Meeee

walking my turtle

going on a walk to clear your head is OUT. going on a walk to make yourself upset on purpose is IN

i shouldve lied about my age on here

i cant tell my older brother that ill be forever envious of his first baby because i was his first baby so ill suffer

i have this distinct need to make myself the smallest in a room because i always take up too my space with my loud voice. i talk loudly and flail my hands around because i don't know how to control myself in front of other people. so maybe, if the bones in my body shrunk and i lost more than eighty percent of my fat then my voice would shrink with me and i would match the tone of the normal people in the room. maybe then i can not only look at myself in the mirror and be happy, i can also listen to my own voice and avoid wanting to claw out my vocal chords. i'll feel normal i think

me after screaming at everyone i know and isolating myself from my family and locking myself in my room because i think no one likes me or cares about me and the voice in my head said so and it practically runs my self esteem

Aftersun (2022) dir. Charlotte Wells

miyazaki hayao is my role model

the food in little forest (2018) looked so good. it looked good in a way that reminded me of home, in a way that made my heart warm. it was comforting to watch after a difficult day.

I feel like im stuck at 15 forever and ill be 25 and thinking about the fact my brain stopped thinking at 15