanciest shit to ever exist; drinks coca-cola because why not

peter: sits next to james because he doesn't really have any other place to sit; orders pasta because pasta is like instant noodles but way fancier; drinks fizzy drinks EXCEPTING fanta (peter hates fanta so fucking much; idk why)

sirius: always sits at the head of the table; orders what a normal person orders; ✨fizzy drinks✨

cas: sits at the other head of the table; always orders things you can find at the corner shop every day; drinks ✨milkshakes✨

mary: sits on lily's left; orders seafood everytime there is seafood in the menu; fancy beer shit like raspberry-flavored beer

the first birthday sirius' remembered was their third birthday, when nothing was wrong and their hands were small and regulus was still wobbly on his feet, when their mother never screamed at them and they still saw their father from time to time.

they did know that nothing much happened, because they were still young and they didn't remember much, but one memory stood with them from then onwards, and every birthday it played in their head over and over again.

walburga picked them up in her arms and they remember they giggled. walburga smiled to her son softly.

"joyeux anniversaire, mon fils chéri." walburga said, barely over a whisper, those words only meant for sirius to hear.

it was the last time sirius would hear those words from her.

-

their twelfth birthday was quiet. it felt different, because it was different.

regulus wasn't there, sirius was away. they were apart for the first time and it hurt. they didn't know if it hurt for regulus, but it hurt for them.

no letter came from anyone from home. ever since the black family had found that sirius wore the red tie instead of the green all of them did, something changed. and it made sirius scared to go home for christmas

"happy birthday, sirius!" james smiled, putting his hand on sirius'.

it felt warm, a weird warm that sirius had never quite felt before. it felt... homelike.

"we didn't know what to get you..." remus shrugged, "so we just wrote you a letter. well, peter wrote it, because if either me or james did you wouldn't understand anything." he added with a smile.

peter grabbed his bag ceremoniously and put it on the chair next to him.

"here you are, good sir." peter nodded, handing sirius the letter, who almost snatched it out of the boy's hand due to excitement.

dear sirius,

hi and happy birthday. you're cool. we love and cherish you, dear roommate, you're also cute.

the boys

although it was short and seemingly unimportant for anyone else, tears welled up in sirius' eyes.

"thanks, friends." they said, and they hugged.

and sirius found a new home.

-

sirius' fifteenth birthday was an emotional rollercoaster.

first of all, they woke up next to remus. and they didn't remember how it happened.

"happy padfoot, birthday..." james muttered groggily from his bed.

"did you mean happy birthday, padfoot, james?" peter snickered as he was scratching his neck. "happy birthday, bestie. swear on merlin i'll give your gift later."

he glanced into remus and sirius' direction, then grinned.

"james, let's go, give the saps- uh, i mean remus and sirius! some time together. yeah. let's go."

james looked confused as he was dragged out of bed by his friend. peter looked at remus and sirius and winked, then closed the door behind them.

"good morning." remus smiled sleepily. "happy birthday, sirius."

and before either of them knew, they were kissing, softly, like it never happened to sirius before. they knew they could get caught, but they didn't care, because both of them knew what they hid from each other.

they had each other, in that moment.

them and no one else.

"is this good?" remus asked, but the purpose of the question was a whole other, that sirius understood.

"yeah." they smiled, butterflies erupting in their stomach.

-

non arguably, sirius' seventeenth birthday was the best one they ever had.

they got away from their family and, at last, they were free.

"happy birthday, fuckface." remus groaned in the crook of sirius' neck from his spot in his bed.

"happy birthday, pads!" james yodeled and sirius covered their ears their ears with the thick pillow.

"fucking hell, mate, thanks," they sighed, smiling. "but merlin's tits spare me of the screeching."

"asshole." james rolled his eyes and threw a box right next to sirius, who opened it.

inside was a black watch with stars, almost as old as time.

they knew it was fleamont's, and they rubbed their eyes in an attempt to not let a teardrop fall out of their eyes.

it was a real gift from a real family.

