Little Thing That Can Help (eventually?) First Of All This Is A Daily Reminder That One Day That You

I know that m3t@bday is important to trick my bødy for him to think I’m not restricting but DAMN I DONT FEEL GOOD RIGHT NOW

And it would have been a typical wieiad couple months ago just to maintain?? HOW ?

It feels like I binged even though there’s no way.. help! even for today, I fully know that I always over count but it just feels to much aaaaaah

i am soo back and so motivated

DAY 6

Cassie (skin)… do I really need to explain?

Chinatsu Kano (blue box) I see her and I’m like, you look like my teenage self..

Rapunzel (Rapunzel) arty girl that want to be free and make her life look and feel like a party. Romanticise every little thing to make your life more fun

Jo & Amy March (Little Women) a mix of the two really because of their determination but the way they are so human, some of their actions and words resonate and they ask themselves questions that I ask myself everyday

Yeah I know that five not three but ik what idc hehehe

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🐞

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ smoothie bowl + cheddar sandwich + 1 ice Americano Snack~ 3 bites of bread + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ my regular egg bowl + Greek yogurt with toping (granola, chickpeas and fruits) + 1 green tea

Total:~ 1600

Well bødy dysmørph!@ is baaaaack💀 didn’t take her to long for sure..

I can feel my h!ps bønes while standing..

I CAN FEEL MY H!PS BØNES WHILE STANDING 🧚🐞✨

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE ✨

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano Lunch~ 1 cheese bread + 2 roasted sausages Snack~ smoothies bowl + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ high protein bowl with rice + 1 slice of cheese + 2 slice of bread + chicken broth + løwc@l lychee candy

Total:~ 1900

I ate a bit more today so I don’t really feel comfortable but I have to be honest with myself, I felt so weak today, couldn’t concentrate on anything and it’s probably because I don’t count my c@lør!3s in an accurate way so I end up more exhausted than I should be for the amount I’m over calculating everyday.. I shouldn’t complain about it because that means that it’s working and anyway, I did it myself to myself but I can’t talk to anyone about that, I don’t have anyone to talk to cause it’s not their f¥ck!ng business yk and I can handle it on my own. I just feel a teeny tiny bit down and it feels like here people understand at least because we are all in, comforting each other, which feel sad at the same time, thank you <33

You are all enough and beautiful!!

ON TODAYS FØØD EPISODE 🎒

Breakfast~ 1 ice Americano + 5 vegetables crackers with cucumber, granola/chickpeas, rare tempeh and Greek yogurt Snack~ 1 chicken sausage + 15 vegetables crackers Lunch~ scrambled eggs on toast with melon and salad + 1 ice Americano Dinner~ egg protein bowl + 5 vegetables crackers with fruits and Greek yogurt

Total:~ 1600 (max)

I walked out of this day controlling my guilt over the 15 crackers and the beginning of a potential binge so I feel proud of myself

Maybe one day I’ll be able to see myself the way other perceive me.

I wake up

No bloating

No sadness

And the light defining the h!ps bønes that’s start showing

What a great great day 🧚