Why Isn’t Anyone Allowed To Be Wrong Anymore? It’s Okay To Be Wrong. No One Should Be Terrified Of

Maybe I CAN fix the endings...

A relic from the Holy Catacombs of Pancratius

The Rebirth - March 2023

This started as a vent art At this point in the campaign I was going through a depressive episode and what was supposed to be a turning point in my character's journey made things even worse and things didn't get better even after the story ended. So it was both a vent for me in my personal life and for him. He became a character through which I could explore my self image issues, but it kind of got ruined for me. ( However I was so attached to him at this point I found a different group and gave him a fresh start with a new name, and modified backstory. And so far it's going well. I didn’t want to end this rant on a negative note. )

a thing that annoys me a lot nowadays is the way the average person unceasingly consumes art in the vast ocean of information that is internet - especially young people.

most treat art as it is some kind of disposable and throwaway thing that serves ephemeral delights and put no effort into understanding it; it’s all about aesthetics and catchy visuals with no real depth or actual meaning.most of us nowadays don’t care who put effort into art - we don’t care who’s the person that manages to evoke and transmit all these feelings. it’s just an endless need to be aesthetic, beautiful and in-tune with modern standards consuming pictures like we consume our food and all the materials that we need to make ourselves “happy” but in the internet it comes for free; we don’t even have to try. 

makes me think the way we praise and give so much credit to older artists like picaso, warhol or dali after so many years but give no respect or visibility to modern artists that struggle to be relevant and the least succesful, in an institution that has done almost everything and drained itself out of ideas and original concepts. “there is a deeply ethical appeal in the desire for a more inclusive representational landscape and certainly under-represented communities can be empowered by an enhanced visibility, the terms of this visibility can often enervate the putative power of these identities." 

- peggy phelan (1996)

" Eat Your Heart Out " December 2021

Welp, this was meant to be mostly an aestetic blog but I can’t stay silent no more. I’m joining the faneposting. @faneposting-my-beloved - you have inspirerd me to post my art again.

Some visuals to go with my rpg horror story I posted on reddit.

I was trying to figure out why I got attached to this guy so much and I think It might have been his sense of perseverance. I always put a bit of myself into my characters and his struggles reminded me of my own when I was younger, when I was getting bullied by people I thought were my friends while dealing with the things my family put me through.

His core is the survival instinct people have despite even their own brains working against them and it's something that shaped me as a person as well.

Weirdly enough when I made this chart I was surprised that the art I make is influenced by my own emotions. Shocking I know. Like bruh the colour was literally sucked out of it! How did I not see it?

Looking for art mutuals closer to my age

I'm Alice, neurodivergent, a relic of the late XIX, very ancient, almost 30 I mostly draw things I like which happen to be my OCs / D&D characters, they make me happy and tbh I don't often feel like drawing anything else. I used to draw fanart a lot but those works never felt like mine, it did help me hone my skills through. I stopped posting and deleted all my stuff years ago for mental health reason and I kinda want to come back to sharing my art with people.

My interests:

Dungeons and dragons

Character design

Favourite anime: Princess Tutu ( I don;t have the energy to keep up with new stuff and I'm tired of shounen/isekai)

Music taste: all over the place

Aesthetics: elves ( especially drow) , skeletons/undead, lolita fashion, romantic gothic