-

Sirius,

I haven't written in a long time, Mother has hidden the parchment ever since you left so I couldn't write.

I wanna start off with an "I'm sorry.". I should have been stronger, I should have said something, I should have done something but I never did. Because I was scared, unlike you. And for that I have always been bitter, of how you could stand up to someone like Mother and Father. I wish I could have been more like you.

It hurt after you left, it was hard, but you did what was right, because that house has been rougher on you than on anyone else. I understand why you did it and I have never been mad at you for leaving, because you did what you had to do. I was lonely ever since, though, and no one could light up the house like you did.

The little box contains your gift. It'll remind you of me. Don't forget me in your new, perfect life, Sirius.

I hope you're ok.

Happy birthday, big brother.

I love you,

your little brother, RAB

-

"happy bi'thday, pa'foo!" hari squealed from his father's arms.

"you taught him that for this special occasion?" remus asked, looking at his now fiancé, a soft smile lighting up his features.

james nodded, giving his friend a grin. "had to, hari loves them."

"hey kiddo!" sirius cooed. "did you miss me?"

hari nodded frantically, holding out his little hands, trying to reach sirius. they put their finger out and hari's little hand surrounded sirius' long finger, who smiled.

"bravo hari."

and everything was still normal.

-

"prisoner three-hundred nine."

aria is back to rambling!

this is actually a subject i'd like to elaborate.

shipping lgballts is just as bad as shipping countryballs.

since you are a person living in 2022, you most likely have an idea of what the two things above are. if not, here's the explanation:

polandball, also known as countryballs (mentioned above) is an art style & internet meme made (mostly) as comics in which countries are personified as spherical characters (excepting characters like kazakhstan, israel, singapore, nepal, bermuda etc.) colored with their country's flag. you can look up for more information on google, you'll sure find something in there

lgballt is kind of similar to countryballs, except their flags are the sexuality, romantic orientation or gender they represent. the only non-spherical lgballt is genderfluid, sometimes represented as a puddle ( taken from the very funny genderfluid joke)

there, i defined both of them for people that may not know /gen

and now, some people may disagree with me on these, mostly the lgballt part (we know to this day how not-so-logical is to...ship two masses of land) because "they also represent sexualities and romantic orientations". and as much as they do, i want to remind you that they are still flags. of course, one pan person can definitely be with a bi person, but that doesn't mean that shipping their flags is as good as shipping the people (if the people agree to being shipped; that could make them uncomfortable)

of course, i'm just stating my opinion on this. i will not judge you based on your opinion, but this is just how i feel about shipping spherical objects like lgballt and countryballs are.

oh hello! 8 noticed that u recently followed me and I'm so honoured! is it just me or are my posts actually gaining traction now???

lol I know it won't cause this is TUMBLR

(but still it's nice to pretend)

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and now, the best gift that they could ask for was to be with each other. again.

"marlene, sweetheart, i have to tell you something." they said on a soppy voice, which made their girlfriend roll her eyes in amusement.

"yes, my dear, darling sunshine?" she said, squeezing her lover's cheeks together.

"i am so in love with you." dorcas whispered, and kissed her square on the lips. "happy birthday, marlene."

"you're the best birthday gift i could have asked for."

to you i present the gayest homophobe...

hermione jean granger!

hermione's definitely the type of person who'd explore her sexuality but at the same time she considers being gay abnormal because...that's just hermione logic

Peter and Sirius were best friends. Agree, disagree, but you are not changing my opinion. James and Sirius were so much more than best friends, even more than brothers. Hard relationship to explain. But Peter and Sirius were best friends. They'd sneak into the kitchens daily, steal something and watch the world burn as the house elves were looking for the pancakes. They'd go outside after an unsuccessful attempt of skipping school and climb trees to the point where they could see all of the schools' campus and even Hogsmeade. Peter once threw Sirius' pillow out the window, 'as a joke', and they needed 3 hours to convince the Whomping Willow to let go.

And on the 31st of October, Sirius completely lost their mind.