Can Not Tell Where My Head Is Now. It's Blank, Crystal Clear And Still Active. Would This Be One Of Those

Can not tell where my head is now. It's blank, crystal clear and still active. Would this be one of those "moments of clarity" some people seem to have? Beats the fuck out of me.

I catch myself sometimes stare off into the blurred world as my head seems to float off somewhere. Could be a total zen moment. Possibly it's my brain having a break from everything lately, just a small moment where time, space and assholes can't bother me and so I can start sorting out things on it's own. Yeah, could be that.

At a red light tonight, I found myself staring into the lights of cars in front of me. It was like the world was frozen, slowing down and I could feel a certain stillness to my body.

Just chilling there, heart beat slowed down, empty minded and off to another layer of the atmosphere or even the great unknown of space. Just drifting in an ocean of nothing, as the ripples lap over me. I'm not fearing the deepness of where ever my mind is. Though I should question where my mind is sometimes..

Then the light turned green and my body pushed down lightly on the gas pedal and I was off to home. I was in autopilot mode.

I'm not confused by any of this. Just mere parts of silence and peace in my life that happen at times I least expect them to. In fact, great moments tend to happen randomly and die out quickly for me. How I grasped onto that idea is neat, but it's just a fact of my life. When it happens to you a lot, you tend to learn from history. Wise up to what life throws at you.

Though some times, I wish I could have something good to last me a little longer. Life goes on whether I know where my mind is or not.