“I’m With You. No Matter What Else You Have In Your Head I’m With You And I Love You.”

Mary Oliver, from “Summer Morning.” [ID in alt text]

I miss you, but I have to let you go.

Too many days and nights  passed through the body  and slowly took  the body away.  Where is that child?  Where is that childhood? I drift in the tides of time  and lose myself wave  after wave.

{Juansen Dizon, I Am The Architect of My Own Destruction page 24/ Anaïs Nin, The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 6: 1955-1966/ Alice Hoffman, The Red Garden/ Anaïs Nin, from The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 5: 1947-1955/ Haruki Murakami: Norwegian Wood, page 276/ Michael Ondaatje/ Catherynne M. Valente, The Orphan's Tales: In the Night Garden/ D.H. Lawrence, from The Complete Works; The Plumbed Serpent/ Jean-Paul Sartre, from No Exit/ Alice Notley, from In The Pines: Poems; "In The Pines,"}

I wanna be soft with someone and not regret it after

I'm not gonna lie.... I do feel this. From when I was kid, I'd always mimic the MCs in anime and cartoons. I personally loved the timeskips because for me, it was like I'm growing and learning along with them, showing off my newly acquired skills and feeling like others as well as myself could see those changes. But now... I'm moving faster than them... too fast but also too slow. There's now a disconnect in what I watch and its a quiet heartbreak that I've aged past them... Damn.

the fact that i'm no longer the same age as the protagonists of novels and films i once connected to is so heartbreaking. there was a time when I looked forward to turning their age. i did. and i also outgrew them. i continue to age, but they don't; never will. the immortality of fiction is beautiful, but cruel.

Sometimes music is ALWAYS better than people. FTFY

Sometimes music is better than people.

Need this on my wall or something

I must change my life so that I can live it, not wait for it.

— Susan Sontag, Reborn: Journals and Notebooks, 1947-1964