"The Feeling Of Drowning Is Commonly Known As A Painful Experience. But For Those Who Are Surrounded

I think I'm at that point in my shifting journey that when I wake up here after an attempt to shift, most of the time, I'm not sad. I'm just indifferent to waking up here. Yes, there are occasions where I'll be really happy, excited, and eager to shift more than usual, and I'll be disappointed and sad when I wake up here but for the majority of the time when I've done a few affirmations and I'm not trying too hard to shift because I know I will anyway at some point. So I've just learnt to become indifferent waking up here now.

Idk if anyone else thinks this too but I'm pretty sure that those random ideas you get for your dr aren't actually just random ideas, it's you accidentally channeling your dr self without even knowing you're doing it. that one really specific scenario that randomly popped into your head? That actually happened in your dr and you just remembered it. I have so many scenarios, quotes and little quirks that I scripted about people in my dr but they're so specific and they came to me out of nowhere and I could not have made half of those up by myself

I ALMOST SHIFTED A FEW DAYS AGO!!! I DECIDED TO THINK TO MYSELF, "I WILL SHIFT! NOTHING WILL STOP ME!" I WAS DOING MY USUAL AFFIRMATIONS BUT THEN I THOUGHT ABOUT USING MY SENSES AND I STARTED TO THINK "I CAN HEAR PEOPLE TALKING", "I CAN SMELL PEOPLE'S SWEAT", "I CAN FEEL THE SEATBELT", "I CAN SEE THE DROP SHIP. I CAN SEE MY S/O SITTING NEXT TO ME." AND I KEPT DOING IT AND THEN SUDDENLY I HEARD MULTIPLE VOICES BUT I COULDN'T HEAR EXACTLY WHAT THEY WERE SAYING! I COULD SMELL THE SWEAT! I COULD SEE CLEARLY THE DROP SHIP AND MY S/O IN MY MIND'S EYE! I COULD ALMOST FEEL THE SEATBELT IN MY HANDS! IT WAS THE FIRST TIME I EVER TRIED TO USE MY SENSES TO SHIFT!!!

HELLO MY BABES/LOVES/CHILDREN/THANES/KINGS/QUEENS/DEITIES/JESTERS!

My name is Kai, I am 17 years old. My pronouns are: They/Them. I am a Gender fluid, Lesbian and Asexual person who has been into spirituality since I was twelve, when I first saw my late sister's spirit. I am a medium, although I do have trouble at times communicating and seeing spirits. I also identify as a witch and a shifter. My religion is something that I don't know the name of but just my beliefs: That all gods/deities are real, but there is a hierarchy.

1. God, the universe, Brahma, Allah are number one and just the same being but go by different names to attract different people.

2. Jesus, Budda, avatars in Hinud, any messiah.

3. Any gods and goddesses from any religion and Lucifer, Satan and Lilith.

4. Angels and Demons and Fae, mermaids and dragons

5. Angel guides and ancestors (whether human, animal or alien)

6. Spirits, ghosts

And that when we die, we just experience the Void unless we believe in a specific afterlife for ourselves. All religions have some similar things but are all a bit different to appeal to different people because a number one creator would understand and know that just like students in school, people learn things differently.

I am an Empath, medium, Witch and pagan. I've been a Witch on and off since I was 12. And I've been an empath and medium since I was 5.

This blog will be a mix of poems I've written, my thoughts/beliefs/encouragement with deity work, deity worship, witchcraft, spirituality, shifting realities, self-love, and care.

I worship: Lady Hecate

I used to worship: Loki, Hades and Persephone

If you are rude, disrespectful, homophobic, transphobic, anti-shifter, racist, and/or close-minded, this blog is not for you. I would request for you to go and find someone else.

Anyhow, I hope this blog finds people who are meant for it, and I hope whoever reads this has an amazing day. If anyone has any questions for me or want me to share my thoughts on a specific subject that falls into what this blog is for, I will be glad to answer any of your questions and/or post my thoughts on the manner.

My DMS are ALWAYS OPEN TO YOU AS LONG AS YOU HAVE GOOD INTENTIONS

-Kai

So I've started to stop worshipping my deities. I don't have an alter for them anymore. I got scared a few months ago because Queen Persephone's rose incense offering almost burnt my room down. Then afterwards, I just stopped, and then I doubted my faith and went to Catholicism. Now, I am taking a break from all religious things and religions in general. I believe that all deities and religions are real but happened in history at different times, but I haven't figured out what to do with that and how to go about it. Especially when it's rarely on my mind. So yeah, that's my update.

thinking about all the aromantic people who died thinking they were broken. thinking about all the aromantic people who died settling for "at least I care about this person". thinking about all the aromantic people that died without ever being able to know why they couldn't reciprocate the feelings of anyone, men, women, people of other genders and more. thinking about all the aromantic people that died being called sluts that never found the right person to marry. thinking about all the aromantic people that died that had to tell themselves that it was fine, they were fine, this marriage will be okay and it will be for the future of their lineage, while crying themselves to sleep every night. thinking about all the aromantic people that died that we will never know about, because being aromantic isn't even close to a possibility in the mind of society at large. because love is supposed to be the force that saves everything. because love is supposed to bring everyone together. because to love is human.

So, I've had the most roller-coaster of a ride with religion. At this point, I just don't care. They're all real. They're all there in the world, and when you die, you go to where you believe. Because I've had enough about religion because there's too many in the world and it's confusing.

But that's not the point. So I decided to put up my Hades, Aphrodite, Loki, Apollo, and Hermes alters up.

Before I decided to do that, I brought some 18+ dice for some fun, and just why not, and that was before I decided to put the alters back up.

Explain to me... why I felt drawn to giving Loki those dice, with the explanation of how to use those dice on his alter with three fidget toys near it and a (porcelain?) goose with its head smashed??? He/They/She/It (whatever Loki identities as) is really showing their chaos already!

Affirmations I've been using recently:

"I have decided that I'm already in my (desired reality name) desired reality."

"I have decided to shift to my (desired reality nams) desired reality."

"I have become aware of my (desired reality name) desired reality."

"I am (desired reality name)."

It's okay for your desired reality s/o or family to change! It's okay for you to change your mind and decide you want a different person to be your family. It's okay for you to decide to change who your s/o is! There is NOTHING wrong with that! Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. It's normal to change our minds. We shouldn't have to feel guilty for it like we're 'cheating' on our s/o or family because we're not! We are just changing it to what s/o or family we now have decided we want in our desired reality at the moment.

you know what- it's not "eventually" anymore. it's "now."

i will shift now. we will all shift now. do not allow yourself to suffer any longer.