How To Make An Artist Happy

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Join the lnc-69min challenge!! ;DDD this week’s theme is rpg and you have till the late night stream to complete ;DD I think it’s something causal and fun

It does seem fun for sure ;v; I just have never actually drawn anyone else besides cry from the lnc, I will see if I can come up with something though.

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People have been asking if I do sculpture commissions or am selling any of the ones I've made, the answer is yes. I know I keep saying it, but I'll post a general price list for sculptures when I can. I have been busy/gloomy/lacking materials so I haven't answered anyone, I haven't been on my laptop for maybe a couple of months. I was able to get some materials lately so I can actually do so now. (As well as making sure my PayPal was still accessible.) I need to finish up some stuff but I dont mind people asking or asking about updates.

(This is making me sad, this post isnt showing up in any tags no matter how I search, so reuploading it in hopes it shows up)

I honestly really like Final Fantasy XV, Finished it about two weeks ago. I had to make some sorta fanart for it after Cry started playing it. :D

I have no clue the time taken, only I have drawn this during every stream video and then some.

I couldn’t think of which Regalia design to put so I put the one that was more memorable haha.

Also sup guy is a moogle type plushie.

Sorry for not uploading much in so long.

Bigger version on my DeviantArt (Krystami) as I think putting a link is messing it up.

I just wanted to post this, I love Veela and Resident Evil so when I seen this my eyes sparkled (like in the way you are weirdly happy tears form.) https://youtu.be/mnm794XbBAs

I need to maybe say this, please read if possible.

I’ve seen plenty of posts saying “if you like to art you should be happy just sharing it rather than wanting notes, unless you want to get paid for it” or things around those lines.

Well honestly, I love doing art, I enjoy people seeing what I do, I enjoy doing it in general, but even since I thought “if I keep trying I could be an artist and make some sort of living out of it” I’ve always wanted to be paid for what I do, not only because it’s kind of a dream of mine but also because I actually NEED it now, well for a few years I’ve needed it, I can’t work physically, out in the open, etc. I promise you, I am unable to do anything in RL, it made me realize I am really not able to do anything, I have too many limitations, I’ve graduated HS even if I was there a few more years than planned, I’ve never had a job, not even babysitting, the reason why I didn’t graduate on time is because I couldn’t bring myself to go to school most of the time, as well as If the bell rang before I got to a class, I could never go to a class, that’s how bad my anxiety is, how all my problems are, I can’t even speak up to clerks, judges, anything, no matter how bad the situation. I’m always told “well once it gets bad enough you’re gonna have to bring yourself to do it” IT DOESN”T WORK THAT WAY, not for me, I wish it would, it makes me feel even more like a failure knowing I can’t do it. I won’t magically be able to do something just because the circumstances get worse, if anything that would make things harder for me. That’s another reason why I try to believe in what I do when it comes to art, it’s the only thing I’ve been “open” about, the only thing, ONLY thing I’ve ever been confident about, which makes it worse that I know I’m not well known, I’ve never been successful with it, especially not in a memorable way. I’ve had random one shot things that I’ve never been paid for, winning design on an anime store logo, getting into an art gallery, but not much else. I NEVER leave my house, I don’t have any friends, so it would also be good since all my time is dedicated to art, I’d be able to have a full time job doing this. I am always balancing on “my art sucks, not because my skills suck but because what I do isn’t memorable or I don’t pump things out fast enough.” and “I’m good, right? why am I not getting any attention?” I know most people don’t like when people have mindsets like this, well people who are open about it. So, since I, myself do want to get commission work and sell what I do, am I allowed to want attention? Should I actually try to get attention? I try my best not to because of how frail my mind is, anything breaks me, and hey it sucks, I try not to get attention due to being afraid of people me things like stop asking for attention, or people who want to hate on you just to do it, I already have enough at that as it is. I really need it though, I’m homeless now, no money, no place to go, no nothing, I’m scared. Even right now my mind is saying “I’m a failure” over and over again, though I try to think “everything will be okay, you just need to keep trying” but then it switches to “you’re not good enough, nobody likes you, stop trying already you aren’t good enough to be more than you are now.” I hope someone reads this..

I haven’t had the content to post lately, all I have are works in progress pretty much :o all of these are about halfway done. (Except for the center one, those are part of something a lot bigger.) I’m working on a lot of other things but don’t have enough progress for me to post those. Top is Sardonyx(Steven Universe), left is Ruby and Sapphire(Steven Universe), middle are sup guys(Cryaotic),right is Rainbow Quartz(Steven Universe) (If possible ideas would be amazing. When it comes to Steven Universe, characters, themes, motifs, etc. Anything in general. When it comes to Cry, outfits that seem apocolyptic, “cool”, would be fun to sculpt, scenery, detailed gear?,weapons, poses, whatever else that is thinkable of. c: This in particular I plan to be one of the bigger projects I do as well as Max and Chloe from Life is Strage. (Planning stages until I can get the materials I need :D) As for drawing, I don’t know when I can again , poopy computer and lack of drawing supplies, honestly though I’ll probably invest in some copics before the computer.~

Titlecard for Minx, Minx as Mae. :D Night in the Woods is such a great game, haven't felt so relatable to a character or game in general since probably The Cat Lady. The art is so nice in the game as well, down to the the smallest details, animations, music and the writing.

