Wooow I feel like I need to watch the whole serie again, like every episode just to see every details !!!!!!!!
i love how sana’s season seems to tie in with the underlying disfunctionalities of friendships. from s1 julie always emphasised how she wanted to focus on teenage girls and their problems so she slowly established the girl squad who for the most part seemed to have this admirably strong bond, the girls were supportive of each other when they had boy or school or family troubles… but now that we see it all play out from sana’s pov we suddenly become aware of all the cracks, all the miscommunication, the constant little hurts that words/simply being ignorant/not paying attention to someone’s reactions to your comments can cause.
in the previous seasons we might’ve assumed that sana sometimes felt excluded but now we see just how much they don’t know about her private life. she had always come off as a girl who can’t be fucked with, a girl that is not phased by ugly comments or harrassment (the text on her locker) and who always has a comeback and can shake off any mistreatment easily. but now that we see the close-ups of her, there’s the sadness and the distance and those walls that never fully come down and how she needs to put back the brave/unbothered expression on her face every time vilde makes an ignorant comment or the girls plan an activity/order some food that doesn’t take sana’s religion into account and it must feel like a little cut that won’t kill you but makes you bleed. it’s the constant sores that you have to live with but sometimes new ones catch you unaware…
sana is so estranged from the other girls that she’s probably never brought them home, never talked about about her brother in detail, likely never talked about her religion with them and certainly never brought up how she finds all of these little things that occur daily so hurtful. i’m sure we’ll get there. i’m sure julie intends to show us that there’s only so much a person can take without breaking down/snapping/retaliating eventually. i hope we’ll see sana making them aware that inaction or assumptions/being inconsiderate are just as hurtful as straight out attacks on a person/their religion.
and we can also see that there’re many layers to friendships and even though the girl squad’s friendship may have seemed like a well functioning one at first glance, we now have an insight that noora makes up lies to get out of group activities, maybe bc she knows the topic of william will be discussed or she’s depressed bc of william, deep down she knows it’s over between them and the girls make it quite clear they want her to get over william. but she’s just not ready to move on and feels like she can’t talk to them about him. there’s always the offers from vilde or eva that they could set her up with someone, like being alone was unhealthy, like she failed somehow with william.
i’m sure the other girls also hurt. chris must hate how easily the others dismissed her breakup with casper, how they never bothered to ask what happened. just bc she tries to be a positive person doesn’t mean she never gets hurt when her relationship is taken as a joke or how awful chris feels when vilde looks in the mirror and exclaims how fat she looks and even though she knows the comment is rooted in vilde’s body dysmorphia it still feels like it’s an indirect criticism of her body…
we also know vilde basically got together with magnus bc of the others’ comments on how she was not getting any dick and who knows how triggering she finds it when noora reminds her of her eating disorder by pointing out something she eats (even if it’s just an ‘i’m proud of you’), it makes her question whether she should’ve eaten it or was it a jab that she’s eating too much?
or how eva hates the thought of jonas hooking up with any of the girls (yes, she’s over him but still, no) or how they sometimes jokingly say she has an alcohol problem, and yes, sometimes she gets that feeling that she’s being judged for being promiscuous. these may all seem like small things but they hurt.
and then there’s sana who feels like an outsider in basically all areas of life except for maybe school (but even then it’s not the same for her - gym class sucks; she still gets the odd looks for wearing a different outfit). it’s the conversations about physicality with boys, it’s the food (’that pork with apples was delicious the other day’), it’s the parties where she’s the only one not drinking/smoking if noora is not there, it’s how they arrange to meet right when it’s prayer time for her and she never points it out to them, it’s the assumptions about her religion/family/values that she’s long stopped trying to correct… the list is endless.
so i really hope julie will educate us about many ways there are to be misunderstood, how to be better and more supportive friends, how not to dismiss the intricacies of every culture and religion, how to live and let live and be considerate and celebrate differences.
Y'all talk all day about supporting diversity roles, representation, strong female characters.
And I’ve seen several shows you guys campaigned for and NEVER watched.
Put your money where your mouth is and support.
Also political stuff aside, these are genuinely great characters with a long history that deserve it.
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Would you recommend Luna and the lie? Are you still reading it?? What about other booms by the same author?
