do you ever just wonder how far ahead you’d be in life if you didnt have a mental illness or if your family wasn’t dysfunctional or if that one tragic thing never happened and it just fucks you up??
That was... Intense. Thank god, thank god, thank god. I might be falling. But i know it's sincère.
Some friend of my cousin committed recently. I was so sad even tho it didn't know really well that kid, but he was my age. My mom was devastated, so must be my cousin and aunt. It's really tragic. And it makes me circle around the idea of it.
Hallucination that turned into a draft, possibly
Got anatomy and mental healthcare exams today. I domt know why everything has feel so difficult lately, so tiring, so stressful.
I miss first year, it was difficult but it was NOT like this. I feel so bad and so incapable of doing my work. I am letting people i love down.
God knows if i wasn't depressed i would be sosososo powerful, i would be in total capacity. But my brain feels like it need something to work properly. Idk.
I just want exam season to be over right away
BLOOD BLOOD BLOOD
Signs that you’re living in abuse:
Behavioral patterns of living in abuse
Was I abused? Checklist
Not knowing you are a victim
Signs your family is abusive
Making excuses for your abusive parents
Experience of living in secrecy
What they taught you was abuse
Emotional experiences of living in abuse
Shame and guilt: how abused children feel
What makes parents abusers (actions)
Have I been manipulated into believing abuse was my fault? Checklist
Am I being held hostage by abusers? Checklist
You are not allowed to mention the past
Why you still love abusive parents
Parental behaviour that isn’t normal
Shit parents aren’t supposed to say to you
Experience of “not belonging anywhere”
Red flags for abusive parents
Healthy vs Abusive Chores
Was my childhood abusive or just had some bad parts?
Rules always change (unpredictable environment is abusive)
Breakdown of abusive parent’s behaviour:
“This is my house” rule
Start living in the real life!
Why all the children aren’t abused equally in an abusive home
Common abuser hypocrisies
Do your parents want you to be happy or look happy?
Why do they try to convince you that you’re worthless
Why do they pretend you’re a burden? Controlling behaviour
Why your abusers are not good people
Abusive parents are keeping you in false hope they’ll change
Are your parents preventing you from succeeding?
Abusive parents pretending “it wasn’t that bad”
Double Bind (why every choice you make ends wrong)
Incorporating trauma in raising children
Abusers will not allow you to call them out on abuse
Signs your parents are narcissistic:
Stuff delusional narcissists say
Shit narcissistis parents say
Recognizing emotional immaturity of narcissistic parents
Examples of narcissistic behaviours
Being punished for growing up by narcissistic parents
What children of narcissists go thru
Signs you’ve been thru sexual abuse:
CSA (Childhood Sexual Abuse) Symptoms
Signs you might have endured CSA
Was I sexually abused by adults as a child? Checklist
Signs of abusive friendship/relationship:
How to tell if a friend is not a friend
Am I in an abusive relationship/friendship? Checklist
Manufacturing insecurities
Red flags for abusers
Have I been thru social abuse? Checklist
You can recognize abusers by how they make you feel
How abusive childhood teaches you to stay in abusive relationships
Recognizing abusive friendship
Signs you’re struggling with trauma
Trauma processing information
Experiences of traumatized children
Signs you’re recovering from long term abuse
Things abuse survivors think/say
Thoughts of victims of child abuse
Your brain on trauma
How long term childhood abuse develops into complex trauma (comic)
Ups and downs of trauma
me when someone says they have only eaten 500 calories:
Me when I eat only 300-400 calories and that person get angry about that:
why why wHY
Quarantine will be longer, we'll have to stay 'til May. That means MORE HOMESCHOOLING:( and that means dead.
I'll go play minecraft just to act like I didn't heard of staying another month in my home.
(2:56pm)
Everyone says I’m not fat but no one says I’m skinny, so what’s the tea?
fast forward, now on: antipsychotics and antidepressants. hi, i use this account as a personal diary, please don't take me seriously, nor try this at home. A D U L T !! super lesbian and in recovery. sincerely yours, Anne.
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