I Remember When I Was 12 “I Kissed A Girl” Came Out. It Was One Of The Biggest Songs Of The Year

I remember when I was 12 “I Kissed a Girl” came out. It was one of the biggest songs of the year and it left me so utterly confused. Was it okay if I wanted to kiss a girl? Would people know that I might to kiss girls if I sang it? Was wanting to kiss a girl about sex?

The general outrage from some parents, including my own, about the lyrics of the song and the video terrified me even more. It made something that was already confusing and scary for me feel even more sinister and wrong. I grew up hearing the word gay being thrown around as an insult. I knew that some guys like guys and some girls liked girls, but barely knew what “that’s so gay” was actually supposed to mean except that it was an insult and the idea of homosexuality was taboo. I was scared, alone, and resigned to ignore my feelings.

I remember so many of my friends changing the lyrics to “I Kissed a Boy” and it made me feel even more confused. They talked about kissing boys and holding hands and I realized that while I didn’t want to do those things with boys, I wanted to do them with girls. But kissing girls was supposed to mean having sex with girls. And at 12, I wasn’t interested or ready to think about that. I just wanted to hold hands and kiss someone who liked me too like my friends. Liking girls seemed like this inherently sexual thing.

One of the things that bugged me when “In a Heartbeat”, was announced was the response that some individuals had that the characters were too young. As if 12 year olds having their first crush was inherently sexual as long as it wasn’t heterosexual. It was something that plagued me for years, the idea that liking someone of the same gender or not of the “opposite” gender was always supposed to be exclusively sexual and couldn’t be romantic or involve feeling no matter what age you were. Those feelings would never be anything but al deviancy whether you were a kid or an adult. That romantic and platonic relationships for people who were gay would always be exclusively sexual in some way.

The response of the filmmakers to immediately shoot down those critics and the finished short film gave me something I’d been missing as a scared kid. “In a Heartbeat” captured both the innocence of a first crush and the fear not being accepted by others because it was “wrong”. It was simple in the same way it was complicated. It wasn’t just about a middle school crush. It was about normalizing and not sexualizing being gay. That finding that you might not be straight or that you have feelings for someone of the same gender isn’t inherently sexual. Why should kids having crushes or those feeling be sexualized that way because it’s not heterosexual? Having your first crush and discovering having romantic feelings for someone is scary. And it’s scarier realizing that there are people who think it’s wrong or internalizing the idea of it being wrong, of you being wrong. And it’s terrifying. But there isn’t anything wrong. It’s not any more sexual. It’s normal. And there’s hope that people will accept you and your feeling.

This is just a bunch or rambling but I feel very strongly about this short film and it means so much to me now as an adult.

2019 animation high lights

Thank you 2019 thank you for

for giving us a new Christmas Classic and showed us that 2D animation is far from dead

For making us cry and fall in love with new characters

For showing us a passion project

For making us laugh

For giving us something brand new with passionate fire

For giving us something old with something new

For having us at the edge of our seats

For teaching the young and old

For giving us something clever

For surprising us

and for making us say goodbye

thank you 2019z alsoIstillhaventwatchpromareyetanditpissesmeofthatEuropewontseeittillnextyearomg

also my bad I switched out the Ok Ko gif with another Ok Ko gif because it was fan animation created by @paurachan my bad I thought it was legit from the show please check their page out there so talented

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kitsuidarian

6 years ago

lito “I’M NOT SCREAMING” rodriguez

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kitsuidarian

6 years ago

Lots of my favorite vines are old ones, so here are some that I didn’t want lost to the wind

Might make part 2 w/more modern vines(?)

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kitsuidarian

5 years ago

Hello. I am always seeing your posts about Omega Izuku and I am loving them! I was wondering if you had any fanfiction based in this universe?

if you’re asking if i have fic recs of omega deku stuff; yes, yes i do

also they’re all tddk

Wrong in the Dark - fantasy au w villain deku (incomplete)

winner takes all - fantasy au a/a krbk but deku is there being a side character and he tells bakugou to fucking get it together and fucking confess already and i need that in life

Parental Instincts - there’s a lot of pregnancy shit on here and im aware most people aren’t into this shit but yall, this is fluffy as heck

Secret Love Child - i have this on my bookmark page but i remember jack shit but anyway au where deku is actually all might’s secret love child and is forced to marry

(incomplete)

Because you love me, because they love us. - deku’s expecting but he doesn’t know it yet. also it’s a whole series

tourne autour de moi - “we met by chance , when we fuck but we’re compatible and i like you please marry me”

(incomplete)

Lies you believe about yourself - to that one anon way way back asking about secondary gender dysphoria, here you go. also broke collage student deku agreeing to cheeto man to carry his son’s baby

Heat - that’s it

Fighting against Our Nature - same

Hard and Fast - same

Itch - same (incomplete)

Your Consent for My Love - same but longer

After Love - post heat fic

Starved - they fuck but it’s a fantasy au

my heart knows me better than i know myself - heat fic but they dont fuck

Absolute Territory - deku’s thighs appreciation fic

Bonded - slowburn ft krbk mmjr iichako and serokami

The Traveling Kingdom - todo ranaway from his kingdom, saved by deku who’s a royal from another kingdom (incomplete)

Sickeningly Sweet - deku’s a little shit

Bad Habits - domestic

Morning - they fuck but it’s soft

is this all of it? nope. there’s like 20 pages on ao3 on the tododeku tag alone

but if instead you’re asking about a fic i wrote myself for my own au, ahhahaha, i cant write for shit im sorry but the masterpost is over here if you wanna check it .w. its pretty up to date i think//shot

however @yamajuri wrote some family stuff of her au and that’s basically all i know sorry

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kitsuidarian

7 years ago