stayed up late and awake to read this fic of what if andrew met neil first and made him the promise instead of aaron and now i wanna write it :///
neil’s faceclaims :
darwin gray ( default )
benjamin wadsworth
fionn whitehead
david mazouz* ( teen )
the pinnacle of my career writing neil josten is to write a twilight au.
‟ YOU HEARD ME . You’re not in the right mind to talk clearly yet. You’re way too harsh on the newbies , like you’re lashing out your issues on people who can’t take them. Until then , I’ll sort it out on my own , Kevin. Lay off the alcohol. ❜
❛ what do you mean no ?? ❜ ⇢ SHIT SAID TO A BABY BROTHER. &&. STILL ACC. / @im-possiblelimits
seasons 1-2. feel free to change pronouns / titles as needed !
❛ i won’t have to do anything. ❜
❛ everyone’s laughing at us. ❜
❛ you don’t know that. ❜
❛ we can’t not laugh. ❜
❛ nothing is going to happen. ❜
❛ you’ve got a phenomenal voice. ❜
❛ you think i’m being cheesy? all right, i am being cheesy. ❜
❛ i just want something real to happen. just once. ❜
❛ have you prepared a speech, is that it? ❜
❛ we’re so out of our minds with desperation, we don’t know any better. ❜
❛ show us something real and free and beautiful. ❜
❛ it’s only so much wonder we can bear. ❜
❛ fuck you, that’s what it boils down to. ❜
❛ i’m a serial monogamist. i’m staying faithful to my cornflakes right now. ❜
❛ you lied. ❜
❛ not everything that isn’t true is a lie. ❜
❛ you know when you suspect something, it’s always better when it turns out to be true. ❜
❛ it’s totally batshit crazy i can even talk to you. ❜
❛ i shouldn’t have drunk last night. next time, ould you try and stop me? ❜
❛ sorry, hang on. that’s a very difficult sentence to process. ❜
❛ there’s no history to you. ❜
❛ you nearly killed us back there. ❜
❛ yeah, well, i wasn’t expecting you to be there, was i? ❜
❛ i’ve just saved your lives. ❜
❛ a wee “thank you” would be nice. ❜
❛ i should’ve just run you over. ❜
❛ you’re not going to win. ❜
❛ why not be honest? ❜
❛ i was lashing out. i wasn’t even articulate. ❜
❛ i notice you keep that pretty quiet. ❜
❛ so i return to my original question, is that really what this is for? ❜
❛ prove me wrong. hm? speak. ❜
❛ i’m here to ask you an important favour. ❜
❛ look, come on, there is a little bit of a conversational drought happening here. ❜
❛ not big on conversation. ❜
❛ practice makes perfect. ❜
❛ maybe i’ll bore you. ❜
❛ people want to be noticed. they don’t like to be shut out. it makes them feel invisible. ❜
❛ people just want to be heard. ❜
❛ you’re a locked box. i mean, that’s a good thing. ❜
❛ most people are too easy to read, especially if you know minds. ❜
❛ using party tricks to pick up girls isn’t knowing minds. ❜
I still have an hour or so until my birthday is over and truthfully. It hasn’t been great. More mentally than anything or anyone’s own fault really. But doing this for my past few birthdays have offeresd to lift some weight so I figured why not. Plus there’s no time like anyday to appreciate some of the amazing people I’ve met on here who have offered such profound kindness and comfort through small acts of love and big ones. I genuinely appreciate all of you. And just wanted to extend a small thank you for another year! ( I’m tired and emo oops.) Still though. ❤️❤️❤️❤️ —— xoxo cas
( Disclaimer: Absolutely in no particular order. Its late and I’m just trying to cram as much usernames as I can remember. Also sorry if I forget to add you. I appreciate u tho.)
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magic is not uncommon to his kind , as it is as consistent as the existence of nature and the world ... though the changing times has inevitably depleted its range and effectiveness. not until knowes are rediscovered , and so is the shadow world —— which neil is fond of.
‟ IT HAS TO . ❜ perhaps if neil say the words out loud , his wish can be granted; words have power , after all. on the run , he agrees on taking companion along ... at least until neil regains his strength to merge back into the shadows and redirect her path to where she needs to. a give and take, protection temporarily granted by the unknown entity to neil and neil to uphold his promise to bestow direction on whatever she seems to seek. ‟ You’re not so ordinary yourself , so I trust we’re in good hands. Just until ... I can help you out as well. ❜
❛ i had no idea if that was going to work. ❜ - ellana caldin ⇢ MCU QUOTES. &&. STILL ACC. / @jcyfulmess
‟ 𝗕𝗮𝗻𝗱𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗺 𝘁𝗼𝗴𝗲𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿, 𝘀𝘂𝗿𝗲. 𝗕𝘂𝘁 𝗯𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗺 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳 𝗮𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗺𝗼𝗻 𝗲𝗻𝗲𝗺𝘆 𝗶𝘀 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗺𝘂𝗰𝗵 𝗼𝗳 𝗮 𝗽𝗿𝗼𝗳𝗶𝘁, 𝗶𝘀 𝗶𝘁. ❜ jabbing , as neil gives a POINTED LOOK towards the seething ex-raven; own tongue held back in defense of giving patience and truth to what he tries to preach and act upon. he did soften his tone after, though resuming sternness in his words, knowing kevin is highly stressing right now and it sometimes try to bring neil’s nerves to tense with it.
‟ 𝗜 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄. 𝗛𝗼𝘄 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝗱 𝗱𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 𝗶𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘆 𝘄𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝘄𝗮𝘆. 𝗕𝘂𝘁 𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝗻𝗼𝘁, 𝗞𝗲𝘃𝗶𝗻. 𝗕𝗲𝘀𝗶𝗱𝗲𝘀 —— 𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝗮𝗹𝘀𝗼 𝘁𝗲𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝘁𝗿𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗺𝗲 𝗮𝘀 𝗺𝘂𝗰𝗵 𝗮𝘀 𝗜 𝗱𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂. ❜
“ i love yooooouuuu ! ” “ … say it back . don’t do me like this ” “ i am the backbone of your entire childhood ” “ on all levels except legal , i’m basically your mom / dad . ” “ what movie do you want on ? ” “ this is my shitty microwave meal . get your own . ” “ say ‘aaaahhhh . ’ ” “ you’re so cuuuuuute ! ” “ who’s the best boy / girl in the world ? you are ! ” “ where’s my kiss ? ” “ wow . don’t act like you’re too good for me in front of your little baby friends ” “ what do you want to watch ? or can i just slap on , like , any cartoon and you’ll be good ? ” “ i love your cap . you’re such a cool little dude , aren’t you ? ” “ say thank you . ” “ say please ! ” “ how am i literally the only good role model in your life ? how does that work out ? i’m a garbage fire train wreck doing her best . ” “ who taught you that word ?? ” “ don’t say that word !! ” “ [ name ] acts like i won’t throat kick her for teaching you swears , and it’s just really bold of her to assume i lack that capability . ” “ venting to a kid is great , because you have literally no memory span until you’re four . you’re like a diary that sometimes smiles and laughs and like , cleanses my whole soul while i bitch . ” “ what do you mean no ?? ” “ oh my god , you learned why . never ask me why , ____ . me and my three brain cells don’t have the answers you’re after . ” “ you’re my favourite little brat . ” “ you’re just baby … ”