recently I was talking to my friend and I realised my gender comes to me in two modes: how I want to dress/carry myself, and what I want to physically feel like. So the combinations are
male body, “male” clothes. Male body, “female” clothes. Female body, “ female” clothes. Female body “male” clothes.
some days it feels like no gender at all. Am I gender fluid or a gender or what? Pls help me. I have no one at home to talk about this to.
repost this artists please! arists only get fame via reposts.
had the insatiable desire to draw corvo and the outsider. years later they still remain the puppetmasters of my dick
last year i was eating in a fancy, large restaurant when i began to hear a rumble and the distant sound of people chanting ‘potassium, potassium’ and suddenly hundreds of people dressed as bananas flood this restaurant chanting potassium over and over and we were trapped there for a very long time because the bananas would not leave and they were everywhere
i wasn’t joking
executive dysfunction is legitimately physically uncomfortable. i’ll be trapped between two things, weirdly caught on how-much-time-it-might-take-me. i take hours worried im going to take hours doing things. i’ll sit on the floor for the entire day, caught up in the middle of not-doing the chores i actually do want to be doing.
& the amount of mental energy that goes into it. & the legitimate amount of anger and discomfort and self-hate. is not “being lazy”. it’d be a lot less work if i didn’t have to fight myself to just get up and do it.
i just need you to understand it’s not effortless. it’s never effortless. it’s not “okay let me just get up and finally start doing this.” it’s more like. i am slamming my foot on the pedal but the car is in neutral and nothing is moving. it’s more like shouting instructions into a dying telephone. it’s more like being trapped in a small electric box, and someone who hates me is administering shocks.
im trying. im trying. please help me get up.
I (a 14 yr old) have aproximatley 7 yrs of drums experience and i starte tachingmy dad. Pro: its fiunally a bonding thing for both of us to enjloy. con: We are both EXACTLY the same, and now i have to teach thiss adhd ball of anxiety how to play drums. It drives me insane b/c he bangs on the drums incoherently and randomly and now i feel bad for my drums teacher cuz he had to deal with a 5 yr old with even less self control.
found this cute af
[A Love Like Yours] a new 8-page 'The Summer Hikaru Died' fan comic from me!
It's now available on my Ko-fi HERE.
'Hikaru' thinks he's on a regular homework date with Yoshiki, until Yoshiki asks him a question he wasn't expecting.
Preview below ⤵️ (contains spoilers for vol 1-4)
When my keyboard teacher threw a surprise test, he made us play in front of everyone, one by one. i never practised ( i only play the keyboard because i already have for two years and i cant let go of things easily). I ended up laughing when i had to go back to the biginer book, and i ran out after my hands were shaking so hard i couldnt play the first. fucking. exercise. By this point
( because my anxiety response is trying to please the crowd) I was gigling and laughing like a maniac. Then I broke down and started crying. This is made worse by the fact that my brain went through every chain of effect, reason, response, fuck yourself by the time I had cycled home. Well.... what the fuck do I do now.
hey ive been on visdurbel recently (if you know you know), and ive seen a lot if black shunks swirling, with a trail behind them. they ar not fish, nut they move in circles, what are they
negative interpretation : drink bad!
positive interpretation: eating 17 donuts is a healthy choice.
same with cleaning the sink
Having to clean the shower is so fucking annoying. It’s clean in there. That’s where I go to get clean. It’s clean dude trust me. Stop fucking growing bacteria and stuff man this is the clean locale. You’re embarrassing me in front of the sink