Leonardothe12th - Its Just Me

*finishes watching the scorch trials and immediately rewinds it back to the start and watches it again*

The Maze Runner + Onion [2/?]

pov the glade happens years after 2016 and the gladers still have their memories taken away but are confused when they suddenly have the urge to do pop culture things:

the boys, sitting around doing whatever:

minho, who fucking just whips and nay nays out of nowhere

gally: what?? the fuck was that???

minho: bro idek i just.. had to do it???

I get so emotional about Newt saying “and I remember you” in his letter because he didn’t always get to remember. His memories were stolen before he woke up in the Box and imo it’s one of the greatest tragedies in the series. Thirteen years of experiences, grief, and friendships that were lost to time,,,, he had a little sister, and no one will ever know because that knowledge was taken from both of them.

But he remembered Thomas.

The importance of memory and its intrinsic connection to identity was stated in the letter (I want you to know that I'm not afraid. Well, not of dying, anyway, it’s more forgetting. It's losing myself to this virus, that's what scares me). Forgetting was conflated with losing his sense of self, both of which he considered a fate worse than death. I feel like the Gladers almost saw memory and identity as privileges. They weren’t guarantees, since they’d all forgotten everything and the threat of losing themselves was very present in their lives, both through the Changing and later with the Flare. The memories Newt made during and after the Maze were memories he fought for, as was the person he became. As he wrote the letter, he could feel the latter slipping. In the end, the memories would go too.

But. But. He held onto those memories until he was literally collapsed on the ground and half out of his mind. He remembered Thomas. And he knew he would follow him anywhere. And if he could do it all over again, he would, and he wouldn’t change a thing. He would go through everything - forgetting, building himself back up from the ground, losing that self to the virus.

And I just. I just think that I remember you is such a profound admission of love from someone who has fought and is still actively fighting to do that. I may be losing myself, but I remember you. I may have lost almost everything else, but I remember you. Getting to here, where I am remembering you, has taken a world of things from me, has taken my past and my identity and nearly everyone I’ve ever loved, but I would follow you into that mess all over again, because it brought me to you, and it brought me to my family, and it brought me back to myself, and at the end of the day those things are all the same. I am dying, and I remember you.

Ok, hello, Jan 17 I’m looking for all u guys.

Reblog if you think asexuality is a legitimate sexuality.

I'm trying to prove something.

my newt (maze runner) headcanons

VEHEMENTLY a dog person. like, he doesn't HATE cats, but he wants nothing more in this world than a golden retriever that he can raise from puppyhood

one time he heard thomas singing in the shower and he laughed so hard he cried

used to say the "c-word" so often that even minho (resident foul-mouth and creator of most if not all of the glader slang) had to be like "dude can we reel it in a little"

he likes to say things like "devious" and "scoundrel"

unbelievably clogged pores. it's a serious issue

can't eat apples with the skin, he has to peel them with a knife

regularly quotes random bits and pieces of early 2000s pop music. he does not know what he's quoting or why he knows it

my thomas (maze runner) headcanons

he absolutely snorts when he laughs

dude has perpetually popping joints and they scare the shit out of everyone around him because his joints are so goddamn loud

he canNOT sleep with a pillow. every time he wakes up in a bed that has a pillow, said pillow is on the floor several feet away and he can't for the life of him figure out why

one time he slept through an entire day and woke up thinking he'd died and come back to life

will fuck up a carton of mini muffins

snores very quietly most of the time but sometimes gets so loud he wakes himself up

he can't decide if he's a dog person or a cat person so he's in constant moral turmoil

THIS.

Not gonna lie to y’all…I though Thomas and Teresa were gonna be brother and sister