Went To My First Protest And My First Rave This Week

Many Me?

team rakkhunbam, icons that you are,

string theory

huhmmm unfinished wip because I was gonna scrap it but twitter gave me confidence

Boo

AAAAHHHHHHH HELP HEEEEEELLLPPPPPPP AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH

ITS HAPPENING THEY FINALLY KISSED

Very intrigued as to where this novel is going cause I do not currently see how they would work out, Lu Feng is catching feelings but An Zhe is still very much not human and only half trusts Lu Feng not to shoot him

Loving the internal conflict of An Zhe feeling safe with Lu Feng but also knowing that should he ever be exposed, as far as he knows rn, Lu Feng would shoot him on sight tho

still with you

Yaoi size difference

Everytime i listen to Irregular God and think about Bam I get chills. It fits so well I know i’ve talked abt this so so so many times BUT GOD ITS SO FITTING FOR HIM

I CANT STOP TALKING ABOUT HOW WELL IT WORKS FOR HIM

Its so tragic and yet the chorus that sounds like people worshipping him BUT HE’S A CHILD AND ONE WHO HAS NO IDEA WHATS GOING ON

And I think about Bam now and god I get so emotional remembering where he started and how different he is now. He’s found confidence in himself but its in some part arrogance, ARROGANCE THAT HE DID NOT HAVE at the start of the series and that gets me in my feels that he did not HAVE that in him until FUG. He’s snarky and more confident about fighting, even ready to sacrifice lives to win, which he definitely couldn’t fathom becoming okay with when he started climbing. White whom he loathed ends up being right, that Bam WILL learn to burn souls, something Bam fought White over and Bam is forced to make his peace w that. The hug w Khun and Bam was so pivotal also that reassurance that Bam is still a good person even if he does things he wishes he’d never have to, all of that are little bits of him that hasn’t changed since FUG.

You see how even now, he doesnt want the casualties, he sees the families tearing each other apart and he doesn’t understand it, he doesn’t want it

And it adds so much weight to Hwaryun actually, the degree to which Bam has changed. All the experiences that Hwaryun guided him to, changed him and she actually is painfully aware of it. If i remember right she’s the one who tells Wangnan that its not fair that someone who so clearly was not meant to be who Bam is now was given a destiny that is this gorey. No one else pushes Bam down this road as brutally as she does, and she knows it. That scene of her giving Bam the choice, the first time she makes it clear and obvious that it truly is his choice did SO MUCH for her character and omg how did me gushing about Irregular God turn into Bam and Hwaryun analysis

I think that the height average is just a lot higher in TOG. Idk if it counts as canon but I know one of the TOG: New World loading screen says Yuri is 180cm tall and how that's not considered very tall in the tower. Rankers are just built different (long). Idk but I don't like the idea of me being taller than Bam that just feels wrong 💀

I know that Baam’s supposed to be like 5'10" 5'11" (according to the wiki and assuming my math is right), but seeing how small he is next to any of the other characters and how excited he got when Jinsung suggested that he grew when they reunited during the Nest Arc just reads (to me) that he's not that tall. Maybe it's my 5'1" ass having a skewed idea of what tall is, but I'd put him at like 5'7" if even. He's a head shorter than most characters. He's a little guy.