I Think I Might Start Posting Again. Probably Just Thoughts, Not Poems. Idk

television graveyard (art by @cybervoidgirl on Twitter)

I’m traumatized cause every time I wanted reassurance, clarification and to share my feelings it was perceived as trying to argue, shit has really turned me into a cold person

I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to be here

genuinely happy for people who can say their trauma doesn't define them but me personally that shit shaped me fundamentally and dictates every choice i make every single day. lol

-from Pinterest

I'm a lot more effort than I'm worth

It feels like no matter who I mirror, no matter how hard I try to please people, no matter how nice I try to be— no one fucking likes me enough to stay or just return my energy equally. It’s so exhausting but I keep trying and trying to get this love and attention but it’s not sticking.

I feel like people don't talk enough about how utterly mentally exhausting it is to be genuinely obsessive about somebody

like yes it is nice to have somebody I love so much be a constant thought in my head but it makes actually trying to do real life things so difficult because I'm so caught up in the obsession and the daydreaming