I’m Really Counting On Tumblr Not To Sleep On Cloak & Dagger. I’m Super Hopeful About This Show. 

productive coffee shop days ☕️

I’ve seen a lot of people criticizing and ripping on ko mun yeong’s behaviour and her character. I just wanted to clear something up, her character suffers from ASPD ( antisocial personality disorder ). This is a mental disorder and people with ASPD tend to ignore others feelings and show no regard for right or wrong. They also may act impulsively and lie and don’t care about the effects of their actions. Now it’s very clear that Ko mun yeong continuously acts the way she does not only because of this disorder and the trauma she faced in her childhood but becasue she hasn’t gotten any kind of treatment or psychological care. I really hope that this drama doesn’t brush over her illness and make it seem like she’s just crazy or something. I hope we get to see her illness being discussed and her actually getting the help she needs. I don’t want it to be brushed aside as a caricature or she’s just that way but I want to see some actual help given and actually discussing the issues around ASPD as well what it’s like.

A gentle reminder that even if you haven’t finished a book in days, months or years, but you still love books, that you’re still a bookworm.

You know why? Because books will always be there for you when you’re ready to go visit. 

Listening

Guilt. - - - Sirius Black in Azkaban

i will literally marry you on spot if you were to ever give me a book of annotated poetry with all your thoughts messily scrawled in the margins. highlighted lines of poetry that remind you of me, and a note on the first page stating how you wish i were to enjoy the book just as much as you had, as a gift. not kidding.

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so let's talk about the first and the last conversation in this episode shall we

first, we have those two actually admitting, point blank, that they're worried about each other. doom is confused and angry, because she could've died and why the hell would she do something so stupid and useless if she knew he cannot die? she retaliates, not by being defensive and immediately saying she didn't think it through and she would've done the same for anyone, but by expressing worry and empathy. and then she adds that she actively wanted to do it and what's more, she doesn't regret it, even with the knowledge that he cannot die and she almost did.

he's angry, and of course, we could suspect that he's worried over her almost dying because, as he says later, without her he cannot end the world. but then, she points out something important. he says he killed that man, and she shouldn't sacrifice herself for him with no reason because he is not worth it. she replies, I'm sure you did it for a reason.

the thing is, she is right. but their later talk circles around that idea, maybe he did it because he is punishing people? maybe it is his work? but his work was done when he prolonged this man's life so that he would suffer. now, why would he kill him, then? it wasn't work, it wasn't punishment, it was personal retaliation. doom saw this man attack and almost kill dong kyung, even if unintentionally. he saw her caring enough to jump in and foolishly try to save him and felt enraged enough to ditch the bigger plan because of it. a lot of personal, human emotions were involved.

now, throughout the episode, he observes dong kyung, trying to figure out her own reasons for acting the way she did. and the conclusion of his observations is in the last conversation. yes, he managed to read her in the subway, but more importantly, he had a revelation about himself.

he had an opportunity to feel like maybe, just maybe, he was worth something to someone, that he mattered enough for someone to risk their own lives they otherwise want to desperately preserve. he felt genuine care as she empathized with him and tried to understand instead of reacting with fear or anger. he had his opportunity to also express care, do something good instead of destructive, in the subway, and at the beach. he wanted her to cling to him and she literally did, grabbing his sleeve and asking to go with him. so his conclusion?

he wants to be loved by her. she is the one human in existence who was able to see through the bad and notice him, make him feel like he was something beyond death and destruction that (quite literally) follows him. he was sure he cannot be loved and now he is basically pleading her to try and love him, with vulnerability he hasn't shown before, the shooting star visually confirming his wish was genuine.

now, it is not to say that his personal journey is done or that he's changed his mind about ending the world completely. but these two things are strongly connected and him voicing his desire to be loved by her is a huge step on the road to realize his personal identity and separate it from what is now a projection of his self-hatred onto the humankind. it's not over, folks, it's bound to get more interesting and dramatic for sure.

This and Studio Ghibli sending a katana with a note that said “no cuts” to Weinstein when he was handling the distribution of Princess Mononoke are now my two favorite movie anecdotes