For Me Being A Trans Person In The Holidays Is So Strange Because..whos Life Have I Dropped In On Who

im a walking talking stereotype im afraid

oh look. another trans boy named alex on tumblr. join the club dude.

alright buddy

how does it feel to also show up on those basic trans guy name lists?

Everything sucks and I am not okay.

Okay then. Try these things. (mainly for neurodivergent people but really its for anyone who has a problem but Doesn't Know What)

SHORT TERM- i feel bad right now and need immediate relief

Get off your phone. Seriously

Drink a glass of water

Eat something with protein

Shower if you haven't already

Brush your teeth

Tidy your space a bit

Open a window and stretch your legs or go outside on a walk if you can

Say something nice to someone

Put on some music. Something relatively happy

Hug a living being (pet, sibling, parent, etc)

Change clothes or feel a nice texture or listen to some 8D music. Sometimes its a sensory thing

Get something small done. Reply to an email or something

Do something creative. Draw, write, sing, whatever

Learn some cool new information

Talk to someone. Phone a friend, talk to your parents, text someone, etc

Read a damn book (fanfic counts)

Sleep, or if you can't manage that, try to relax or meditate for 5 or 10 mins

If you have over excerted yourself physically mentally or emotionally, gove yourself a break.

LONG TERM - ive been feeling bad for a while and want to get a bit better overall

Try to talk to someone about life generally. You might just figure it out

Stop making suicide jokes. Yes, that includes ironically saying "i want to die" at any minor inconvenience. for me, this was changing it to "im going to commit a war crime" or "I'm going to buy a completely unnecessary amount of clothes". Be ridiculous with it. Keep the comedic value.

Stop being self depricating. Failed a maths test? "oh im just really bad at maths" turns to "my maths skills are unmatched. im a genius" it can be sarcastic. then youll get used to complimenting yourself and will do it unironically out of habit

Change something. For me this was cutting my hair. i felt out of control. i cut my hair because i couldn't do anything else. this could be joining a club, buying new clothes, dying your hair, choosing a new perfume or deodorant. Anything that makes you feel in control

I might add more to the long term list in the future but this is it for now. You will get better, the silly little guy on the internet believes in you <3

What kind of music do you like and what are your favorite songs/artists?

I have been listening to lots of musical tracks recently like dear evan hansen, hamilton, heathers and epic but one of my all time favourite artists has to be Cavetown. I love their songs Meteor Shower and Sharpener specifically (tw for s3lf h4rm if you're gonna check out Sharpener)

ive been listening to a local band called The Number Twenty lots recently, theyre really underground but they are on Spotify. fav one of their songs is Heart Racer Nerve Shaker.

Another random underground rec - wannabe by chloe in denial. her only song but very good.

oof that was lengthy

it may take me a month to put out a chapter but at least im not using ai to write it.

it may take me a month to put out a chapter but at least im not using ai to write it.

it may take me a month to put out a chapter but at least im not using ai to write it.

it may take me a month to put out a chapter but at least im not using ai to write it.

it may take me a month to put out a chapter but at least im not using ai to write it.

IT MAY TAKE ME A MONTH TO PUT OUT A CHAPTER BUT AT LEAST IM NOT USING AI TO WRITE IT

@iloverocks51 and @cottagecoretree.....

“man i’m glad none of my irl friends can see the shit i post on tumblr”

then i remember

the one

did you know you're never able to open your mouth fully. have fun with that.

I fucking hate my jaw rn, the fuck you mean I haven’t been able to open my mouth fully for the past month

me listening to Hamilton as study motivation

@iloverocks51 at bros house to do work!! (no work is getting done)

*shaking six year old me by the shoulders* YOU WERE RIGHT! YOU WERE RIGHT ABOUT SHARING IS CARING AND FAIRNESS AND TREATING OTHERS HOW YOU WANT TO BE TREATED AND BEING NICE TO PEOPLE AND LETTING THE LITTLE THINGS GO AND ASSUMING EVERYONE IS GOOD. YOU WERE RIGHT. THE ADULTS WERE WRONG. IM SORRY THEY TOOK THAT AWAY FROM YOU. KEEP BELIEVING IN SANTA AND THE FAIRIES IN THE TREE IN THE GARDEN. IM SORRY THEY EVER CONVINCED YOU TO FEEL SHAME. NOTHING IS EVER "JUST THE WAY IT IS". YOU ARE PRESENT IN THIS WORLD. YOU WERE RIGHT.

Hallo its @iloverocks51 your bestie westie, I'm just here to say hi and bye. Tchau minha adorável besteira favorita *pisca timidamente e corre de fora de quatro*

☆〜（ゝ。∂）

omg hi dude not the Portuguese (translation: Bye my favorite adorable bestie *blinks shyly and runs outside on all fours*)