Yes I would! Tbh I think I once said holly black was the queen of slowburns but I might have lied lol it’s Mariana Zapata. Like genuinely the slowest of burns. I would definitely recommend her other books, plus it’s kinda cool to see they’re all set in the same universe.
They’re long and usually enemies to friends to lovers. I think of all the books I’ve read from her, Only two are on my dnf list lol.
The wall of Winnipeg and me, one of my favorites. I can go back multiple times to read that one haha. Personal assistant of this super huge super stoic football player quits her job and said football player tries to entice her while also keep his residency by asking her to marry him. “You know more about me than anyone else does.” was what really cut my heart up.
Kulti, that was one that I wasn’t sure I was going to like but ended up really enjoying. The girls soccer team has a new retired player coach and he’s such a hard ass but she takes it in stride bc her MO is being better than she was five minutes ago. They clash a lot then they don’t. “It’s a term of affection in my country. My love. My snail.” Hahaha I started tearing up at that one.
Under Locke, that was different but good different, more intense than the others and is kinda similar to how I felt with Kulti. Her dads a bad guy and she moves in with her brother so he could keep an eye on her, meanwhile getting her a job at a tattoo parlor where the boss is a sorta gang member. “But I'm not a good man, and I'm gonna take everythin' you want to give me and everythin' you don’t.” Oof. My loins.
Luna and the lie, which I thoroughly enjoyed and might be my new favorite. She’s moved away from her crazy dangerous family taking her sisters with her and her newest boss is a hardass who believes he owes her a favor after she lied to the cops for him...except every favor she asks, he insists is not part of the deal. “You haven’t listened to a single fucking thing I’ve said, have you? Seen a single thing I’ve done? You’re the only person who hasn’t put shit together?” Be still my heart.
Wait for it, as most of her books are heartbreaking at some points, this one kinda started out on heartbreak but it was the way she dealed with it that made my heart so soft. After gaining custody of her brothers two sons, she moves to a new town where their new baseball coach/ neighbor is a little resentful of all the attention he usually gets, and becuase of a misunderstanding he thinks she’s just as bad as everyone else who hits on him. “Do you love me?, I asked him like I did every night just to hear him say it.” The kiddos in this were too adorable.
From lukov with love, turned out seriously sweet but I wasn’t surprised. Enemies on ice haha literally. He’s a pretty famous ice skater and she still struggles to reach her goal. He needs a new partner and wants her to be it. “‘We both know you love me.’ I wanted to deny it. I really did. Mostly because I hated the fact that he sounded so smug. But we both knew I’d be lying.” Truly the most enemies to lovers of them all.
Becuase how they’re all slowburns, I got really, really invested haha. Also learned a lot about certain sports and tattooing? And car painting? And uhh motorcycle clubs? Loved the family and friendship dynamics even if some of the family dynamics were so awful I wanted to punch characters through the pages; it was just well thought out and I felt every emotion. The main characters were also pretty badass and hilarious at times, if not a little naïve where it counted. Would definitely recommend if you want a contemporary romance to read and get invested in.
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I’ve been thinking, and I think I get it. All season we’ve been seeing a suffocating amount of Noora and hearing all these wonderful things about her from everyone and their mother. And we’ve been so frustrated and so pissed at Julie because it’s Sana’s season yet we’re seeing so much of someone who’s already had their own season.
But after the last clip I think it’s because we’re not really seeing Noora, but rather how Sana always feels overshadowed by her, and that was obviously something we didn’t see before because (a) we didn’t have her perspective before and (b) Sana hides her emotions really well.
And obviously you can’t really feel suffocated by someone you don’t see or hear about that often, so I think the whole point of seeing Noora 24/7 is that we’re SUPPOSED to feel frustrated, and bitter, and even angry, because that’s how SANA feels.
Basically Noora overshadowing Sana in her season is symbolic of her overshadowing her in her life, which is especially frustrating because Noora actually shares a similar lifestyle to Sana in that she doesn’t drink, doesn’t really party, or do other things teenagers usually do, but she gets away with it and is praised for it because she doesn’t look ‘different’ while Sana gets bullied and judged because she’s Muslim.
I mean I’m still pretty pissed that Noora’s taking such a large chunk out Sana’s season, but if this is Julie’s intention and she’s not just kissing Noora’s ass AND it comes to a resolution with my baby Sana being happy and appreciated, I can live with it.
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