W.i.p. Of Opal And Size Comparison Among Sculpts The Only Part Almost Finished Is The Shape, The Rest

Just in case you don't see me posting any art for awhile...or anything for that matter...

Everything in my life has been going to utter shit, I used to think things were bad before... Anyways, I was barely out of a mental hospital and almost right away sent to jail, I have a restraining order against me right now, so I am freaked the heck out, I got bonded out and I might end up in jail for 3-6 months if I mess up by accident. I'm scared and stressed and my dad isn't helping any at all with his remarks, the police, and everything. Apparently as long as me and my husband are 100 feet apart and don't communicate in ANY way, it should be fine, but I'm still worried since I was the one the police pressed charges against, we live in the same home but he said he would leave apparently...SO I HOPE I am safe, jail where I am is horrible. the cell was disgusting, the toilet had poop on the seat, nothing was sanitary, I was sick in multiple ways, body in pain, wearing a suit that would injure me, not allowed underwear even though it was "that time of the month" I'm allergic to gluten and ALL they would feed me was bread, and gluten filled things and nasty bologna, I wasn't even allowed a pencil, skin conditions acting up, very cold, I felt like shit. All because of an involuntary impulse of these stupid tics I can't control. As well as my husband never meant for any of this to happen....at that shitty timing. I feel horrible, I can finally sleep but, I can't, I can't draw, I can't watch videos, I can't do anything because I feel everything I am doing is wrong. Things keep getting worse, I want it all to stop, then my dad keeps provoking me, threatening me, I can't stop crying...I hate my life and I have every right to, and every right to complain.

What type of art do people want to see? (I guess from me) (Edit: this was not meant to be a rambling vent post but turned into one.) I just dont know how to get out there on any website. I feel like a ghost who talks to everyone but nobody hears or sees me. I want to just give up, give up on everything not just art anymore. Or maybe I have that backwards, I always wanted to give up on everything but art. I see no point, it is my only skill and positive trait yet it isnt good enough. I am literally a starving artist. I cant get work. I cant do anything. This isnt a tumblr thing, there is obviously something wrong with me if I have been trying for over a decade and still havent gotten anywhere. I swear i spend more time and have more time that 97%of people. But i waste it all on art that gets me nowhere, not financially or socially. And no art doesnt help me for me, not anymore,my goal since a child was to become a paid artist. Imagine a kid who spent their whole life, extracurricular activities, anything possible in anyway their whole life trying to become a doctor, cook, athlete...and just it getting ripped from under them. I fake reality you thought would come true but you dont qualify and instead of being on the team or something you end up being an unpaid volunteer as a waterboy or something like that, or expected to cater for free, for "exposure" it feels like shit and it is. I already given up, im just a zombie with no purpose who just goes off of what feels most natural and intuitive.

w.i.p it's almost done, just need to do the bg and finishing touches 8D  just a derpy random part of the picture

I haven't updated about this picture in quite a long time, it is nearly finished, I just have stopped working on it for the moment. Horrible photo, but I can't really do transferring right now and stuff, it took away most of the detail but, eh. Thinking of adding more wildlife or not as well.

The figure I’m making now is about 10 inches tall, I feel like I’m wasting so much clay ;-; but I’m already so far, I’m so tempted to just rip it apart and make tinier things before I cook it.

Apologies if this has been asked, but do you sell those statues? The Lapis statue is amazing, and I would be more than willing to pay for a product of your phenomenal work.

I am willing to sell them, I would be glad to also take commissions for custom ones as well, I just need to get around to some things. Thank you so much for the offer and I apologize for such a late reply.

More wips until...?

Still trying to get commissions...details through here but ill repost if need be. Just message me if you have questions. https://m.facebook.com/groups/769385609752270?view=permalink&id=1607275062629983

Okay, I decided I will make Peridot next, as suggested I'll try to make her limb enhancers, I wanted to try anyways but...well, I'll see how it goes. I don't want a plain pose which might be hard making something with enhancers. If not I'll make another Peridot in the future :) I'll probably be able to make her other version then, I have to find out how to make fitting limbs while being removable without much seems showing.