Woo, I actually got a really nice Peridot today, it is perfect for what I wanna make actually, size, shape, etc.

This may be very long, I'm sorry, It's something I hope gets read.

Random thoughts~ I hate seeing so much negativity everywhere. I'm not going to be specific about anything but I hope I can explain the best I can. First I'd like to say it is impossible for ME to shorten this. My thought process can't fathom how to compress thoughts. It seems people everywhere have a huge lack of empathy, unable to think of how someone elses life may be, as well as how certain things effect them in their life, their reactions. The thing that REALLY bothers me is I see all these people heavily badmouthing, insulting, making jokes at people they used to claim to admire. In reality I've NEVER seen anyone leave a friendship or something similar for a few bad events, I've seen everyone do things much, much worse. (Without even knowing half the story who are immediate friends at times.) The thing as well though is things are circumstantial, theres no way to know whats going on by just observing, its gossip, its horrible. I know certain people from totally different point of views than others, and just from that it honestly disgusts me to see what people say. I might slightly be going in circles here but I see it as the worst type of hypocrisy when this situation kinda arises: -people do a possibly negative thing in response to others being rude, possibly annoying, etc.- Or -people react badly to something or in an unacceptable way- And in response I see people reacting in the same way but sometimes worse than the people they are reacting to. That in itself isn't a big deal but what IS, is when i see people months after something STILL talking badly and insulting anything related in a joking fashion. Thats just spreading negativity and just stirring up things people shouldn't be involved with in the first place. People aren't your personal tv show even when it involves people doing that for a living. It also bothers me seeing people trying to invalidate mental illness and certain disorders. Why? Because I have to live with the same thing through out my life. I CAN'T control how I react to people, I DON'T realize when I'm mean, the feeling passes over me but its like the "one ear out the other" thing, or when you have a gut feeling but ignore it. And its scary when the exact fears kinda come to the surface. Let me just say, this is the only way I can describe anything right now. "You can't explain to a person who has been blind all their life what SEEING actually looks like, just as you can't imagine a new color." What that means is just because you experience life one way doesnt mean someone else feels the same things as you, some have to deal with things that are unimaginable even though some may see it as petty and dumb. No ones in "the right" or "the wrong" things like this happen and it sucks. The thing is, things like these are things that need to be WORKED THROUGH, at that no one should be condemned by things like this either, at that by ones not even involved, even if its just a friend of a friend. I say this because I deal with things like this all my life, as I'm sure plently of others have as well. I have severe anxiety, tourette's, depression, and bpd. (Tourettes in itself is a bundle of disorders and junk.) _________ (I may be getting too personal within my own life here but I feel its the only way I can get my message through.) These right here are the exact reasons why I dont talk to people online or in real life. As certain individuals do, i react harshly, I dont realize it, combined with that the anxiety is a catalyst to being unable to control tics from my tourettes. The problem within that is my second set of tics that come out involve actual outwardly physical things such as: hitting others, Things, Squeezing things, breaking things in half without realizing it, etc. I've been arrested for things I can't physically control, Ive been called evil, a bitch, crazy, a demon, monster, It really hurts. (The charges were able to be dropped luckily, didn't stop all the trauma it caused.) I can guarantee you no one can even imagine what it feels like. Just because two people have the same/similar illness, life, experiences,etc. Doesn't mean they are supposed to be an exact copy on how they react. __________ I try to only post art on here, I am honestly afraid to directly communicate with anyone, I have a hard time even replying to others. I am posting this here because I feel maybe it would be okay to say something for once. (I haven't posted in forever though due to computer problems, and skill honing with art in general. Not satisfied). _______ I'd also like to say it extremelly pisses me off that just because people only see things from their view and word of mouth that they automatically label someone as a monster, spineless, a flat out bad person, etc. Yet just because you see that you try to push the fact theyre a bad person who should be disliked. But what you dont know is those same people/person could have seriously saved a person/peoples lives behind the scenes, that the/those same individual(s) you claim to be monsters could have been the best thing to occur in someone elses life, many even. Why does a few things make someone a bad person? And why do people mock others when they respond with "no ones perfect." Because its true. I've noticed from other sites and things not involving certain topics here that there is a mob mentality to things. I have been trying to become more social by taking part in discussions. The thing ive noticed is on the "normal" parts of, let us say Facebook for instance, most people rule on the opinion part no matter how messed up the opinion is, while people who try to come in with actual discussion or kinder opinions get attacked, everyone says how wrong and dumb they are if you make one slip up. On the other hand... Being on Facebook with a psychology group, those same posts, same topics are seen at rationally without heavy opinions, problem solving without creating conflict. That is what needs to be done here and in life in general. Of coarse I could still say this is all just my opinion, just one I feel needs to be said. I'm pretty sure I cant cover every single little detail here, there will always be a "loophole" people will abuse in someones words or actions. Thank you if anyone read this, though vague I hope it makes sense.