Is It Normal Having My Brain Telling Me 24/7 That All The Things I Do Aren't Very Anorexic?

ED things

You know its bad when the first thing you notice about anyone is how thin their legs are and if they have noticeable collarbones or not. Then compare yourself to them all the time and fall down a deep pit of self-hate

I actually feel numb.

I don't know what else to do now, im scared. My girlfriend told me to do everything calmly, that at the end of the day even the most intelligent people repeat courses. But no, they don't. They get to go ahead to practice, while those who couldn't reach the minimum stay behind. And well, I'm staying behind.

I know I've been thru a lot this year. I've had multiple mental breakdowns, i even got admitted because of a psychotic episode. But i'm so low on respecting myself that to me it just looks like excuses to not work. I know i can do it, that if i wanted to, i could reach the stars. But it feels that even if i try and put my best efforts, it's not enough. I'm still behind.

I just wanted to be a doctor, for gods sake. But i should've just shoot lower and become a teacher or linguist. Forget about that dream of becoming a doctor. I don't have the potential, im not as useful as im supposed to be. People don't trust my habilitet, because i haven't shown any to anybody. I'm not a doctor, I'm just some girl who thought she could become one and was wrong. I'm just some girl who spend most of her adolescence studying to get an scholarship but now can't even stay on the same rythm than anybody else. My dreams never became true.

A lot in the ana community: o yEAh cofFee YuM yUm iS my fAvorItE meAl

Me, who doesn't like coffee:

(Please tell me I'm not the only one who don't like coffee):

Waiting for my gf to have lunch because of our first anniversary:)

me: *tell my mum i am full*

My ed:

My mum: *leaves the room*

Me: ooo emPANADAS *eats 3*

My brain: thank you

My ed:

Based on a true story

(4:36pm)

i need to follow more ppl so pls reblog this if ur any of these:

- 160-168 cm tall

- sw was 60+ kg

- ur ugw is 50 kg or under

- you’re under 18

- you’re living with parents/roommates

it honestly doesn’t rly matter lol pls just reblog this if ur active

me right now.

victims of abuse be like, this person has now made me cry myself to sleep about 30 times, i have flashbacks of things they’ve done and said to me, they know how to hit me right in my worst insecurity and guilt so i feel horrible for days and months, their comments make me feel worthless and like i shouldn’t even be alive, and being around them makes me feel small and meaningless and sometimes suicidal but maybe that’s just me, maybe they’re not abusive? i have to give them benefit of the doubt, what if i’m not justified to kick them out of my life?

How come i wanna tear my hair out, my organs want to get out of my body, I'm gonna infect everybody with what it's going on inside of me I'M DONE WIHMTH BEING CRAZY I DLNT WANT THIS

if my parents got money everytime they compare me with my brother, or everytime they minimize my problems, or everytime they made me feel less

they would be millionaire, but still wouldn´t buy things to their childs ´cause that´s not necessary 😍😍😍💕💕💕

I would take my heart out and give it to you if that proved that i am in love with you